Chapter 16
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Josh
Kate is beneath me, flushed and breathless, her red hair spread out like wildfire against the pillows. She’s so goddamn beautiful it almost knocks the air out of my lungs. I take a moment to study every inch of her as I trail my fingers up her body, loving the way she shivers under my touch.
Perfect.
She’s fucking perfect. Completely at my mercy and trusting me to take her apart piece by piece.
Her breath hitches as I press my lips to her neck, teasing her and letting the heat build. She’s so responsive, and every little noise, every little movement, feeds the fire burning inside me.
“Josh,” she says on an exhale, grinding her hips against me. Begging for me already without saying a word.
I smirk against her skin. “Say it again.”
She arches under me again and drags her nails down my back while she says my name, and fuck, I love the way she does whatever I say without hesitation.
“You’re already begging, and we’ve barely begun,” I murmur, nipping at her jaw. “You’re sure you don’t want me to stop?”
“No,” she whispers, already breathless. “Don’t stop.”
She moans as I slide my hand back down her body and between her thighs and it’s my new favorite sound. I take my time teasing and pushing her to the edge but not giving her what she wants.
Not yet.
“Josh, pl—”
I slide two fingers inside her as I press my thumb down on her clit, and her words dissolve into a broken moan. She lets her legs fall open wider for me, her body arching and desperate, and it’s the hottest thing I’ve ever seen.
“Fuck, Josh.”
I groan, kissing her hard as I pick up the pace. She gasps into my mouth, hips lifting off the mattress, hands clinging to me, nails digging into my shoulders, and the restraint I was holding on to snaps.
I need to be inside her. Now.
I pull away and grab her hands, pinning them above her head, and she moans in a way that makes me see red.
“You do like this, don’t you?” I ask. “You like when I take what’s mine?”
She nods, eyes heavy and lips parted.
“And you are mine, aren’t you, sweetheart?” She nods again and pulls her bottom lip between her teeth. “No one else gets to see you like this. No one else gets to hear the sounds you make for me.” I take the fingers I just had inside her and move them to her lips.
“Open,” I say, and she does without hesitation.
“Such a good fucking girl,” I praise, as I slide my fingers onto her tongue.
She closes her lips and sucks them to the back of her throat before rolling her tongue against them.
Fuck. Me. I groan, imagining what that perfect fucking mouth will feel like on my cock.
Pulling my fingers free, I kiss her hard and deep, pouring everything into it as I move my body between her legs.
I sit up and reach into the nightstand for a condom before tearing the packet open with my teeth and sliding it on.
When I glide the tip of my cock over her clit, her head tips back and her eyes flutter closed.
“Don’t you dare close your eyes,” I say, flashing a satisfied smile when her eyes open and lock onto mine. “I want you to see exactly what I’m about to do to you.”
She looks down and watches as I slide through her perfect pussy and position myself at her entrance, and when she licks her lips and shifts her eyes to mine, I fucking die.
“Tell me what you want, sweetheart. I need to hear you say it.”
Kate parts her lips, eyes dark and full of need as she holds my gaze. “I want you to do exactly what you promised,” she says. Then, dropping her voice lower she adds, “Fucking ruin me, Josh.”
It’s quiet and controlled but it hits me like a punch to the gut, knocking the breath right out of my chest, because fuck. She said she was into it, but I wasn’t expecting…this. Not from her.
I don’t hesitate, eager to give her exactly what she wants, sinking into her in one thrust. My eyes roll to the back of my head, and I fight for my goddamn life as I try not to come because no one has ever felt this good.
“Jesus, Kate,” I say, my voice a low growl, my control holding on by a thread. “You feel so fucking perfect.”
I roll my hips and we both moan. I do it again, and again, and again, desperate to hear every single sound that comes out of her mouth. I open my eyes and look at her, and her eyes are fixed on where we’re joined.
“Fuck,” she says on a breathy moan, pulling her bottom lip between her teeth and biting down.
She angles her hips slightly and the long, low moan she lets out on my next thrust lets me know I’ve hit the right spot. I grip her hip and hold her there, completely focused on staying exactly where she wants me, desperate to hear her moan like that again.
“Josh,” she whimpers, finally laying back onto the bed. “I…I need—”
“I know, sweetheart,” I say, leaning down and placing my hands on the mattress on either side of her head. “You’re doing so good for me.” I trace the backs of my fingers gently down the side of her face.
“Josh, please,” she begs.
“You sound so fucking pretty when you beg for me,” I growl, before reaching down and circling her clit with my fingers, finally giving her what we both need.
She comes apart, moaning my name and squeezing me so tight I see stars. I somehow keep my shit together, grabbing her hip with one hand and keeping the pressure on her clit with the other, making sure she gets every second out of her release.
“I knew I’d love the sounds you make when you come for me, but fuck, Kate.
I didn’t know you’d sound like this,” I say, leaning down to kiss her.
She threads her fingers though the hair at the nape of my neck and pulls me deeper into the kiss, her tongue teasing mine at the same rhythm I’m moving inside her, and I know I can’t fight my orgasm this time.
“Fuck Kate, I’m going to—”
“In my mouth,” she says, throwing me for another goddamn loop.
“Christ,” I groan. Without hesitation, I pull out of her and slide the condom off.
She sits up, flips over onto her hands and knees and fucking crawls to me.
The sight of it nearly makes me come, and as soon as her hand and mouth wrap around my cock, she strokes me once and it’s over.
I don’t even recognize the sound I make as she takes me to the back of her throat and swallows every drop, her eyes looking up at me through thick, dark lashes.
When she releases me, I take her face in my hand, rubbing my thumb over her bottom lip and wondering how the fuck I got this lucky. This woman is a goddess. Everything I could possibly want—beautiful, funny, smart, sexy as hell, and willing to trust me like this.
I lift her face and when she rises onto her knees in front of me, I pull her into a deep, slow kiss.
“You’re fucking perfect, Kate,” I say against her lips as I fight to catch my breath. “Lay down.”
She does as she’s told, and I take a second to study her again—hair fanned out across the pillow, cheeks flushed, lips swollen and lipstick smeared. She’s breathtaking. Completely ruined and the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I press soft kisses along her ribs, over her heart, and up to her collarbone, taking my time and letting her come down slowly. My touch is gentle as I brush the backs of my fingers down her side, over the curve of her hip, feeling her shiver beneath me.
I grab the blanket from the end of the bed and pull it over her, tucking it around her shoulders before sliding in beside her. She curls into me without hesitation, and I wrap an arm around her waist, pulling her to me and pressing a kiss to her shoulder. “Are you alright?”
“Yes,” she whispers.
Relief floods my chest. I thread our fingers together and hold her against me, grounded by her warmth, by the sound of her breath evening out, by the scent of her.
When I kiss her neck, she lets out a satisfied hum, and I smile.
I place another kiss to the dip where her neck meets her shoulder, then to her collarbone.
“What are you doing?” she asks, a sleepy smile forming on her lips. “Haven’t you had enough?”
“No.” I kiss her neck again and nuzzle into her. “It’s not in my nature to remember things,” I say against her skin. “But, god, I want to remember this. I want to remember you, Kate.”
And fuck do I mean it. I don’t know where this is headed—how long we’ll have or how many moments like this I’ll get—but I know I’ll carry this one with me. Hold on to it the way I suddenly want to hold on to her.
Forever.