Mutual Discord

Chapter One

I managed to wait until the front door closed before I opened my mouth to scream.

It was a guttural sound that came up from my toes and reverberated through my body. A cry of pure, blinding-white rage.

“Motherfucking Josh!” I shrieked as I kicked off my loafers, sending them sailing over the sofa into the living room.

Prowling into the kitchen, I flung open the refrigerator door, ignoring the jars that rattled about, and stared at its contents.

I was tempted to polish off the half bottle of sauvignon blanc on the top shelf but then remembered the “in case of emergency” stash in the upper cabinet.

I definitely needed something stronger than wine.

Being laid off two weeks after your coworker stole your idea warranted at least a shot of tequila. Or two.

I grabbed a bottle of Patrón and a coffee mug because I was too impatient to find a shot glass.

Pulling out a stool at the kitchen peninsula, I propped my phone against a bowl of fruit and poured a healthy amount of alcohol into the mug.

I took a breath, threw back my head, and swallowed the tequila in one acrid mouthful.

God, the burn felt good. I dropped my head to the countertop as the fire roared down my throat and settled warmly in my belly.

In April, I had celebrated my five-year anniversary as a communication strategist at Desert Media 360, and I’d been content there.

I liked my colleagues, and the projects I worked on were interesting and challenging.

Although the company was a bit of a bro-fest, I got along well with everyone and flourished in the environment…

or so I’d thought. Until I sat down in my usual chair for our weekly staff meeting and watched in confusion, and then mounting anger, as Josh Motherfucking Mitchell proceeded to give a presentation on a new campaign approach for Epperson Athletics, one of our oldest clients.

A presentation I had worked on for months…

and that he must have stolen from my project drive, which he had access to.

My mouth had gone slack-jawed when my own colorful graphics had flashed on the screen.

The absolute audacity of Josh to not only steal my pitch, but present it to the entire damn company in front of me…

Never one to shy away from calling someone out on their bullshit, I had raised my hand the first moment I could and asked Josh, point-blank, why he thought he could present my client pitch as if it was his own.

In hindsight, I should have taken a different approach, but I’d been livid, and watching Josh stammer, his face red, had filled me with satisfaction.

My supervisors thought differently, though.

After several meetings with Josh and human resources, it was acknowledged that he’d taken the idea from me, yet I was reprimanded for not being a team player.

Even now I clenched my teeth, remembering that I was labeled “difficult” because I’d stood up for myself.

Because I hadn’t let Josh take credit for my creativity and hard work.

It was, honestly, a miracle I hadn’t punched that asshole right in his smug face.

I poured more tequila into my mug and imagined how things would have played out if I had acted differently that day.

The outcome would be the same, I thought before drinking another mouthful.

I smacked my lips together as I pushed back the stool, grabbed a glass from the cupboard, and filled it with water from the tap.

I gulped down the entire glassful without hesitation.

Chasing a mind-numbing buzz was one thing, but I was way too old for a hangover.

I slipped my phone into my pocket while I balanced the tequila bottle and mug in my hands and walked to the living room. Setting the items on the coffee table, I plopped onto the sofa and sent a quick text to Denise, my longtime friend.

Sofia: Your girl was fired. Want to get drunk with me?

Blinking dots appeared immediately, and while I waited for Denise’s response to arrive, I poured myself more tequila.

Denise: Fired? Are you serious?

Sofia: Sadly yeah.

Denise: It’s because of that asshole Josh, right? You should have let the air out of his tires like I told you to.

God, I loved that Denise had taken to calling Josh derogatory terms, just as I had. I had vented more to her during the last two weeks than to anyone else, so Denise’s loyalty was much appreciated.

Sofia: I may be out of a job, but that doesn’t mean I want a rap sheet!

Denise: And if you’re going to jail, go for something splashy. Something that makes men afraid of you.

Sofia: Exactly!

Sofia: I’ll tell you what happened while we finish this bottle of Patrón. You game?

Denise: Oh Lord, you better be drinking water because I refuse to drag your ass to bed this time around.

Sofia: I am!

Sofia: Promise!

Wrinkling my nose, I stared at the tequila in my mug. After this shot—or approximation of a shot—I’d wait until Denise arrived before I had any more.

Denise: I have to finish up one more thing, and then I’ll be there. An hour max.

Sofia: I’ll try to save you some tequila.

Denise: Girl, you better!

With a sigh, I set down my phone and stared unseeing out the window.

It was late June and the worst time of year in the valley.

Temperatures were in the triple digits already and only going to get worse, and I hated the idea of popping in and out of my car for job interviews in this heat.

But there was nothing to be done for it.

I had a comfortable amount in my savings account, but I had planned to use some of that money to update my bathroom and maybe take a trip to Puerto Rico next summer.

I wouldn’t be able to do either of those things until I found a job.

As I tried to swallow around the knot that had taken root in my throat, I glanced over my living room, my gaze tracing over this house I had worked so hard to make mine.

I took in the colorful woven area rug that I had lounged on countless times while I painted my toenails; the rust velvet sectional, which numerous friends had said was the most comfortable sofa ever, adorned with throw pillows I had patiently collected from estate sales; and the mosaic-tiled woodburning fireplace decorated with pillar candles and a large trailing pothos that had grown from a small clipping my mother had gifted me.

A tall archway provided a view of the kitchen I had renovated down to the studs that now showcased sage-green cabinets, butcher-block countertops, a pink Moroccan-tile backsplash, and a large bay window that let in an abundance of sunshine for my herb garden arranged in terra-cotta pots on the sill.

I had spent years curating this house to reflect my personality, and it was my safe space.

My dream come true. But it was a dream I might not be able to afford now that I was unemployed.

“Goddamn, Josh,” I muttered, swigging another gulp of tequila.

Twenty minutes later, and after at least another shot of alcohol, I lay sprawled on the sofa, mindlessly scrolling TikTok.

As if the gods of irony sensed my misery, a video appeared on my For You Page from an engineering college student talking about how her group project partner had done nothing to contribute to their assignment yet still received the same grade she did, despite the professor knowing about the work disparity.

Something about the woman’s frustration amplified my own feelings of impotence, and I quickly sat up, closing my eyes while my equilibrium righted itself.

Without thinking, I clicked on the add post button, selected a sixty-second video, and hit record.

“It was 1967 when a badass postgraduate student named Jocelyn Bell Burnell discovered a ‘bit of scruff’ ”—I made air quotes—“on printouts of her experiments tracking stars across the sky. She realized they were a series of consistent radio pulses and, unsure of what they indicated, took the anomaly to her adviser. Their team spent months investigating the regular radio signals, calling them LGMs, or ‘little green men’…as if aliens wouldn’t take one look at this hellhole and nope right out of here.

” I snorted. “Eventually, Jocelyn and the team realized that the signals were emanating from rapidly spinning stars, which were dubbed ‘pulsars.’ ”

I had no idea why I was talking about Jocelyn Bell Burnell—whom I had learned about while researching the term “little green men” for a campaign—but perhaps it was because I felt more comfortable venting about her story on the internet than my own.

So I added a few other facts about how Burnell was treated by the media after the discovery, and highlighted, with disgust, how her advisers received the Nobel Prize but she did not.

Without rewatching the video, I typed out a quick caption, which basically amounted to “You can always count on a man to be a grifter,” and hit post to my SLikeTheSun account.

Closing the app, I connected my phone to the Bluetooth speaker on my console table and pulled up my music app.

Soon Rihanna’s forceful voice echoed through my bungalow.

I pushed myself to my feet and swayed and spun to the music, all alone in my living room.

And when the song got to the chorus and bridge, I belted out the words at the top of my lungs.

I’ma fight a man, a man, a ma-a-a-a-an

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The following morning, I woke up in my own bed with a dull ache behind my eyes.

It could have been much worse, but Denise had arrived with not just cheeseburgers and french fries, but also bottles of Gatorade that she pushed me to drink between tequila shots.

We had laughed and talked shit about Josh and Desert Media 360 for hours, snickering over Josh’s Instagram photos before we turned on a telenovela and binged several episodes.