32. Addison
Addison
# Always say a thorough goodbye
W e went to the main hotel earlier, and we said another goodbye to Brax and Eva and to my parents.
Then Chase booked his flight and I called Emma and told her I was sorry, but I’d be back home tomorrow.
As usual, she was cool, because she’s awesome, but it made me realize how much I’ve missed her—and my little store.
These past eight days have been incredible, but it’s not my life. It’s a fantasy, a wonderful one though, and one I’ll continue to enjoy for every single second that it lasts. Because thinking about tomorrow when we’re going to have to say goodbye is too painful to contemplate right now.
Chase cooked dinner for us, pasta with some dried mushrooms and pancetta, and we finished off the final dregs of bourbon as we washed up after.
And now we’re sitting here across the kitchen table, staring at each other in silence like this is our first date.
I feel nervous for reasons I can’t explain.
“You ready for bed, Firefly?” he finally speaks.
I nod, nerves and excitement fluttering low in my belly.
He pushes back his chair and then takes my hand before leading me through the cabin.
Once we’re in the bedroom, he undresses me slowly, trailing kisses over the skin he exposes.
“You are so incredibly fucking beautiful, Addie,” he groans as he crouches down onto his heels to pull off my jeans.
Then his hands glide up the outside of my thighs, to my panties.
Torturously slowly, he peels them down my legs before helping me to step out of them.
His nose rubs over my pussy and he growls, feral and unrestrained. My knees tremble.
He glides his palms up my inner thighs and I part my legs for him, allowing his fingers to slip through my slick center. “And this pussy is so fucking sweet, Addie.” He swirls his tongue over my clit. “Do you have any idea what you do to me, baby?”
I thread my fingers through his hair and rock my hips against his mouth. “No.”
“You drive me fucking crazy.” He grunts before picking me up and tossing me onto the bed.
And then he undresses for me. Revealing his thick biceps and the toned muscles of his chest inch by inch.
And when he pushes his jeans down over his solid thighs and lets his thick cock bob free, I suck in a stuttered breath.
Something about this feels different. Maybe it’s because this will be the last time we do this, maybe ever. His life is in LA, and mine is not.
When he’s naked, he crawls over me, peppering kisses over my skin until he reaches my neck. I wrap my legs around his hips and pull him closer, until the thick crown of him is nudging me open.
“You want this, baby?”
“Yes, please.” I arch my back, needing him inside me.
He sinks inside me in one smooth thrust. “Then it’s all yours, Addie. I’m all yours.”
“And I’m yours, Chase.” I wrap my arms around his neck, prepared for him to rail into me the way he usually does, but instead, he slowly rocks his hips, sweeping the tip of his dick over a sweet spot deep inside me that has every cell in my body trembling.
“Oh, God.”
“Not God, Addie. Only me.” He pulls out and sinks in deeper, making my eyes roll back in my head. “You take my cock so well. I love how deep I can get inside you like this.”
“So deep,” I whimper.
“Yeah,” he growls before sinking his teeth into the base of my neck.
Pleasure coils deep in my core, spiraling through my limbs and back again. White-hot fire and ecstasy permeating through every cell of my body, and all he’s doing is fucking me to a slow, relentless rhythm and growling filthy things in my ear.
“Listen to how wet you are for me. You love my cock, don’t you?”
“Yes!” Starlight explodes in my vision and I rake my nails down his back, bucking my hips to take more of him.
“Addie,” he growls out my name, finally picking up his pace as he thrusts inside me, until we both hurtle over the edge together.
He stays inside me, each of us panting for breath as we come down the high. Then he rests his forehead against mine. “I love you, Addison.”
My heart practically bursts with happiness, but what if none of this is real? I don’t trust my instincts where he’s concerned. “That’s just the orgasm talking.”
“I know you make me come pretty hard, baby.” He moves inside me and aftershocks of pleasure pulse through my core. “But I’m still in full control of my senses. I fell in love with you a long time ago, Firefly, and I never fucking stopped.”
“So, why didn’t you ever come back, Chase?”
“You threatened to stake me if I ever did, remember?”
“Like you ever let anyone tell you what to do in your whole life?”
“Nobody except you it seems.” He kisses me softly. “But I didn’t come back because I knew how much I’d hurt you, Addie. And you were right about so many things, about how I was wasting my life?—”
“I had no right to say any of that to you.”
“Yeah, you did. And it was the kick in the ass I needed. Because of you I finally stopped thinking about what I wanted to do and I made something of myself. And I didn’t want to come to Juniper Ridge until I was the man you deserved. I’m not sure I’ll ever be good enough to deserve you…”
“You are, Chase.”
“I really want to be, Addie.”
“I’ve been in love with you for as long as I can remember. I don’t think I ever stopped either.”
“We’ll make this work, I promise. I can’t lose you again.”
I really want to believe him, but I’m also a realist. Chase’s life in LA is as important to him as mine in Juniper Ridge is to me. How are we going to combine the two successfully and not resent the other for it? “I don’t want to lose you either, but we live on opposite sides of the country.”
“I’ll find a way to make it work, baby. I promise. Do you trust me?”
I stare into his deep blue eyes and know there’s only one answer. “Yes, I trust you.”
He seals his lips over mine and then he kisses me like it might be the last time we ever do this, even if we both hope that it’s not.