3. Geo
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Geo
The label throws a party to celebrate the viral success of “Golden Hour.”
It’s held at some restored mansion in the hills, the kind of place with valet parking and waiters who look like models and enough exposed brick to qualify as industrial.
The air smells like money and ambition and the desperation of people who need everyone in the room to know how important they are.
I wear black. Never the gold dress again.
Just the simple expensive one that Harrison bought me for some event I can’t remember.
The fabric skims my body without clinging, the cut designed to flatter without demanding attention.
I’ve had my hair done at a salon for the first time in months.
I’m wearing the diamond earrings from our first anniversary.
I look appropriate. That’s the word that keeps cycling through my mind as I catch glimpses of myself in gilt-framed mirrors throughout the mansion. Appropriate. The wife of a successful artist, dressed for the part. Nothing stunning or striking or memorable about it. Just appropriate.
Harrison is already inside when I arrive.
He’s been here for an hour, “working the room,” which means doing the thing he’s good at: being charming, being brilliant, being the center of attention.
I can hear his laugh before I see him, that full-bodied sound that used to make me feel lucky and now just makes me feel tired.
I find him near the bar, surrounded by people I vaguely recognize from industry events, producers and A&R executives. The woman who writes the music column for Rolling Stone. They’re arranged around him like petals around the center of a flower, their faces turned up toward his light.
Vivian is beside him. Of course she is.
She’s wearing red tonight, the fabric cut to show off the elegant line of her collarbones and the slender curve of her waist. Her dark hair is swept up to show off her neck, and she’s laughing at something Harrison said, her hand resting on his arm with the casual intimacy of someone who has earned the right to touch him.
I approach. The crowd parts for me reluctantly, like I’m an inconvenience, an obstacle between them and the man they’ve come to see.
“Harrison.”
He turns. His smile is automatic, politician-polished, the one he wears for cameras and executives and everyone who isn’t me.
“Geo! You made it.”
“You told me 8 o’clock.”
“Did I? I thought I said seven. Doesn’t matter.”
He gestures vaguely at the assembled strangers, a sweep of his hand that encompasses everyone and no one. “Everyone, this is my wife.”
My wife. Not even a name of my own. A role, and a footnote.
The same setting. The same crowded room of industry people. But the last time we were at a party like this, the night he proposed, he’d spent every conversation steering people back to me. You should hear Geo sing. She’s got this voice…
Now I’m just “my wife.”
“And this,” Harrison continues, his arm sweeping to include Vivian in a gesture of proud presentation, “is the incredible Vivian Nguyen, the voice behind ‘Golden Hour.’ Vivian’s one of those rare talents that come along once in a generation. She walks into a room and suddenly everything clicks.”
Vivian ducks her head modestly, but the flush of pleasure shows on her cheeks. “Harrison’s being generous.”
“I’m being accurate.”
The crowd laughs, appreciating his charm, his confidence, his ability to make a compliment sound like an objective truth. I stand beside them, nameless and invisible, watching my husband glow for another woman.
Someone hands me a glass of champagne. I drink it too fast and take another.
I escape to a balcony that overlooks the city, needing air, needing space, needing to not see the way people look at me with pity or curiosity or both. Los Angeles sprawls beneath me like a circuit board, all lights and angles, beautiful and cold.
“Hard night?”
I turn. A woman I don’t recognize has followed me out: fifties, elegant, sharp-eyed in a way that suggests she’s seen everything and found most of it amusing.
She’s holding a glass of champagne like it’s a weapon, and her dress is the kind of understated expensive that means she doesn’t need to impress anyone.
“I’m sorry, do I know you?”
“Diana Wells. I work with the label. And you’re Georgina Hubbard, though you’d never know it from the way your husband introduces you.”
I flinch before I can stop myself. “He was just distracted. It gets crowded in there.”
“Honey, I’ve been in this industry for thirty years.”
Diana sips her champagne, her eyes never leaving my face. “I know what distracted looks like, and I know what disrespect looks like, and those are two different things.”
“What do you want?”
Diana shrugs, one shoulder lifting gracefully beneath silk. “Nothing. I just thought you should know that people notice. The way he looks at her. The way he doesn’t look at you.”
She pauses, and sympathy softens the sharp edges of her face. “I had a husband like that once. Took me five years to leave him.”
“I’m not, we’re not-”
“I’m not telling you to do anything. I’m just telling you what I see.”
Diana squeezes my arm, not unkindly. “Take care of yourself, Georgina. Nobody else will.”
She goes back inside, leaving me alone with the city lights and the distant sound of my husband’s laughter.
I make my way back inside, heading toward the bar for another glass of champagne. The party swirls around me, laughter, clinking glasses, the low thrum of industry networking. I feel like a ghost moving through a world that can’t see me.
A man I don’t recognize stumbles toward the bar beside me. He’s flushed, sweating through an expensive shirt, clearly several drinks past his limit. He orders a whiskey, then turns and looks at me with the unfocused recognition of someone who’s been reading too much gossip.
“Holy shit,” he says, loud enough that nearby heads turn. “You’re the wife.”
My stomach drops. “Excuse me?”
“Harrison’s wife. Geo, right?”
He doesn’t wait for confirmation. He’s already grinning, delighted with himself, with this moment. “So how does it feel?”
“How does what feel?”
“Watching your husband fall in love with your sister in real time?”
The words hit like a slap. Around us, conversations stutter. Phones appear. Someone is definitely filming. There’s the telltale glow of a screen held at chest height.
“She’s my stepsister,” I say, and I hate that this is my response, hate that I’m correcting semantics instead of walking away, instead of throwing my champagne in his face, instead of doing anything other than standing here explaining family dynamics to a drunk stranger.
“Same difference.”
The man waves his hand dismissively, whiskey sloshing in his glass. “Come on, you can tell me. Everyone’s wondering. What’s it like? Standing here watching him look at her like that?”
My hands are shaking. I can feel the room watching, can feel the cameras pointed at me, can feel myself becoming tomorrow’s headline.
“I’m not doing this.”
“Because I gotta say, from where I’m standing?”
The man leans in, conspiratorial, his breath sour with whiskey. “He looks pretty fucking happy. Happier than I’ve ever seen him. And you look like someone who just found out Santa isn’t real.”
Across the room, Harrison finally notices. His face changes. Confusion first, then anger. He starts to move toward us, pushing through the crowd, but he’s too far away, and this man is still talking, still filming, still turning my humiliation into content.
“So what is it, Geo? You just gonna stand there and take it? Let him parade his new girlfriend around while you play the good wife? Is the money that good? The lifestyle? Or are you just enjoying the attention?”
I set my champagne glass down with careful precision.
I don’t run and I don’t scream. I don’t give them anything else to record, anything else to dissect, anything else to turn into a meme or a punchline or a cautionary tale.
I walk, steady, measured, chin up, through the crowd that parts for me now, through the whispers that follow me like smoke, out the front door and into the cool night air.
The crying doesn’t start until I reach my car.
I sit in the driver’s seat, shaking, replaying the question over and over.
How does it feel watching your husband fall in love with your sister in real time?
The worst part isn’t the cruelty.
The worst part is that I don’t have an answer.
Two weeks later, Harrison and Vivian are nominated for a VMA in the “Best Collaboration” category.
The ceremony is in Los Angeles, and Harrison will be gone for four days: travel, press, the show itself, the afterparties that could launch a career or bury it. He packs with the focused energy of someone heading into battle, choosing outfits with more care than he’s shown anything in months.
“You could come,” he says the night before he leaves. It’s not quite an invitation. It’s an acknowledgment that the option exists, like mentioning that the sky is blue or that water is wet.
“What about Val?”
“Your mom could take her for a few days.”
“Val has a doctor’s appointment this week. And she’s been asking why Daddy is gone so much.”
Guilt crosses his face, or irritation at being reminded of responsibilities he’d rather forget.
“I’ll FaceTime her every night.”
“You said that last time.”
“I’ll do better.”
He kisses my forehead before he leaves, dry and quick, already gone in every way that matters.
I watch the VMAs from the living room couch, Val asleep in my lap.
My daughter’s weight is warm and solid and real, her breath slow and sweet against my collarbone. She fell asleep halfway through the red carpet coverage, bored by the parade of strangers in expensive clothes, and now she’s missing the part that matters. Maybe that’s for the best.
The camera finds Harrison and Vivian in the audience, seated next to each other. They’re in the front row, where else, surrounded by other nominees and celebrities who all seem to know each other, kissing cheeks and trading compliments like currency.
Vivian’s dress is gold.
I notice the shade immediately, close to the one I wore the night Harrison proposed, the night he couldn’t sleep and started writing.
It means nothing, I tell myself. Vivian has never seen that dress.
It’s just a color. There are only so many colors in the world. This is coincidence, not conspiracy.
I don’t believe myself.
They’re called to the stage to perform. The lights go blue and intimate, the kind of lighting designed to make everything look like a movie scene. Harrison sits at the piano, Vivian beside him on the bench, and they sing “Golden Hour” to an audience of millions.
The camera catches the way he looks at her during the bridge. The way she looks back.
I’ve seen that look before. I’ve felt it on my own face, years ago, when he used to look at me like that.
They win.
Harrison gives the acceptance speech. Forty-five seconds, the screen reminds him, and he thanks everyone he can fit into that tiny window: the label, the producers, the mixing engineers, the video director, his manager Craig.
“And most of all,” he says, his eyes finding Vivian in the crowd of people on stage, “the incredible Vivian Nguyen, who brought this song to life. This one’s for you.”
He points at her. She covers her mouth with her hands, overwhelmed, tears streaming down her face in the kind of beautiful breakdown that’ll make great photos.
Forty-five seconds. He thanked the mixing engineers and the video director. He found time for everyone who worked on the song, everyone who contributed, everyone who helped him get to this moment.
And not one word for me. Not one word for Val.
The camera cuts to an audience reaction shot, but somehow, impossibly, I feel like it’s captured me instead.
Like everyone watching can see through the satellite signal and the digital relay and into my living room, where I’m sitting frozen with my champagne glass suspended halfway to my mouth, my daughter asleep in my arms, my face a study in controlled devastation.
By morning someone has made it a split-screen: Harrison pointing at Vivian on one side, that barbecue photo of me on the other. THE WIFE’S FACE. It spreads everywhere within hours.
For now, I just sit there, holding my daughter, watching my husband thank everyone in the world except us.
My phone rings at midnight. Harrison’s name on the screen.
I answer because I can’t not answer. Because some part of me still believes that if I just stay available, if I just keep picking up, if I just keep being here, he’ll eventually remember that I exist.
“Hey!”
He’s euphoric, drunk on success and probably actual alcohol, his voice too loud through the speaker. “Did you watch? Can you believe it?”
“I watched.”
“It was insane, Geo. The whole place went crazy when they called our names. Vivian was crying. I was crying. It was the best night of my life.”
He laughs, giddy with triumph. “This is everything. This is literally everything I’ve ever wanted.”
“You didn’t mention me.”
A pause. The slightest deflation in his voice. “What?”
“In your speech. Forty-five seconds, and you didn’t mention me or Val once.”
“Geo, I had forty-five seconds. Do you know how fast that goes? I couldn’t thank everyone.”
“You thanked the mixing engineers.”
There’s a scuff of noise on his end, a door closing on the party behind him. “That’s different.”
“Is it? You found time for everyone who worked on the song, but not the woman who’s been raising your daughter alone while you play rock star with my stepsister?”
“Don’t do this.”
His voice sharpens, the euphoria going hard and thin. “Not tonight. Can I please just have tonight?”
“Have tonight.” I laugh, and there’s nothing behind it. “The way I’ve had the last five years?”
“I won, Geo. I finally won. I have chased this my entire life and tonight I finally caught it, and I wanted to feel it all the way to the end before I had to think about anything else.”
I want to scream. I want to throw the phone through the window and then tell him that I’ve been making it about him for five years, about his career, about his needs, about his endless hunger for attention and validation and success.
That I’ve put everything I am on hold to support everything he wants to become, and he couldn’t find three seconds in his forty-five to acknowledge that I exist.
Instead, I say, “I need to go. Val’s stirring.”
“Geo, don’t hang up.”
I hang up.
My daughter is still asleep, her breath slow and even, her face peaceful with the ignorance of childhood.
I didn’t need to lie.
I just couldn’t bear to tell the truth.