Chapter 36
“What isn’t?” Dev wanted clarification.
“If you were having to eat raw meat because the storm lasted too long and supplies ran out. I couldn’t do that. I would starve to death” I cringed again.
“We would’ve saved the non perishables for you and eaten from the land a lot sooner. Say what you want about me but I am fair to my people. I wouldn’t let you starve” he told him.
Weirdly I believed him.
“There may be a day where I prove you right in saying that humans don’t belong here” I shrugged. He seemed to think about something.
“Do you picture yourself here in the future? Like way distant future” he asked me. I pressed my lips together and the whiskey had my cheeks burning pink but I wasn’t embarrassed of anything.
“If my messed up upbringing taught me anything it's that you should never get comfortable in an uncomfortable world. I have no idea what the future holds because it’s always changing. Now, as of right now I would like to stay indefinitely.
I have people who feel like family here and I enjoy the community.”
He listened carefully and nodded along. “That’s an interesting motto. Don’t get comfortable in an uncomfortable world” he seemed to reflect on that.
“Okay, my butt hurts. I’m getting off the floor” I abruptly stood up. It made his eyes dart around. When he stood up his form was so much taller than mine. Our size difference is obvious.
We placed the pillows we'd been sitting on back onto the couch before we sat down ourselves.
“It’s late. I’ll bring you blankets. You can sleep here” I offered Devran. He glanced down at the sofa then me. “You fit much better than I do on this little couch. I’ll take the bed” he smartly remarked.
I hit him with a pillow which made him laugh but when he hit me back my hair flew around by the sheer force of the wind.
“Um, ow” I complained. He glanced at me sheepishly and apologized. Then he fixed my hair and tucked it behind my ear.
The moment oddly shifted the air around us. His hand remained frozen just beside my face and we were both just looking at one another.
I quickly shot my eyes away and he retracted his hand, clearing his throat and moving away from me. I just got up to retrieve blankets. I needed to leave that situation.
When I was bending over into the closet I pulled a blanket and stood quickly which made me fly into something. I whirled around and Dev was just standing there.
“Do you need something?” My voice got almost shy at his presence in my bedroom. “Just the blanket” he said, placing his hands over mine to take the blanket from me.
His flannel top was still unbuttoned and although it’s been that way this whole time it was easier to ignore when we had the table between us. Now his firm figure was right in front of my face. If I leaned forward I could lick those defined pecs.
Suddenly the blanket dropped between us and Devran’s hand was cupping my face as he rushed forward enough to pin me to the wall just beside the opened closet.
I gasped but his lips sealing over mine absorbed the sound. My hands flew up to his torso and I felt his hot flesh at my fingertips. I couldn’t help running my hands up and down to feel every inch of what I've been wanting to touch.
Devran groaned at my soft hands exploring him and he deepened the kiss between us. My hands finally made their way up over his chest and around his neck. That’s when he lifted me up.
I held on tight as he carried us away from the closet and over towards the bed. Our lips moved in unison and it was probably the most passionate kiss we’ve ever shared between us.
It was fueled by liquor and boredom and it shouldn’t have been happening but it was.
When Devran laid me down on the mattress and crawled on top of me I stopped the kiss abruptly.
“Wait, wait” I breathed through a heaving chest. My heart was racing. “Don’t overthink it” he tried capturing my lips with his again but I pushed his chest to keep him still.
“We should slow down. Dev, I’m..I’m very inexperienced and...” I trailed off, feeling ridiculous. Recognition crossed over his expression. “We don’t have to take it that far,” he promised me.
I was hesitant for a moment. I knew what we were doing was dumb, but we would just blame the alcohol after this and just never speak of it again. I sighed and pulled him back on top of me.
He didn’t miss a beat. He started kissing me again and his tongue brushed over mine as he deepened it further. I liked feeling the weight of him on me and technically between my legs. It felt nice.
We just made out. He didn’t try anything else on me. I was secretly thankful because I have literally never done any of that sexual stuff before and I didn’t wanna drunkenly do something I would regret or embarrass myself for not having the experience in.
He sleeps around so he’s had the best of everything I’m sure.
At some point my legs wrapped around him and his hand rubbed up and down my thigh, squeezing my flesh every once in a while.
My hips moved of their own volition as if they just naturally knew what to do.
Suddenly I rolled my hips over Devran’s groin without meaning to. He groaned and squeezed me harder.
“Don’t do that if you don’t want me to...react” he glanced down at his pants. I knew he meant he didn’t want to get hard. My eyes flew wide and my already flushed cheeks got redder.
“S-sorry” I stupidly apologized.
“Don’t apologize. I’m behaving for your sake” he reminded me that the dry humping was greatly welcomed should I allow it.
We started to make out again and Devran’s soft lips teased the sensitive skin on my neck which made me release a small sound. He groaned at that too.
He would suck lightly on my flesh then swipe his tongue over it and kiss gently down to the next part. When he reached the crook of my neck he’d work his way back up until he kissed just below my ear in the spot that kept making me make those little sounds.
It was like a sweet spot and each time he licked, kissed, or nipped at it I would make a sound. My hips rocked of their own accord again in response to the relentless attention he was giving my sensitive neck.
This time Devran rubbed over my middle in response and the friction made me suck in a breath. He cursed under his breath when my legs tightened around him.
My hands began to desperately roam him. I felt his strong arms which held him up and his built shoulders which flexed from how he held himself.
I rubbed down the sexy curve of his back and when he pressed down on my middle again I dug my fingers into his lower back muscles.
My body stiffened beneath him when I suddenly felt something poking me. Oh my Goddess...I turned Devran on and he got hard for me. I know that’s easily done to men but still. I was shocked.
He wasn’t at all embarrassed about it either. He just used it as a tool to rub over my middle as we continued to kiss, but now it was rubbing directly over my sensitive bundle of nerves, and the feeling was exquisite.
I wanted more. I was becoming blinded with want. I started rubbing in a repetitive motion to dry hump him as we kissed. He stopped me and sighed.
“Mira...you’re really starting to wind me up. I need to cool down or my self control will be severely lacking” he tried pulling away. I felt so disappointed but I knew he was right.
He groaned in frustration and frankly so did I. He plopped on the mattress beside me and we both looked up at the ceiling trying to catch our breath.
“So, you haven’t done anything sexual at all?” He asked me.
“Nothing past kissing” I shook my head no. Maybe that is embarrassing to admit but I am drunk and now horny so I didn’t even care.
“Wow” was his only response.
I found myself repeating his statement when I actually took a second to look down. I saw Devran’s full erection still pressing hard against the fabric of his snug grey sweatpants. I could see everything and he was...big.
I swallowed but I couldn’t turn my eyes away. That got him to laugh which embarrassed me. “Don’t be,” he tipped my chin up when I shied away.
“It’s just...out there right now on full display” I tried to avoid looking.
“Yeah, now you know how I feel having to hike down the mountain side with you in a see through top” he shrugged. Now I was the one to smile in amusement.
I couldn’t stop looking down at Devran’s manhood, so stiff under that fabric. My hand reached out in it's own curiosity and felt over it, lightly, just to see what it felt like.
His dick jerked in his pants which surprised me. A growl ripped through him though he tried to quiet it. “Mira,” he warned me.
“Sorry” I lowered my head. “This is dumb...we don’t even like each other. We’re just drunk. We should go to bed, Devran” I sighed at myself for drunkenly making out and rubbing up on the asshole better known as the Alpha and my ex-mate.
He ran a hand through his messy dark hair and huffed out a breath.
“Yeah, I know...but since I’m here can I just sleep here? I really don’t wanna sleep on that couch” he asked me, side eyeing me instead of looking at me head on.
“Nealin might think something weird went on...” I thought about how this would look in the morning. Devran rolled his eyes.
“You can explain I was just more comfortable this way. I’ll grab that blanket on the floor and we can sleep under separate sheets” he offered. It was reasonable enough. I don’t have to be juvenile about this.
It’s been a strange day where we’ve talked the most we’ve ever talked since meeting each other. It was a forced interaction but still he weirdly just wanted to drop all this drama between us and I don’t know how to feel about it.
I nodded silently that he could stay so he went into the living room and blew out the candles before grabbing that blanket that had fallen when Devran pinned me to the wall to kiss me.
Just the thought of it makes my skin flush hot. It was intense.
I just slid under my covers and closed my eyes. I’ll ignore that he is here...half naked...in my bed...after I just touched his large erection. What have I gotten myself into? I could only sigh at myself.
Thanks to the alcohol I grew tired rather quickly once I managed to lay still. With the subtle scent of Devran in my bed I drifted to sleep.
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“SUNSHINE” a voice woke me from my deep sleep. I shot up in the bed to find a very shocked looking Jasper at the sight of me and his Alpha in bed together.
“Okay, this is not what it looks like. I can explain” I quickly blurted out. Devran’s dark lashes fluttered open as our voices woke him up and the blue of his eyes were so sharp in contrast to the lashes that lined them.
He stretched and his muscles rippled in a way that made me swallow hard.
“Uh, I’d love to hear this explanation because it has to be a damn good one” Jasper still looked perplexed. I hopped out of bed and dragged Jasper into my living room with me.
I noted Nealin wasn’t home. It’s for the best. Hopefully he didn’t even realize that Devran stayed over last night.
I sat Jasper down and told him everything from how Devran interrupted my meditation session down to how we’d got caught in that storm and were forced to endure one another.
“And he slept with you because...” he trailed off wanting me to get to the good part. “He was more comfortable that way. Don’t make it weird” I huffed.
“Did you...” Jasper used his hands to motion two people kissing. I hated that my cheeks heated pink and gave me away.
“We got drunk and almost got into all...that...but we stopped so don’t judge me” I pointed at him. Devran had gone into the bathroom and was now resurfacing in my living room. He got to witness Jasper tip his head back and laugh.
“You guys make absolutely no sense. You hate each other then get all kissy-face. You find out your mates then have a blow out in front of the whole town before he rejects you. You hate each other again. And now, more kissy-face?!”
My best friend really wanted to call this all out in the open. I groaned. I realized Devran had switched over to his now dry clothes from yesterday. He folded Nealin Sr. clothes and placed them on my coffee table.
“Well...thanks for all, uh, this. I have stuff to do” Devran awkwardly nodded at us before dismissing himself.
He didn’t comment on Jasper calling us out and he barely looked me in the face even though all that happened between us last night.
I shouldn’t even be surprised.