Chapter 45
When I called Devran out for sneaking out on me this morning, after having shared one of my first sexual experiences with someone, waiting to hear his explanation felt like slow torture.
He had only paused to study my demeanor for probably a few seconds but it felt so much longer. I was vulnerable and feeling exposed.
“I only left because I thought it best to avoid Melanie and Nealin in the morning. You'd been flustered enough to get caught by your friend. And besides, I had work to do” he turned away from me on the last part.
“Work? Hm.” It felt like a poor excuse. Maybe he was embarrassed to get caught too. Maybe he didn’t want anyone to know that he hooked up with someone like me. It wouldn’t surprise me.
“Don’t overthink it, Mira. I see your eyes drifting to some distant place in your head” he called me out. My eyes snapped back into focus and I turned away from his desk to face the door.
I just wanted to leave now. Instead, I heard the wheels of his desk chair roll back and he took the few steps around the desk to stand directly behind me.
When his warm hands were placed on my arms I didn’t mean to lean into his touch but I did. “I wasn’t being a dick, alright? Last night was a good time” he tried assuring me.
“You make it sound cheap,” I admitted. Maybe I was being dramatic because I was feeling embarrassed and overwhelmed with my first time doing...that.
“How?” He scoffed.
“It felt like a one night stand that you sneak away from come morning.” I still hadn’t turned around so he was standing behind me with his hands on my arms as we both faced the closed door.
“Oh come on” he sucked his teeth. “You’re calling it a one night stand, so does that mean you want it to happen again?”
Now he spun me around. My hand went to his chest to steady myself when I was turned that quickly and it made the small gap between us more obvious.
We both looked between it before our eyes caught again.
“I-I didn’t mean it like that” I tried to back track from my original point. “What then?” He asked me, but his voice wasn’t rude. “Nothing, never mind” I huffed.
My hands felt shaky because my heart rate had spiked too quickly and I was stupidly nervous to be this close and thinking the things I was thinking about.
What he did to me last night, the way he made me feel, it was an addictive feeling and I shamelessly wanted more of it.
“Why are you flustered? Say what you wanted to say” he challenged me. I shut my eyes and shook my head. His hold on me tightened which forced my attention again.
“Nothing, I’m confused.”
His brows furrowed and his eyes examined me from head to toe. His hands released me but only to cup my chin and force me to look at him.
“Confused about what?” I was done with this line of questioning and as I removed my chin from his hold I took a step back so I could turn without bumping body’s with him.
But he's quick and caught on to what I was doing. He didn’t let me step away. The air shifted between us when he closed the gap and dipped his head lower so he could whisper beside my ear to keep from supernatural hearing.
“Your pulse has quickened, your breathing changed. Are you thinking about last night? Is that what’s confusing you?” Devran’s tone turned gruff and seductive.
“N-no” I lied. His hand brushed down my neck and caressed my side. What is this thick tension in the air? It was making me hazy and my inside pooled the way they had last night only he was barely touching me.
It’s like my body remembered what he could do to it and was reacting without needing much.
“I’m thinking about it” his voice was still low but not at all soft. His breath fanned the side of my head and it felt like it’s own sense of caress. “You are?” I squeaked.
“As soon as your scent wafted through this house I thought about how you taste...how you sound” he licked his lips as if the memory were truly there for him to have again. I swallowed hard. I was pinned in place by his heated gaze.
“D-Devran” I tried warning him to stop messing with me.
“Yes, just like that, you breathlessly calling my name again.”
When his large palm rested at the small of my back as a way to lightly pull me flush against him a rush shot through me that clouded my judgement and inflamed my lust.
I got to the tips of my toes and grabbed a fist full of his shirt to pull him to meet me halfway. Our mouths crashed together and his tongue wasted no time finding mine.
He lifted me right off my feet like I was feather light and swept his desk clean enough for him to place me on top of it.
He used his leg to spread my knees so he could stand between my legs and palm my thighs as he continued the kiss.
We'd both gotten lost in the moment and almost forgot where we were until voices carried through the hall and I shoved him away with the reminder that someone could hear us.
“Who cares?” he growled out, pulling me back to him. I gasped, “I do!”
His jaw ticked with annoyance but he stepped out from between my legs and took three long strides to the door before locking it.
“You’ll just have to be quiet then” he warned me. I was going to ask what I was supposed to be quiet about since kissing wasn’t the loudest thing, but I learned kissing wasn’t at all what he was talking about.
I wore soft material high waist shorts that were easy slip offs and he went for the waistband, looking at me for permission to pull them down.
“What are you doing?” My eyes went wide. “I’m going to taste you again” he told me, not asked. My breathing picked up as my pulse did at the idea of having him have me again.
“T-that’s not a good idea” I tried coming to my senses.
When Devran’s manly hands rubbed down my thighs and up them again until his thumbs slid beneath the hem I shivered with need. I stopped protesting and soon I was bottomless on top of the desk of the Alpha.
Without another word he threw both my legs over his shoulders and came down until his face was pressed between my inner thighs.
We made eyes as he licked his lips to get them wet before licking straight up my folds with no hesitation. I immediately bit down on my lip to control my reaction.
My head lulled and my eyes fluttered shut as I reveled in the feeling of his warm mouth over my mound. He is so skilled with his tongue.
I placed my own palm over my mouth to muffle the sounds that wanted to release from me when he fluttered his tongue softly over my increasingly more sensitive bundle of nerves.
When, without warning, he slid two fingers inside me simultaneously I lost it. I moaned out and my chest rose and fell rapidly as his thrusts worked in rhythm with his tongue.
The sloppier he got with his licking and sucking the more his fingers plunged and curled inside me to coax me into completion. It didn’t take long.
My thighs began to shake uncontrollably and he felt them from where he kept them over his shoulders. It was good I'd covered my own mouth because I gasped and moaned out louder than I should have when my orgasm finally caught up to me.
He continued to finger fuck me and lick at my clit until my quivering settled. I came all over his fingers and he seemed to love it. It’s so dirty and so sexy all at the same time.
“Good girl” his voice dropped an octave as he praised me.
I hadn’t come down yet from my climax and I was still leaning back across his desk trying to catch my breath. He licked his fingers clean and pulled my shorts back up while I was still half in a daze.
When he stood to his full height I could see his thick erection pressing his jeans and stretching at the fabric for release. I looked up at him who was already looking down at me and I knew he wanted my mouth on him again too.
I told him to sit in his desk chair and for once he listened to me with no problems at all. I glanced over my shoulder at the locked door, but I worried others could hear us if they tuned into this room.
I don’t know how strong supernatural hearing is but I’ve seen examples and it’s not far-fetched that they could hear us.
I couldn’t believe that less than 24 hours after hooking up with Devran I was doing so again. I couldn’t help it. As soon as I stepped into his office I knew what I wanted from him. I was just too afraid to ask.
I shouldn’t have come to the pack house but I had been summoned by Leslie. I didn’t come here purposely for him and that’s how I was letting myself justify this.
I watched as Devran popped open the button of his jeans and zip down the zipper while maintaining eye contact with me. He pulled his hard dick out entirely when he pushed his pants slightly down his hips.
I licked my lips once then twice before kneeling in front of him. Even the sight of that had his pupils dilating further. The black prominent in his usually translucent iris’.
“Come here” he ordered, palming the back of my head to coax me to push his swollen head past my lips. When I did he hissed with need.
I remembered everything I tried last night and I did the same thing again. I knew what he'd reacted well to and I would stick with that so I wouldn’t do something wrong and ruin the mood.
I liked watching him strain for control and I liked watching him unravel when I did well.
Taking the base of his length I began to pump him as my tongue jutted out and teased the underside of his erection which was sensitive.
He sucked his lip into his mouth and when I looked up at him through my lashes with his cock still fully inside my mouth he groaned at the sight of me.
“You look so sexy this way” his hands grabbed the arm rests of his seat and squeezed.
I wasted no more time stalling before working him fully in and out of my mouth repeatedly as I sucked my cheeks in with the pressure of sucking over his shaft.
Releasing my tongue to soften the form I rubbed over his weeping slit before practically slobbering over his throbbing swollen head.
Devran bit his knuckles and flexed as he restrained making any sound. That left the more obvious sounds of my sucking to be the only thing filling the room.
It left my cheeks red to hear the noises.
Devran’s palm cupped my head and rubbed over my scalp in obvious praise as I milked him into his finish. Just as before I felt him stiffen beneath me and his cock jolted at the back of my throat when he released in several long hot spurts.
I swallowed him and wiped my lips with the back of my hand as I watched Devran’s head that was still thrown back as he swallowed. His Adam’s apple bobbed.
When I stood he grabbed my hand although he still wasn’t fully straight in his chair yet. Slowly his head came forward and he released a heavy held breath.
He let go of my hand to tuck himself back into his jeans and once he did he grabbed my hand again but for the purpose of pulling me down onto his lap.
We looked at each other for a second before the smirk spread across his lips. “We couldn’t even wait a full day” he acknowledged our greediness.
“A minor slip up”I assured him. I wasn’t trying to make a habit out of giving myself over to him. It’s exactly what I told the council I didn’t want to do.
“Slip up? I know you wanted me. Your panties were drenched before I even touched you” he called me out. I tucked my head into his neck to hide my blushing cheeks.
He chuckled and his hand rubbed my thigh and up my back.
“I’ve never messed around in this office before. It’s pretty fucking hot actually” his voice sounded closer to my ear because he'd ducked his head over my own. Which was still hiding at the crook of his neck and shoulder.
He could make me shiver with his words.
“I don’t like thinking about it” my voice came out more quietly than I meant it to. “About what?” He asked for clarification. I was hesitant to even explain myself but I was the one who brought it up.
“About how often you’ve done this kinda stuff. I don’t like thinking about being just another notch on someone’s belt” I sighed.
“Mira” he huffed but I lifted my head from his shoulder and held my hand up to stop him. “Don’t say anything,” I asked him.
He tried opening his mouth again but I motioned to stand from his lap which he stopped me from doing. “Mira” he tried again.
“Just don’t say anything, okay?” I seriously didn’t want to talk about this and I certainly didn’t want some BS pity. I’m not ‘different’ or ‘special’ I was exactly what I said I was. Just another conquest.
With our complicated history it only made it worse that I've given myself to him in a way I haven’t with anyone else. It didn’t change anything between us though.
I still wouldn’t try to repair our bond. I still didn’t want to settle for being used for my gifts. He didn’t want me before and I’m holding him to that. No matter what.
When there was a knock on his door it gave me the excuse to get up. I walked to it and unlocked the door as Devran rolled his chair into his desk and sat stoically like none of what we did just happened.
I smoothed myself over to be sure there were no signs of what I did here today.
“Alpha, oh” a young wolf was surprised to see me open the door instead of who he expected. “He’s all yours” I waved for him to go inside as I exited.
I was quick to leave the Pack house after that. I didn’t need anyone noticing that I'd lingered around after the fact of talking to Leslie and Elizabeth a little while ago.