Chapter Twenty-Eight
Honor recoiled.
‘You fucking bitch,’ Robina repeated, advancing slowly, pointing her trembling finger like a weapon. ‘You know how I feel about Martyn. You know I love him. You know . And as soon as my back was turned you stood right out in the street, touching tonsils with him. Did you think nobody would see? Because half the customers of the Fig Leaf must have been looking out and they couldn’t wait to rub my nose in it when I went in there, last night.’
Honor’s heart plummeted. ‘But,’ she began feebly.
Robina’s face twisted into a snarl, tears streaming. ‘I don’t want to hear any of your fucking excuses.’ Which sort of solved a problem as Honor had no idea what she would have said after ‘But’. Martyn was a free agent, considered Robina a total nut job and had made it clear that he would set fire to himself sooner than get in her bed. But it was difficult to know how to convey those sentiments without making the situation worse.
‘Get out.’
Honor took an involuntary step towards Robina. ‘Can’t we just—’
Robina clenched her fists. She hadn’t tied up her hair and it streamed out from her head and over her shoulders like springs. ‘Get. Out. Sophie will make up your wages and post them through your door. I don’t want to see you in here again.’ The tears had become a flood but, eerily, Robina’s voice didn’t even shake, though the misery in her expressive eyes made Honor feel bad clear through to the pit of her stomach.
‘Robina, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you—’ Honor had to push her voice past her heart, which had jumped to her throat.
‘Of course you did. Get out of my tearoom.’
Honor stood her ground, unhappily, searching for something, anything, to say, to make things better. She glanced at Sophie, whose flamingo hair had faded to a gentler party pink. Sophie shrugged and shook her head, her arms folded as if to fence Honor out. ‘You knew how she felt.’
Slowly, Honor hung her apron back on its hook.
She trailed out of the tearoom, threading between the chairs and tables of the teagarden, dazed. Aimlessly, she wandered down on to the undercliff and walked into the wind, watching the ocean, and the gulls wheeling over everyone who had chosen to walk, run, ride or skate along the undercliff this morning.
She walked. Past Saltdean and the entrance to the park; past Rottingdean and the White Horse Hotel; on and on as the path narrowed and became separated from the stony beach by a wall and a rail. The sea was in, rolling and roaring over enormous concrete breakwaters, rattling the pebbles. When the walk finally rose and curved up to the main road, she found herself nearly at Brighton Marina. With sore feet.
On the opposite side of the main road was a café and she took her tired self to a table by the window and drank coffee as she stared through the rushing traffic at the sun glittering on the ocean, like the anger and misery that had glittered in Robina’s eyes as she’d declared her love for the man Honor had just fallen into bed with.
She heaved a great wretched sigh.
Then she set off back. By the time she reached Eastingdean, her legs were almost too heavy to carry her up the steps on the side of the cliff and across the road to the bungalow. She let herself in, feeling lonely and unloved. Her hand hovered over her phone. Martyn was only a call away but he had a heavy day’s shooting planned — and some conversations should only take place face-to-face.
She sighed. As well as talking to Martyn about Stef, she had to explain all about Robina.
* * *
Thursday wasn’t exactly the ecstatically happy day that she’d planned. It began with an unwelcome phone call from Martyn. ‘No planes taking off from Charles de Gaulle. The air traffic controllers are protesting about something.’
She tried to be philosophical and grown up and not flounce down on her bed wailing, Ooooh noooo! ‘How long do you think it will last?’
‘No idea.’ He sighed. ‘If it goes on, I’ll try to get a place on the Eurostar, although it’ll be a pain because my car’s at Gatwick. And the Eurostar and the ferries will be crazy because of the strike.’
‘Guess so,’ bleakly.
His voice dropped. ‘I’d better end the call because I haven’t got that much life left in my battery. And, in an airport lounge that’s filling up but not emptying, privacy’s negligible.’
She forced a laugh, but the day dragged from that point. She tried to put into effect the once-attractive plans she’d made for her day off and wandered up to Pretty Old to poke around amongst all the deliciously interesting stuff that smelled of dust and age. But she couldn’t raise enough interest to buy a thing, despite Peggy’s expectant expression on her gnomy face, which dissolved into disappointment as Honor left empty handed.
Unless she deliberately took a roundabout route, she had no choice but to pass the Eastingdean Teapot, glancing wistfully at the teagarden full of chattering tourists and waving to Aletta, who was wafting between the tables. Aletta’s eyebrows lifted clear into her hairline and her eyes opened wide, telegraphing, ‘What’s going on?’
Grimacing in return, Honor elected not to pause and explain. If she set a foot on Teapot property Robina would probably race out like a snappy poodle to sink her fangs into Honor’s leg. Or she’d fire Aletta just like she’d fired Honor, and Honor would hate for that to happen.
She tried to peer through the teagarden and into the Teapot, hoping to catch a glimpse of Ru. She swallowed, dismally. Would she ever get to see Ru, now? Robina would probably hate them hanging out together and Robina had proved to Honor that it wasn’t necessarily in a real mother’s job description to put your kid first, even though Honor had always assumed it would be and that her own mother, her real mother, would be better than her stepmother. But Robina and Ru had shown her that a real mother wasn’t necessarily a good mother.
She paused, studying herself in a shop window, hair frizzed in the wind, forehead furrowed. Did Karen used to look at Honor’s features and wonder about Garvin’s first love? She smoothed the lines away, hearing in her head the English saying: if the wind changes, your face will stay that way . The wind, swirling up over the cliffs, never seemed to know which way it was going.
She knew how it felt.
Drawing level with the Starboard Walk shops she glanced automatically at Martyn’s car space, even though she knew there was no way he’d be home. But the space wasn’t empty; Clarissa was just locking up her car.
Clarissa raised her eyebrows. ‘Not slaving over a hot teapot?’
Honor summoned up a shaky smile. ‘I guess I got canned.’
Clarissa halted, frowning. ‘Fired? What on earth for?’
Belatedly, Honor realised that she couldn’t exactly say, ‘Oh, it was because I’m having sex with Martyn and Robina has the hots for him. But I dismissed her feelings because Martyn calls her his stalker.’ Because . . . well, because too many reasons to count. Maybe not a mother to Martyn in the conventional way, Clarissa had nevertheless given birth to him and might well not appreciate Honor’s candour. And Martyn might not want Clarissa — or anyone at all — to know he was involved with Honor, or might want to tell her himself. It was just plain awkward. So she muttered, ‘Robina and I, we had a fight.’
Clarissa looked startled for a moment. ‘Not a fist fight?’
‘Just words,’ Honor confirmed, managing a smile at this latest evidence of the differences between UK English and US English. But if she’d stayed around Robina much longer, she reflected, she wouldn’t have put money on it staying just words.
* * *
As always, Martyn had to queue to get through the traffic signals in Rottingdean. He yawned. It had been a long, crappy day and he’d never been so glad to get on a plane in his life, the French Air Traffic Controllers having been persuaded back to the negotiating table — and the control tower — late in the day.
He glanced at his watch. His phone battery had died on him and he hadn’t won the scrabble for power sources on the plane, at a premium on such a short flight, nor thought ahead to bring the gizmo to let him charge in-car, so he hadn’t been able to call Honor since he landed. Travel worn, he’d stopped at a service station to freshen up and now was probably just too late to swing by Hughie’s self-defence class and see if she and Ru needed a ride home.
But then, as if he’d wished her into being, there was Honor, jogging across the lights in front of the waiting traffic, ponytail bouncing behind her, her movements easy and economical, a pace a runner could keep up for miles. Then, like a shutter cutting her out of a photo, the shop on the corner put her out of sight. He waited, impatiently, for the signals to turn to green and a driving school car to dither left around the corner like a geriatric beetle as he cornered the X5 at a crawl into Marine Drive.
His headlights picked her up straight away and he pulled up beside her, rolling his window down. ‘Are you running uphill for the sake of your beautiful bottom? Or would you like to climb in here with me?’
Surprise blazed across her face as she laughed. ‘I think I’ll just climb in there with you.’ She tugged the large door open. ‘I let one of the ladies at the self-defence class show me where to catch the bus. Unfortunately, it was a bus that only came as far as Rottingdean before looping back.’ She hopped up into the passenger seat. Then paused, blinking at him, as if suddenly unsure.
He gazed back into those gooseberry eyes. Then let his eyes drop to her pretty mouth. ‘This is where you kiss me,’ he suggested.
With a strangled laugh, she threw herself into his arms, as well as she could above the steering wheel, and hugged him as if she were a child. Hugging him and hugging him, hugging him hard, desperately.
‘That’s almost as good,’ he murmured, wrapping her up in his arms and pressing his lips to her hair. But he frowned. What was with such desperation? Had her lips trembled? He stroked her neck, her shoulder, followed her spine with the palm of his hand. ‘You OK?’
She withdrew slightly and he was able to see that she was gathering herself. ‘Sure.’ She smiled. ‘It’s just good to see you.’
Her smile was a fake if ever he saw one. He lowered his lips to hers, taking his time, letting his fingertips follow the shape of her arm, her fingers, then back up to trace her jawline. ‘Ru not with you?’
A shadow dropped across her face.
So it was something to do with Ru. Surprise, surprise.
But as traffic was having to squeeze past the BMW, pulled up inconveniently at the side of the road, he just kissed the tip of her nose and said, ‘Let’s get out of here.’ In a few minutes he was turning left into her drive, the bungalow perched above them.
He flicked off his seat belt and went to give her a comforting hug. But she turned her face up for his kiss and suddenly he was all over her, her smooth lips and hot tongue passing a thousand volts through his heart and his groin. He savoured the heat of her body, the incredible softness of her skin, ignoring the centre consol digging into his knee as one of her breasts pressed tantalisingly against his chest.
Her fingers fastened in his hair and he groaned aloud. ‘It’s so hot when you do that. How about we take this indoors? Even a big car can get tricky for a tall guy, however horny.’
‘Mmm,’ she agreed, but kissed him again. Slowly, sloooowly.
His hands slid up and inside her T-shirt, skimming the smoothness of her back, discovering the clasp of her bra, fighting the urge to find a way, right now, right here.
Five steps from the road? With supreme effort, he controlled his hands, breathing faster than if he’d been for a five-mile run. ‘Let’s get inside. Before something explodes.’
‘Always better to get inside before exploding,’ she agreed, groping behind her for the door handle.
He couldn’t get out of the car fast enough. Tricky with his arousal to work around but he caught her halfway up on the steps, threading his hands back under her T-shirt, heading for that bra strap. She laughed and put in a wiggle to make his job harder.
He had to put in a giant stride to get his hands around her waist and spin her around and catch her up against him, so that he could possess her mouth again as he steered them up the last couple of steps and slowly across the patio, lifting and trapping her between himself and her door while she wrapped those shapely legs around him. He couldn’t drag his mouth away, couldn’t stop holding her against him while he settled snugly exactly where he wanted to be. ‘Where’s your key? Get us through this door.’
But self-preservation did make him turn his head when he caught movement from the corner of his eye. Because, like a harbinger of doom, a dark figure was rising up from the wooden lounger at the side of the patio.
And the harbinger of doom had a voice. It said: ‘Say, buddy, you want to take your hands off my wife’s ass?’