CHAPTER EIGHT
After my epic sex weekend with Natalie, I was a mess. I kept going back and forth, one minute thinking I’d screwed up the best relationship in my life, and the next thinking our next step should be marriage. I was all over the place.
And I couldn’t even talk to anyone about it.
The people I’d normally confide in were Natalie, my mom, my dad, or my big sister Sadie.
All of them were out. I couldn’t talk to Nat for obvious reasons.
My mom and dad would expect a wedding invitation along with the conversation, and Sadie was going through her own shit.
I was semi-close to Imani, but again, she was out.
She would not understand that part of me wanted to run screaming for the hills.
I had loved one woman before in my life.
Or at least I thought I had. That was Annika, and she’d obliterated my heart.
If Nat did that? I didn’t think I could survive it.
I paced back and forth in my condo. It had only been a couple of days since the weekend, but if felt like a millennium had gone by. Shouldn’t I have called her by now? Shouldn’t she have called me? Is this what relationships were like? I had broken out in a cold sweat all over my body. This sucked.
“Dammit.” I tried to take deep breaths. I had to talk to Nat about this.
It’s just… I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t do relationships.
I was terrified of screwing one up or of her cheating on me and breaking my heart.
No, ripping the soul right out of my body.
That’s what would happen if Nat cheated.
“Ah, I can’t do this!” I yelled to no one.
But I had to do something. I couldn’t continue on like this.
It was at that moment the doorbell rang.
Frowning, I walked over to see who it was. Most people called before coming over. I couldn’t help my smile, though, when I saw Natalie through the peephole.
I opened the door. “Hey, girl… oof.”
She threw herself in my arms and started kissing me. “I can’t quit thinking about you,” she said breathlessly between kisses. “Tell me it’s okay for me to sleep over tonight.”
And I was instantly hard. My God. What this woman did to me was unreal. It was like nothing I’d ever had before. So, instead of having the conversation I knew we needed to have, all I wanted was to fuck her senseless for the next bajillion hours.
Every other thought besides getting her naked and in my bed evaporated.
“It’s more than okay,” I said, walking her back to my bedroom.
“Good,” she wriggled out of my arms. “Because I want to show you something.” She motioned for me to sit on the bed in front of her.
She slipped out of the sundress she’d been wearing to reveal a very sexy set of light pink, almost skin-colored, lingerie.
It was beautiful against her pale skin and showed her slight curves off to perfection.
I couldn’t take my eyes off her. “You look… so gorgeous.” I rubbed a hand over my face. “Come here.”
She walked forward until she stood between my legs. I was about to pull her closer and kiss her when she sunk to her knees in front of me. I closed my eyes, my dick swelling even more as she unzipped my pants and pulled it out.
“My God,” I groaned as she started licking my cock, sucking the head, and playing with me until I thought I would lose it. I had to grip the edge of the mattress I was sitting on to keep from grabbing her head and trying to control the pace.
I looked down at her. She was stunning with her dark hair and teal eyes, her tanned skin and perfectly shaped breasts, and her lush, raspberry lips that were stretching around my cock as she took me deep.
“Fuck.” That was it. I couldn’t take anymore. My hands went to her head and began gently moving her up and down my needy cock.
“Mmm,” she hummed, her eyes twinkling letting me know she liked it. She popped off. “Use me,” she said in a sexy voice I’d definitely never heard before.
“Oh my God, yes.” I was less gentle as I moved her faster and deeper, massaging her jaw to get her to relax it enough to take more of me. She didn’t even need it. She took me to the back of her throat over and over again, her hand squeezing and roughly stroking the base of my cock.
She fucking knew what she was doing. I didn’t need to do a damn thing. I still controlled the pace, though, speeding up and slowing down at the right times to make it last longer. She sucked so good, so hard, that I thought I would die from the pleasure.
It was hard to comprehend that Natalie, my Natalie, the best friend who had seen me through the best and worst times of my life, the girl who’d put a muddy frog down the back of my shirt and laughed when I screamed like a banshee—was also the woman who was driving me mad with desire and giving me the best head of my life.
How could this be happening?
But I didn’t have time to think about that as my balls tightened and my spine tingled. “Nat,” I gasped out, “I’m going to come.”
I wondered what she would do now. Would she swallow what I gave her? I could tell I was going to fill her mouth. Maybe more than once.
Or would she pull out? Would I get to cover her beautiful tits with my cum?
That was it. The thought of either of those things plus the feel of her hot, wet mouth pushed me over the edge.
And for the first time, I didn’t just come hard; I fucking exploded.
I yelled her name as I stroked her throat and watched as she drank me down.
She held eye contact the whole time. It was so fucking erotic it made it last longer, and I swear I unloaded more inside her sweet mouth than I’d ever done before.
When she was finished, she popped off, swallowing one last time before wiping her hand over her mouth.
I collapsed back on the bed, my feet still on the ground with her in between my legs. “My God, Nat.”
“Oh no,” she said, making me lift my head up to look at her.
“You’re so messy.” She got a sexy smile on her face and started to climb up on the bed, still looking like a lingerie model.
I couldn’t believe I’d made it through that whole amazing blowjob with her tits covered.
That’s how good she was—she distracted me from taking her bra off.
I reached up and flicked the back in the way I knew would make it release fastest. She gave me a half grin, threw it over her shoulder, and pushed her tits up in her hands. “You like these?”
I did. Fuck, yes, I did. I could only nod as I stared at them.
I was a little shocked. They weren’t my normal type.
I went for women with large breasts, usually bigger than a C cup.
That was always what I’d been attracted to.
Nat’s were small, definitely a B cup, but they were perfectly shaped.
They were round and pert, with delicious raspberry-colored nipples. They matched the color of her lips.
I reached up and held them, flicking the tight little buds with my thumbs and watching her squirm. Her nipples were very sensitive, and I grinned as I sat up and took one in my mouth. I suckled and played with them both until she was almost crying out.
I was getting hard again, and I thrust upwards letting my cock ride up between her ass cheeks to let her feel how much I wanted her again.
“Oh, you distracted me,” she said with a wink.
I didn’t know what she was talking about until she dropped down and started licking and cleaning my dick. “We made a mess,” she whispered and then held my gaze as she suckled, kissed, and licked every part of my cock until it was free of all signs of cum.
What. The. Fuck? Where did she learn this shit?
I was hard as a fucking rock again, and she knew that was exactly what would happen.
Then she surprised me by grabbing a condom out of my bedside table, ripping the foil, and putting it on me herself.
Then she sunk down on my dick, slowly taking all of me, before resting on me. I was gasping for breath.
Then she started moving slowly, and my hands went to her breasts, squeezing them as she rode me slow and easy, rolling her hips seductively as she controlled our pace.
I could barely even comprehend what was going on. I was in heaven. I watched her as she stared down at me, taking in every facial expression, every grunt or moan, as if she was memorizing my body, what I liked, and what drove me fucking insane. She was really, really good in bed.
My shy best friend was a sex goddess. No big deal. Cool, cool, cool. I could handle this.
No, I couldn’t. I absolutely could not. I couldn’t take it anymore.
I finally grabbed her by the hips and lifted her up and down my cock faster and faster until she was screaming.
I knew I was hitting that special spot inside her that would make her wild.
“Tim,” she screamed, finally, throwing her head back as she came hard around my cock.
“That’s right baby,” I growled, “Come on my fucking dick.”
She kept screaming as her inner muscles fluttered and squeezed me. It set me off, too, and I was yelling her name and thrusting up into her as I held her still above me.
When I was finished, I laid back in the pillows with my arms behind my head. I was completely worn out. I didn’t think I’d ever felt so sated in my life.
She laid next to me, eyes closed, with her hand on my chest and one leg over mine. Within seconds, she was asleep.
I watched her for a moment before looking up at the ceiling. I enjoyed the feel of her next to me. I usually didn’t let women stay over or hang around for a cuddle after sex. But Nat was different. She was… mine.
And I was hers. We’d belonged to each other for years now. It just hadn’t been sexual until the past few days.
I wasn’t stupid. I’d felt there were times Nat might’ve had a crush on me, just like there were moments I was ready to declare my love for her and take our relationship to the next level.
But we’d never been on the same page at the same time.
She’d been into me while I was happy with jumping from one woman to the next or so damaged from Annika, I couldn’t even think about a relationship.
Then I’d been into her when she was in different relationships over the years. It just so happened that the stars had aligned this time. I was growing tired of fucking around. She wasn’t with anyone.
And we’d finally given in to that insistent spark of chemistry that had always been there. I’d just never known that the spark would ignite and turn into a damn forest fire. My desire for her reached levels I hadn’t even known existed.
And it scared me.
I knew I should talk to her, but I wasn’t sure of how to bring it up.
Saying, “Hey, Nat, I really love having sex with you, and by the way where’d you learn to fuck like that?
” or “Natalie, I’m absolutely terrified that you’re going to break my heart and the fallout will leave me looking like a flattened possum on the side of the road,” just didn’t seem like the right things to say.
But she was my best friend. How could I be tongue tied around her? How could I not know the right things to say?
I had to have a talk with her. Absolutely had to.
I rubbed slow circles on her naked back and pulled the duvet over both of us as I fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.
I woke up to my alarm going off the next morning. I shook my head groggily, trying to understand why something felt… off.
Then I realized. The bed was empty. My hands were reaching for that warm, perfect body that had been next to me when I’d fallen asleep, but they were only touching cold sheets.
I sat up, rubbing my eyes. Where the hell was she?
I listened for sounds out in the rest of my condo, but there was nothing.
I put my feet on the floor and padded out to the kitchen area. The condo definitely felt empty. I looked around to see if she’d left me a note or anything.
I found it on the fridge.
I pulled the post-it note out from under a magnet, smiling.
Most people would have thought the post-it didn’t need a magnet, but I knew Nat had a fear of leaving a note for someone and it getting blown away or something because the glue wasn’t strong enough to hold it.
So, she always double-stuck them, as she liked to say.
If it was on a fridge, she also used a magnet.
On the counter? She’d also lay something on top of it, whether it was a pen or the edge of a notebook—just something to keep it from flying away.
I grinned thinking about it as I read the note:
Tim,
Last night was so great. Sorry to run out this morning, but I had an early class. I’ll see you at the party on Friday. Saturday will be great, too, and I’ll be done with exams so I can enjoy the Fourth of July with you and your family like always.
Love,
Nat
Party? What party? I frowned and plopped down on a stool at the counter. I glanced at the calendar.
“Oh, shit.” I’d forgotten to tell her the party was off.
Were Nat and I going to be together at the fireworks show? We’d be sitting with my family like we usually did.
The thought made me nervous, and I paced the condo while I made myself some peanut butter toast for breakfast.
I couldn’t push it from my mind as I got ready for work. I didn’t think I was ready to ‘out’ our relationship in front of my family and the entire town. Gossip spreads like kudzu in a town the size of Indigo Falls where everyone knows everybody.
I had to talk to Natalie. She needed to know the party was canceled, and I had to see her before the fireworks show. I had to.