CHAPTER 38 #2
"I don't believe you. You meant what you said so much that she believed it too. Whatever you said petrified that girl. All the blood in her body drained down into her toes. Now tell me, what did you say to her?"
I take a moment to think about my next words. I'm tempted to lie so he doesn't realize how crazy I really am, but I know he will see right through it, and I never want to lie to him anyway.
"I asked her what her last breaths tasted like."
I watch Adam intently as he mulls over my words. I see the moment that he realizes I never meant for her to walk away from there.
"Oh, love." His words are barely above a whisper. He puts his forehead to mine and closes his eyes. "No one has ever or will ever mean to me what you mean to me. I don't know what she said-"
I cut him off before he could finish. I don't want him to think that I was ready to erase this girl over petty words.
"It wasn't that. It wasn't anything she said. I can't explain the feeling, but when she shoved me, something else took over. I went into full survival mode. I tried to tell her. I said-"
This time it's him who cuts me off. "I heard you. I heard what you said to her. You told her ‘That one was free. The next one would cost her in flesh.'"
I wince at hearing my words said back to me. That's some sinister shit right there.
"Yeah." I pause, going back into the memory. "She didn't believe me. I really was just trying to warn her. I even waited until she had almost hit me. I was giving her the chance to stop, but...she didn't."
"That's on her. She pushed you. You warned her and she was still going to hit you. You did what you had to do. Don't spend any more time on this. She wouldn't have worried about you if she had been the one with the upper hand."
I nod, knowing that he is definitely right about that last part.
We both know he's lying about me doing what I had to do though.
There's no way that it was necessary for me to take it as far as I did.
She would've run after those first two jabs if I'd given her half a chance.
She already had her chance though. Second chances are dangerous.
I don't give them. I did what I've always done.
I chose survival even when it may not have been necessary.
It's what got me moved from a few foster homes.
When I feel threatened, I react, and I react in an extremely violent way.
Adam wraps his arms around me again and walks me backward into the bathroom and toward the shower sex he had promised.
He undresses me slowly softly kissing my skin as he removes each piece of clothing from my body.
In the shower, he places me under the water before gently washing my hair and every inch of my body.
I love when he does this. He's so tender and loving.
This is the time when he shows me how he feels.
"Do you remember that thing you wanted to do before that we didn't get to try?"
His hands still on my thighs. He's knelt down in front of me. My body is covered in suds and so are his hands. He doesn't look up; he just nods slowly.
"Do you want to try again?" I ask him as I run my hands through his wet strands.
He lets out the breath he had been holding and buries his face in my stomach kissing the wet soapy skin there.
Again, he doesn't speak. He simply nods his head.
I can feel his nod against my skin, and I can feel his anticipation in the air between us.
I entwine my fingers with his and pull his hands from my thighs, ushering him to stand in front of me.
He kisses me as soon as my mouth is within his reach.
His kiss is warm and strong. I moan into his mouth and this spurs him on.
He kisses me deeper, pushing me into the shower wall behind me.
He's everywhere, kissing my mouth, my jaw, my neck, and my shoulders.
Sucking and nipping at my sensitive flesh.
His hands are roaming my body, kneading my breasts and my ass.
He skims my thighs and my stomach with his fingertips.
I feel the suspense building and I'm not nervous or scared. I'm ready. I'm ready for him.
He must sense my excitement because he returns to my mouth, smiling, wearing that knowing smile he has.
His left palm is flat against my chest between my breasts.
His right palm is flat between my shoulder blades.
He begins to move both hands down lower and lower.
My breath hitches, knowing where he's going with each hand.
My body begins to quiver in anticipation and my head tilts back.
He moves slowly, magnifying the tension between us.
Finally, he's there. He rubs down to my clit, flicking and pinching it.
He brings his right hand to my entrance and to the wetness that has collected there.
He uses three fingers to gather the evidence of my arousal before moving the three fingers back to my ass.
Using my own wetness, he lubricates his fingers, making it easier to slide one inside of me.
I inhale a sharp breath through my already gaping mouth and he groans into my neck. His cock is like granite against my stomach, and he's rocking back and forth, unable to still his growing urges. "How does it feel, love? How does it feel having me inside you like this while I rub your clit?"
When I try to speak, nothing comes out. I feel so many things all at once, and it's hard to catch up with the sensations. I clear my throat and try again "Good" I manage to get out, but it's higher in pitch than I meant for it to be. He chuckles into my ear.
"Good, huh?"
I nod jerkily, and he adds another finger, slowly pumping both in and out of me. My breaths are shaky and uneven as he continues to use his fingers on my clit, rougher now than before and faster. My orgasm is building, and my legs are shaking.
"Good, how? I want to know exactly what I'm doing to you."
"Ah, umm it's like relief." I gasp and moan between my words, unable to string a full sentence together without breaking for a whimper. "All of the tension is gone, and it's replaced with an intense tingling, but the tingling is everywhere. I can feel it in my toes and in my scalp."
He adds another finger. "Oh my, Adam."
"Yes, Eve. Tell me more."
"Ah, I can't I-" I gasp loudly and whimper, letting my head fall back to the shower wall.
My orgasm is cresting. Words aren't real.
He speeds up, pumping the three fingers faster.
The thumb on my clit presses harder as he slides two fingers into my cunt and that's it.
It's more than I can take. My orgasm rockets through me like nothing I have ever felt before.
"Adam, Ah!" He continues using both hands to work my body through my climax.
My vision blurs, and I see tiny bright lights everywhere as I come back to myself.
When I finally have full use of my legs again.
I lift my head to see Adam's coal-black eyes staring back at me with awe.
His mouth is open and he's panting. "That was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
You looked fucking incredible the way you came for me. "
He smashes his mouth down onto mine roughly before quickly breaking the kiss and spinning me around, putting my back to his chest. I missed the part where he had removed his fingers from inside me.
I had been somewhere else with stars in my eyes, but I feel the loss now as he prepares to enter me again.
He brings his mouth to my ear. "You know me. You know I won't ask for your permission. I won't be gentle or slow, and I won't coddle you through this. You're mine. All of you. Mine to take. Mine to use as I need."
He isn't asking a question, but I nod. He's never pretended to be anyone other than who he is.
He's not going to pretend now. He's just going to be who he is.
I feel him line up his cock with my entrance.
The suspense builds again, more intensely this time.
There's excitement and slight trepidation as he gradually pushes inside.
The water is raining down all around us.
So many sensations. He groans loudly as his thick cock pushes past the tight muscle.
"Fuck, Eve!" His voice is trembling, and his head falls to my shoulder as he stills, catching his breath.
"I love you. I love you so fucking much. It hurts sometimes." He's panting as he says this. He says it like he can't help but to say it.
I know what he wants to hear from me, and I give it to him. "I love you, Adam. I'll never leave you."
He bites down on my shoulder and pushes the rest of the way inside.
We both cry out at the same time and his cry is muffled by my shoulder.
The fullness is so much more intense now.
I knew it would be. His hands are big, but they're nothing compared to his massive cock.
His entire body shudders once he's seated fully inside me. "You feel so good."
Wrapping both arms around my waist, he hugs me tightly to him. He kisses a trail across my shoulder and up my neck, loosening his hold on me so that he can pull part of the way out before gliding back in.
He continues this motion leisurely, pumping in and out of me while he kisses every part of me that he can reach.
Once my body adjusts to the size of him and I can concentrate more on his movements, it feels.
..so right. Like a sensual massage. He moves one hand around to my clit and begins stroking me.
I'm pushing back into him now meeting each thrust with my own thrust toward his hips.
"Eve, fuck baby." He growls again. "Nothing feels as good as you.
" There's more grunting and he's moving faster, harder.
His fingers on my clit are applying firmer pressure and quickening their strokes and flicks.
My climax begins to build again. It's different this time.
More intense than the last. I begin to worry that I'll fall because the last orgasm wasn't as intense as this one is projecting to be and I nearly lost my vision and control of my legs that time.
As though he can hear my thoughts and knows my concerns, he says "Don't think. Just come for me. I've got you."
His perceptiveness of my every thought and need is what pushes me over the edge.
My climax explodes through my body. This time, instead of tingling, it's an endorphin rush into every pore of my body.
I can feel everything all at once and it's more and better than anything I have ever imagined.
I know I'm clenching tightly around his cock, and I have no control over it.
My orgasm catapults Adam into his own and his thrusts become spasmodic as he cries out.
"FUCK! I love you. I love you. I love you, Eve. I love you."