8. Wild Irish Roses #3
“He’s bitter, but I don’t see him being a problem.” I didn’t respond because my warning was already given. “Zy’s birthday is the week before school. I always go all out for him like a birthday party and back to school bash in one. If you’re free, I would like for you to be there too.”
“All I need is the date and time.”
She smiled. Reaching under her chair, Jersei grabbed a notebook, ripping out a page before handing me a pen.
I accepted it. “I know it’s random, but as you were lighting the fire, I thought of this.
I want us to write down everything we want to release and throw it in.
The hurts, anything you are holding onto that you don’t voice, jot it down and let it burn.
I think it symbolizes release. We don’t have to share what we wrote.
Keep it between you and God. That’s cool? ”
I sat my blunt down and accepted the pen from her. “I’m down for that.”
Jersei turned on some music and we went at it.
This activity really made me dig deep within myself.
For a good ten minutes, my page was blank.
Each time I glanced over at Jersei, she was writing her ass off.
I didn’t think I was perfect in the slightest, but I allowed a lot of shit to roll off me in order to keep my sanity.
My mother came to mind followed by Valen’s words the other day and my pen started moving.
Putting everyone’s needs before my own.
The savior complex based on my past.
Releasing the feeling of thinking that if God did it for them then He can’t do it for me
Feeling like I cannot have happiness past the walls I put up
I glanced up at Jersei who was still using her thigh as a table although it was one right beside her. I smiled to myself.
Opening my heart fully and not just offering pieces.
The fear of loving again without adding limits.
The paper wasn’t burnt yet, but it felt good to see the things I tucked away in words. It was time to let all this shit go. Satisfied with what I listed, I waited a few minutes. Jersei exhaled and sat up in her seat.
“Ready?” She nodded and counted us down. We released the papers into the fire and watched them burn in silence, listening to the crackling of the fire as they faded piece by piece. How easy it was to burn in the heat was the same way we had to allow it to disappear within and I was willing to.
“Thank you for that. It was refreshing,” I told her.
“It really was,” she agreed, turning toward me again. “How do you feel about love, Mr. Denver?”
I chuckled, sprinkling the last of my weed into the blunt before sealing it with my tongue. Jersei watched my every move, making me chuckle. I threw her a quick wink, making her giggle.
I sparked my blunt. “Even when it’s wrong, the illusion of it will have you fooled.
That’s how you know that it is a beautiful thing because eternally, it can be the best thing.
I’ve learned that the tiny pieces of a person or thing can make love be breathtaking or leave you lifeless. I believe in love. I want love.”
Jersei’s leg started bouncing and so did her eyes. As I sparked my blunt, I patted my thigh. “C’mere, baby.”
Slowly, she stood crossing the space to stand in front of me.
I patted my thigh again reminding her of what I’d said, and she lowered herself onto the opposite thigh.
I shook my head, chuckling at her stubbornness.
Feeling the coolness of her skin, I grabbed a blanket from the drawer beside us and wrapped her in it.
Jersei curled against my chest, and I kissed her forehead.
Her lips parted and I exhaled my smoke directly between them causing her to hum. She held it for a second then released it. “What was that look?”
Her shoulders went up and down. “Do you think that we’ll have all those things or is this more of like a…fling?”
“I don’t entertain flings. A man is not defined by his words, but his actions.
I’ve shown you where I stand with you, J.
Do I need to go harder? I’m learning that you need verbal assurance, so let me give it to you,” I pulled from my blunt again.
“You made me feel fireworks in my chest for the first time in years. It happened right after you cussed my ass out in my office. I denied it, but when the feelings are that strong, I don’t believe that it's solely your own emotions. I think that’s God tapping you saying it’s a good thing.
She’s a good thing. He tapped me for you, J. ”
“Vayce,” she whispered and I pressed a finger to her lips.
“I know enough not to settle, not even for no pussy. If this was a fling, we’d fuck with no strings, but I have no energy for useless attachments.
You’re here ‘cause you mean something to me and one day, you’ll mean everything, J.
” I watched her eyes close. Anytime I spoke to her, she clung to every word which let me know she’d never been affirmed.
It may have been a lot emotionally, but I was willing to rewrite everything she once knew.
With the pad of my thumb, I brushed away the tear that slipped from the corner of her eye.
“This is your daily reminder that I am here to stay. I’ve let you in and there’s only one way out. ”
“What’s that?”
“Death,” I answered matter of factly. “Either naturally or of natural causes and only one of them is out of our hands.” It sounded the same, but we both knew it wasn’t.
Jersei turned her head, looking up at me through her lashes. She pushed my chest. “Nigga are you threatening me?”
I grinned. “Nah. I’m letting you know shit can get sticky when my feelings get involved, but we both know what we want. Right?” I hooked my finger under her chin, pressing a kiss against her lips. “Right? Tell me what you want J.”
“I—I want to build with you. I know in this season I’m supposed to be learning about myself, but the more I’m with you, I feel like I can do both.
You make me feel like a teenager again, Vayce.
Being around you feels like passing notes and staying up saying no you fall asleep first or saying what we have should be tattooed across our foreheads.
” She ran her hand against her head. I chuckled.
“I don’t want my own fear to stop me from missing out on someone as good as you and I don’t want you to feel like you’re the only one catching feelings.
I got a crush on you, nigga. Is that what you wanted to hear? ” Jersei’s head bobbed as she laughed.
I tipped my head back laughing. It felt like it had been years since I could genuinely laugh from my soul. “Same shit, J. I don’t ever want your mind wandering, so if I leave any room for questioning, check me on that shit.”
“I believe you and I will,” she mumbled. Sitting up, Jersei threw her thighs over mine to straddle me. “Vayce?”
My hands ran under her shirt until they landed on her hips. “Yes, J?”
The lust in her eyes danced like the flames burning ahead of us. I licked my bottom lip as my hands kneaded her skin. “I don’t think I can wait anymore.”
Leaning forward, she wrapped her pretty ass lips around mine before I could respond.
The kiss grew hungrier as we slowly massaged one another’s sets.
I snaked my tongue into her mouth as my hands traveled up her back and ran my index finger up and down her spine.
Her body shivered and hips rocked against me in response.
Our bodies knew what we wanted. Passion.
I lifted us from the chair and Jersei locked her legs around me.
Her lips moved from mine down the side of my face until she reached my neck and her tongue flicked until she reached my ear.
Hearing her small moans and kisses had my dick growing stiffer.
“I’ve been wanting you since you cussed me out in your office,” she whispered, her sexy ass voice laced with need. “I thought about how your hands would feel on me. How deep you’ll feel inside of me and how handsome your face would look when you slid in this pussy.”
“Mm,” I groaned, while her lips pressed spots I didn’t know were sensitive.
I walked us to the master bedroom and laid her in the middle of the bed.
Jersei sat up and threw her shirt aside before lying back down.
I took a step back to admire her body, from the wild curls in her hair, to her small pudge, down to her smooth ass pussy, thick thighs, and pretty soft pink painted toes.
“I hear you talking like you ready for me, but once I’m in this pussy, I want you to understand that every thought you had was too small.
Your imagination won’t come close to the way I plan to become one with your soul, J.
I’ma stretch you out, make you beg me not to stop, then watch you fall in love with the way I break you down.
I can give you more than what you need.” Jersei’s back arched, like I slid deep into her and the truth was, I did.
Fucking her would be easy, but if I had her soul first, everything else would fall in line.
Lifting her right foot from the bed, I kissed the inside of her ankle then did the same to the other. “You’re so fucking beautiful, J. I plan to put my mouth on every part of you.”
She moaned. I removed my shirt and pulled her to the end of the bed, pushing her legs apart. I lowered onto the floor to be eye level with her center. As I parted her with two fingers, her essence coated and dripped down them.
I groaned when her sweet scent hit my nostrils and swiped my tongue against her labia to tease and taste her.
Her cream against my tongue made my dick leak.
I’d tasted a lot of new things since being in the cabin, but this one was my new favorite flavor, and I wanted to savor it.
With the tip of my tongue, I flicked her clit feeling it harden with each pass.
“Vayce,” Jersei whined. “Oh, your mouth feels so good.”
“Mm-hm,” I groaned against her. “Put your hands on my head and show me where you want me.”