Epilogue
SILAS
TWO YEARS LATER
I ’m unable to tear my eyes away from her. This day has been my dream since I was seventeen, and Payton and I made our future plans. It’s taken me longer than I would have liked to make this day a reality, but with all the shit that Payton and I have been through, I’m just fucking relieved that we’re here.
The loss of our baby is still hard some days, but we’re able to think of our baby as an angel looking down on us now. I sobbed when she showed me the scanned pictures she took photos the day she found out there was no heartbeat. Up until then, I had different images in my head, I never really thought of it being a proper baby until I saw the scan picture. It hit me harder than I ever thought it would.
The sound of cutlery hitting the champagne glass has the reception area quietening. I watch on with anticipation as Cas gets to his feet, he sends a salacious grin to Saya, who blushes before he clears his throat. “Ladies and gentlemen, it’s an honor to be here today as the best man. Honestly, I didn’t think today would come, Si, really needed to get his head out of his ass.”
Payton giggles beside me, and I glance over at my wife. God, it fucking feels good to finally say that. She’s gorgeous, when she walked down the aisle toward me, I lost my breath, my knees buckled, and thankfully, I managed to bend them slightly before I ended up on my ass. I had never seen anyone look so perfect as she did, gliding down the aisle toward me.
“But anyone who sees these two together, knows that they’re meant to be. The trials and tribulations they’ve been through have only made them stronger, and I for one, am blessed to be around them.”
“Damn it, Cas.” Payton sniffles, and I see that she’s crying.
“Ladies and gentlemen, please raise your glasses in celebration of Mr. and Mrs. Miller.”
Fucking Cas. Who knew the guy could be so damn sweet.
“You okay, baby?” I ask once the toasts are finished.
She nods, a bright smile on her face. “I’ve never been happier,” she whispers, her eyes soft as she rests her hand on her swollen stomach.
She’s six months pregnant, and you wouldn’t think it, she’s still small and it’s been something that has me worrying constantly even though the doctor says it’s perfectly normal. We’ve been on pins and needles the entire pregnancy, I know that Payton has been waiting for something to happen, she was convinced that she’d lose this baby too. Now she’s six months pregnant, and things look really good.
“Pay,” Saya says as she sits beside us, “how are you feeling?”
Cas did come home with Saya. Those two are madly in love and have worked things out. Saya left as she had some medical issues and didn’t want to be a burden on Cas. To say he was pissed is putting it mildly. But thankfully, they resolved things and are happier than they’ve ever been.
Payton sighs as she tries to move, “I’m good, the baby is wreaking havoc on my bladder, though. I’m having to pee every five minutes.”
Saya grimaces, “I don’t envy you, Pay. Are you excited to find out the gender?”
Payton grins, “Yes, what time is the reveal at?”
We haven’t found out the gender, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know, but when Ali and Sarah came to me with an idea, I couldn’t say no. I spoke to Payton about it, and she agreed that finding out the gender in front of our family and friends is the best way to find out.
“Soon,” I tell her, I didn’t think I’d be as nervous as I am now.
“Ladies and gentlemen,” Franny, our wedding planner says, gaining everyone’s attention. “Mr. and Mrs. Miller have a surprise in store.”
Ali and Sarah step forward, both grinning widely. The women went crazy when they found out what we had planned. They wanted to be the one to find out what we were having and plan the surprise. But as Ali and Sarah came up with the idea, Pay and I agreed that they should be the ones to organize it. Bianca was happy with that, she’s been in Maid of honor mode since the get go and has been working tirelessly with Franny, to make sure everything ran smoothly.
“Payton and Silas, we wanted today to be one that you’ll remember forever,” Ali begins, her voice soft as she glances at Payton. I know that she’s been an amazing friend to Payton and helped her when she lost the baby. Since then, they have lunch once a week whenever Pay’s in town.
My girl is still the gorgeous supermodel, but instead of jet setting all over the world each week, she tends to stay close to home unless it’s her favorite designers or photographers then she’ll do her best to be wherever they need her to be.
“Tanya and I went through so many ideas on how to surprise you with this reveal,” Ali continues.
“But leave it to a man to come up with the most simplistic yet perfect way to do it,” Tanya grumbles light heartedly.
Just then, the door opens, and the servers are pushing in our wedding cake. “Once you cut inside the cake, you’ll find out the gender,” Tanya says with a smile, and the room erupts with talking. No one besides our closest friends knew what we had planned.
“Let me guess, it was Jack’s idea?” Ryker asks with a raised brow making Payton giggle. God, I fucking love that sound.
“Of course,” Jack says proudly as he grins at me and raises his glass. The man is still one of the best men that I know, we’re even closer now that our women are friends.
Girl’s night still happens once a month, and its fun to spend the evening with the guys playing poker. It’s a fucking highlight to pick up the girls and find out what state they’re in. I love a drunk Payton, she really needs to let her out more often.
I take Payton’s hand and help her stand, her grip in mine is tight, and I know that she’s extremely nervous. She’s not told me what she thinks we’re having.
Nic hands us a knife, and Payton glances at me, her eyes hold fear, love, and excitement. “Ready, baby?” I murmur as I place a kiss against her head.
“Yes,” she sighs, and we cut into the cake.
When we cut a slice out, I release a breath I didn’t even know I was holding.
PINK. It’s a girl.
“It’s a girl,” Payton says with a bright smile.
We’re swept up in hugs and congratulations.
“Pay,” Bianca says with tears in her eyes once the DJ begins his set. “I love you, girl.”
I glance at Tate when our women begin to cry. Damn it. I can’t stand Payton’s tears.
Payton gasps. “Oh, Bee. Why didn’t you tell me?” She doesn’t sound unhappy, and I’m confused. I glare at Tate when I see the smug grin on his face, and he shrugs at me.
“I didn’t want to spoil your day,” Bianca responds. I feel left out of the loop, what the hell?
“That would never happen, you’re my sister Bee. Always have been, always will be. Are you happy?” Payton asks and we’re joined by Dahlia, Mary, Tyler, and Sebastian.
Bianca nods. “Yeah, the big jerk makes me happy.”
Tate grins. “Hell, yes I do, babe.”
Payton turns to glare at him, even after Bianca and Tate got together, Payton still gives him shit, but I know Tate wouldn’t have it any other way. “You knock up my best friend but don’t marry her?”
Holy shit! Bianca’s pregnant.
Tate looks like a deer caught in headlights. “Um…”
Dahlia laughs when Payton giggles. “I’m so happy for the both of you.” She tells the girls as she sweeps them up into a hug.
Mary moved to Seattle when she turned eighteen, and Dahlia being the awesome aunt that she is, didn’t want the family separated, so she uprooted her life once again and moved her and the boys to Seattle too. The Moore family are happy that they’re all together once again.
“You did good, son,” my dad says as he pats me on my back, while we watch Payton dance with my sister. “We’ve always loved her, I’m glad you two reconnected. Now you’re giving your mother and I the greatest gift. A grandchild.”
I didn’t tell my parents about the miscarriage, we haven’t told many people. I’m not as close to my parents as I once was, and that’s just because life got in the way. I don’t want them to feel the hurt and pain that rocked Payton and I to our very core.
“I’m proud of you, Silas,” Mom whispers as she gently touches my cheek, her eyes filled with tears, as we dance on the dancefloor. Everyone is having a good time, and I don’t think I’ve seen my family as happy as they are now. “I knew that you and Payton were always meant to be, but I don’t think I’ve ever seen you so in love.”
I sweep her up into a hug. “Love you, Mom,” I tell her softly, feeling bad that I haven’t said it in a while.
“Love you too, my darling boy.”
“Mrs. Miller, do you mind if I steal my husband?” Payton asks after my mom and I dance for a couple of songs.
Mom releases me and places a kiss against Payton’s cheek, “For you, wonderful girl, always.”
“What can I help you with Mrs. Miller?” I ask with a grin, I don’t think I’ll ever tire of calling her that.
She stares up at me with lust filled eyes. Damn, this pregnancy has made her hornier than ever. “I need you,” she whispers.
Who am I to deny my wife? I clasp her hand in mine, and drag her out of the reception room.
“Si, everyone’s going to know,” she says quietly.
Like I give a fuck. “And?”
She blushes as I find an empty room for us.
“I love you, Mrs. Miller,” I whisper as I sink inside of her.
She sighs. “And I love you, Mr. Miller.”