Chapter 35 #2
“You weren’t comfortable with it. Is there more to discuss?”
“Yes.” Even though I brought the topic up, I’m not sure what I want to say. “I guess… tell me what that looks like. When you… do that. Specifically, with Felton, since I’m kind of under the impression that’s the only way this happens.”
“Now, yes. Ren being with Felton means he has no desire to have sex with someone else. Since none of us were in a relationship and our group activities only happened when all five of us were involved, and Felton coincidentally had this specific kink, it worked out.”
“But it’s been a while.”
Denny studies me. “Less time than you think, though not since Ty was born.”
I’m about to say something about Sally, but then his words make sense, and I press my lips together. “I see.”
“You think badly of me now?”
“I kind of want to slap you now, but…” I sigh. “I don’t know.”
“We can talk about it if you want, but back to your request. Felton is completely blindfolded. He has a full-face mask—think leather BDSM. There’s an addition of eye covering too.
He doesn’t know who fucks him except that Ren takes him last. We have an order, though I don’t think any of us realized until Ren pointed it out.
Carson first, Zenia, me, Ren, and Kroy last because he has a big fucking dick. ”
“How big are we talking?” I ask, curious.
“Big. Even before I truly questioned my sexuality, I was fascinated by it because it’s so monstrously like nothing I’ve ever seen before.
” Denny laughs quietly. “I was a combination of mortified, terrified, and when I began exploring fucking men after the first gang bang with Felton, I became mildly obsessed with trying it, in no small part because he’s hypnotic in his praise. ”
“I have a lot of follow-up questions,” I note.
“Hold on to them. With Felton, we swapped out the end. Kroy comes before Ren, so Ren takes Felton last. Kind of like reclaiming him. It’s a combination of gang bang and loaning/reclaiming.
We’re all in the same room. Watching, maybe encouraging.
When it’s over, we leave the room and clean up, letting Ren take care of Felton, who tends to fall asleep after. We talk a bit after. Maybe…”
Denny trails off. He’s looking at me, but I don’t think he’s seeing me right now. He’s remembering.
“I guess, in a way, it’s something that’s… sacred to us. It’s only a thing when we all do it together. Until Felton, we haven’t really talked about it specifically in more than a proposition for wanting another. I know it sounds weird, but it… strengthens might not be the right word, but it…”
Once more, his words pause. It’s clear that he’s never tried to talk about this before. Not to someone outside his friends.
“Strengthens is the only word I’m coming up with, though it’s not quite right. Anyway, every time we do this together, it strengthens our relationship. Brings us closer. It’s a feeling more than something like we’re suddenly talking every day or sharing deep, dark secrets. Does that make sense?”
“It does. I think that goes with all kink, to some degree, especially when it’s between couples or, in this case, close friends.
Kink isn’t taboo, like so many ignorant people think.
It’s an exploration of yourself. When you can share something personal and potentially vulnerable with someone you trust, it tends to have that effect on those involved. ”
Denny’s lips hold the hint of a smile. “I appreciate that you understand and aren’t judging me.”
“I’m not judging you. I’m not going to pretend that I’m more than a slightly salted version of vanilla, but I don’t think there’s anything wrong with what other people explore.”
“Everything out of your mouth reminds me how fortunate I am to have you.”
I press my forehead to Denny’s, smiling.
“Why are you asking about this?” Denny asks.
“I’m bothered by the idea that Ren is going to take Felton to a kink club, and maybe I’m the reason.”
“You’re not the reason.”
“I am, whether you want to admit it or not. If you and I weren’t together, you’d have a gang bang with your friends, and Felton would be with people he trusts—even though he doesn’t know it. Now Ren has to find people he doesn’t know or trust to give Felton what he desires and… I hate that.”
“I’m never going to do something that would make you uncomfortable or jeopardize our relationship, Tyler.”
“I know, but… what if… do you think there’d be objections if I wanted to maybe… watch?” The words coming out of my mouth surprise me.
“You think that’s something you want to do?”
I chew my lip. “I want to keep talking about this.”
“Then we’ll keep talking about it.”
“Now let’s go back to my questions. It sounds to me like maybe there’s more to your friendships than you’re letting on. You don’t have a friends-with-benefits groupie from time to time, do you?”
Denny laughs. “No, but I have had sex with Kroy, if that’s what you’re asking. He’s the first and only other guy I’ve bottomed for.”
“The giant dick?” I ask, surprised.
“Yes. He warned me he’s not beginner level, which I could see with my own eyes. But Tyler, his praise is divine.”
“You’re such a slut for sexy words and being told you’re a good boy.”
“For real,” he snorts. “Who fucking knew?”