Chapter 41
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TOBY
The soft click of a door snaps me completely out of pup space as hot coffee shop owner guy starts taking off my mitts. I look around the room and panic starts to kick in. Where is Shiloh? Where did he go?
I guess my body has taken over for a second because strong arms wrap around me to hold me still.
“I’ll check on him, Pup. Just go ahead and get your other mitt off and finish getting changed.”
I rush through pulling off the rest of my kit and throw it haphazardly into my bag. The only things left are my tail and my jock, but I can’t wait any longer.
Waddling over to the door, I’m trying to extract my tail from my ass at the same time as I’m begging my best friend to not leave me. Fuck what I said before. Doctor Monroe is right. I am terrified of losing Shiloh the same way I lost my mother. What if he wakes up one day and doesn’t love me anymore ?
“I’m fine, Tobe,” Shiloh’s soft voice carries through the door.
He’s not fine.
I look at coffee shop guy. Damn, I should really remember his name. He gives me a look of concern before he pats me on the head and steps over to the landline phone on the wall of the room.
Shiloh said he needed to pee, but I don’t hear it. All I hear is the sounds that would wake me up in the middle of the night. My best friend is in pain and trying to hide it from me.
Fuck it. I’m breaking down the door.
Stepping back, I get in position to ram it when a hand comes down on my shoulder.
“Theo is coming with the key, Toby. He’ll be alright.”
The look in his eyes is just as tortured as I’m sure mine are. Has he been cuddling Shiloh back to sleep when the nightmares hit?
Part of me is jealous that he gets to hold my kitten, but a much bigger part of me is relieved to know that Shiloh has someone big and strong to protect him and look after him.
“I tried so hard,” I mumble as I fall to my knees. “Why am I never good enough?”
Shiloh’s gasp of pain has me jumping to my feet, but Theo rushes into our room with Clarence and the master key for the bathroom. I’m being held back by the arms of the man I am giving my best friend to when the door opens and I howl out my pain.