15~ The Stupidest Man Ever
ADHYAY
After witnessing Akriti and that man together, my heart broke.
I knew it was going to happen and yet I couldn't save myself.
She would never choose me, I'm not made for her.
Her ideal choice will be something more handsome and wealthy and I don't fit into that category.
One thing I'm sure of is that no one would choose a man like me whose career can't guarantee time for family.
I heartbrokenly sat in my cabin and finally came to a conclusion of maintaining professionalism with her.
She is just my sister's best friend and now my patient, nothing more and nothing less.
There should be nothing from my side that gives her wrong messages.
From now on, I'll treat her formally like I treat other of my acquaintances.
I should save myself from breaking to an extent that can't be healed.
I sighed and called my best friend who returned back today. I missed him so much! I have a lot of things to dump on him and now only he can act as my stress buster.
Adrija barged in through the door and folding her arms, glared at me.
"What did you do now?", she yelled.
"What what? I did nothing okay!', I calmly replied and typed on my laptop.
Honestly, I was not even a bit interested in preparing the PPT and reports but I was doing it for the sake of distracting myself.
The image of her and that man repeatedly flashed before me and more than anger, I felt like a failure.
"Akriti is cursing you stupid! Why the hell did you spoil everything?", Adrija roared. I rolled my eyes and yelled, "GO TAKE HER SIDE! YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND ME".
She gasped and yelled, "I WON'T UNDERSTAND YOU? DID YOU DRINK STUPID? I AM TRYING TO GET YOU GUYS TOGETHER!"
"Well Adrija! Nothing was between us and nothing will be. I'll move on now. I'm done waiting for her!"
Her eyes widened and she clutched my shoulders, looking straight in my eyes.
"You gave up this early? What happened huh? Can't you see that she likes you? What happened to my brother who gave his philosophies about love? I didn't expect this yaar".
"I wish I could believe you but I don't want to get heartbroken now. I'm so done. It was my mistake and now I'm correcting it. Sorry Adrija", I truthfully said and started my work again, trying not to look in her eyes.
Akriti is the only woman I ever loved and I don't think that I'll love anyone else in this lifetime.
A part of me wants to go to her, and tell her that I love her but I don't want to spoil whatever is left between us.
She likes that man and I'm not a villain.
If it's what keeps her happy, then let it be.
Maybe, I have someone else waiting for me.
Really? You think you'll be able to love a woman who is not Akriti?.
No! I can't. My whole existence starts with her and ends with her.
She has become the reason why my heart pumps.
She might not speak a lot but her actions steal my breath.
I have known her since I was five. She was three then and the cutest of all.
With her pigtails and a pout, she managed to steal my heart.
During school, I knowingly used to go to meet Adrija so that I could see Akriti as these two always stuck together.
Everytime I would notice how Akriti used to squirm on her seat when I visited their classroom.
I was her best friend's elder brother after all.
She was a straight A student and I was elated when I came to know that she was in the school council as well.
That was well when she was in class 9th.
I was elected as the head boy the very same year.
Whenever there was a school council meeting, more than taking part in the discussions, I would gaze at her.
She would wound everyone with her words.
A great debater indeed. It was not her physical beauty for which I fell, I fell for her soul.
She made a permanent place in my heart. She spoke less but whenever she would, I would find myself getting lost in her mellifluous voice.
Her big brown eyes, her black curly hair, her pink lips, the tiny mole under her lips, everything.
The way she used to pout when she would get angry, how she used to smile when Adrija would crack any joke, how she loved teasing Yash, everything.
I remember everything just like it happened yesterday.
How can I forget about my first and last love?
Even in medical college when boys started making girlfriends, my thoughts were only conquered by her.
My only goal was to study hard and then one day confess to her about my feelings.
But that's not gonna happen now. I need to move on!
She has nothing for me and will never. She thinks me of just as a friend or maybe less.
She told me to confess my feelings to the one I love but she doesn't knows it's her!
I have just loved her for my whole life and I don't know to stop myself, erase these feelings and move on from her.
I groaned and banged my head on the table.
I can't get her out of my brain when she has acquired the whole of my body with her charm unknowingly.
That woman doesn't know how she affects every cell of my body.
Today, I had to act cold with her, because I am terrified that she'll grow closer than she already is and then break my heart.
My heart is her slave and this slave yearns for her presence even when I know that she can never be mine. We don't belong with each other. Our world's are poles apart and I don't deserve her.
"Aur bhai, ab kya kaand Kar diya tune?",
I heard the playful voice of my best friend who was standing with his arms crossed on the doorway.
(What did you do brother?)
"I didn't do anything dude", I irritatedly said and threw the reports at him. He catched them and with a smirk sat on the visitor's chair.
"Every criminal says that brother", he mocked and started checking the reports. I rolled my eyes and replied, "Yeah of course".
"Your sister says otherwise. I heard that you made Akriti angry", he stated with a sly smile. He loves seeing me in misery.
"From your wife", I completed his statement and he nodded.
Despite being my sister, she'll always take her side.
Why? Because according to her, men are always wrong.
I don't blame her, majority of them are but I'm not wrong here.
Akriti is confused and making me confused as well.
One moment she's crying on some other man's shoulder and the other she's expecting me to comfort her.
"I know women are difficult to understand but why the hell are you giving up on her? You love her na", Yash said. I sighed and told him the whole story, but he at last laughed, making me mad at him.
"Dude! Did you ask her? Did you ask if she likes that tissue paper?".
Yash questioned and I shook my head.
"You know you are the stupidest man alive Adhyay haha", Yash laughed and pulled my cheeks. I angrily snapped away his hands and yelled, "She likes him stupid!".
"No idiot! Haha you are so so so stupid!
She was emotional and in the heat of that, she needed someone to share her worries with.
And she did, that doesn't mean that she likes him.
Okay tell me, if she doesn't like you like you claim that why did it affect her?
Why did she feel sad when you behave "professionally" with her?
Because she likes you duffer! She doesn't know it yet", Yash said in between his laughs while I listened to him dumbfoundedly.
I never thought that way! That means I still have a chance to win her heart.
But wait! How should I apologise? I have hurt her a lot and I even forgot to give her lunch. Wouldn't it be awkward if I just go to her, hand her the tiffin and say sorry? My worst assumption is that she'll take out her shoes and hit me with them. No no! I can't do that!
"Now if your highness has understood, go and Apologise.", Yash said and I nodded. Taking out the lunch box from my bag and shutting down the laptop, I rushed towards the ward where I'll find her.
I entered the ward and saw both the mother and daughter sleeping. I smiled and kept the lunch box on the table. Taking out a prescription paper from my pocket and a Peirre Cardin pen, I wrote "Lunch for you. Eat properly".
I didn't write my name because I wanted to see if she could guess it and went from there whistling my favourite tunes.
I looked at my digital smart watch and found that it was already 12.
Today I have to visit the orphanage in which my sweet baby lives.
In the past few weeks, I have developed a huge liking for Amayra and her friends.
I am almost tempted to adopt Amayra but I can't now especially when I have not confessed to Akriti.
I hope Akriti forgive me for the mistake I have done today.
I want to patch up with he and do whatever she says.
I'll comfort her if she wants me to, I'll listen to everything she says, I just want her to be with me.