Chapter 53 – Asmodeus #3
“Who has stayed in this world to protect our offspring, to watch over you, to fight for you even though you hate me? It wasn’t him.
He hasn’t spent a solitary day being a father.
He feels nothing but directive. I do! I have done everything for you.
I understand, you’ll never love me, but I will never give up.
I will love you till this world ceases to exist and the Light starts over, a day which will come soon enough. ”
She slaps me across the face. “He gave up his light for me! How dare you? Everything you do is to serve yourself!”
I grab her face in my palms again. She doesn’t struggle but anger flairs deep in her eyes.
“You keep saying it, but that doesn’t make it true, Lilith.
I will only tell you this one more time.
Samael never gave up his light for you. He’s still celestial.
He is death. I can’t give up my light for you because it’s what gives me the power to protect our children.
It’s how I could find our grandson’s mate.
The ichor is what brings you back. My light is the power to heal them, to save you. I cannot give it up.”
I place my hand over her heart, where my crescent moon mark shimmers. It was a gift to her when she left, a promise of my love, but she’s always deemed it a curse. Sometimes I wish I could go back to then and change things. If she loved me sooner, maybe we’d still be there now.
There’s a single moment when she looks like she feels more than hatred for me. I wish I knew what it was. I wish I knew that emotion. I wish I could tease it out of her. I wish it was love.
Lilith forces me down to the table and though I could fight her, I don’t.
I give in to her anger. I allow her to manhandle me.
The way her hips slide down my body is sexual and for a moment I believe she may finally believe me.
If hope made things right, she would never have slept. She would be with me.
She grabs my hands in her own and draws them taut over my head. My halo flickers and reacts to Lilith. Her tits are near my face. I wish I could wrap my lips around them and suckle her. It makes me think of the old days and how often she used to come with my mouth on them.
“Still so pretty, Asmodeus. Some say Lucy is the most beautiful, but I never agreed. I think you are the finest, most handsome of all. The Light knew what lust should be and they gave you the most beautiful face, the most beautiful body with the greatest cock ever known, and it has been well known, hasn’t it,” she purrs, then slides down my waist, placing her sex over me.
I’m surprised by her wetness. I’m surprised she’ll touch me at all after I said anything negative about Samael. “It was well loved by you for a while,” I tell her. Once upon a time, I spent all my nights inside her.
Lilith smiles darkly. “That it was. Will you let me love it now?”
“I’m yours.” I look up into her gorgeous green eyes that darken with lust. “Have me.”
There’s no foreplay, no loving distractions.
I know what she’s doing. She’s going to torture me with her body.
She’ll take her pleasure, then leave me.
I deserve this. I deserve the pain she’ll leave me with because I have caused her pain.
I give her my willful surrender anyway because I can’t help myself. I am lust. I am hers.
Lilith raises her hips over mine, my cock standing straight up since her weight is no longer holding it down, then she sinks onto my tip. I hiss as her cool core envelopes and spasms around me.
“New jewelry?” she questions when she feels the first barbell sink inside her. Her back arches up as she lets my wrists go. She looks down between our bodies, where she slides onto me.
“One for every century you slept. You weren’t here to punish me, so I had to do it myself. Do you like it?”
Lilith doesn’t answer. She stays bent, watching herself take me.
I’m not in my full angelic form because it’s hard to hold it in this plane.
I’m not small by any means. Even in a more human-sized form, I’m much larger than most of them.
I’m lust, and I’m endowed with a very impressive cock. That’s not me bragging, it’s the truth.
“It’s been so long, my love.”
Lilith’s head pops up, and I finally get to see myself entering her. Each ring gets tugged as it enters her, causing the slightest pain.
“Does it hurt?” she asks as she slides down my cock, sinking down over the next one. She tilts her head back and moans.
“Hurts so bad, Lilith. Hurt me some more,” I beg, knowing how wet it always makes her for me to beg. Oh, how she loves to torture me.
She’s only fallen down over six barbells, but she lifts up anyway to the very tip. Her head tilts forward, eyes wide, and she slams her body down hard, taking me to the root. She screams because it hurts her.
My jaw clenches, my breath coming painfully fast. Lilith’s fingernails dig into the flesh of my chest as she lifts herself again and slams down. She closes her eyes, unable to look at me. She batters her body with mine, using my cock as the blade to hurt herself.
Tears fill my eyes. “It doesn’t have to hurt,” I tell her.
Just to prove me wrong, she slams down doubly hard and shakes with the pain of it. The next time she lifts up, I see her blood shimmer with ichor on my cock. I break loose from her thrall and grab her hips. I steady her, but I don’t try to control her. No one controls Lilith.
“The act shouldn’t hurt you, my love. It should never hurt.”
Her body slides slowly down my shaft again.
Bloody tears that shimmer with glitter fall over her cheeks when she looks at me.
“My body or my heart, it always hurts. You do this to me, Asmodeus. You see this pain, but you wake me up anyway. You hurt me so much,” she cries.
“What did I ever do to you to deserve this? Why can’t you let me go? ”
Lilith shakes like a human who’s freezing out in the elements. I wrap my arms around her, clinging to her. She doesn’t hug me back, she would never, not anymore.
“I’m sorry. I’ll beg the Light to forgive you, to free you. I’ll release you. I’m sorry.” My heart breaks as I say the words. I remove my arms from her body and try to pull away, but she stops me.
“You’ll ask them for my end?” she asks with a hope in her eyes I despise. “You will gift me with my end.”
I shake my head. “I can’t, Lilith. Don’t ask me to do that.”
“Why?” she asks, confused. I don’t understand how she doesn’t get it.
“Lilith, I know you don’t believe me, but I love you.
Please remember that I loved you back then.
I love you now. My love for you has never once wavered.
I may have screwed up time and time again, but my love remains.
I have loved you from the moment you were created, before you were given the breath of life.
When I am gone, my love will still echo in the chaos.
You may yet get a way out, but I will never be free of you. ”
Lilith rears back and slaps me across the face again. “Why do you still lie to me?”
“You and I both know I can’t lie. I may be able to omit things, to circle the truth, but I’m no liar!”
“You are! You promised you would not wake me. You promised,” she screams in my face, her cheeks turning red, her body heating up. “If you break a promise, it is a lie.”
“I promised to only wake you if our children were in danger. I promised only if they needed you. I let you sleep for a thousand years. Even when your children suffered, I let you sleep, and I did what I could, but I can’t fight what’s coming alone.
We need you. The Fata claims we must fight together, all of us, or we die. ”
Lilith snarls at me. “I hate you, Asmodeus! I hate you.”
“You already know what my feelings are. I love you with my entire self. I love you infinitum. I’m truly sorry I hurt you. If I had a soul, it would belong to you, just as my heart belongs only to you.”
Lilith slams her fist through my sternum, snapping bones and ripping organs. She could have gone up through my abdomen, but she chose the most painful path into my chest cavity. It won’t kill me, but it’s very painful nonetheless. I swallow the cry that wants to bellow from my lips.
“Take it. I told you it was yours. It belongs only to you,” I tell her, through painful breaths that don’t fully inflate my lungs.
I grab her head and yank her forward. I slam my lips against hers.
Lilith opens for me and it’s the most spectacular kiss.
She fucks my mouth with her tongue as she holds my still beating heart in one of her cruel hands.
She slides her thumb over the organ lovingly and I think Lilith might love me. There is hope!
The moment she yanks her body away from mine, she smiles like a devil. I smile back feeling like a winner. I have fought and won the greatest battle. Lilith still loves me!
“I love you, Lilith,” I growl a second before she tears my heart out through cracked and splintered ribs.
I have only a few precious moments before my system shuts down entirely, entering a sort of stasis where my light can repair this body.
I watch her twisted smile get bigger as she licks the golden ichor from the meat of my heart.
There’s a moment of awed rapture on her face before she tears into it, her body shivering with a sick kind of excitement.
She doesn’t look away, not once does her gaze falter, as she sucks my heart’s blood into her mouth, using my torn aorta like a straw.
I use up the rest of my strength to grin at her. How I love her beautiful cruelty. I love this fucking woman.