Chapter 26
Killian
Celani stares at me, biting into her lower lip as I finish my reps and set the heavy weights in my hands down.
Celani watches with great interest the entire time, while Shadow only lasted about five minutes before his head began drooping, and he fell asleep.
We haven’t gone out much the past two days because I don’t feel secure having her out almost anywhere right now.
Even though I was waiting for Lucian to come into town, part of me felt bad having her stuck around the estate.
I know that even with our walks, and her starting to spend time with Jules and Asher when she comes to the guest house, she doesn’t have the freedom that she used to.
Having Shadow with her all the time has definitely helped her mood when I’m not around. She’s been so good with him, and so naturally maternal. Seeing how wonderful of a mother she could be, and remembering that she may never experience motherhood the way she wants to makes my chest ache for her.
I look at her now and see her brown eyes move over my bare pecks, then down my abs, not hiding her admiration. The way she looks at me is enough motivation to keep me pushing my body to its limits each day.
“Stop staring at me like I’m a piece of meat,” I tease, wiping my face with a hand towel. “I’m a real person with feelings, you know.”
She giggles and her brown eyes dance with mischief.
“I can’t help it. You’re just so damn hot, Kill,” she sighs dreamily.
“Not as hot as you, baby. And with the way you’ve been feeding me I’ve gotta keep working out hard,” I say, patting my abs.
She laughs moving to stand up from the couch as she cradles Shadow in her arms. She steps in front of me and places a hand on my chest.
“God forbid you gain the tiniest bit of fat. I wouldn’t want to mess up your reputation, Hulk.”
I smile down at her and shake my head. “Hulk, huh?” I ask, bending down and lifting her and Shadow up with one arm.
“Let us down!” She squeals, laughing. “You’re so sweaty!”
“I guess you better come help me shower then,” I say, taking her down the hallway with me.
She stops struggling and gives me a lopsided grin. “Really?”
I chuckle at the quick turnaround in her mood. “Really.”
We go into the bedroom and I take Shadow and put him into his carrier, then get a fresh black uniform to put on when we’re done. I take her hand and walk her with me to the bathroom.
I set down my clothes, and when I turn around she is standing behind me fidgeting with her pajama shirt and eyeing me. I step in front of her and take her face in my hands, leaning down to give her a slow kiss. She wraps her arms around my waist and sighs softly.
I pull back after a few minutes of ravishing her mouth and we hold each other’s gaze. The vulnerable look on her face makes my stomach tie into a knot.
The words I’ve been waiting to say for days come spilling out of me.
“I need you to know that whatever happens, I’m not going anywhere,” I say, my voice quiet but assured.
“I want you, Celani. Not just your body, but every single part of you. I’ve never felt this way about anyone, or opened up to someone the way I have with you,” I profess, my hands shaking as they snake into her curls. “And I know I won’t ever again.”
Her beautiful eyes turn glossy with tears, and she lets out a broken laugh.
“I’m so glad you said that because I have had so many doubts in my mind lately. I feel like I’m going crazy,” she says hoarsely.
I kiss her forehead and press mine against hers.
“Doubt anything but me, baby. I’m here and I’m not going to let you down,” I promise her.
She smiles up at me, and I wipe the tear that falls down her sweet face.
“I won’t let you down either, Kill. I care about you so much,” she responds, her eyes searching mine. “What else is there? I could tell when you were working out that there is something heavy on your mind.”
I furrow my eyebrows wondering how she can read me so well. I stroke her hair knowing that for her continued trust I need to be completely honest with her.
“I’m meeting my contact tonight. He has a hit on something with Pierce. He didn’t give specifics when he spoke to Davi about it because he doesn’t discuss things over the phone. But I’ll know more for you by tomorrow,” I explain.
I try to keep my tone calm as I continue. “If something is brewing the way I think it is, you may not be able to stay here any longer, Celani. My team has already started preparing in case we need to leave. Malakai is securing us a safe house.”
Her mouth falls open and she goes from confusion to anger in an instant.
“A-what are you talking about? A safe house? That son of a bitch! What has Pierce done?” she raves. “What is happening to my life, Kill?”
I wrap my arms around her and hold her tightly trying to calm her down. “Whatever he has gotten into you will be safe, baby. This is what my team and I are trained to do. Find threats and eliminate them. Please, let me hold the stress and worry for you, ok?”
She looks up at me and the anger slowly disappears from her expression. She lets out a shaky breath and rubs a hand over her face.
“Ok. I understand. And I’m ready for whatever we need to do next,” she says determinedly.
I nod, giving her a small smile. “That’s my girl.”
I reach down and unbutton the front of her pajama shirt. I slip it off of her before kissing her bare shoulders one at a time. I trail kisses up her neck and hook my hands into the sides of her pajama pants, pulling them down.
I discard my gym shorts and turn on the shower making sure it’s warm enough before guiding her inside. I wash her first, gently moving my soap all over her body, thrilled in some twisted, territorial, way that she will smell like me for the rest of the day.
Thoughts like this are so foreign to me, but I swear since the day I’ve met her I’ve been slowly losing my mind with the craziest feelings. She’s made me a different kind of monster than the one I have a reputation for being.
But I’m all hers.
When I finish she insists on helping me too, but soon enough we’ve forgotten all about getting clean.
Her eyes drink me in, taking in every inch of me that I’ve never shown her. My hands find her waist and I lean down to kiss her, our tongues tangling together.
I take two handfuls of her ass and drag her closer to me, groaning as my hard length presses against her stomach. I growl as her hand slides down in between us and she wraps her fingers around me, tentatively at first before she finds a slow, torturous rhythm.
“Fuck,” I grunt, looking down at her as she gives me a satisfied smile, knowing exactly how insane she is driving me.
I kiss her again and her hand grips my cock with even more confidence, squeezing as she glides up and down faster. My hands venture away from her ass, one going to tease her nipples, while the other dives in between her legs.
Being here with her and tasting her sweet lips, while I feel her touch me for the first time has my senses in overdrive. I know from the second her fingers wrap around my swollen cock that I won’t last five minutes.
And I don’t.
“Baby,” I groan, against her lips. “Come with me.”
I rub my thumb faster against her clit and slip a finger inside of her pussy. She hisses, and her grip on my cock tightens at the same time her pussy squeezes my fingers.
“Come on, baby. Give me what I want,” I urge, trying to keep focus as I feel myself about to plummet over the edge.
She pushes up on her toes helping me to reach the perfect spot she needs inside of her.
We both let out a satisfied moan, and my eyes lose focus as I start to come.
I let out a string of curses, curling my fingers inside of her and pressing her back against the wall.
My cum spurts out all over her hand and she looks down at it as if it’s the most fascinating thing she’s ever seen.
“Look at me,” I rasp, and her brown eyes shoot up to mine.
I keep my eyes locked on hers as I fuck her faster with my fingers, watching her with rapt attention until her full lips form into an ‘O’.
Her pussy locks around my fingers and she whines as she comes.
I lean down and swallow her moans with my mouth, my cock twitching as I feel her satisfied pussy fluttering around my fingers.
Her eyes close and her body goes slack. I pull my fingers slowly out of her and place my hands on her hips to steady her.
“Easy, baby. I’ve got you,” I murmur, reaching a hand back to shut off the water.
I take her out and wrap a towel around her, and then one around my waist before wrapping her in a hug. She holds on to me tightly and we stay there letting our racing hearts calm down.
I think about our conversation, and finally telling her exactly how I feel about her. I kiss her on the forehead and hope that she truly knows that I meant every word I said to her.
I won’t let her down.