Chapter Thirty-Four
TOREN
Xaden hasn’t spoken a word to me since we left the gym. Honestly, I’m glad because I have no idea what the hell to say to him. I rest my head back against the headrest and close my eyes. Her face flashes behind my closed lids and I smile as a memory of me and Em plays through my mind.
“Tor, stop pouting,” she scolds me.
“I can’t help it. It’s my birthday and they haven’t called.” Tears shine in my eyes. Em leans across my bed and cups my cheek.
“Family can be chosen,” she says quietly.
“What does that mean?”
“It means just because you were born a Kellar doesn’t mean you will remain one. One day you will find someone to spend the rest of your life with and then you will take his name. He will be your family and fill the void they left inside you.”
“I found someone—” Em narrows her eyes, making me sigh and clamp my mouth closed.
“That boy Kellan doesn’t deserve you. He is looking for a princess in need of saving, not a queen willing to fight by his side. Find your king, Tor, and he will make all of this seem like a distant memory because he will treat you like the queen that you are.”
When the car jerks to a stop, I snap my eyes open and frown at the sight of the rink in front of us. I look over at Xaden to find him already looking at me with a dark look in his eyes. I shift in my seat, feeling suddenly cornered and caged.
“Defy me one more time and this is where your ass will end up.” My brows leap to my hairline at his threat.
“Meek came to me,” I defend.
“Shut the fuck up,” he shouts. I recoil into the door and stare at him in fear.
He may have never outright confirmed the rumors about him and his family but I see it.
The darkness in his eyes calls to a part of me deep inside that refuses to acknowledge its existence.
“I don’t give a fuck if he came to you. Next time, you call me.
If you see your brother or him, you fucking call me. ”
“Why the hell do you fucking care?” I scream at him, then shrink back into my seat when his features blank and an unreadable look cements itself on his face. He pulls his phone out of his pocket and tosses it onto my lap. I jolt like it burned me.
“Call your brother,” he snaps. I frown over at him.
“Call him now and then I’ll leave you alone, Tink.
You can go back to living in your gilded cage where they make all your decisions for you and you can let that little cunt Kellan between your legs like Daddy wants.
” I strike out without thought and slap him.
My shock lasts two seconds before his hand is gripping my throat and my head smacks against the window as he leans over me, getting right in my face.
“You ever fucking touch me again and I’ll kill you. ”
“Do it!” I scream right in his face. “I want you to. End my fucking misery now and snap my fucking neck.” He remains where he is, glaring at me, not moving an inch.
“Fucking do it, Xaden!” I scream. I was never on watch at Walter House.
I didn’t want to die, I just wanted to escape that hell but now, I just want all of it to end.
I just want to not think!
I don’t want to fucking feel anything except… Him.
Without thinking, I push forward and mesh my lips to his.
I fully expect him to push me away and turn me down, until he forces his tongue inside my mouth and kisses me back.
I wrap my arms around his neck, holding him close, needing him to make me forget.
I just want to focus on how he can make me feel and not think about anything else.
I want him to replace the misery and despair inside me and replace it with him.
I want him to consume me, force my focus to remain on him and only him.
He grips my waist and lifts me out of my seat so I’m straddling his lap.
My ass presses into the horn, making me jerk forward which just causes me to grind down on his hard length.
He groans into my mouth which just sends liquid pooling between my thighs.
Thanks to him being in such a bad mood after we left the gym, we’re both still in the same clothes.
I run my fingers through his hair, loving the feeling of the strands.
He bites down on my lower lip, making me whimper.
When he releases me, I draw back and stare down at him panting.
Now that the spell of the kiss is broken, I wait for him to shove me off his lap.
Instead, he yanks the front of my sports bra down, then sucks my nipple into his mouth.
I arch my back forward as a scream tears out of me.
Pleasure rolls through me and doesn’t stop until it reaches my pussy.
Xaden growls in annoyance, then grips the front of my bra and tears it down the middle, making me gasp.
He wraps his arms around me and pulls me in closer as he switches sides and I cry out again.
We’re in a parking lot and anyone could see us but I don’t care.
I fucking need this, I need the blissed out state of mind only he can give me.
He scrapes his teeth along my nipple, making me pant.
When he reaches between our bodies and cups my pussy, I jerk in response.
He rubs me through the thin fabric of my shorts, my body responding on its own accord. I begin to grind against his fingers, chasing that feeling of pleasure. He releases my nipple with a wet pop and looks up at me with a dark hunger in his eyes.
“That’s it, Tink, show me how much you want me.
” His words are like a match, they set the fire inside me ablaze.
I reach for the hem of his shirt and lift it, forcing him to stop stroking my clit so I can strip him down and feel the heat of his flesh against mine.
The second it’s off, I toss it to the side and his fingers are back to circling my sensitive pussy.
“Xaden,” I moan as I feel my arousal begin to soak through my panties and shorts.
I gasp loudly when he grips the front of my shorts with both hands and rips a hole in the center of them.
I want to snap at him but when he pushes my panties to the side and glides a finger over my opening, I go silent as a tremor of pleasure rolls through me.
I drop my head back and moan when he pushes a finger inside me.
It’s sore and tender, but with how turned on I am I don’t give a fuck. I’ll deal with the pain later, because right now, I just need to keep his hands on me and make me feel alive.
“Fuck, Tink. You’re soaked.” I loll my head forward and peer down at him through glazed eyes and nod.
An evil smirk graces his beautiful face, he looks triumphant and proud that he’s got me in a frenzy.
“Look at the good little princess of Somerset, in the parking lot, riding the devil of Stormsend’s finger like a naughty girl. ”
“Oh fuck,” I cry out when he curls that finger inside me and presses the pad of his thumb against my clit.
“Oh, I plan to fuck you. Right here out in the open for anyone to see, so they will fucking know you belong to me, Tink.”
“Yes,” I pant as I ride his hand like a fucking pro bull rider.
“Who the fuck does this pussy belong to?”
“Oh, God!” I cry out.
“No the fuck it doesn’t belong to him!” he snaps. “Tell me who the fuck it belongs to, Toren, or I stop,” he growls in a harsh tone, forcing me from my blissed out feeling to focus on him.
“You. It belongs to you,” I say in a pleading tone.
“You ever let any other cunt touch what’s mine again and I’ll kill them while you watch.
” His words should be like a bucket of ice water but they aren’t, his dominance sets me off and sends me hurtling over the cliff of sweet fucking oblivion.
I come so fucking forcefully that I scream his name and shake uncontrollably, as I soak his fingers with my cum.
Xaden doesn’t release me from the clutches of euphoria, instead he continues to stroke me slowly, making me ride out every last second of my release.
When he finally removes his fingers, I want to flop forward and burrow my face in the crook of his neck, but then he reaches into his pants and pulls his cock free. I stare down at it in intimidation, riding his fingers was one thing but riding his dick is another.
“I don’t—”
“You telling me no, Tink?” he hisses.
I meet his eyes and bite down on my lip and shake my head. “I… You know—”
“Spit it the fuck out so I can sink my cock inside you,” he snaps.
I swallow my shame as I admit. “I don’t know what to do,” I whisper and drop my chin to my chest to avoid looking at him.
He grips my chin and forces my head up, the anger in his gray eyes has me tensing in anticipation. “Put my cock inside you.”
“Xaden—”
“Shut the fuck up and do as you’re told.
” His words lack the heat they normally hold.
I sigh and push up as best as I can onto my knees in the confined space and grip him.
He hisses when I wrap my hand around his shaft.
A rush of pride rolls through me at his reaction.
I tentatively line him up with my entrance, then flick my gaze back to his for guidance.
“Slowly sink down onto me,” he grits out as if in pain.
I rest my hands on the tops of his shoulders as I slowly slide down his shaft.
Heat engulfs me as the burning begins to make its presence known.
There’s a bite of pain as he begins to stretch me out and starts to fill me.
I want to stop and tell him I can’t. As if he knows where my thoughts have gone he grips my face between his hands, then drags my lips to his and distracts me with a kiss that has my toes curling.
Lust twists inside my gut, making my want more evident as I slowly sink onto him with ease.
He’s gliding inside me like he belongs there.
Moans tumble out of me repeatedly as I take every fucking inch of him.
I can feel how tense he is beneath me. I know this must be hell for him and the fact he is letting me take control and set the pace means a lot to me.
When I sink the remainder of the way onto him, we both cry out.
Xaden smacks his head back against the headrest and screws his eyes closed, then breathes in and out harshly.
“Are you okay?” I ask breathlessly.
He snaps his eyes open and scowls up at me. “Your pussy is wrapped around me like a fucking vice. What do you think?”
I frown. “Is that bad?”
He snorts out a laugh. “It means it’s fucking good, Tink. I’ma need you to start fucking moving or I’m gonna lose my fucking mind.” I beam, only to have the smile wiped from my face when he thrusts up, making me moan. “Bounce up and down,” he grits out through clenched teeth.
I follow his instructions and instantly gasp.
Holy shit, this feels so different from how it did last night.
He feels so much deeper from this position.
His hands grip my waist and help guide me up and down.
As pleasure starts to make itself known, I dig my nails into his shoulders, making him hiss but he doesn’t tell me to stop.
I kind of like causing him pain and from the way my pussy flutters, I think it's safe to say she likes it too.
“Slam that cunt down hard,” he snaps. I do as he says and scream when he hits that fucking sweet spot inside me that is still sensitive from the orgasm he gave me.
Need overrides all my thoughts as the frenzy to come overwhelms me.
I rip his hands off my waist and move them so they are cupping my tits.
His brows raise, but he says nothing as I keep bouncing up and down on him.
The whole car is shaking and the windows are fogged up, which only serves to turn me on more at the prospect of people knowing that we are fucking.
I want everyone to know that it’s me fucking him.
Xaden is a god among our peers and it’s clear for anyone to see that.
I want every girl at Stormsend to know he’s fucking me. Not them.
“Xaden, I… I—”
“I got you, come for me, Tink,” he growls as he starts thrusting inside me, forcing me to take him deeper.
The change in tempo is what sets me off.
He grips my waist again and holds me in place as he slams into me.
The orgasm appears out of nowhere and has me clamping down on him and screaming his name like a lioness marking her territory.
Unable to remain upright as the aftershocks roll through me, I flop forward and bury my face in his neck as he continues to slam inside me, making me moan and forcing me to weather the storm that is Xaden Devlin.
“Fuck, Tink,” he roars as he comes inside me, making me shiver at the feeling of having a part of him inside me.
He groans when he is finished and melts into his seat.
Our breaths are the only sounds inside the car.
His arms remain banded around me like an anchor, keeping me from slipping away into my own mind where I'm a prisoner that can’t escape the horrors of my past.