Chapter 14
STYXX
“We didn’t use protection,” Hope murmurs from the passenger seat.
“I know I didn’t use a condom.” I blow out a breath, knowing I should kick myself. “It’s not the first time I took you without one.” This morning I did it, then repeated it a couple more times before thinking about it.
“I’m not on birth control.” The admission is like a kick in the teeth, yet I honestly don’t care. I want her tied to me in every way possible. When it comes to Hope, I’m finding I wouldn’t mind seeing her round with my kid.
As much as I love and adore my daughter, I’m glad I’m not raising her with Monica. I won’t say hurtful things to her about her mother, but there’s no love lost when it comes to the woman.
If something happened to Hope, I’d lose it, and I know it.
Something Scythe and I learned from our folks, and I remember it like it was yesterday, is the love they had for each other.
My dad told us just days before they were killed, ‘When you find the one, you know it in your heart deep down. You can fight it, but it’s there, and it won’t go away.
Grasp tight to it and don’t let go’. It was a lesson I’m seeing now, and I know exactly what he meant.
So, I’m holding on every way I possibly can.
“You good with me not using a condom?” I ask as I glance in her direction briefly before focusing back on the road leading to the clubhouse.
Tonight, when I left, I brought my truck since the bike was still at the house. I hadn’t wanted to go home and get it. It would have taken me more time, and I would have missed what happened at Keeper’s Temptation with that other stripper. I hadn’t liked what I’d seen and knew it was fucked.
Still, Hope had to be punished for striking another employee, and I did it in the best of ways.
She was mine after all. I surely enjoyed it, and I know without a doubt she had too.
I didn’t need to feel how wet she’d been for me by the time I got inside her to get just how much she wanted it.
It’d been in the way her eyes had dilated, and lust seemed to combust from her with the need to be fucked.
“I don’t think it’s a good idea,” Hope whispers, shifting in her seat, eyes on me. “I don’t have my life under control right now. I’m taking care of my sister and we . . . we just started this.”
I could understand where she’s coming from, but it wasn’t going to stop me. I like the feel of her pussy without barriers.
“We might have just started out, Hope, but I know what I want.” I reach out to squeeze her hand. “We’ll do what makes you comfortable, but I’ll admit, I like taking you bare. Never did that with another woman. Not even Eabha’s mother.”
“Condoms aren’t foolproof,” she mutters.
“No, they’re not,” I agree.
“Can we just use them for now, and I’ll talk to my doctor about birth control?”
“You could already be pregnant,” I point out, turning into the club’s property.
The gate swings open, with the prospect manning it.
I park exactly where I’d been early, shut my truck off, and look to my woman.
“I’ll do what you want, mo chathú. We’ll be more cautious for the time being, but the fact remains, it’s still a possibility that after the times I took you without a condom today, you could be carrying my kid.
It’s still in the time frame you can do one of those—”
“I don’t believe in those things,” she blurts out. “I wouldn’t take one of those Plan B things.”
The tension that had wanted to seep in eases at her words. Thank fuck.
“I’ll wait and see, but until then . . .”
I grin and tug her over the console and into my lap.
“Until then, it’s wait and see. I gotta admit, I said I’d wear one and I will.
However, I can say I won’t look at my restraint on my control where I take you as I want.
Seems when it comes to you, I break my very own rules when it comes to sex.
I’ve never not worn a condom. The feel of your sweet pussy wrapped tight around me, squeezing me without that barrier between us, is something I’m starting to crave.
Nearly as much as I want to savor every inch of your body as I can. ”
“I like the feel of you without the condom too,” she admits on a sigh.
“I like how you just take control and do as you want. It’s nice not to have to worry because I’m learning you have it all taken care of.
Well, except for that one part, still, I like it that I do that to you. That I make you break your rules.”
Fuck.
Gripping her hair tight in my hands, I bring her mouth to mine and kiss the hell out of her.
Her tongue meets mine as she moans into the kiss, the sound vibrating through me like a live wire.
I can feel her body responding, her warmth seeping through the thin fabric of her clothes.
When I finally pull back, her swollen lips and heavy-lidded eyes show her desire.
“Let’s get inside,” I growl against her mouth. “I’m not fuckin’ you in the truck.”
“I thought you said you wanted to.”
“Not when I have a perfectly good bed inside.”
“What about Promise and Eabha?”
Fuck me, this woman was going to kill me with her compassion and always thinking of others.
I hadn’t fucked anyone in my room since before Eabha was born.
With Hope, though, I can’t help but want her on every surface I can get her.
But with Eabha sleeping in her crib in my room, no way was I taking her there. The shower, maybe.
“We’ll have to hold off for now,” I grumble and push open the driver’s side door.
I help Hope climb out of the truck after me, keeping her close as we make our way toward the clubhouse. The night air is cool against my skin, but all I feel is the heat radiating from her body.
“You okay with staying here tonight?” I ask, my arm wrapping around her waist possessively.
She nods, pressing into my side as we walk. “I just don’t really have anything with me. Nor does Promise.”
“Don’t worry about it. You can borrow one of my shirts to sleep in.” I grin down at her. “Besides, I went by your house earlier in the day and grabbed some stuff for you and Promise.”
“You did?” she asks, tilting her head back to meet my gaze.
“Yeah.” I nod. “Promise needs something to wear to school tomorrow.” Thank fuck it was Friday and she’d have the weekend off. Reaper was gonna put a prospect on her while she was in school. He’d sit outside the damn place the whole day on lookout.
Hope and I step into the clubhouse, finding a handful of my brothers were still up.
None of the typical shit is going on. My brothers have pretty much mellowed out and save it for the weekends now.
Meaning tomorrow night it won’t be like this.
I’ll have to make sure Promise is in her room if we’re here at the time.
She doesn’t need to see what happens at a club party.
Hope, on the other hand, will surely see it.
I jerk a chin in Ghost’s and Azrael’s direction while guiding my woman to the hall leading to my room. I open it for us and grin at Josphine as she puts my daughter back in her crib.
“She woke up, just had a bottle, and a diaper change,” my sister-in-law reports. “Should be good until morning now.”
“Appreciate it,” I tell her as she passes by.
“I know you do.” The woman would. She’s been a big help to me at every turn when it comes to my daughter.
I close the door behind her and glance down at Hope, her eyes on the crib. “She really sleeps in here with you?”
“Yeah. She’s been number one to me since her grandmother dropped her off here.” I don’t want to think about that day, but it was also a blessing because it was the day I got my daughter.
Hope moves to the crib and watches Eabha sleep. “She’s the most beautiful little girl.”
“She is,” I agree with her as I move in behind her and pull her away. “Come on, let’s get you ready for bed.”
As much as I wanted to continue enjoying her body, we both needed sleep. Tomorrow, things were going to change, and tonight, I simply want to hold her in my arms.