Chapter Nine
It was late and Razor had too much to drink. Eden also had too much to drink. Maeve was nowhere to be found, and her car was gone, which meant she had no choice but to stay at the clubhouse with Razor.
They arrived at his bedroom, and he was not on the same floor as Mac, which was a relief.
Stepping into his room, Eden didn’t know what they were going to find, but a perfectly clean room was not what she expected.
It was spotless. His bed was made, and there was not a single wrinkle on the covers.
His floor was immaculate. No dirty socks or used underwear.
There were no clothes dangling off work surfaces, nor any drawers left open. Everything was neat and tidy.
“I don’t like mess. Where I lived, if you didn’t move fast enough, you stuck to the floor.”
“Wow, okay.” His life wasn’t good. She figured that was why he didn’t delve too deeply.
She knew the Chaos Monsters MC were not saints.
Sure, they helped in town, but they were not doing it for the good of mankind.
She had already figured something must have been agreed to by the sheriff and the club, and the truth was, she didn’t care.
The world was full of good and bad people.
You even had good people who did bad stuff.
“Do you want to take a shower?” Razor asked.
She looked toward the small door that was open. She had a feeling his bathroom was going to be as clean as his bedroom. Eden made her way toward the bathroom, but then she stopped and she didn’t know if it was the few beers she had, or just the high of the moment.
“Do you want to join me?” she asked.
She had never been this bold with anyone. Getting naked wasn’t easy for her, and yet she was offering to show Razor her body, naked. This was a big deal.
She was also a virgin, and she wanted to be with him.
She was very confused. When she was with Razor, it was like she didn’t know what she wanted. His kisses made her toes curl and her stomach fill with butterflies.
Razor closed the distance between them, but she didn’t feel overwhelmed as he got closer. It felt right to be near him, to touch him, to feel him.
He filled her space, and she tilted her head back. “You’re ready for that?” he asked.
“Yes.”
He reached out and touched her cheek. It was such a gentle action. This is why she trusted Razor. This and so many other reasons. He didn’t make her question every move.
“I’d love to,” he said, and followed her into the bathroom.
Her nerves did start to pick up, and she felt how hot and clammy her hands were.
She could do this, seeing as she had been the one to invite him, even though it was also his bathroom.
Stepping inside, she was distracted by how clean his space was. It might have even been cleaner than her own bathroom. She turned to look at him and reached for the base of her top, about to pull it over her head. Razor grabbed her hand and stopped her.
He turned the shower on, then pulled her to him, and she had no choice but to go to him.
There, he cupped her cheek and she forgot about her nerves as his lips took over and did all the talking she couldn’t do.
She couldn’t help but moan as his tongue traced across her lips, and then when he bit her bottom lip, she let out a gasp.
This felt incredible.
She didn’t want him to let go.
“You drive me crazy, Eden,” he said. “But you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do. Make no mistake, I want you, badly, but not if you’re uncomfortable with it.”
She cupped his face and kissed him. “I want you too. I trust you.”
But she couldn’t bring herself to tell him she was a virgin. What if that was a turn off? There was no way she was going to be able to do that.
He kissed her back, and she didn’t know how it happened, but piece by piece, he removed her clothing.
Eden knew she must have done the same with him, but between the kisses and the touching, it all merged into one. She loved his lips on her, and they stepped into the shower, which was now warm, and she let out a moan. This felt good, as he pressed her up against the back of the shower stall.
His hands were all over her, running down her back, going around to grip her ass, then moving up to her shoulders. His thumbs glided across her nipples, and she couldn’t help but cry out at the instant hit of heat that took her by surprise.
Razor broke the kiss and started to travel down her neck.
She closed her eyes as he bit down on her neck, and it felt so good.
He didn’t linger there but traveled down, going across her neck, and she tried to keep her sounds to herself, but as he took one of her nipples into his mouth, she moaned his name.
It felt so good as he sucked the bud into his mouth, and then flicked it with his tongue, before he moved to the next one.
She tried to stay focused. Tried to think. This was impossible.
The pleasure between her thighs was so intense, and she pressed them together in an effort to contain the heat. Razor must have known, but it shocked her as he suddenly sunk to his knees before her.
“What are you doing?” she asked.
“Licking this pretty little cunt.”
He lifted one of her thighs, and it was on the tip of her tongue to tell him she was a virgin, but once again she stayed silent, and it frustrated her, but then his mouth danced across her pussy.
He took her clit into his mouth and used his teeth, but not to cause pain, just the right amount of pleasure that had her mindless.
No one had ever licked her pussy. His tongue was the devil, wreaking havoc with her body. The pleasure was so intense she knew she wasn’t going to be able to hold back as he built her higher and higher. She couldn’t control it, and as she came, she cried out his name, not wanting him to stop.
She had never experienced anything like it.
The heat was heady, exhilarating, and as Razor stood, he grabbed her ass and ordered her to wrap her legs around his waist. She didn’t argue, even as she felt the hard ridge of his cock against her core. There was no stopping what was about to happen.
He was the one in control. And she felt him at her core.
Eden was not going to tell him. She was ready for this, and as he thrust inside her, tearing through her virginity, she tried to control herself.
All her life, she had been able to control herself, but right now she lost it as she cried out.
The pain so intense, that at first she thought she was going to be snapped in two.
Tears filled her eyes, and she didn’t want to cry, but she couldn’t help it as Razor paused.
“Shit, babe, fuck, what is it?” he asked.
She looked at him. “I ... I’m a virgin. I was a virgin. It should stop soon.”
“Fuck, why didn’t you say anything?” he asked, cupping her face.
“I didn’t want to.” But right now, with the pain, she wished she had said something.
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Razor had two choices—pull out and take care of it, which could lead to her feeling rejected, and he didn’t want that. Or he could stay inside her and wait.
He should have known she was a virgin, but he could not imagine men turning a blind eye to this beauty before him. She was a keeper.
There was no way he was pulling out of her tight, hungry pussy. The aftershocks of her orgasm were still making her pulse around his length, and it felt so fucking good. He was ready to blow his load deep inside her, but instead he counted to ten, then twenty, and just waited.
The pain in her eyes was enough for him to control himself. The last thing he ever wanted to do was hurt her. And he’d gone and done it anyway. Their first time was not supposed to be in the fucking shower. He just couldn’t control himself. He had wanted her so badly, his patience had worn thin.
Seconds passed, or maybe minutes. He didn’t know how much time had passed, and he looked into her eyes, waiting to see the pain leave them. He kissed her lips.
“I’m so sorry,” he said.
“I am too. I didn’t know. Do you hate me?” She had this adorable frown between her brows, and he laughed.
“Never.”
She groaned. “This has got to be the worst for you, hasn’t it? I bet you’ve never been in this predicament before, with a girl that doesn’t have a clue what she is doing and probably looks like a giant mess.”
“There’s nowhere else I would rather be.”
“Come on.”
“I’m being serious. This is perfect to me. Being with you is perfect. You don’t even realize what a gift you have given me, do you?”
“Gift?”
“I’ve never been a woman’s first, and I am never going to be again.” Eden had not belonged to him. There was no fucking way he was going to give up this precious woman. She was one of a kind. His, for fucking ever. He was not a fool, and he knew exactly what he wanted.
Stroking her cheek, he ran his thumb across her bottom lip.
“Don’t compare yourself to anyone else. This is everything,” he said. “Does it still hurt?”
“No, I don’t think so.”
Razor didn’t want to cause her any more pain, however, there was only so much he could take of staying perfectly still within her. He wasn’t going to be able to handle it much longer.
Slowly, he eased out just an inch and kept a close eye on her reaction. If at any point she looked in pain, he would stop. There was none.
He pressed inside her and kept his movements slow, wanting her to feel everything that was good. Pain was necessary for a woman. For a man, there was no pain. It fucking sucked.
Rocking gently inside her, he stared into her brown eyes for any signs that she felt pain. If he had spotted it, it would have been difficult to stop, but that was exactly what he would have done.
Slowly, he pulled out, waiting until just the tip was inside her.
This was taking every ounce of control he possessed.
Her pussy was so tight, all he wanted to do was plow straight in and fuck her.
He wanted to blow her mind. Instead, he took his time, thrusting inside her to the hilt and pausing, feeling her flutter around him, and then pulling out until just the tip of him was inside her.
At no point did he stop, nor did he lose that connection with her.
The water beat down all around them, but his only focus was his woman. There was nothing else he wanted.
He didn’t look away, didn’t hesitate, and when he knew all she felt was pleasure, he closed the distance between them and took possession of her lips.
He swallowed down her moan, sliding his tongue across her bottom lip.
She opened her mouth and he plunged inside.
At this point, his cock was balls-deep inside her, and he kept it paused there at the hilt.
He didn’t move, just held himself still within her as he deepened the kiss.
She pressed her tongue against his, and he held onto her ass, tightening his grip as he felt his orgasm slowly coming to the surface.
Razor counted to ten in his mind, trying to bring himself under control.
The last thing he wanted to do was bring this to an abrupt halt.
There was no way he was going to be able to hold it together, so he started to pull out of her and then glide back in.
Thrusting in and out, he picked up the pace, not holding back, and he broke the kiss just so he could look into her eyes as he made love to her. No pain, just pleasure.
He thrust all the way inside her, filling her up, and he stopped holding back. The moment he did, he couldn’t contain it anymore, and he came, flooding her pussy with wave upon wave of cum.
He had completely forgotten about a condom. A rubber didn’t seem that important, with the way her pussy was tightening around him.
His orgasm seemed to last forever, the pleasure making every part of his body tingle. He’d never experienced anything like this before, and he knew it was all because of Eden.
“Wow,” Eden said.
“You’re fucking amazing.” And he kissed her, knowing one time was never going to be enough.