Jason #2
Getting comfortable, I pulled her into me even though she tried to fight me on it. I wasn’t about to continue this back-and-forth shit with her. We came on vacation to clear our heads and get our minds right for the second half of the year. That went for work and our relationship.
“Tell me what’s your problem with me.”
“You don’t get to leave me and then come back as if nothing happened. You don’t get to pick and choose when to fuck with me or fuck me for that matter. I was cool with you being gone but now that you’re back, all you’re doing is confusing me.”
“Confused by what exactly? Because anytime you call me, I’m right there.
Name one time I’ve made you feel like less of a woman or even presented any drama on your doorstep.
From the first day I met you, I fell in love with you.
I might’ve hidden my true emotions, but I ain’t never denied my feelings.
I give your ass whatever you ask for and even allow you to dictate when and where you want to deal with me.
If anybody is confused around this bitch, it’s me. ”
“Why do you want to be with me so damn bad? I ain’t got shit for you Jay and the love you’re looking for—”
“You know what’s funny, every time you get to lying, you get to avoiding eye contact and you rock back in forth. This is the moment for you to own your truth, but you’d rather take another route.”
“That is my truth!”
“It’s not. We just made love G, and I could feel that shit radiating off you.
I told you I love you because I really fuckin’ do.
All I want to do is make you smile more than you ever have before.
Anytime I’m with you, I’m at ease, and when I’m not, you’re the only person I think about.
If you can look me in my face and tell me I’m not the nigga you love, I’ll leave you the fuck alone. ”
She stared at me as I stood waiting patiently for her response.
She wanted to be so big and bad and act like she wasn’t down bad as well, but I knew the truth.
She was scared and she had every right to be but shutting me out because you were afraid of your own feelings wasn’t going to sit well with me.
“Say it. I don’t know what the fuck the hesitation is for. You said you ain’t fuckin’ with a nigga so let’s hear it.”
I was antagonizing her, but it was only to get a response out of her. If she wanted to be done so damn bad, I’d grant her that. Her face became sulky as the tears welled up and her lip quivered.
“You can’t can you?”
She shook her head from left to right slowly with tears streaming down her round face.
I laughed off knowing I was right. It wasn’t to make her feel any kind of way, but I knew my woman.
I paid attention to everything she said, did, and how others made her feel.
When it came to me, she was just as relaxed as I was.
“Come here,” I said extending my arms for her to come into. “Start by admitting that you love a nigga and then we can go from there.”
“I love you, but I don’t want to. I know how this love shit works and I’m tired of it ending up one sided. I’ve played the fool too many times and to avoid another heartbreak, it’s easier to stay unattached.”
“What, you think I’m going to hurt you? Cause that’s the last thing I want to do, and I refuse to let anybody else do it.
I ain’t played with or about you since you let a nigga in your life.
I ain’t trying to disturb your world baby, I just want to be your plus one.
You know how I’m coming so why even act like this. ”
“Because this is new to me Jay. You followed me to Italy bro, like who does that. I was so happy to see you, but I don’t know how to love you back. How are we supposed to deal with that?”
“I’ll shower you with love and you take pointers. You’re not cold Gia so stop trying to be. I’ll drive the boat in the love department and if you have your days where you want to take over then do it. I won’t stop you. If you’re willing to grow with me, then we straight. I got us.”
“You sure?”
“I don’t talk for fun baby. You know that.”
I kissed the top of her head before we climbed back into bed.
This time, she placed her body under mine without me having to ask.
She was a teddy bear, and I was here to hug and kiss her body and soul so that she knew and understood she was loved.
I didn’t want anything in return to be truthful. I had enough love for the both of us.
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Walking into the kitchen the next morning with my lady attached to my hip, we received approving glares from everyone. I smiled at their reaction because I was sure they heard us going at it all night.
“Didn’t expect either one of you to have energy this morning. I guess I was wrong,” Aron said with this cheesy ass grin on her face.
“Mind your business lil girl. Kane get your woman.”
My brother had finally made it in and now I could have some man time, I didn’t have to hear girl gossip the entire time. We dapped up and he handed over a shot. They were already drinking.
“Aye man, you know it ain’t no talking to her. She going to do whatever she wants, and I can’t say a damn thing about it.”
“He knows. Anyway, I got some stuff planned for us. I saw jet skis and surf shops yesterday. Want to try it?”
“Arin please. I’m not going nowhere near that damn water. You can count me and my man out. Why can’t we go painting in town or learn how to make bread? Some simple shit.”
I looked at my baby with a confused expression. Who the fuck was getting ready to go make some damn bread? I shook my head from left to right because the jet skis sounded better. If she didn’t want to join, she could always lounge on the beach and wait for our return. I wasn’t going to force her.
“Baby I’m not doing that shit. We can go eat and then go from there. Ask a few folks what’s up and decide then,” I said reaching for the plate that was put in front of me.
“She had to know nobody was doing that shit. I’m down for asking around on what to do. After breakfast we can all go get ready and then head out,” Toya suggested.
Everyone agreed and began to dig in. I was excited to spend time with my woman and explore the city. I’d been to a lot of places before, but Italy wasn’t one of them. I saw brochures at the airport and I also GPS’d a few places. We were going to make the best of this trip.
Heading upstairs, Gia and I got dressed in matching couple’s fits. Seeing that she was in such a good mood, I was going to give her what she wanted.
“Can we ditch them and go do our own thing? I kind of don’t want to be around anyone else but you.”
“I’m not going anywhere baby. You don’t have to be selfish with me. We’re on vacation so have a good time boo.”
“I will but I still just want to spend time with you today. My girls can wait.”
“Come here,” I said stretching my arms out. “Why you acting like that?”
She began to pout, and I had to laugh. She was really showing her spoiled side, and I realized I created a monster overnight.
“Why don’t you want to be with just me?” she whined.
“I never said I didn’t baby. I’ll tell them they can go do whatever and we’ll catch up later. A’ight?”
She nodded with the biggest smile on her face. I couldn’t believe how fast she switched up.
“Thank you, baby!” she squealed.
“You’re welcome. I love you stink.”
“I love you too.”
Her reply wasn’t hesitant or dry. She was genuine and that made a nigga feel like he could conquer the world with that.
“When we get home, you’re moving in with me. You know that, right?”
“I didn’t but I’m not objecting to it. We’re at each other's house twenty-four seven anyway.”
“For someone who was just in denial, you sure seem to be a changed person.”
“You said you had me so that’s all I needed to hear. Don’t break your promise and I won’t kill you.”
“Are you threatening me mamas?”
“Not at all. However, I don’t play about me so be careful.”
“You ain’t got to tell me to be careful. I know I got a gem.”
“I’m glad you do.”