Chapter 17 #2
“How did you learn to trust them? Did you guys discuss things first? Sasha talked to me a lot before we took that step, and we learned a lot about each other over time. I miss that. The connection when we were intimate. It wasn’t just sex,” he mumbled, tossing his cigarette butt beside mine and starting to pick at a loose thread on his jeans.
“Even if I wanted to move on, the thought of starting over like that makes me feel kind of sick. Things Sasha liked, someone else might not. To be honest, the thought of them liking things she liked also makes me sick. That was something between me and her, no one else.”
“If you ever find someone that makes you feel even a fraction of what she did, they’re only the right person for you if you can sit down and talk to them like this.
Tell them how you feel. Don’t rush into it.
There’s nothing wrong with not whoring around like the guys around you do.
Get to know them first and build something.
If they push you, they’re not the one, and I’ll stab them,” I warned, a light laugh leaving him.
“You’re going to defend me? Keep their claws away?”
“Until you’re ready, absolutely. You’re a rare find, D. You don’t want someone for their body, you’re looking for a soul to match yours. You only want the fun stuff once you get to know the person, and they need to respect that.”
“You deserve that too, you know? You’re not just a body, Rory.”
“I know. I’m really enjoying my newfound love for sexual freedom, but I’m definitely not the type to have a one-night stand with a stranger.
I need to trust the person first. Even when I first hooked up with Skeet, part of me trusted him.
I don’t know why, I just did. They’ve all taught me so much about myself. ”
“Everything I know about myself was because of Sasha. I don’t know who I am without her.”
“Then you figure it out,” I said lightly, his head lifting from mine as he glanced at me.
“How?”
“You find new hobbies, make new friends, and learn more about yourself. You don’t have to forget about her in order to grow as a person.
You were a teenager when you lost her, she was a large part of your life, so be gentle with yourself while figuring it all out,” I encouraged, earning a small smile in return.
“Thanks. You want to be my personal shrink? That was oddly helpful.”
“I’m more than happy to talk whenever you need it. You want to come back inside? You don’t have to join us in the dining room if you want to be alone. There’s pie and cobbler coming though.”
“I do like pie,” he murmured, reaching out to ruffle my hair before standing and grabbing both our cigarette butts.
He threw them out on the way inside, my eyes catching on Skeeter in one of the windows. He was watching us, and he gave me a nod before vanishing, seeming glad I’d handled it.
We returned to the table and no one made a big deal out of it, giving us time to finish our food before they brought dessert out.
“We can’t,” I hissed as Skeeter dragged me up to my bedroom once we’d cleaned the kitchen. We’d offered to do it so the others could start a movie in the theater room, giving us a few moments alone.
Mule, Zeena, Jonah, and Brick had all gone home, loaded up with a pile of leftovers forced on them from Josie, and Brick had teased Diesel and Skeeter about sticking around for a movie night.
Skeeter had told him to choke on the turkey and shut the door in Brick’s laughing face.
“Says who?” he grunted, closing and locking the door before tugging my pants and panties down. “That was the longest dinner in the world. You’re lucky I waited and didn’t just bend you over the fucking table in front of everyone.”
“I ate too much for this,” I grumbled, pulling my shirt over my head and letting him get his way.
He chuckled but didn’t answer, stripping naked and kissing me hard while walking me backwards towards the bed. His fingers were inside me before I’d even fallen back on the bed, his teeth nipping along my jaw and down my throat as he worked his hand faster.
I arched up into him, a groan leaving me when he took my nipple between his teeth and rolled his tongue around the metal in it.
“I wish I could take my time with you. Slide my knife across your skin and make you scream,” he murmured, goosebumps breaking out over my whole body as he pressed his fingers deeper. “I want to break you so I can put you back together again.”
I moaned, grabbing his chin and forcing his mouth to mine again as his cock brushed my pussy.
“Do it then,” I answered, his fingers slipping from me as he replaced them with his cock. He thrust deep, both of us moaning as he started fucking me, and I tried really hard to be quiet, but it was difficult.
I ended up bent like a damn pretzel, my knees by my head as he slammed into me. He slowed, grinding into me and holding my gaze.
“I love you,” he murmured, my heart beating harder from his words. It still sounded strange to hear it from him, but the more he said it, the more I became addicted.
“I love you too, baby,” I whispered back, not caring that I couldn’t breathe properly when he leaned down to kiss me while keeping me bent.
Sex with Skeeter was a wild experience, but I really liked it like this when he’d pour his softer feelings into it.
We rocked together until we both came, and then he put my legs down but continued to lie on top of me.
“Something on your mind?” I asked after a moment, raking my fingers through his hair as his face nestled into the crook of my neck.
“Just thinking about Slash.”
“While inside me?” I joked, his hand lifting to my cheek as he pressed a kiss to my neck.
“Despite the fact you guys hid your relationship from me, I’m so glad he got to be loved by you. No one should die without knowing this feeling.”
“That’s very poetic in a tragic kind of way,” I chuckled, my arms tightening around him a little. “I always wondered what it would be like to be between you both.”
“You guys should have told me sooner and maybe you’d know.”
“Or you’d have punched him and forbidden it,” I said dryly, making him grin as he leaned back to look down at me.
“I think he deserves a punch. Asshole was fucking my girl.”
“He was fucking me really good too,” I teased, laughing as he moved back to flip me over, swatting my ass sharply.
“Watch it, or you won’t be able to sit for a week,” he warned, straddling the backs of my thighs and leaning down to nip my ear.
I wriggled my ass, peering over my shoulder at him with a grin.
“Promise?”
“We don’t have time for this,” he grumbled, swatting my ass again before climbing off me. “We need to clean up before Josie comes looking.”
He scooped me up and carried me into the bathroom, and I instantly nuzzled into his neck.
“Skeet?”
“Hmm?”
“Have you heard anything new about my mom?” I asked as he placed me on my feet to turn on the shower.
“No.”
“There has to be something,” I sighed, wishing she’d just show up. I was an adult now, so legally, Max couldn’t keep me away from her.
Had I been wrong and he’d been beating her when I wasn’t around? I’d been young, so it was possible I didn’t know everything.
Maybe she was still scared of him?
We showered and got dressed, heading down to the theater room to join everyone else. Josie gave us a knowing look of disapproval, but Caden tugged me onto his lap to snuggle, leaving Skeeter to drop down on a couch beside Diesel.
Jensen was asleep with his head on Lukas’ lap, Tyler was paying more attention to his phone than the TV, and I ended up falling asleep on Caden, my eyes feeling too heavy to keep open.
Caden
Mom went to bed a little after ten, and Diesel insisted on going home. Rory had tried convincing him to stay, but I was pretty sure us all being here together was a reminder to him that he was alone.
I felt for the guy, I really did, but him leaving meant I could strip my girl naked and spend the night inside her.
Skeeter was sprawled out on the couch now that Diesel had left, his gaze constantly flicking in our direction as if to make sure Rory was still there.
She was still on my lap, her back to my chest with her legs on either side of mine now that she’d woken from her nap.
“So, is anyone actually watching the movie or can we turn it off and fuck?” Tyler drawled, obviously bored with sitting still.
He’d been twitchy with all the news about his parents on top of Skeeter temporarily cutting off his pill and powder supply, and I was pretty sure the only reason he hadn’t snapped was because Skeeter had agreed to keep selling him weed.
The weed kept him calm, but it didn’t fix his problems.
“Maybe I’m busy watching the movie?” Rory replied dryly, and he grinned.
“I’m happy to fuck you doggy so you can keep watching, if you want?”
“Such a gentleman,” she deadpanned, squirming on my lap.
I knew she’d snuck off earlier with Skeeter to fuck, and I’d considered going to find them but knew if we all started going missing, Mom would have tracked us down.
At least now she’d gone to bed, we could lock the door.
“I think it’s a good idea,” I murmured in Rory’s ear, sliding my hand across her thigh and moving it higher to stroke her pussy from outside her pants.
“Of course you do. You’re a pervert too,” she chuckled, spreading her legs a little wider.
“Is that a no?”
“I didn’t say that,” she huffed, a light giggle leaving her as Tyler got to his feet and grabbed the top of her pants, tugging them down her legs. Her panties went next, leaving her exposed to him as he dropped to his knees and started feasting on her.
“She’s probably still leaking my cum,” Skeeter said with amusement, not deterring Tyler in the slightest.
A curse left Rory as she wriggled on my lap, my hand lifting to her throat and squeezing slightly.
“Does that feel good, baby?” I asked, making her nod. “You want to be good and let me fuck your ass while he eats your pussy?”