Chapter 11
Chapter Eleven
Dara
I kill the engine.
A stillness settles over the car—over me and Wade—as we look across the property. Stately, oversized trees surround us, the morning sunlight filtering through the branches. A path was made at some point long ago, leading deeper into the forest. It’s magical.
“Wow,” Wade says, sweeping his gaze over the expanse. “This is incredible.”
“I know.”
“Can we get out? Walk around?”
“Sure.”
We climb out of the car and shut our doors behind us.
Birds chirp overhead, singing songs and alerting each other of our presence. The blue sky peeks through the leaves and it feels like we are truly tucked inside our own little cocoon.
“How much land is here?” Wade asks as he walks to the front of my car.
I shrug. “I don’t know. A lot. If you follow this path, it leads to a lake. It’s pretty special.”
His brows raise and he points in that direction. “Could we walk that way?”
“Yeah. Definitely.”
Our shoes pad along the trail cut through the trees. Wade walks beside me with his hands in his pockets.
“Is this where your home will go?” he asks. “Or is this just an option?”
My heart tugs in my chest. “I believe it’s an option. Grandpa brought me here a while back and said how he always thought this would be a great spot, but his new wife, Tyra, hated being so far away from the city. He thought maybe I’d like it.”
“So do you?”
Wade’s question sounds simple enough. But there’s something heavy laced in his tone. When I look at him, I can see a skepticism in his eyes that I feel deep in my soul.
“Yes,” I say, forcing a swallow. “Of course, I like it. What’s not to like?”
“I was getting the feeling that you weren’t sold on it.”
“Eh.”
He narrows his eyes as if he’s deciding whether to poke at me about this or not.
My brain wars over how honest to be with him, how transparent. Yes, he said we’d need to work closely together, but he’ll also be working with my grandfather on this project. That means that Wade isn’t my friend. He’s not automatically on my side.
“My grandfather and I …” I sigh, reaching for the words. “I just met him almost a year ago.”
Wade lifts a brow. It’s clear he didn’t expect this bit of information.
“My biological father was his only son,” I say. “I never knew him.”
“I’m sorry. That must’ve been difficult.”
“It’s not difficult when it’s all you know.”
Our pace slows and turns more into a meander. The rhythm settles my nerves with its consistency and ease.
“I hate to make judgments about my father,” I say, choosing my words slowly. “I’ve hated him, loved him, idolized a version of him that I completely made up in my head. My mom said that he came around a few times when I was a baby but never for long.”
Wade swallows hard. “I don’t mean to pry and you can absolutely tell me to fuck off and I won’t be offended. But your father was a Bowery. He had money. He had … the world at his fingertips.”
The thought feels unfinished and, when I look at Wade, it confirms my suspicions. He’s watching me with a hesitation that I’ve never been able to escape about my past.
“I guess he did.” I kick at a rock on the ground as we walk.
“I know the story my mom told me and I believe it. I believe her. But I’m sure that if he were around, he’d have another version or at the very least his side of the story.
So, as far as I know—what I’ve always been told, is that he wanted no part of having a child.
And my mother, coming from a lesser socioeconomic background, would’ve humiliated him and his father. My granddad.”
Wade’s brows pull together into a furrowed line. His jaw sets.
“Mom got pregnant—he left. He didn’t want children, least of all by a woman with debt up to her eyeballs and no obvious way out,” I say sadly. “He thought she was digging her claws in for his money.”
We stop next to a pile of sticks. They’re on top of one another in a triangular shape. Wade inspects them as if his life depends on it.
“But it’s fine,” I say, my voice rising over the lump in my throat. “I’m fine. I had a great childhood without the Bowerys and I wouldn’t change any of that for the world.”
He walks to the other side of the pile and looks up at me. I can’t read the look in his eyes but whatever it is has me holding my breath.
The space between us feels vacant and uncomfortable. Something happened as I told him this story—one he was a partner to just a few seconds before. I wipe my hands down my jeans and take a step back, unsure how to navigate this awkwardness.
“What happened to your father?” he asks, his gaze both intensifying and softening at the same time.
“He died a few years ago. I got a notice in the mail. There was a clause in his Will that said he acknowledged a claim of fatherhood—which was weird because my mother never made any claims against him or put him on the birth certificate or tried to get money from him. Anyway, it said he acknowledged my existence, basically, and left me nothing.”
My voice is steady, my words even-keeled. It’s just facts. I’m sure it would hurt a lot more that I was acknowledged in a legal document had I ever known the man. But it doesn’t. What hurts is that he never wanted to know me.
“Shit,” Wade rumbles.
Yeah. That about sums it up.
Wade picks up a stick off the top of the pile and twirls it around his fingers. Finally, he tosses it aside.
“I’m sorry you’ve gone through all of that,” he says.
“Yeah. Me too.”
He nods as if that somehow tidies up the conversation. “Can we walk down to the water? I’d like to see it in case you choose to build there.”
“Sure. Yeah. Follow me.”
We start down the path again. The ground turns a bit sandier as we make our way to the water. With each step we take, the heaviness of our conversation seems to slip away.
I’ve never told that story to anyone in full. Rusti knows bits and pieces—more of it than anyone else … until Wade today. I’m not sure why I opened up to him, but it’s done. And there’s a bit of peace settling over my soul.
Wade rubs his hands together in thought.
“So,” he says once we’ve been walking a minute or so. “What is your daily routine?”
“Is this like an easier option than stalking me?” I joke. “Wade Mason—architect and lazy stalker.”
He shakes his head. “I’m trying to get a feel as to how you use the space you’re in. Where do you have your coffee?”
“Who says I drink coffee?”
“See?” He motions with his hands. “Do you work at home? What time do you go to bed? What time do you get up? Do you like to watch the sun set with a glass of wine in the evenings? Are you a light sleeper? Things like that are important to me.”
I clutch my chest. “How sweet.”
He rolls his eyes, making me laugh.
“I get up around eight,” I say, gasping at the offended look on his face. “What?”
“Eight in the morning?”
“Yeah. So?”
“So that’s … I have half a day of work in by that point.”
“Good for you. I bet I’m still enjoying my night when you go to bed.”
He grins. It’s slight and doesn’t last long, but I see it and it sends a blast of heat up my spine.
“Continue,” he says, shaking his head.
I clear my throat and try to rid myself of the image of his smile.
“Up at eight,” I say, looking at him over my shoulder. “I do like a coffee in the morning. I sit at the kitchen table because the sun comes in the windows and I like the feel of it while I wake up.”
“Good. Keep going.”
“Then I get a shower, grab something to eat, and then I go to my desk. My day then is either editing pictures, scoping out new locations, putting together marketing packets, scheduling appointments, meeting clients, taking photos—things like that. It depends on the day.” I shrug.
“I’ll get lunch somewhere in there and usually wrap it up by six or seven.
Dinner is in the living room with Netflix or with Rusti at a restaurant somewhere. I’m in bed by midnight or one o’clock.”
He nods. “Do you like a lot of sunlight in your house?”
I consider his question as we approach the end of the forested area. In front of us is a deep blue lake with tall grass wrapping around the edge.
It’s like the water comes out of nowhere—like it’s another cocoon attached to the forest. It’s magical in its own right.
A breeze ripples across the water, bringing the humid, salty air of Savannah swirling around us. With the rays of sunlight sparkling across the lake, everything that I was just describing about my normal day feels eons away.
My fingers twitch to grab my camera and capture some of the magic sparkling around us.
I mentally frame the bird scooping into the water, droplets falling off his feathers.
I can see the frame of a boat in the distance through the lens of my camera.
The tree that’s laying on the water’s edge would be amazing if photographed right at dusk.
I close my eyes and breathe in the air, filling my lungs with oxygen. The warmth on my face, the movement of the air takes my worries and, for the time being, tosses them away.
“This is where it needs to be.” Wade’s voice is quiet, bordering on soft. “This is it.”
My eyes pop open. “This is what?”
“This is where you need to be. The way you …” He steps back and takes me in again. “You came alive when you saw the water. It’s like when my mother sees someone wearing a piece from her jewelry line or Rosie sees Fluffy.”
I laugh. “I have questions.”
“My niece and her dog. Not the point.” He yawns. “I was just making a comparison.”
“Hey, speaking of nieces and puppies—did your brother have his baby?”
He shakes his head and yawns again. “I think that’s happening today.”
“I think you need another cup of coffee.”
“I think you’re right.”
“Have you seen enough?” I ask, grinning. “We could swing by the donut shop on the way back to your office and get a coffee and a treat.”
“A treat?” He looks mildly amused. “That sounds interesting.”
I grin. “It sounds delightful and I can promise you that it won’t entail sweet potatoes.”
He laughs. The sound stops me in my tracks. I think it stops him, too, because his eyes widen and the sound I was reveling in stops.
“Yes. I think I’ve seen enough,” he says, running a hand down his jaw and looking out across the water—pointedly not at me. “This gives me a lot to think about.”
We head back toward the tree line, walking side by side. But even though we’re close to one another, it might as well be a mile.
He doesn’t say another word until we’re at my car. It’s not that I expected him to suddenly become Mr. McChatty, as that is not who Wade Mason is. That much I know for a fact. But he’s so hard to read.
Although he’s shown me several facets of his personality—and I bet that was unintentional—who is this man?
Aloof, moody, a perfectionist, hard, punctual … but there’s a man who can look at me, study me, and envision my home. Is that what he’s focused on now? My future home? Or—
“Donuts, huh?” he says as we round the hood.
I laugh. “Is that what you were thinking about this whole time?”
He opens the door but doesn’t climb in. Instead, he grips the top of the car and looks at me with the automobile between us.
Fitting.
“Would you believe me if I said that it was?” he asks.
“Probably not.”
His lip twitches. “Would you believe me if I said it wasn’t?”
That is what I thought—that he wasn’t thinking about pastries. But the look on his face has me reconsidering that assumption.
“Probably not,” I say again.
“Then what’s it matter?” He wiggles his brows as if he’s just won some kind of game and climbs in the car.
I laugh. Color me surprised by that.
I look around, taking in the scenic beauty and releasing my worries into the breeze, before climbing in beside Wade.
“This is where you need to be.”
Is that true?
I bite my lip and watch a squirrel race across the forest floor.
I do love it here. The water has always soothed my soul, and if I had to pick one place to relocate to, this would be it.
But how did Wade know that? How did he look at me and read me that well after spending so little time with him?
The thought is alarming. And, if I’m being honest, a little exhilarating.
Let’s just hope he doesn’t read all of my thoughts.
I laugh as I climb in the car.