Retribution (Anthem River)

Chapter 16

Chapter

Sixteen

“ I ’m sorry that I pushed you too fast, Kade,” Ram sighed. He hadn’t meant to, he’d just been so damn happy to finally have Kade all to himself he’d jumped the gun so to speak.

Kade froze, trying to process what Ram was saying. His tone had come across sad and defeated. “What?”

That one word held so much fear and pain that Ram cocked his head. “Is being with me not what you meant?”

“No… oh God no.” Kade shook his head, the tears still falling. “I’m deluding myself into thinking my brother is still alive. That he’s happy somewhere. That he would remember me, even though I can barely pull a picture of him up in my mind. That he wasn’t hurt. That he made it out of that warehouse in one piece.” He sucked in a deep breath. “But I can’t find him anywhere Ram, I have been searching for decades to find him and…” He choked on a sob, before warm strong arms embraced him and held him tight.

Ram held tight as Kade’s legs buckled and he sobbed into his chest. He would hold his boy up for now until he could get his bearings again. He moved them to the bed and kept Kade close. He didn’t know how long had passed when Kade finally slipped into sleep. He rolled away making sure Kade stayed asleep before stripping off his shirt and wrapping it in Kade’s hands, that way if he awoke hopefully that would help ease him. He’d noticed his boy loved his scent. He moved quietly to the living room where he placed the call he hadn’t even considered until Bram had reminded him.

“Bianchi.” A deep grumbling voice answered him.

“Alejandro, it’s Ram.”

“Ah Ram how’re you doing? Things alright I presume?”

Ram had no idea how to feel. It wasn’t everyday he called in a favor with the head of the mob. Well technically Alejandro was moving things towards the right side of the law after killing his father but, he still wasn’t a man to be trifled with. “As good as can be. How’s Mia?” The whole reason the gangster owed Ram a favor was because he’d saved the man’s beloved Thai Ridgeback, Mia, after she’d been poisoned by one of his enemies. Apparently even the mob had a soft spot for animals. “I was wondering if we could have dinner soon, I would like to call in my favor?”

Alejandro hummed over the line. “She’s good. When and where?”

Ram smiled. He actually liked the man. He was a beast of a grump but he’d had a hard life. “I’ll let you pick. My treat.”

“I’ll text you.” Was the only reply he got before the phone went dead. Ram snickered then headed back to the bedroom to find Kade curled around his shirt like it was the only thing keeping him sane. He slid back into bed and urged Kade to wrap around him as he settled in to sleep.

The following morning Kade awoke first, and for a split second he was content. He could feel Ram’s even deep breaths next to him and could smell his sandalwood and pine scent all around him, then the thoughts from last night hit and tears flooded his eyes.

Ram came awake with a jolt when he heard a cut off sob coming from beside him. “Kade baby,” he murmured sleepily as he gathered his boy into his arms. “I’ve got you,” he told him as Kade tried to fight him, “I’m not going anywhere, baby.” He settled Kade’s head into his neck which seemed to be his baby’s favorite place and rubbed a soothing hand up and down his back. It took Kade a while to finally settle, Ram had no idea how long he’d been holding these thoughts in, and the one thing a Daddy-boy relationship did was push mental barriers and unleash the trauma either side was trying to hold back. Ram didn’t want Kade to hide from him. While he hated to see his boy in so much pain, he hoped talking about it and trying to get him some help would eventually lead Kade to heal and not just exist. He didn’t know how long had passed before he spoke. “What can I do, baby?”

Kade sniffed hard before he spoke. “You’re doing it.” His voice came across watery and weak but he didn’t give shit at this point. Ram seemed to be the only thing holding him together as his mind decided to remind him of all he had lost over the years. His father was right, he’d have been better off dead.

“Then why don’t we relax in bed for a while, okay? Maybe watch some movies? Gorge ourselves on junk food.”

Kade gave a weak laugh. “Okay.”

Ram kissed his sweaty forehead. “Why don’t you go hop in the shower, that’ll help ease your muscles while I go and get everything we need.”

Kade grunted, burrowing even deeper into Ram’s arms.

Ram chuckled, hugging him close. “Take your time,” he teased, and was delighted to hear Kade’s small laugh.

“Fine, fine,” Kade groaned as he rolled away to sit on the edge of the bed.

Ram could see he was really stiff when he stood and hoped the shower would help ease some of his aches. He hated to see his boy in pain, but when the man suffered from chronic pain there wasn’t much he could do. While Kade was in the shower he headed to the kitchen to whip them up some breakfast and snacks so they could lounge about in bed all day like degenerates. As he was waiting for the pan to heat up to make pancakes he checked his phone.

Grumpy Mobster: Franco’s 8 o’clock.

Ram: Got it.

He would have to call Saint and Doc to come hang out with Kade while he went to go see Alejandro. Having those two powerful men together wouldn’t be a good idea. Especially considering he and Alejandro had played in the scene years ago, and a few times before the man had killed his father to take over. While Alejandro wasn’t a boy per se the man needed a keeper. He didn’t know if Alejandro was a switch or just submissive but now that he was in power there was no way he could get his needs met in the club, it would all have to be discreet and the man trusted no one. Maybe he could set up something between him and Ronin. He’d have to think about that for a while. While he measured out the batter he called Doc.

“Ram, how’re things going?” His warm voice greeted.

“Hey, Doc, things are going I guess. I was wondering if you were free tonight?” He cut straight to the point.

“Yeah, with Kade out we’ve been just going over old cases. What do you need?”

Ram sighed in relief, he really hadn’t wanted to leave Kade alone tonight. “I have a meeting at eight I have to attend. I was wondering if you and Saint could come hang out with Kade while I went to that.”

“Is he okay?” Doc demanded.

Ram made a noise of frustration in the back of his throat. “He’s struggling with his thoughts on his brother. I just don’t want him to be alone while I’m gone. I think that would give him too much time to think.”

“Yeah, I’ll drag Saint along, it’s not like he’s doing anything but driving Sanem insane,” Doc said through his laughter.

Ram smiled. He loved his nephew, don’t get him wrong, but the man made him want to slap him sometimes. He was outspoken, crass, not housebroken and a riot anywhere he went. “I can see that, I’m sure she’d love you for the reprieve.”

Doc snickered. “I’ll become the favorite.”

Ram snorted. “It doesn’t take much to get in her good graces.”

Doc’s laugh was loud and happy. “God I love that woman. What time do you need us to be there?”

“I gotta be at the meeting at eight so seven-thirty sound good?” Ram asked as he flipped all the pancakes on to the serving plate.

“Yup, we’ll be there. See you then.”

Ram set everything out on the table when he heard the shower turn off. “Kade baby, come eat breakfast first. You didn’t eat dinner last night,” he called out.

“What are we having?” Kade asked as he slunk into the kitchen.

While the shower had seemed to loosen his boys muscles a little bit it had done nothing for his mood. “Pancakes.”

Kade brightened. “Really?” It felt like he hadn’t had pancakes in years.

“Yup got eight stacked high on your plate. The syrup is at your three.” Ram watched Kade settle into his chair and start gobbling his food down before he joined him and spoke. “I’ve got a little meeting tonight with Ronin and another sub. I’m introducing them together and it shouldn’t take long but Doc and Saint are going to come and hang out with you.”

Kade froze with a syrupy bite halfway to his mouth. He didn’t even know what to say to that. He was a little uncomfortable with Ram being around another sub but he thought that was just his own issue. He knew Ram wouldn’t cheat, he was just feeling very possessive of the man. “Okay.”

Ram studied Kade for a moment as he ate. “It won’t turn sexual for me Kade, I promise. I’m just there to introduce them to each other since I know them respectively.” He didn’t want to tell Kade the whole truth because he didn’t want to get his hopes up about his brother.

“So you’ve… played with the sub?” Kade asked, begrudgingly. He knew Ram hadn’t been a saint but he also didn’t want it thrown in his face.

“In a sense. We’ve never had penetrative sex if that’s what you mean but I have brought him to orgasm before and he’s returned the favor.”

Kade didn’t think he’d ever get used to Ram talking so casually about sex as he did. “Okay.” Was all he could think to say.

“I would take you with me but I don’t think you would like that, and I know damn well Alejandro won’t appreciate it.” Ram assured him. He wasn’t trying to hurt Kade and he was trying to do the right thing and talk to him about it but he’d never been held accountable to anyone before. It was definitely a weird feeling.

“Alejandro?” Kade asked to distract himself. He’d heard the name somewhere but couldn’t place it.

“Mmmhhmmm, Alejandro Bianchi.”

Kade choked on his bite of pancake. “The head of the Bianchi crime family?” he demanded.

Ram snickered, Kade looked so damn cute with his mouth gaping like a fish. “Yup.” He continued to eat, waiting for Kade to ask his questions. While he wouldn’t lie to his boy there were a few things he wouldn’t tell him.

Kade cocked his head. “He’s a boy?”

Ram sighed. “In confidence, because I’m not trying to out anyone before they’re ready… he has come out to me but he’s not safe to act on it. He’s more of a bratty boy. I don’t think he’s ever had a nice hand before. He’s a lot like you baby, lost and angry at the world.” He took another bite. “I’d love for you to meet him.”

Kade raised a brow. “I sense some hesitation in that statement.”

Ram snorted. “Yeah…” he sighed deeply. “He’s a good man but I think you and him would butt heads at first. Even though there’s nothing between us that was permanent, I was the one he’d call when he was too close to that edge. He may view you as someone who’s trying to take away something that’s his.”

Kade paused to think about it and yeah he could definitely fucking see it and had he been in the man’s shoes he would have probably reacted the same way. “Yeah, I get it.”

“I’m hoping introducing him to Ronin will give him another outlet, because I’ll make it clear to him tonight, you own me, plain and simple.”

Kade preened a little at the statement. He loved having Ram in his life and to be able to own the man’s heart was his greatest achievement. “Be gentle with him, I know if I was in his place I would appreciate that.”

Ram smiled warmly at his boy, then leaned forward to kiss his syrupy lips. “That’s why I love you, you’re a protector through and through and it makes my dick hard.”

Kade snorted, rolling his eyes. “You’re easy.”

Ram hummed in agreement as he nibbled down Kade’s neck, sucking a dark mark on his shoulder as he gasped and shivered. “Are you ready to talk about it?”

Kade growled. “Really? Now?”

“Yes, now Kade. We need to talk about it. I’ve given you time to process, now I want your thoughts and feelings on having sex with me,” Ram said, his voice taking on the firmer Daddy tone that always seemed to excite Kade.

“Ten out of ten would bang again,” Kade deadpanned, then yelped when Ram smacked his thigh in retaliation.

“I’m being serious,” Ram grumbled through his laughter.

Kade smiled bashfully. “It was amazing.” He swallowed hard looking down in the direction of his plate. He could feel Ram’s warm assessing gaze on him and he had no idea why it made him nervous. He’d faced off with some of the worst of humanity and didn’t bat an eye, meeting them glare for glare, but this one man had the power to turn him into a bashful teen with their first crush.

Ram smiled softly at the warm flush that appeared on Kade’s cheeks, and to give his boy a break he settled his forehead on his shoulder. “Yeah?” He could hear and feel Kade take a deep breath.

“Yes. I had always just assumed something was wrong with me, that I wasn’t as into sex as most men my age. I had no trauma or aversion to anything specific so it never made sense, and I fucking dreaded coming home and having to fuck Devin. I hated it, not so much topping… I don’t think, but just the whole thing. He made it into this disgusting chore no one wanted to do. I was actually happy when he would cheat. That meant I got a reprieve.” Kade’s brow’s furrowed. “That should have clued me into it. I never enjoyed it. Maybe I just didn’t like topping.”

“I don’t think you have a problem with topping baby, would you say no if I asked you to top me?” Ram asked quietly, then chuckled when a certain part of Kade’s body really liked that idea.

“No I wouldn’t. I would say yes,” Kade said gruffly. The thought of Ram letting him inside him made him breathless with want.

“I think what your problem is that you don’t mind the position you just don’t want to be in charge. Our community sucks at always assuming and stereotyping and even being judgmental on those submissive’s that are bigger. Your size, build and overall aura paint you as a strong dominant top, but those who look deeper see that yes you are a strong and powerful man but you want someone to take care of you, and there’s nothing wrong with that at all.” Ram kissed Kade behind his ear. “That’s what Daddy is here for. I get to see you flourish under me and my care. I get to take some of the weight off your shoulders. Who would be in charge if I asked you to fuck me, baby?” Ram demanded.

“You.” Kade’s voice came out garbled and breathless.

“Yes, baby. I would be in charge, you would only have to follow Daddy’s directions wouldn’t you. You enjoy it when you don’t have to think and you just get to feel, don’t you?”

Kade nodded. If Ram didn’t stop talking he was going to come in his pants like a fucking child. But his Daddy was right he couldn’t enjoy himself if he was having to focus on the other person’s pleasure, which in turn made him feel like a dick. He was happy his pleasure seemed to get Ram off, like it was his only mission to wring as much pleasure out of Kade that he could.

“There’s nothing wrong with that baby. Some people are just wired to want to be taken care of and they don’t all come from horrific backgrounds, and then there’s those like me that are wired to want to take care of others.” Ram blew softly into Kade’s ear, grinning when his boy shivered. Kade’s unfiltered reactions made him giddy with all the things he could make his boy do. “I think I need to make it clear to you that I’m coming home to you tonight.”

Kade swallowed hard. “It’s not that I don’t trust you Ram, I promise that’s not it.”

“I know baby, I don’t think that’s it. You’re territorial, that’s all. You don’t want to share what’s yours.” Ram assured him.

Kade scoffed. “I’m surprised you didn’t say jealousy.”

Ram snorted. “Jealousy is when you want something that’s not yours, territorial is when you’re protecting what’s yours. Make no mistake, Kade. You own me body and soul.”

Kade licked his lips. This is what he’d always wanted. A man of his very own, one that would accept him for who he was. To get all he’d ever wanted all at once was a little overwhelming at times and he had no idea how to handle it, but Ram seemed to understand.

“So why don’t you come with me to the bedroom and I’ll fuck you into the mattress, that way you’ll be too tired to worry about tonight.”

Kade damn near swallowed his tongue. “How the fuck do you do that?”

Ram raised a brow. “Do what, baby?”

Kade threw his hands up in exasperation. “Just say whatever is on your mind.”

Ram snickered at his boy’s flustered appearance. “You mean about sex? It’s easy. I grew up in a world where I had no idea what sex was, all I saw was the matings from the cattle. I didn’t learn that there are people out there that actually have sex for pleasure and not with the intent to reproduce. It was very eye opening and I swore to myself I would never censor myself again.”

Kade nodded, understanding. He just hoped he’d be able to get used to it and that every time Ram opened his mouth what he had to say didn’t shock him. He let Ram manhandle him into the bedroom, he’d never tell a soul but he loved the fact that Ram matched him in strength. That his Daddy could toss him around if he felt like it, but in a way that made Kade hot under his collar, not in a way that scared him.

Ram easily knocked Kade back on the bed and followed him down, stretching himself down Kade’s body so they touched everywhere. He lifted up a little to gauge Kade’s reaction and was pleased with the heavy breathing and wide glazed eyes. “What do you want tonight, baby?”

Kade blinked slowly. “What?”

“Do you want a repeat of last time or is there something different you would like to try?” Ram asked him as he kissed Kade’s neck and rubbed their beards together like a lion does when it’s greeting its family.

“Um…” Kade had to swallow hard to try and think. It was so hard when all that glorious muscle was pinning him to the bed. Ram’s heavy weight on top of him was both arousing and comforting. “I… don’t know. I enjoyed last time.”

Ram kissed Kade to ease his boy’s anxiety. “I did too, baby. I just meant, is there any specific thing you want to try, like a fantasy you want me to help you experience.” He grinned when Kade froze and his cheeks darkened.

“Um…” Kade stuttered.

Ram shifted, sliding his hips between Kade’s legs and letting his erection brush up against Kade’s. “Take your time, baby. You can tell me when you’re ready.”

Kade chuckled, nervously. “I don’t know if I’ll ever get to the point where I can tell you the things I’ve imagined,” he told Ram softly. He didn’t want to hurt the man’s feelings but to allow Ram so much power over him so quickly made his throat close up and his heart pound with fear.

“I’ll respect that baby, I promise. I just want to make sure you enjoy this as much as I do.” Ram settled back down on Kade, resting his head on Kade’s shoulder as they talked. He wouldn’t push Kade and he wanted to cool things down so they could talk without their libidos getting in the way. “Talk to me, baby.”

Kade huffed. “I thought you were going to fuck me.”

Ram hummed. “While I would love nothing more than to sink into your warm tight ass, I won’t ever fuck you. I’ll be rough and demanding at times but I’ll never fuck my boy.”

Kade didn’t know why that brought tears to his eyes. He’d always wanted a man like Ram and he was terrified he was going to wake up from this dream.

“I know all of this is overwhelming for you Kade, and if you need time to process, or you need me to back off a little I will. I don’t ever want to make you regret giving me a chance.” Ram assured him, softly.

“No, the thought of being away from you right now makes me wanna puke. But the fact that I trust you and have let you in so easily makes me wanna puke as well,” Kade murmured, running his fingers through Ram’s thick hair at the base of his skull.

Ram groaned. Fuck him side ways. Kade had his fucking number. “The amount of trust you have in me means a lot to me Kade, and I swear to you I’ll never take it for granted.” He shifted closer, he wanted to crawl into Kade’s skin and just live out the rest of his life there. He could feel Kade slowly relax as they laid there, and he smiled. “Why don’t you take a little nap?”

Kade grumbled through a yawn. “No, I wanna have sex.”

Ram snorted. “Says the man who didn’t think he liked sex.” He lifted his head to look at Kade’s face.

Kade grinned. “Well, you definitely do it better.”

Ram’s shoulders shook with his laughter. “I’m glad I have your vote of confidence baby, it means a lot.”

Kade chuckled. “You’re welcome, Daddy.”

Ram moaned, then slammed his mouth down on Kade’s. The time for talking was over and he wanted to prove to his boy that he owned him and that he would be returning to him tonight. He helped Kade strip out of his clothes before he stood and did the same. He grabbed the lube from the nightstand and rejoined Kade on the bed. “You sure there’s nothing you wanna try tonight?” Ram asked, just to be sure.

Kade shook his head. “Not right now, I just want you.”

“You’ll get me, baby.” Ram assured Kade, kissing his way down the man’s powerful, and scarred chest. He paused at one nipple and flicked his tongue over it to see Kade’s reaction.

Kade gasped, his body bowing as pleasure ignited in his body.

“Ohhh, I see my baby likes that.” Ram chuckled darkly before he took the pebbled nipple into his mouth and gave it a strong suck.

Kade groaned, his body shaking as it was battered with pleasure. “Please just fuck me.”

“No, baby,” Ram responded, kissing across his chest to suck at the other nipple. “I’m going to take my time, and show you exactly how I feel.”

Kade panted as his dick literally throbbed against his stomach. “Fuck me now, tell me later,” he demanded.

Ram snickered. “Well, well, well, look who’s turned all demanding.” Ram grabbed Kade’s dick in a firm grasp and gave him a couple rough pumps before he released him, and reached for the lube. He couldn’t wait anymore. “Fuck, I hope at least one day we’ll be able to make this last longer than five minutes.”

Kade laughed breathlessly. “I hope not, it makes me feel really good to know you want me this much. Without my sight it’s hard for me to tell if you’re lying, paired with my feelings for you it’s almost impossible. The fact that you can barely wait, but you stopped to make sure I was okay with this before you moved forward proves to me you’re not lying about wanting me.”

“No, baby.” Ram pulled back to kneel between Kade’s legs to study his beautiful baby. Long strong muscles covered in copper skin were spread out before him and it made his mouth water with the want to taste every inch. “I would never lie about something like that. I can understand why you might be a little hesitant, but I don’t mind reminding you as many times as you need.” As he spoke he pushed one finger into Kade then added another, moving them around so he could prep him as quickly as possible.

Kade bucked his hips, hoping to entice Ram into moving faster. Feeling Ram’s presence looming over him and a part of him inside of his body was throwing Kade for a loop. It was like Ram was everywhere, he had no idea where he ended and the other man began.

“More,” Kade begged.

“Shhhh, I’ve got you baby.” Ram added some lube to his dick taking extra care not to squeeze too tight, he was already too close to the edge and he could only hope he wouldn’t blow the second he entered Kade. He lined the head of his cock up and entered Kade in one smooth thrust. “Oh, fuck,” he groaned having to stop moving before he came.

Kade grunted as he was filled and tears flooded his eyes. Fuck him would he always get so fucking emotional during sex, it was embarrassing. “Fuck,” Kade gasped, his back arching as Ram didn’t move, he was so close. Why wouldn’t Ram move? “You gotta move,” he whined.

Ram moaned. “Fuck, baby. I’m trying not to come as it is.”

Kade grabbed a fist full of Ram’s hair and tugged. He wouldn’t talk about the unmanly whine that he made when Ram snapped his hips in response. “Yes, like that. More Daddy.”

“Fuck, Kade.” Ram grunted as he snapped his hips. If Kade wanted more, he’d do whatever it took to give his baby what he needed. He leaned down to brush Kade’s lips with his as he continued to pound into his boy.

Kade’s fingers scrambled to find purchase somewhere as Ram repeatedly hit his prostate sending his body into another universe. His dick was rock hard and trapped between their hairy stomachs but the pressure wasn’t enough. He needed more. “Please?” He didn’t even know what the fuck he was begging for and he prayed to God Ram would figure it out. He wanted to come that was all he knew.

Ram sat back on his knees, one hand on Kade’s hip while he grabbed his boy’s drooling cock with the other. He jacked him to the pace of his thrusts and marveled at the man underneath him. Kade’s head was thrown back, his gorgeous eyes closed in bliss, his copper skin covered in a fine sheen of sweat as he thrashed and bucked. Ram leaned forward placing one hand over Kade’s throat, just to let his boy know he was there. When Kade bucked again Ram applied slight pressure to his neck, and watched in awe as Kade’s eyes rolled into the back of his head and he painted his chest and neck with his own spunk. “Fuck me,” Ram hissed as Kade’s hole pulsed around him and it became almost impossible for him to move. He gave one last thrust and came, letting Kade’s channel milk him for all he was worth.

“You okay?” Ram asked from his position sprawled out on Kade, his face resting in Kade’s sweaty neck.

Kade grunted, that was the only reply he could give. He felt so drained, and his mouth was dry.

“Let me clean us up and get you some water then you can take a nap okay?” Ram nuzzled his neck before he hauled himself up. He grinned when Kade didn’t move, just stayed sprawled out on the bed, his legs open wide and he could see his seed slowly leaking from Kade’s hole. He groaned and forced himself to move, he’d never get things done if he stayed. He ran some warm water over a washcloth and cleaned his own cock and balls before he wet another and headed back to clean Kade. Once he’d cleaned all the spunk off of his boy he covered him with a sheet and went to grab a bottle of water. He placed it on the nightstand for Kade for when he woke up, then headed back to the living room. He grabbed his phone and sent Ronin a text. Now that Kade was okay with him going he needed to make the plan.

Ram: You free tonight?

Grumpy Cop: Yeah, just working on my house. What do you need?

Ram: I have a sub I would like you to meet. I think you two may be a good match. I can no longer play with him because I’m with Kade, but he needs a Dom in his life.

Grumpy Cop: I’m free. Come by whenever.

Ram: Thanks.

While it may not be a good idea to put a mobster and a cop together, Ram didn’t have a lot of other options.