Chapter 30
Chapter
Thirty
A couple of days later Ram got a text from Savage saying they were free to come to the farm for the barbecue. So he had Doc take Kade shopping at a military surplus warehouse that his boy had been wanting to go to for a while, and he headed to the farm to meet them. “Hey guys,” he greeted.
“You live here?” Savage asked, stunned as he looked around in awe.
“Nah this is my brother’s house. I live over there.” He pointed to his little stone cottage a few hundred feet away.
“Wow,” Savage said breathlessly.
Ram smiled at the boy’s enthusiasm. “This is a working farm so we have a lot of animals and stuff. I’m sure my brother will let you come back and check things out. He may even need some help soon.”
“Really?” Savage grinned widely. “That’d be awesome.”
“Y’all coming in or just standing around,” Bram asked as he opened the door.
Ram snorted at Savage’s slow pan back and forth between him and his brother. “Sorry did I forget to mention we are twins.” He grimaced.
Savage gave him a droll stare. “Nope, you forgot to mention that.”
Bram chuckled. “We honestly forget half the time. Come on in.” He gestured them inside and shut the door to ward off the Texas heat. “I’m Bram and this is my wife Sanem.” He introduced his wife as she came up to them.
“Hello boys, I hope you’re hungry because we’ve got a shit ton of food.” She made a face and looked over at Ram. “I may have gone overboard… just a tinsy bit.” She held her thumb and index finger barely a centimeter apart.
Ram chuckled, shaking his head as he hugged her hard. “That’s alright we’ll eat all your hard work.” He assured her.
She clapped, delighted. “Good, come on boys.”
“All my sons are here but they have been ordered to be on their best behavior,” Bram told them as they walked into the living room where everyone was hanging around.
Saint gasped dramatically. “Dad, how could you say that? I resent that.”
“You resemble that,” Bram fired back, not missing a beat making everyone laugh.
“I’m Saint, I served with Kade.” Saint shook both their hands. “It’s really good to meet you guys.”
“You too,” Savage said, answering for both him and his brother.
“Grab a seat, Kade should be here soon. Doc called a few minutes ago saying he was trying to talk Kade out of getting some MREs.”
Ram snorted. Kade had made him try one and he found them disgusting especially when Sanem lived next door, but Kade said every now and then he’d crave one. “I have a feeling he’s gonna come home with as many as he can fit into a bag.”
Saint snorted. “No shit.”
Once Ram saw Doc’s car he headed outside. “What did you get?” he demanded and the breathtaking smile he got in return warmed his heart.
Kade held up his bag of goodies. “MREs.”
Ram smiled at Doc’s grumble. “Oh yeah? What kind?”
Kade shrugged. “The guy had a box of mixed ones so I just grabbed as many as I could.”
Ram grinned. “And I bet they’ll be gone within the month.”
“They’re good for snacking,” Kade mumbled, hugging the bag to his chest tightly.
Ram chuckled. “I’ll take your word for it. At least I don’t like them, so you will get them all to yourself.”
Kade smiled. “Good.”
Ram snorted and threw his arm over Kade’s shoulder as they walked up to the house. “I have a surprise for you.”
Kade stopped mid step and side eyed Ram. “What kind of surprise?” he asked suspiciously.
“Something good, I hope.” He could see Sanem ushering Carnage and Savage out onto the back deck while the others stayed inside. He appreciated her offering Kade some privacy for this.
Kade sucked in a deep breath to prepare himself. “Okay, let me get my glasses, my eyes are starting to hurt.”
Ram held the bag of Kade’s snacks while he ruffled through his pockets to pull out the glasses Doc prescribed him to help ease the strain as his eyes got used to taking in more light.
“Ready?” Ram asked, taking Kade’s hand and leading him to the house.
“As I’ll ever be.” Kade was trying to be excited but he didn’t really have any good experiences with surprises so he wasn’t really sure how he was supposed to react. God what if he hated it? He would have to pretend to love it, because he didn’t want to hurt Ram’s feelings after he tried to do something nice for him.
Ram led Kade up to the back porch and waited to see if his boy would notice. He didn’t know how to feel when Kade’s focus stayed on him instead of checking his surroundings. He was both happy that Kade trusted him so much and shocked that he trusted him so much.
Carnage moved silently behind Kade and flicked him in the ear.
“Goddammit Carnage, stop it.” Kade huffed slapping at the abusing hand. Kade froze and slowly turned around. Seeing his brother again after so many years caused his eyes to leak and he couldn’t do anything to stop it. “You look like fucking Santa Clause,” he said through his tears as he threw his arms around his brother and held him tight.
Savage snorted out a laugh at Carnage’s confused face. “It’s the hair and beard,” he told him.
Kade pulled back roughly and stared at Savage, who swallowed hard and looked down at his feet. Kade moved closer and pulled his younger brother into his arms to give him the same treatment. “It’s good to finally meet you, little brother.”
Savage gasped holding on to Kade as he tried to control his emotions. “You too.” He paused before he could speak again. “Siren would have been all over you.” He chuckled roughly. “Her favorite thing was hearing stories about you from Carnage.”
Kade closed his eyes in pain. “I always wanted a little sister. I know I would have loved her too.” He pulled back and grabbed Carnage’s arm, afraid this was all a dream and his brother would disappear. “Where have you been?”
Carnage cocked his head as he studied Kade. “Home.” He pointed at Kade. “You not there.”
Kade looked back between Savage and Carnage. “Why are you talking like that?”
Carnage grabbed Kade’s hand and placed it on his head.
Kade’s brows narrowed in confusion, as he ran his fingers through Carnage’s hair. When his fingers brushed over a dent in his brother’s head he froze. “What…?”
“Dad hit him over the head with a metal pipe when he came back. Siren and I were ten at the time. Carnage came back for you but you were already gone. Mom and dad were out on bail but the attack sent them back to prison. Carnage took us in when we aged out of foster care, and we’ve been together ever since. We’ve been looking for you for years but no one would ever tell us anything.”
Kade hated his father with everything he had in him. He’d almost taken the only person who had cared for him for so long. “So you have brain damage?”
Savage wobbled his hand back and forth. “I don’t know if I would call it damage or not. He can think clearly, he just has trouble getting out full sentences.”
“Have you gone to any kind of therapy for it?” Kade asked.
Carnage looked at him like he was crazy. “Why pay that?”
Kade winced. “Right wasn’t thinking sorry.” He turned on Ram. “How did you find them?”
Ram shrugged. “I didn’t. I called in a favor with Ali and he was able to find them.”
“Where?” Kade demanded.
“The halfway house is about a half hour away,” Savage answered. “After mom and dad went back to jail the house was taken by the bank and we had nowhere to go so we’ve been bouncing around for years working odd jobs.” He turned to Ram. “Please tell your friend we are so thankful for the papers.”
“What?” Kade asked, confused.
“They didn’t have papers proving they were US citizens so they’ve had a hard time finding reliable work. Doc had papers made for them.”
“He knew?” Kade screeched.
Ram rubbed the back of his head sheepishly. “Yeah, I told him and we met up with your brothers a couple times to see how things were going to go. If it wasn’t going to end well I wasn’t going to tell you. I didn’t want you to get hurt in this.”
Pain hit Kade square in the chest. “So you would have just kept it a secret that you found my brothers.”
Ram met his eyes unflinching. “If it meant you would be safe then yes.”
Kade didn’t have an answer for that and just turned back to Carnage. “What happened that night? You were supposed to come back out.”
Carnage sighed. He had no idea how he was supposed to explain what happened that night. “Attacked. Sold. Escaped.”
Kade’s eyes narrowed. “Are you saying you were attacked, sold and then escaped?”
Carnage nodded. “Home, you not there.”
Kade’s eyes filled with tears. Fuck his brother had come back for him but he’d already left. “I joined the military when I was seventeen, I was medically discharged six years ago.”
“What happened?” Savage asked, softly.
“Me and my men were taken hostage in enemy territory. I was tortured and had some kind of acid thrown in my face. I was also burned on my face with scalding metal. I’m technically blind. My vision returns rarely but it always fades.” Kade pulled his glasses off to let them get a good look at his eyes.
“Oh shit,” Savage hissed.
“Yeah, my vision is there right now but it will fade over the next month.” Kade huffed out a breath. “But you two are okay?”
Savage shrugged. “Yeah we’re good.”
Kade grabbed his keys and handed over his apartment key. “Take these, they’re to my apartment. I have three bedrooms so pick any of the guest ones you want.”
Carnage grabbed Kade’s hands. “No.”
“Damnit Carnage, don’t be a stubborn jackass. It’s my turn to take care of you. So suck it up and deal with it,” Kade groused, shoving the key into Carnage’s chest.
Carnage snorted, but took the key.
“I stay with Ram more often than not anyway so you’ll have space and a stable roof over your heads. I want to talk to both of you about work when you have a chance. Carnage, you’ll do very well as one of my fixers, and Savage I’ll need to get to know you better to be able to find the right fit for you.”
Ram butted in. “I can use Savage to help with the puppies for now. Owen always needs some extra hands when the puppies are born.”
“Really?” Savage asked, excitedly. “Do you think he needs help now?”
“Oh yeah, he’s got about fourteen puppies right now, not to mention his own dogs. He can always use the extra help.” He pulled out his phone. “I’ll shoot him a text and ask what he needs right now.”
“Okay, thank you. I’m also really good at building things, with wood or metal and I can fix most things,” Savage told him.
Ram nodded. “That’ll be good, he’s always fixing things up around the kennels.”
Later after everyone had eaten and they were crawling across the floor groaning in agony after eating so much Savage walked up to Doc. “I want to thank you for what you did for us. You didn’t have to and it means a lot that you would give us a chance.”
Doc smiled softly at him. “You remind me a lot of Kade when he was younger, I would have done whatever I could have anyway.”
Savage sat next to Doc on the couch and played with his fingers as he thought of what he could ask.
Doc chuckled. “Go ahead, ask me anything,” he urged the younger man.
“What is he like?” Savage asked, softly.
“Kade is a protector through and through. He’s always fought for the underdog and he’s loyal to a fault. He’s a good man, Savage, and he has been desperate to find Carnage for decades and as soon as he found out about you, he hasn’t stopped looking.” Doc patted his shoulder. “He may come off a little gruff and like a jackass, but he hasn’t been treated very well throughout his life.”
“Does Ram treat him well?”
Doc snorted and shook his head. “That man worships the ground your brother’s feet walk on. They haven’t been together very long, less than a year, but you would never know. They just go well together and the love they share is beautiful to witness.”
Savage breathed a sigh of relief. “Good. I’m so glad he’s okay. Carnage has told me a few things about him, but I knew it was hard for him to talk about Kade. I stopped asking after a while, but Carnage talks in his sleep sometimes, so most of what I know about Kade is from that. I can’t wait to get to know him.”
Doc grinned. “I know he feels the same way. You’ll have a lot of family now, Savage. All the guys in here are your brothers now, and Sanem is just waiting on the right time to mother the shit out of you. She does it to Kade and it’s hilarious to watch. Her and Bram will love both you and Carnage as if you were their own. You may be grown now, but they will show you what the unconditional love of parents is supposed to feel like. She’ll also feed you anytime she sees you. That’s her love language.”
Savage grinned. “She seems very sweet.”
“She is. She’s a very good woman.” Doc assured him. “Look.” He pointed and tried to smother his laughter as Sanem tried to smother Carnage in love. The look on Carnage’s face was priceless. He seemed so confused as to why she was near him.
Sanem smiled at the skittish man. She could see a lot of Kade in him and it warmed her heart that the brothers were together again. She handed him another plate full of food. “Eat up, I want to see that plate clean by the time I come back.” She left him to stare at her in shock as she went to find her husband. She stopped next to Levi for a moment to make sure he was doing alright. “Hey Levi, you doing okay?”
Levi hummed through a grin. “I think I’ve gained fifty pounds since I started staying here.”
She chuckled. “Well when you get your lazy butt up I’ll help you work it off.”
Levi snorted. “Great more torture. Love that for me.”
She snickered and ruffled his hair. “You do need to stretch though, especially after earlier. I’ll let Bram know and we’ll help you before bed.”
Levi swallowed hard and nodded.
“So are we still throwing the celebration of life?” Saint asked a little while later.
Kade nodded. “Yeah, everyone is supposed to meet at the cemetery this weekend. Everyone who couldn’t make it before should be there and all the families want to talk about the good times.”
Saint nodded. “Makes sense. I know we’ll all wanna be there.”
“As long as there aren’t any pressing cases, I would like you all there.” Kade assured him. “Any updates on the missing Marine?”
Torres shook his head. “We’re still running down leads.”
Kade nodded. At this point he was afraid they wouldn’t be able to find anything to give the man’s sister peace of mind.
“What is it that you do?” Savage asked, shoveling his third plate of food into his mouth.
“I run a company that mostly hires ex-military personnel that will go places the justice system in the US can’t. Say we have a missing Marine overseas. The government would have to go through all this red tape to even be able to come up with a compromise. They call me and I send in a team to rescue whoever has been captured.” Kade shrugged. “I don’t have to worry about all the red tape.”
Savage blinked. “Wow, that’s cool.”
“It’s the best job I’ve ever had. I loved serving my country but I fucking hated the politics of the military,” Torres said, stretching out his long legs.
“True that,” Doc agreed. “I definitely don’t miss all the bullshit.”
“Some things were fun, like the training exercises…” Saint said laughing. “I just hated the rucks we had to do.”
Doc threw a pillow at him. “Most if not all of the rucks we had to do as punishment were your fault you asshole.”
Saint snorted as he ducked when a barrage of pillows came his way as all his brothers-in-arms agreed with Doc’s statement.
“You couldn’t keep your mouth shut for nothing,” Kade grumbled. “Just had to poke the drill sergeant anytime you could.”
Saint poked his head back up. “Did you see that man, I was hoping to rile him up enough that he would spank me,” Saint said gleefully as his brothers groaned in disgust.
“Bullshit. That man was straight as hell,” Kade said, grimacing.
“I know,” Saint said, sighing like he was stupidly in love. “But I saw him once in the showers and well.” He giggled. “Let’s just say he might have been worth it.”
“Ew gross.” Kade made a reteaching noise as more pillows flew at Saint’s head.
“How did you not smother him as a baby?” Doc demanded, looking at Bram and Sanem.
“He wouldn’t let me.” She pointed to Bram.
Saint gasped loudly and smacked a hand over his heart. “Et tu brute, mother.”
She just raised an eyebrow. “You tested me a lot son, I love you but damn I wanted to wring your neck most of the time.”
Saint cackled. “But you love me,” he yelled as he started to chase Sanem making kissy noises as she tried to fend him off with a spatula.
“Y’all are certainly entertaining,” Savage said.
Bram shrugged. “There’s always one out of the bunch that got dropped on their head too many times.”
Kade snorted, almost choking on his drink. “I knew it.”
Bram chuckled. “We actually didn’t drop any of our boys, but Saint did take a few blows to the head in school.”
“In dodgeball, to be specific,” Saint said as he hopped over the back of the couch and sprawled out in Bram’s lap.
Bram smiled down indulgently at his son. He’d never bring it up but he’d often wondered if his middle child was a lot like Danno or if he had his own special way of seeing things. Out of all his sons Saint was the one that was most touchy feely with both him and Sanem. He’d gotten some strange looks over the years for it but he would never deny his son something he needed.
“I’m going to head out on Friday, to the cemetery. The celebration isn’t until Saturday but I don’t want to rush,” Kade said. He and Ram had already made plans to leave early Friday so they could take their time.
Doc let out a loud belch before he spoke. “Me and Scorp will head out late Friday when he’s done with his work. We’ll meet up with you.”
They had driven straight through last time and Kade demanded a hotel room this time. It was a long drive there and he didn’t want to do that whole trip at once again.
After a few hours Kade was ready to head back to the cottage and get some sleep. He smiled when he noticed Carnage softly petting Valk. He knew his boy could sense his brother’s discomfort. He tapped Doc on the arm. “Can you take them to my apartment and make sure there’s food there, and see if they left anything at the halfway house?”
Doc nodded. “Yeah I can, if there’s no food that’ll be fine. Sanem is in the kitchen packing several days worth of food for them.”
Kade chuckled. “Good, I’m sure they’ll eat it quickly.” He got up to go talk to Sanem. “Thank you,” he told her softly.
She smiled at him and cupped his cheeks. “I love them already, Kade, but you will always hold a special place in my heart.”
He snorted. “My ego is not that fragile. I know you can love us all in different ways.”
She smacked his arm. “You know what I mean.”
He chuckled. “I’m moving them into my apartment for the time being, since I’m with Ram more often than not.”
“Good.” She gestured to the far counter that was completely covered in to-go Tupperware. “I’ve put together a few meals for them.”
“Just a few?” he teased.
She rolled her eyes at him. “They’ll need it to relax. Plus I really did make way too much food.” She grinned sheepishly at him.
He hugged her tight. “Thank you.”
She rubbed his back as she rocked them back and forth. “You’re welcome.”
He helped Doc and Savage load up all the food in Doc’s car as Carnage looked on, his face impassive. He pulled both his brothers into a tight hug. “Don’t disappear on me again,” he warned.
Once they were back at the cottage Kade slumped into the couch. “I would love to thank you properly for today, but I’m afraid I’d be snoring in the middle of it.”
Ram huffed out a laugh. “I know, so how about we go to bed and we can talk about this later. We’ll also need to talk to Justice.”
Kade moaned. “Gross.”
Ram chuckled and pulled Kade to his feet. “Come on, baby. Bedtime.”
Kade yawned as he stripped out of his clothes and face planted onto the bed.
Ram grinned and ran a teasing finger down Kade’s spine making him jerk and grumbled before he slid under the covers. Ram stripped down and joined him, pulling his boy back into his chest and settling in to get some sleep.
As soon as Ram parked the truck in the hotel parking lot Kade hopped out and stretched his sore muscles. Fuck why did he have to choose a place so far away.
“Are you okay?” Ram asked, as he walked around the truck.
“Yeah, just sore as hell. That’s a long ass drive,” Kade mumbled.
“Let’s head inside and I’ll run you a bath. That’ll help ease some of the discomfort. I brought the Epsom salt too,” Ram said, ushering him inside.
“Thank you.” Once Kade was up to his chin in hot water, he relaxed. The heat seemed to unlock his muscles and ease some of the joint pain as he settled further into the water.
After Ram brought in the luggage he checked on Kade. His boy seemed to be enjoying the bath so he sat on the toilet lid and just watched him. He was always worried Kade would end up falling asleep and have one of his episodes where he couldn’t control his limbs and drown. He let Kade soak until the water cooled before he helped Kade out and dried him. He led Kade to the bed and had him lay on his stomach. “Let me grab the oil and I’ll rub you down.” Ram grabbed the whiskey and oak massage oil he’d bought that both him and Kade loved and headed back over to Kade. He warmed some of the oil in his hands before starting at Kade’s shoulders and slowly working his way over his boy’s back. He couldn’t get over the fact that he could touch Kade whenever he wanted. The rough scarred skin of his back made Ram sad to think about what caused them, but he would always make sure Kade knew he loved him no matter what. He leaned down and kissed some of the deeper ones across his shoulders before he nuzzled into Kade’s neck. “Love you, baby.”
Kade sighed happily. “Love you too, Daddy.”
Ram continued kissing down Kade’s back as he rubbed the oil in.
Kade’s legs started to become restless the closer Ram got to his ass. Sweat beaded on his forehead and he really wanted to start begging but he didn’t want Ram to stop what he was doing.
“You want something, baby?” Ram asked. He knew what Kade wanted, but he wanted to see if he would ask for it.
Kade huffed. “You know what I want.”
Ram chuckled darkly. “I have an inclination, but I want you to tell me what you want. Ask baby, and you shall receive.” He loved this part of their relationship, the push and pull. He loved to push Kade out of his comfort zone, but he also wanted Kade to know he would never ridicule him.
Kade licked his suddenly dry lips. “Lick it.”
Ram grinned. “Lick what, baby? Your balls? This pretty dick?” he asked as he squeezed Kade’s hard dick. “Or this gorgeous ass?” Kade’s gasp was answer enough but he wanted to know for sure.
Kade was so fucking hard he didn’t give a shit what Ram did to him. “Yes,” he gasped.
“As you wish.” Ram tapped Kade’s thigh until he raised up onto his knees and he stared at his boy’s perfect balls. Sucking one into his mouth he palmed the other and tickled the base of his dick.
Kade’s arms shook as he tried to hold still as Ram wrecked him. He’d never felt so loved more than he did when he was near Ram, but to have Ram physically show him that love was breathtaking. If he could rip his own heart out of his chest he would give it to the man. Ram owned him, body and soul.
Ram licked a hot stripe over Kade’s hole and enjoyed his boy’s smothered moan. He spread Kade’s cheeks wider so he could get a better taste, smacking Kade’s thigh when he tried to lower himself to the bed. “You stay right there, baby. I’m not done with you yet.” Once Kade got himself stable he got back to work. He nibbled around his hole and stabbed at it with his tongue. Changing his pace and action every few seconds to keep his boy on edge. Kade would never admit it, but Ram knew he enjoyed being edged until he just couldn’t take it anymore. He spread Kade’s cheeks wider and gently sucked on the puckered skin.
“Fuck.” Kade threw his head back at the sensation. He didn’t even know how to describe the sensations Ram was making his body feel. It was like a never ending high.
Once Ram felt Kade was loosened enough he added one finger. Slowly dragging it in and out, before hooking it and jabbing at Kade’s prostate.
Kade jolted, his body getting hot as he tried to catch his breath. He really wanted to come but Ram actually knew what he was doing. He could do this to Kade for hours and without the pressure on his dick Kade wouldn’t be able to come. Kade gasped and panted as Ram finally pulled out. “Want more?”
“Yes please,” Kade said, immediately. His voice ragged and hitched.
Ram took his time getting his boy ready. It could have been a few minutes or a few hours for all he knew. Judging by Kade’s shaky sweaty body it was long enough. He tapped the head of his dick against the furled skin of Kade’s hole a few times. He had no idea why he did it. It felt good, but the sound always turned him the fuck on. He urged Kade to lay flat to give his body a break as he slowly entered him. Inch by inch he slowly pushed all the way to the hilt.
Kade would be embarrassed later about the high pitched noises coming from his throat but he was so damn full. How did it always get better? It didn’t matter if it was slow or fast Ram never failed to completely wreck the absolute hell out of him. The feeling of Ram being inside him was damn near a religious experience. The man was so thick, stretching him the perfect amount to burn but not to cause actual harm. He wiggled his hips. “Move please,” he begged.
Ram set up an easy pace knowing it wouldn’t be enough for Kade. The movement was too slow for him to get enough friction on his dick. He grabbed both of Kade’s hands and pinned them to the bed when he tried to take matters into his own hands. “No, no. You come when I allow it.”
Kade cried out in frustration. His body felt so hot and he was having trouble catching his breath.
Ram shifted up a little so Kade could do more of the work. “Go ahead, baby.”
Kade thrust his hips back and forth, not giving a shit if he was being too rough. Ram grunted at every hit of his hips and he felt like he was close to blowing. When he was right on the cusp he thrust too hard forward and Ram slipped out. “Fuck.” Kade rolled to his side, his hand going back to his ass to make sure it was not torn apart.
“Holy shit, Kade.” Ram scrambled to roll Kade over to check for any damage. He had no idea how to explain why that hurt so much, but when you were stretched around something and then it was ripped out, the contraction of the muscles hurt like a bitch. “Easy.” He rubbed at Kade’s shoulder soothingly, with shaking hands. He gently spread open Kade’s cheeks to check. His hole was red and puffy but there didn’t seem to be any tears or fissures that he could see. He gently kissed Kade’s hole before he helped him roll back over. “Are you okay?”
Kade laid back trying to catch his breath. “Yeah, I think it shocked me more than anything. I mean it hurt like a bitch for a split second but that was all.” Kade assured him. Ram looked so concerned, his brows furrowed and his eyes wide with concern and guilt. “Are you okay?”
Ram blinked then met his eyes. “Yeah, I think so. I just wasn't expecting that. Are you sure you don’t feel pain anymore?”
“I mean I’m sore but not like actual pain, just like a pleasant ache. Like the kind you get after a good workout.”
Ram nodded. “Alright.” He laid down beside Kade and let out a deep breath.
Kade leaned up on his elbows and looked at Ram. “You’re still gonna fuck me right?”
Ram snorted at Kade’s worried tone. Like he’d ever have to be worried that Ram wouldn’t fuck him every chance he got. “Yes, but I want to wait a few more minutes before we try that again if you don’t mind.”
Kade flopped back. “Alright. That was hot as fuck though.” He shook his head. “You never fail to blow my mind.”
Kade said the words so softly Ram wasn’t sure he knew he said them out loud.
“You enjoy our love life, baby?” Ram asked curiously. Kade was so closed lipped about it that he was honestly wondering how Kade was doing with it. What they did was nowhere near vanilla, which is all Kade had been subjected to. He tried not to push too hard for the words when Kade’s body told him all he needed to know, but it was good to hear the words. He folded his arms behind his head when Kade laid his head on his chest.
“Yeah. I’m not sure how to explain it but it gets better and better every time. I feel like I want you all the time, and I’ve never felt like that before. But I do enjoy the intimacy we have along with the sex. That’s the biggest thing for me. It takes nothing to fuck someone, but it’s so much better when it’s someone you care about.”
Ram smiled, softly at him. “The type of intimacy we share is definitely one of a kind.”
Kade chuckled. “No kidding.”
They chuckled for a while before Kade’s erection came back full force.
Ram chuckled when Kade started to rock against him. “You got something you wanna do, baby?”
Kade nodded. “Yeah I want you to continue to fuck me into the mattress, I was so damn close,” Kade whined.
Ram snickered. He rolled Kade back to his stomach and settled back over him. He double checked to make sure Kade’s hole wasn’t hurt before slathering it in lube. He wasted no time in seating himself deep in Kade’s body.
Kade’s back arched, his head resting on Ram’s shoulder. “Fuck yes.” He grunted at each thrust Ram gave him. There was power behind those strokes and he’d never been happier. He was already back on the edge ready to come. “Gonna…” he started breathlessly but Ram got a good hold on his shoulders and increased his pace, robbing Kade of the ability to speak.
“Come whenever you’re ready,” Ram huffed in Kade’s ear.
Kade shook as his body followed orders. It was so intense Kade couldn’t even make a noise.
Ram slowed his thrusts but fucked Kade through his orgasm before he took his own. He grunted, thrusting deep, moving Kade up the bed and making him let out a high pitched whine. Ram settled over him, making sure to hold up most of his weight so they could catch their breath.
“Better and better,” Kade mumbled happily.
Ram chuckled and nuzzled into his neck. “We did good, baby.”
Kade groaned. “I can’t move.”
Ram snorted. “You’re welcome. Now let’s take a nap before we have to head to the cemetery to set up for tomorrow.”
Kade hummed happily and wiggled further down into the bed. “I’m good with that plan.”
Ram snorted as Kade wiggled his butt against his flaccid cock. “I figured you would like that.”
Ram woke from the nap re-energized and pleasantly sore. He let Kade continue to sleep as he took a shower and made plans on what they could do today to keep Kade’s mind off of everything.
Kade grumbled as he joined Ram in the shower. He walked right into Ram’s arms and relaxed into him as soon as Ram wrapped him up tight. “We should still be asleep,” Kade groused.
Ram chuckled. “You could have stayed in bed.”
“But you weren’t there,” Kade whined.
Ram smiled at his boy’s antics. “Why are you so grumpy, baby? You just had a good nap.”
Ram growled low in his throat but gave no other answer.
Ram snickered. “All right then.” He washed Kade thoroughly then got them out and dried them off. “What do you want to do for lunch today?”
Kade shrugged. “I guess we can try that little restaurant we passed on the way to the hotel. It looked pretty good.”
“It did, didn’t it. I think it was the smell. You could smell the food from the road.”
Kade chuckled. “Yeah and it smelled really fucking good.”
Ram smiled and tossed Kade some clothes. They were both ready in record time and headed out to the truck to go eat. “Do you want to walk?” He knew Kade was still stiff from the trip that morning and he didn’t want him to have to sit in the truck longer than was absolutely necessary.
“Normally I would say yes, but I’m still sore, so getting there quicker will probably be easier. I want to call Sanem and check on Valk. It’s weird not having him around.”
Ram had some ideas about that, but decided to wait until his boy had some time to relax before he brought the subject up. If there was one thing Ram knew about his boy it was that he refused to have anything to do with a conversation about Valk officially retiring. He hated that it was a conversation they were going to have to have. It wasn’t fair to keep working Valk when he was down a leg, and Kade needed another service dog. They were seated as soon as they walked in. Kade settled into the booth and immediately picked up a menu. To think he hadn’t seen one in years was wild.
“What looks good?” Ram asked, watching Kade scan the menu like a starving man at a buffet.
“All of it,” Kade mumbled. “It all looks really good, but I think I want a good juicy sausage biscuit with cheese.”
“Oohh that does sound good, and some hash browns and ketchup.” He snickered when he heard Kade’s stomach growl.
Kade grinned sheepishly. “Yeah that sounds good.”
By the time everyone arrived, Kade was sweaty and miserable. The day was hot and dry, something he never thought he’d experience back in the United States.
“Here you go, baby.” Ram handed Kade a bottle of ice cold water as he sat in the lawn chair next to him.
“Thank you.” Kade sighed deeply as he studied the mountain range his brothers would have as a view for all eternity. “It really is a beautiful spot.”
Ram nodded as he sipped his own water. “It really is. You picked a good spot, Kade, and I know your men are enjoying it.”
A cool breeze slid across Kade’s skin making him feel like it wasn’t just Ram and him sitting there. He smiled softly. “I think you’re right on that.” It still hurt knowing his men weren’t around anymore, that he couldn’t just call one of them up because he felt like it, but having the others really helped. Ram was the biggest help. He’d helped Kade to realize that he needed to start living in honor of his brothers and to not let their deaths be in vain. His brothers that were at his back now were the best group of guys he could ask for, and they never made him feel bad for missing his original crew, but they had come to mean so much to him over the years.
“Whenever you’re ready to go you let me know,” Ram said. He’d kept his eye on Kade throughout their entire time here. While he didn’t seem as worn down and lost in the past, he could still see a sadness lingering over his boy. He knew having the families of his men here was both a pain and a blessing. He got to hear all about their lives and how they were loved by their families, but there was also guilt on Kade’s part for being the only one that had survived. He tried to make up for it by telling all of them crazy stories about what their loved ones had gotten up to on deployments and how they had made themselves happy until they could return home. More than one person had assured Kade that he was not to blame for what happened and that those men had made the right choice. He knew hearing that had been a lot to process for Kade and he had tried to give him some time to himself to try and think while his other brothers mingled with the others.
Kade nodded. “It’ll be soon, I’m not such a big fan of the heat anymore.”
Ram could see that. As long as there was a breeze he could be outside all day. While he didn’t miss working in the heat or cold from sun up to sun down he did enjoy the time he did get to just enjoy the outdoors.
“That’s fine. How’s Valk?” Ram knew Kade had called Sanem several times in the hours they had been gone to check on his baby.
“He’s good. Sanem is spoiling him with some raw meat for being a good boy and trying to protect me. I thought service dogs couldn’t be aggressive?” Kade looked over at Ram.
Ram shrugged. “They can’t in a normal setting. If someone brushed up against you and he reacted that way, that would be a bad thing. That wasn’t the case, that was a real life or death situation and he tried to protect you. He wasn’t aggressive, he was protecting his master. Sometimes it’s hard to see the difference, but if Valk acted that way at the grocery store it’d be a different story.”
Kade nodded. “That makes sense.” He stalled hard before he asked the next question. “What’s going to be the lasting effects from losing his leg?”
Ram pursed his lips as he thought. “It depends, the one thing I’ll be watching for is any sign of arthritis. His other limbs are now going to have to over compensate for the loss of the other. Hopefully once he heals more I may be able to have him fitted for a prosthetic, kind of like Levi’s, to help him keep all his limbs healthy. Maybe we should talk about retiring him soon, baby.” Judging by Kade’s face, that would not be a fun conversation.