Chapter Eleven Dylan #2
I looked up at Silas with widened eyes, and he looked away briefly with red in his cheeks. "Did you get me pregnant? Isn't that what the heat does? It only lets up when the female is pregnant!" My voice grew higher with each question.
Silas put a hand on either side of me to brace himself against the counter.
He smiled at me and shook his head. "No.
There's a spell you can use to keep that from happening during a heat.
My father taught it to me and said every alpha needed to teach every male in the pack the spell, so if a female wouldn't want to become pregnant during a heat, the male can use it. "
I let out a sigh of relief. Shockingly, Silas didn't seem to take offense to it.
"Too much is going on for me to get pregnant right now. Thank you for that."
"No problem. Do you need help with the bathtub?"
My legs felt like jelly and, honestly, I felt myself swaying just sitting up right now.
The exhaustion from everything was taking over, and I couldn't wait until I could fall asleep.
Silas took me not answering as confirmation that I needed help.
He lifted me off the counter and gently lowered me into the water.
It felt amazing.
The water wasn't too hot, but it was hot enough to relax my muscles. He let me sit in there while he used the shower. My head leaned back to rest, but I turned it enough to see in the shower behind me.
Silas looked like a god. Every muscle in his body was taut, as if a sculptor had molded him from marble.
The water rolled off him, and I wanted to lick it off him instead.
My wolf rumbled inside me in agreement. Joy radiated from her as she basked in the warmth of companionship.
I had to agree as I feared what would have happened if someone like Noah had been around instead.
I doubted another male would have used the spell to keep me from getting pregnant.
Before the heat had fully settled in, I remember feeling through the bonds my mates' worry about where I was and their frantic energy as they searched for me when I didn’t show up to our meeting spot.
As the heat flared through me, it dampened my bonds to nothing.
They must have felt that happening to me and searched the academy grounds.
I searched through the bonds and noticed the block on it.
It could have been from the spell Silas used or just the heat overwhelming my system, but my mates won't see it that way.
I'm okay, boys. I went into heat.
Both of my men growled in my mind, but I could feel their relief flooding through the bonds from the sound of my voice.
Where are you? What happened? Hunter said first.
Please, for the love of the Great Moon, tell me Lupe doesn't have you.
I smiled. No. I met with the angels about an assignment. We have to track down psycho-wolf we saw outside the angel dorm the other day.
I don't care about a damn pup around the angel dorm. Where are you, Dylan? H unter snarled at me.
You better watch that attitude, Hunter.
And you better tell me where the fuck you are! You've been gone for hours. We went through the school day and then when we asked Lupe where you were, the fucking bitch said you were with the angels only for you not to be there either!
I frowned at my mate. It wasn't my fault the heat caused me to lose track of time. The only thing I wanted was orgasms. Which Silas supplied.
I'm with Silas.
Silence answered me from both of my mates.
Terror licked through me as I thought I pissed off my mates.
The bonds weren't telling me a damn thing, either.
None of their emotions were coming through, so I didn't know how they felt about me being with Silas.
I didn't have to tell them it was Silas who got me through the heat. That was implied.
The last thing I wanted, though, was to hurt my mates. If I could have chosen the moment I went into heat, it would have been around them. That's not how life works, though.
Is he taking care of you? Jackson asked.
I felt they were talking to each other when talking through the bonds.
Yeah. He is taking care of me.
Good, t hey said in unison.
I bit my lip as I waited for them to say something else.
Silas turned off the shower behind me, and I heard his footsteps before he came into view.
A towel around his waist and the smell of bergamot entangled with his sweet and spicy scent had my mouth watering as he lowered himself to be eye level with me.
"I'm going to assume you've contacted your mates."
I bit my lip as I tried to decipher his tone. Was that sadness? Did he hope I would have kept them out of this and stayed here tonight?
"Yeah. I had to. They were looking for me."
He sighed. "Well, nice knowing you."
I lifted my brows at him. "What do you mean?"
"Like they aren't about to rip open the door to my room and then rip me to shreds for touching you."
Would they? I couldn’t decipher whether their fury was directed at my relationship with Silas.
Both of them had wanted Silas hurt or dead when he first arrived here.
After Jackson had his time fighting Silas on the mats, he had softened a bit toward my ex-mate.
I wasn't sure if I wanted to come around to Silas yet, and Hunter seemed keen on keeping his distance, too.
But how could I after today?
Are you two mad at me?
I waited for their response, and with each second that passed with silence, I felt like I wanted to burst. How could I recover from this if my mates hate me because of this?
It wasn't a mistake. I could feel that in my bones.
I may not like Silas right now, but if I wasn't supposed to spend this moment with him, the Great Moon wouldn't have put me in this position.
I still wanted to smack him for everything he put me through, but it was much harder to feel hatred toward him right now.
No, love. We aren’t mad at you. We are so relieved and grateful he was there for you. We can talk about this later.
The whoosh of air that left my lungs made Silas reach out to grab onto me as I slid down in the tub.
The heat from his hands sent tingles between my legs, but I couldn't focus on that right now.
I slapped his hand away, more so I could keep the desire of repeating what happened all day until the morning rolled around.
But the look on Silas's face broke my heart.
It looked like I had given him all the hope in the world that I would forgive him entirely after today. I held in my breath as I stared into his eyes. He blinked, and the sadness disappeared from them. But I know what I saw.
"Let me clean you up. Why don't you ask your mates to bring you clothes so my scent isn't on them?" He moved to stand up, but I caught his wrist.
"They will not come kill you or anything."
"Good to know." He still moved away from me.
I heard him go into the shower again, and he returned with a loofah in his hand. He stopped before the tub and then looked back at me.
"Would you like to take a shower yourself? Or would you like to stay in the tub?"
Silas returned to the state of hating himself for his mistakes against me.
I watched the confidence he had in the bedroom fly out the window.
He truly regretted what he had done to me, and I could see it all in his posture and face right now, with his shoulders sagged and his eyes not quite meeting mine.
"They don't hate you either, Silas. They understand you were there for me in a time of need, that you took care of me."
This time he looked right at me, and his face told me everything.
The relief he felt, how he hoped this meant there wouldn't be a hostile reaction to him when he saw them next, and how much he needed to hear those words from me, but the most prominent emotion I could see in his face was a question he wanted to ask, but wasn't sure how to ask it.
I moved in the tub so I could sit up straight and held out my hand for him to take. For a moment I thought he wouldn't but then felt his clasp mine. He kneeled down so he could be level with me again, and took a deep breath.
"I don't hate you either, Silas. I want to, but I can't seem to hold on to that hatred." He let out the breath he’d been holding and bowed his head. "I'm still mad at you, but I don't think that will last much longer either. You are taking the right steps to make that anger disappear."
"I'm sorry, Dylan. I don't think I could say that enough."
I pressed a finger to his lips to make him stop talking.
"I know. Thank you for getting me through my first heat.
Not going to lie, I'm glad I was around you and not some rando around the school.
From what I understand, it doesn't matter if you are mated or not, it will make all the males want you. "
"Yeah, from what I know, that is accurate."
"So thank you for that."
He smiled. I forgot how handsome this man was when he smiled. "Any time."
"Well, I hope I don't go through another heat any time soon. Sorry, but that was not the greatest thing to go through. It's like all the orgasms in the world wouldn't suffice until it just went away ."
Silas laughed and stood up again. "I think we should get you cleaned up. Even though your mates don't hate me, I don't see that sticking if I keep you away much longer."
He grabbed onto my hand and lifted me up from the tub.
He took me to the shower and held out the loofah for me to take.
Now that I knew Silas could be a caring mate, it was hard to tell him to leave the bathroom.
Before I second guessed myself, I grabbed onto the towel instead of the loofah, undoing it so it would fall to the ground.
Silas looked at me with widened eyes before I grabbed onto his hand to pull him into the shower with me.