Chapter Thirty-Two
FINN
Stunned, I turn in Sel’s arms and let the blanket fall away.
“Sel.”
“I love you, Finn. The key’s already yours. Move in with me.”
Blinking away tears, I nod.
“I want that,” I whisper. “Holy shit, talk about the best gift ever.”
“Should we even bother opening the rest?” he teases as he squeezes me tight.
I give him a resounding kiss, slide off his lap, and head toward the collection of boxes sitting under the tree. Grabbing a silver bow from one of the gifts, I stick it to my ass.
“You asked, I answered,” I insist as I walk past him and saunter toward the bedroom.
Next thing I know, Sel’s arms band around my waist, and I’m tackled sideways (right side) onto his bed, the two of us laughing. My chuckle fades away when he nips my jaw.
“Joking aside, does this mean you want to—” He pauses.
“Yes. I need you inside me,” I demand. “Can’t wait anymore.”
“Christ.”
I don’t realize I’m trembling until Sel slides his hands over my chest, holding me tight, burying his face in my neck.
My emotions are too close to the surface again, and I’m about to cry all over these sheets.
So much for my attempt at being sexy. It doesn’t matter, because when I love, I’m all in. And fuck, do I love this man.
“I never thought—” I pause, swallowing past the lump in my throat. “Never thought anyone would love me the way you do.”
“Never thought I’d be loved the same way, but here we are. It’s not a temporary dream, is it, sweetheart? When I wake up tomorrow, you’ll be here, and the day after that and—”
Looking over my shoulder, I’m caught by his beautiful, dark eyes. Mine are welling up again.
“You’re never getting rid of me,” I insist.
Sel shifts, and while his covered dick feels amazing tucked in the crease of my ass, it’s not enough. My cock is so hard I’m about to rip through my jeans and the denim barrier between us needs to go. He sucks on the skin of my neck, and enough is enough.
“Wait,” I insist.
Sel stills at first and then leans back. The loss of contact makes me feral.
Do it.
Turning over, I anchor my legs around his hips, and roll him until he’s flat on his back staring up at me.
“Fuck me,” Sel whispers, his eyes wide.
“Later.” I lean down and claim his mouth. “Right now, you’re going to fuck me.”
“Oh God.”
Reaching for Sel’s jeans, I quickly undo them and push his briefs down, his gorgeous cock slapping against his taut belly.
Sel raises his hips, and I tug the clothing down to his thighs.
I’ve never seen anything as beautiful as Sel, his hair disheveled, his swollen lips curled in a sinful smile.
I shuffle back, yank his jeans all the way off, and make quick work of my own.
He raises up on his elbows and shifts until his back is leaning against the headboard.
All the time he watches me, his eyes intent, a dark flush staining his cheekbones.
Suddenly my nerves kick up again.
“Face to face but like this,” I insist as I crawl up the bed and straddle him. “I need to have some control.”
He nods, biting his lower lip.
My hand slides under one of the pillows and when I pull out the lube, I pour almost half the bottle into Sel’s outstretched hand.
Watching him slick his fingers makes my hole clench tight.
He runs his other hand over my ass cheek, rubbing and squeezing, until I start to relax.
Then his lubed finger traces the crease of my ass and relaxed is not what’s happening here.
I’m way too fucking excited about what comes next.
“I used a dildo,” I blurt out.
Closing my eyes, I shake my head. Fuck, can I just be cool during sex? Like, one fucking time? Sel doesn’t seem to mind, because he keeps teasing me with those talented hands, his grip even firmer.
When I open my eyes and look at him, he’s smiling so wide that it’s nearly blinding.
“Did you enjoy using it?”
I lick my lips and nod.
“Yes,” I admit. “But it wasn’t enough.”
“Getting yourself ready for me is so fucking sexy, Finn.”
“Too bad my mouth didn’t get the memo.”
Sel shakes his head.
“Say whatever you want, whenever you want. Everything you are turns me on.”
I worry my lower lip.
“I’m nervous.”
“I can tell.” Sel bands his arms around my body and reassures me with a soft kiss. “Guess what? So am I.”
“You?”
“It’s your first time having anal sex, Finn. I don’t want to disappoint you.”
“You could never.”
Sel massages my ass, then slips one slick finger down my crease again, over my hole, then lower, teasing my taint. The pleasure’s already out of hand and then his lips and tongue trace lazy patterns on my neck.
“Ah, fuuuuck,” I groan.
I push my ass back, needing more, and my dick leaks like mad.
“I haven’t even gotten inside you, sweetheart.”
“I know,” I shiver. “And already it’s the hottest thing ever.”
“You’re stroking my ego.”
I reach down and wrap my hand around his erection, working his cock fast and rough, a rhythm that I’ve learned drives him crazy. His raspy moans don’t lie.
“Are you complaining?” I tease.
Sel responds by nipping and sucking my skin, marking me. The pleasure-pain makes my eyes roll back.
“Jesus.”
“You ready?” he murmurs and kisses my Adam’s apple.
“I’ve been ready for weeks,” I admit.
“Push out when I push in.”
Sel slides the tip of his finger into my hole. Even with my earlier prep, and the lube, I’m still tight. I’m also desperate for more of him. Desperate enough that I lose my grip on his cock and reach for his shoulders, digging my fingers so deep into the muscle I know I’m gonna leave bruises.
“Okay?” he whispers.
“Yes.” I lick my lips. “Don’t stop.”
Slowly, he pushes his finger all the way inside.
There’s a bite of pain, but that eases once he starts moving in and out, taking his time to stretch me.
Fucking hell, I don’t think I’ll ever get used to how intimate this is, especially when we’re staring at each other and sharing the same breath.
Sweat drips down my back, my thighs, and when Sel crooks his finger and taps my prostate, the pleasure takes over, so intense that my entire body goes rigid.
“Ahh! Fuck, fuck!” I shout.
I don’t think I’m gonna survive when I finally get his dick inside me.
“More?”
“Yes!”
I push my greedy ass back, wanting, no, needing Sel to touch me like that again.
He adds a second finger, and when I’m good and stretched, a third.
The burn is almost too much, and my erection flags, but Sel uses his other hand to stroke my cock, and fuck, it doesn’t take long for me to stiffen again.
All my pleasure points are hitting at the same time as I swivel my hips back and forth, humping his hand like a man possessed.
“Sel.” I grit my teeth in frustration. “Need you.”
“I’m right here, sweetheart.”
He’s flushed and sweaty, so gorgeous. All mine.
“More lube,” he pants, his voice hoarse. “Hold on.”
When he eases his fingers out of my hole, I can’t help but whimper.
I’m way too fucking empty. Sel fumbles with the lube, his hands shaking as he flips opens the cap, and I’m glad I’m not the only one whose adrenaline’s spiking.
My nerves give way to excitement when I watch him slick up his thick cock.
He tugs once, twice, and then adds more lube.
“I’m ready.” he nods. “You?”
I shuffle my knees forward until I’m straddling his lap.
“I’m all yours.”
“Anytime you need to stop, tell me.”
I nod.
“Okay,” he murmurs. “When you’re ready, reach back and spread your cheeks, then slowly sit down.”
I follow his lead, and when I feel his hot dick brush my hole, my thighs quake.
“Slow and easy,” he encourages. “You control how much, how fast.”
Slowly, I start to ease down, but even with just the head of his bare cock inside me, it’s a lot. The pressure and the heat are unreal.
“Jesus Christ,” I groan. “That dildo has nothing on your dick.”
Sel presses his lips together, his body rigid.
“Don’t make me laugh right now, Finn.”
“I’m not joking.”
I let go of my ass cheeks, grab his shoulders, and let gravity take over.
Taking my sweet time, I sink down on his lubed cock, inch by inch.
It takes me a while—feels like forever—and I need to stop twice.
I’m too overwhelmed to go any faster. Thank fuck I prepped, though.
Every time I move, my hole throbs in the best way, until I’m so far gone that I all I can do is grunt, greedy for more.
“Oh fuck, Sel. Oh God.”
When I finally sit down on Sel’s lap, his stiff dick all the way inside me, nothing between us, I release a long, shaky breath.
“That’s it,” Sel whispers. “All mine. Fucking beautiful.”
I’m so full, and the sensation is too much but also not enough.
I need to move. He rubs a hand over my thigh, anchoring me.
Instinct takes over and I start to ride him, levering up and down, my knees digging into the mattress.
Pain and pleasure battled for a while, but pleasure’s winning, and I’m hungry for it.
“Finn,” Sel groans, tightening his grip on my leg. “Fuck, yeah. Just like that.”
He drops his head back, and I can’t help but lean down and lick the pulsing vein in his neck. Sel pumps his hips, and when he nails my prostate, pleasure sparks and spreads to every cell in my body.
“Yes!”
My shout is so fucking loud I worry I might shatter the bedroom window.
Then Sel strokes my throbbing dick with his other hand, and I don’t know what’s better.
Every sensation pushes me nearer to the edge, until I can’t take anymore.
I stare into his sexy eyes as we move together, grinding closer, fucking like mad and eating at each other’s mouth.
Everything about Sel makes me wild and I can’t get enough.
“More, baby, more,” I demand, sliding my hands into his hair and gripping the strands tight.
“Sweetheart.”
Sel jerks my dick faster and both of us moan, fucking harder, kissing until we’re out of breath. I’m going to shatter into a billion pieces any moment now.
“So close,” I grunt as my climax spirals out of control. “Ahh, fuck!”
“Do it, come for me.”