13. Pix
Pix
Isob into her shoulder, rutting into her. Everything hurts, everything hurts so much, but I can’t stop. It’s never been this bad before. Like something in this heat hasn’t been met, and it won’t end until I get it.
“Oh, what have you done to yourself?” Her voice is different, but I immediately recognise Raven.
I growl and thrust into her, arching my back, pressing as deep as I can. She stares up at me, her black hair tangled and sweaty, her golden eyes with all their secrets peering into my fucking soul.
“Daega?”
I open my eyes.
“Get the fuck off me.”
I’m so startled that I do exactly that. She sits up, scowling at the alphas who are watching in the dark. They have bruises on them, cuts, my teeth imprinted in their flesh. I did that. I know I did, but it feels like a fever dream.
Raven stands up, and then she peels the door of the tent open and walks away.
No!
I roar and chase after her, but she spins and kicks me in the chest. With a surprised oof, I land hard on my back. It just pisses me off. I get up, glaring at her.
She ties up her hair and rolls her shoulders.
“Get back in my nest,” I snarl at her.
“Oh, you are so cute.”
I snarl.
She snarls back, openly mocking me.
My rage notches up.
“Rose, get your ass up,” she says loudly. “I’m going to need you in a minute.”
“He’s not leaving my nest!” I snarl.
She cocks her head to the side. “Who the hell is going to stop me? You?”
I howl with rage and charge her, but she puts me back on my ass.
“Stay down there, Omega. That’s where you belong, after all.”
“BITCH!”
She tosses her hair back and laughs. “Yeah. That’s me. I am the queen of mean.”
I lunge at her, but she taps my cheek, not hard enough to hurt, but hard enough to piss me off. I kneel there, blinking at the fact she actually just did that.
I scramble up and whirl, slowing down, trying to think through the fog. She dances in and puts me on my ass again.
The pain slices a bit more of the clouds out of my head.
“Come on, Daega, get up.”
I glance around and find our alphas watching. I hiss at them, promising they are next. As soon as I deal with her, I’ll deal with them.
“You’re going to beg me-”
I land on my back.
What is happening here?
Raven stalks around, completely confident in her nudity. The omega heat scent around her is gone, and now it’s just the slightly sweet but much more muted scent of the beta.
“Am I going to beg? Who's going to make me? It won’t be you.”
I roll and lunge; we exchange a volley of blows before I land on my back, wheezing.
“I thought you were supposed to be some super-trained serial killer. Look at you. Lying there, beaten up by a girl.”
I roll to my feet and charge her. This time, my blows are quick, and she has to work to evade them. We fight for about five minutes before she puts me back on my ass.
“Nice try, sunshine. You are not a morning kitten, are you? All puffing and panting and full of rage. Do you need a coffee?”
I snarl at her and surge up, but I land heavily again.
Again.
And again.
I’m sobbing for air, tears running down my cheeks. I’m not sad, I’m just emotional. The heat grips me in its throes, and I beg for a knot, but when the alphas start towards me; she cuts them off, stopping them from approaching.
“They are mine!” I howl.
“Oh, boohoo. Are you going to cry about it, little baby omega?”
I’m going to kill her.
“THEY ARE MINE!”
Raven snorts. “Stomp your feet, baby. Throw all your toys. Scream louder for me. Doesn’t change shit. They listen to me now.”
I roar and charge her.
She puts me down hard and then kneels on my back, pinning me to the spot.
“Right. I think that ought to do it.”
What?
She grabs a fistful of my hair and straddles me. My ass and cock clench, and I feel the need return with a vengeance. I want to fuck her.
“Get off me, and I will make you feel so good,” I try to sound as tempting as I can.
She snorts. “Not happening, my sunshine puppy.”
I growl.
She slides a hand over my ass, then slaps it hard. “You see, there’s something going on here with you. Something that’s not right, and we’re going to talk about our feelings.”
“Fuck off.”
“I love that. But let’s give my idea a go first.”
“I want a knot!” I growl sullenly.
“Yes, and I think that’s exactly the problem, isn’t it, Omega? You’ve been in charge the whole time. No one challenged you. They were scared you would leave.”
She leans down until I can feel her hot breath on my ear.
“But I’m not leaving, neither will I let you go anywhere, and you are going to submit to me.”
My eyes widen. What the fuck?
“Fuck you!” I snarl low and violently.
“Oh, baby, if only I had a strap-on, I would knot you so hard, but unfortunately, I don’t, so we’re going to play my way. You will behave.”
I snarl and struggle, but she just holds and waits me out. I drop, relaxing, panting for air, struggling to calm the panic and the heat.
Her hands slide calmly up my back, massaging in big circles that slowly get more and more intimate.
When her hand slides over my ass, I snarl but don’t flinch. She brushes the tip of her finger over my tight ring.
“Don’t you want my cock?” I purr seductively.
Raven laughs and leans over me, pressing her breasts against my back. My eyes flutter shut at the feel of her softness. I groan and grind against the grass, trying to get some relief.
A sharp smack has me howling in outrage.
“No more of that. Now, roll onto your back.”
I don’t want to.
She grabs my arm and does something that has my body just moving, following the twist of my arm.
“Let me go!” I howl and surge up, bucking and twisting. She slams her forearm against my throat, cutting off my air.
“Behave, little omega.”
I stare up at her. She has the eyes of a killer. Remorseless, merciless, full of deep purpose.
The heat lifts, and I shiver in the air, sobbing, suddenly so damn exhausted, more than I ever have been. I don’t want this. I don’t want to feel like this.
“Raven?”
She leans down, touching her lips to mine. “Trust us.”
I shake my head.
I can’t.
I can’t trust anyone but the Sandersons. Everyone else is bad. They leave me. Betray me.
“I’m not leaving you, and I will never betray you,” Raven growls.
Her fingers lock around my throat.
“Look at me, Omega.”
I open my eyes, staring at her.
“These alphas won’t leave you.”
I shake, shivering, the heat is ebbing away, leaching out of me, draining me.
“Give me your trust.”
I whine. It’s embarrassing.
“You belong to me now. Give me everything, Daega.”
When she leans down and kisses me, I open my mouth and let her in, sobbing into her. My arms reaching up to encircle her, not to grab or manhandle her but to hold her because I want this pack. More than I want anything else.
And that scares me.
She’s gentle when she strokes my body, touching me, bringing me into arousal like the floating of a cloud on the breeze. Her hands are soft on my cock.
My breath catches in my throat, my eyelids flutter. I submit to her completely. She touches me with a gentleness I have never known.
“That’s it. That’s my beautiful omega.”
“I’m not.”
“You are my beautiful tapestry, Daega,” Raven whispers. “You are so lovely it hurts to look at you. But you are being such a good boy. I think it’s time we finish this heat, what do you say? Shall we have some sleep and cuddles?”
“You won’t leave?”
“No, we will be here with you, always,” she whispers against my lips.
I whine and press my face into her when she presses her fingers into my ass, gently fucking me with them. The heat sparks its dying embers.
“Rose,” Raven whispers. “We need you.”
Roseland comes over and kneels between my legs. He stares at me, and I have no anger to shield me, no sarcasm, no nonchalance. There is just raw me, scared to be left.
“I won’t leave you, Daega. Not anymore. I am sorry for hurting you.”
I lunge up, kissing him. He is strong and firm, and when he pushes into me, he’s so big I almost weep, but it feels so right. With each stroke of his cock, he hits something inside of me that sings.
I clutch at him, leaning in, dragging us together, locking us together, until his knot slides into me. At that exact moment, I reach out and grab her hand.
Raven lays down beside us, watching patiently, calmly, while Rose extinguishes the last of my heat.
Rolly brings me water, kissing my temple.
“Don’t fuss,” I complain.
“Just this once. I need to,” he says back, and I subside because it never occurred to me that they would need to.
I’m brought food, and they clean the tent up, airing it out. When it’s been aired, they set it up, and we go and lie in the tent, collapsing in piles together.
Raven looks up at the roof of the tent.
“How did you know I needed that?”
Raven turns her head towards me. “You know, you aren’t so different from us, Pix.
We just separated into a couple of us. But Raptor and I are fairly scared to be left alone, and Raptor is violent during her heat because being vulnerable is the worst possible thing she can imagine doing. Also, I saw the two of you fighting.”
I snort a laugh, but it dies.
A kernel of shame builds.
“Did I hurt anyone?”
Blaze rolls on top of me. “We loved every minute of playing with you.”
“Playing? You have a black eye.”
“A love tap. Besides, you had your knives. You never picked them up.”
I stare at him. I could have killed them.
“But you didn’t,” Blaze says, accurately reading what I was thinking.
“I could have.”
“Some part of you knew you didn’t want to hurt us. So, you didn’t. Have more trust in us and yourself, Daega. You are our omega. The end. I will never willingly leave you, and I won’t allow you to leave me.”
Raven laughs.
“What’s funny?” Rolly snarls, rolling over and pinning her beneath him.
“Merle woke up deep-throating you. She had no idea what to do. That memory is hilarious. You are up there moaning and looking sexy, and there’s a cock in her throat, and she’s just like what the fuck.”
Rolly stares at her, aghast.
Raven keeps giggling.
I think it’s the first time I’ve seen her laugh like that. She looks young. She is young, so much younger than she feels.
“Enough, kittens,” Sage says. “Let’s go to sleep now.”
I roll onto my side, curling into Blaze, who wraps me in his strong arms. On the other side of me, Raven is being cuddled by Rolly. Rose is with Sage, while King is wrapped around Rolly.
This is our pack.
It could be our future.
I’m going to fight to make sure that it stays mine and perhaps sort out my head before I actually do hurt someone.