Chapter 37 Parker
PARKER
Ican feel her again! Before bonding—well, before meeting Thea—I never thought much of bonding.
To be honest, I figured I wouldn’t like having someone in my head like that.
It’s already a chaotic mess and I couldn’t imagine someone feeling the mayhem that are my emotions sometimes.
Despite that, when Thea and I bonded, I felt more at peace than I ever had before.
Her love and confidence have been helping shore up my own little by little.
I never have a doubt about how she feels about me. She accepts every part of me and I her.
Having that connection muted even for a few hours was more painful than I would have thought before.
I’m so happy to have it back. I’m currently sitting on the floor in the sitting room since everyone has claimed a spot.
Well, there’s the cushion next to Keelan but I can tell he doesn’t need my energy around him right now.
Eli is in the chair next to me. I hugged him so tightly in relief when the bond came back.
I should get back to my work but I just want to sit and absorb this moment a little while longer.
Everyone is here except Jake. I remember seeing him still working in the kitchen when I made my way here.
Not long passes with the bond being open and feeling her presence when a wave of disgust and shame hit the bond. It’s cut off so abruptly, as if she slammed the door to her bond. Her presence in the bond can still be felt unlike before but nothing else is coming through. What does this mean?
I look up to Eli who’s closest to me. His hands are gripping the arms of the chair he’s in tightly. Keelan’s eyes are burning, hotter than when we found out she was taken.
Turning to Ben, I ask, “Why did she do that?”
His eyes that looked heartbroken a second ago soften in…sympathy? He lifts his glasses and rubs at his eyes.
“What did she do?” Micah asks softly. He sounds so unsure of, well, everything. It’s so unlike him.
Everyone is looking at him now with a similar look Ben had. Liam is the one to speak up. “We felt her disgust and shame in the bond before she blocked it so we won’t feel anything else she’s experiencing.”
Experiencing. I’m a fucking idiot. He’s doing something to her, and she doesn’t want us to feel it and worry.
I can’t sit, so I get up and pace the small room.
I don’t even see the guys in the room anymore.
When the block continues, I leave and go back to the security room.
I need to find this fucker. There’s a way to trace what he did with the cameras.
I just need to find it so we can find her.
It’s only a few minutes later that the bond is open again.
She’s only letting her love filter down.
I hate it. She doesn’t need to be strong for us.
We should have prevented this. I should have put a tracker on her somehow.
Though seeing this guy’s technical abilities, I doubt it would have made it past him.
I’m going to find her and we’re going to bring our omega back home.