Chapter Four #2
Not this time, she promised herself. This time she would hold her head up, refuse to be cast as inferior in the face of Jo’s latest triumph, latest trip, latest wonder.
She wasn’t going to play the hotshot’s baby sister any longer.
She’d outgrown that role, Lexy assured herself.
And it was high time everyone realized it.
There was a scattering of people on the wide crescent of beach. They had staked their claims with their blankets and colorful umbrellas. She noted several with the brightly striped box lunches from Sanctuary.
The scents of sea and lotions and fried chicken assaulted her nostrils.
A toddler shoveled sand into a red bucket while his mother read a paperback novel in the shade of a portable awning.
A man was slowly turning into a lobster under the merciless sun.
Two couples she had served that morning were sharing a picnic and laughing together over the clever voice of Annie Lennox on their portable stereo.
She didn’t want them—any of them—to be there. On her beach, in her personal crisis. To dismiss them, she turned and walked away from the temporary development, down the curve of beach.
She saw the figure out in the water, the gleam of tanned, wet shoulders, the glint of sun-bleached hair.
Giff was a reliable creature of habit, she thought, and he was just exactly what the doctor called for.
He invariably took a quick swim during his afternoon break. And, Lexy knew, he had his eye on her.
He hadn’t made a secret of it, she mused, and she wasn’t one to resent the attentions of an attractive man. Particularly when she needed her ego soothed. She thought a little flirtation, and the possibility of mindless sex, might put the day back on track.
People said her mother had been a flirt.
Lexy hadn’t been old enough to remember anything more than vague images and soft scents when it came to Annabelle, but she believed she’d come by her skill at flirtation naturally.
Her mother had enjoyed looking her best, smiling at men.
And if the theory of a secret lover was fact, Annabelle had done more than smile at at least one man.
In any case, that’s what the police had concluded after months of investigation.
Lexy thought she was good at sex; she had been told so often enough to consider it a fine personal skill. As far as she was concerned, there was little else that compared to it for shouldering away tension and being the focus of someone’s complete attention.
And she liked it, all the hot, slick sensations that went with it. It hardly mattered that most men didn’t have a clue whether a woman was thinking about them or the latest Hollywood pretty boy while it was going on. As long as she performed well and remembered the right lines.
Lexy considered herself born to perform.
And she decided it was time to open that velvet curtain for Giff Verdon.
She dropped the towel she’d brought with her onto the packed sand.
She didn’t have a doubt that he was watching her.
Men did. As if onstage, Lexy put her heart into the performance.
Standing near the edge of the water, she slipped off her sunglasses, let them fall heedlessly onto the towel.
Slowly, she stepped out of her sandals, then, taking the hem of the short-skirted sundress she wore, she lifted it, making the movements a lazy striptease.
The bikini underneath covered little more than a stripper’s G-string and pasties would have.
Dropping the thin cotton, she shook her head, skimmed her hair back with both hands, then walked with a siren’s swagger of hips into the sea.
Giff let the next wave roll over him. He knew that every movement, every gesture Lexy made was deliberate.
It didn’t seem to make any difference. He couldn’t take his eyes off her, couldn’t prevent his body from going tight and hard and needy as she stood there, all luscious curves and pale gold skin, with her hair spiraling down like sun-kissed flames.
As she walked into the water, and it moved up her body, he imagined what it would be like to rock himself inside her to the rhythm of the waves. She was watching him too, he noted, her eyes picking up the green of the sea, and laughing.
She dipped down, rose up again with her hair shiny and wet, water sliding off her skin. And she laughed out loud.
“Water’s cold today,” she called out. “And a little rough.”
“You don’t usually come in till June.”
“Maybe I wanted it cold today.” She let the wave carry her closer. “And rough.”
“It’ll be colder and rougher tomorrow,” he told her. “Rain’s coming.”
“Mmm.” She floated on her back a moment, studying the pale blue sky. “Maybe I’ll come back.” Letting her feet sink, she began to tread water as she watched him.
She’d grown accustomed to his dark brown eyes watching her like a puppy when they were teenagers. They were the same age, had grown up all but shoulder to shoulder, but she noticed there had been a few changes in him during her year in New York.
His face had fined down, and his mouth seemed firmer and more confident.
The long lashes that had caused the boys to tease him mercilessly in his youth no longer seemed feminine.
His light brown hair was needle-straight and streaked from the sun.
When he smiled at her, dimples—another curse of his youth—dented his cheeks.
“See something interesting?” he asked her.
“I might.” His voice matched his face, she decided. All grown-up and male. The flutter in her stomach was satisfying, and unexpectedly strong. “I just might.”
“I figure you had a reason for swimming out here mostly naked. Not that I didn’t enjoy the view, but you want to tell me what it is? Or do you want me to guess?”
She laughed, kicking against the current to keep a teasing distance between them. “Maybe I just wanted to cool off.”
“I imagine so.” He smiled back, satisfied that he understood her better than she could ever imagine. “I heard Jo came in on the morning ferry.”
The smile slid away from her face and left her eyes cold. “So what?”
“So, you want to blow off some steam? Want to use me to do it?” When she hissed at him and started to kick out to swim back to shore, he merely nipped her by the waist. “I’ll oblige you,” he said as she tried to wiggle free. “I’ve been wanting to anyway.”
“Get your hands—” The end of her demand was lost in a surprised grunt against his mouth. She’d never expected reliable Giff Verdon to move so quickly, or so decisively.
She hadn’t realized his hands were so big, or so hard, or that his mouth would be so ... sexy as it crushed down on hers with the cool tang of the sea clinging to it. For form’s sake she shoved against him, but ruined it with a throaty little moan as her lips parted and invited more.
She tasted exactly as he’d imagined—hot and ready, the sex kitten mouth slippery and wet. The fantasies he’d woven for over ten years simply fell apart and reformed in fresh, wild colors threaded with helpless love and desperate need.
When she wrapped her legs around his waist, rocked her body against his, he was lost.
“I want you.” He tore his mouth from hers to race it along her throat while the waves tossed them about and into a tangle of limbs. “Damn you, Lex, you know I’ve always wanted you.”
Water flowed over her head, filled it with roaring. The sea sucked her down, made her giddy. Then she was in the dazzling sunlight again with his mouth fused to hers.
“Now, then. Right now.” She panted it out, amazed at how real the need was, that tight, hot little ball of it. “Right here.”
He’d wanted her like this as long as he could remember. Ready and willing and eager. His body pulsed toward pain with the need to be in her, and of her. And he knew if he let that need rule, he would take her and lose her in one flash.
Instead he slid his hands down from her waist to cup and knead her bottom, used his thumbs to torment her until her eyes went dark and blind. “I’ve waited, Lex.” And let her go. “So can you.”
She struggled to stay above the waves, sputtered out water as she gaped at him. “What the hell are you talking about?”
“I’m not interested in scratching your itch and then watching you walk off purring.” He lifted a hand to push back his dripping hair. “When you’re ready for more than that, you know where to find me.”
“You son of a bitch.”
“You go work off your mad, honey. We’ll talk when you’ve had time to think it through calm.” His hand shot out, grabbed her arm. “When I make love with you, that’s going to be it for both of us. You’ll want to think about that too.”
She shoved his hand away. “Don’t you touch me again, Giff Verdon.”
“I’m going to do more than touch you,” he told her as she dove under to swim toward shore. “I’m going to marry you,” he said, only loud enough for his own ears. He let out a long breath as he watched her stride out of the water. “Unless I kill myself first.”
To ease the throbbing in his system, he sank under the water. But as the taste of her continued to cling to his mouth, he decided he was either the smartest man on Desire or the stupidest.
* * *
JO had just drummed up the energy to take a walk and had reached the edges of the garden when Lexy stormed up the path. She hadn’t bothered to towel off, so the little sundress was plastered against her like skin. Jo straightened her shoulders, lifted an eyebrow.
“Well, how’s the water?”
“Go to hell.” Breath heaving, humiliation still stinging, Lexy planted her feet. “Just go straight to hell.”
“I’m beginning to think I’ve already arrived. And so far my welcome’s been pretty much as expected.”
“Why should you expect anything? This place means nothing to you and neither do we.”
“How do you know what means anything to me, Lexy?”
“I don’t see you changing sheets, clearing tables. When’s the last time you scrubbed a toilet or mopped a damn floor?”