Chapter Seven
SEVEN
NATHAN took a camera with him. He felt compelled to retrace some of his father’s footsteps on Desire—or perhaps to eradicate them. He chose the heavy old medium-range Pentax, one of his father’s favorites and surely, he thought, one that David Delaney had brought to the island with him that summer.
He would have brought the bulky Hasselblad view camera as well, and the clever Nikon, along with a collection of lenses and filters and a mountain of film. Nathan had brought them all, and they were neatly stored, as his father had taught him, back at the cottage.
But when his father hiked out to hunt a shot, he would most usually take the Pentax.
Nathan chose the beach, with its foaming waves and diamond sand.
He slipped on dark glasses against the fierce brilliance of the sun and climbed onto the marked path between the shifting dunes, with their garden of sea oats and tangle of railroad vines.
The wind kicked in from the sea and sent his hair flying.
He stood at the crest of the path, listening to the beat of the water, the smug squeal of gulls that wheeled and dipped above it.
Shells the tide had left behind were scattered like pretty toys along the sand.
Tiny dunes whisked up by the wind were already forming behind them.
The busy sanderlings were rushing back and forth in the spume, like businessmen hustling to the next meeting.
And there, just behind the first roll of water, a trio of pelicans flew in military formation, climbing and wheeling as a unit.
One would abruptly drop, a dizzying headfirst dive into the sea, and the others would follow.
A trio of splashes, then they were up again, breakfast in their beaks.
With the ease of experience, Nathan lifted his camera, widened the aperture, increased the shutter speed to catch the motion, then homed in on the pelicans, following, following as they skimmed the wave crests, rose into their climb. And capturing them on the next bombing dive.
He lowered the camera, smiled a little. Over the years he’d gone long stretches of time without indulging in his hobby. He planned to make up for it now, spending at least an hour a day reacquainting himself with the pleasure and improving his eye.
He couldn’t have asked for a more perfect beginning.
The beach was inhabited only by birds and shells.
His footprints were the only ones to mar the sand.
That was a miracle in itself, he thought.
Where else could a man be so entirely alone, borrow for a while this kind of beauty, along with peace and solitude?
He needed those things now. Miracles, beauty, peace. Cupping a hand over the camera, Nathan walked down the incline to the soft, moist sand of the beach. He crouched now and then to examine a shell, to trace the shape of a starfish with a fingertip.
But he left them where he found them, collecting them only on film.
The air and the exercise helped settle the nerves that had jangled before he’d left Sanctuary.
She was a photographer, Nathan thought, as he studied a pretty, weather-silvered cottage peeking out from behind the dunes.
Had his father known that the little girl he’d played mentor to one summer had gone on to follow in his footsteps?
Would he have cared? Been proud, amused?
He could remember when his father had first shown him the workings of a camera.
The big hands had covered his small ones, gently, patiently guiding.
The smell of aftershave on his father’s cheeks, a sharp tang.
Brut. Yes, Brut. Mom had liked that best. His father’s cheek had been smoothly shaven, pressed against his.
His dark hair would have been neatly combed, smooth bumps of waves back from the forehead, his clear gray eyes soft and serious.
Always respect your equipment, Nate. You may want to make a living from the camera one day.
Travel the world on it and see everything there is to see.
Learn how to look and you’ll see more than anyone else.
Or you’ll be something else, do something else, and just use it to take moments away with you.
Vacations, family. They’ll be your moments, so they’ll be important.
Respect your equipment, learn to use it right, and you’ll never lose those moments.
“How many did we lose, anyway?” Nathan wondered aloud. “And how many do we have tucked away that we’d be better off losing?”
“Excuse me?”
Nathan jerked when the voice cut through the memory, when a hand touched his arm. “What?” He took a quick step in retreat, half expecting one of his own ghosts. But he saw a pretty, delicately built blonde staring up at him through amber-tinted lenses.
“Sorry. I startled you.” She tilted her head, and her eyes stayed focused, unblinking, on his face. “Are you all right?”
“Yeah.” Nathan dragged a hand through his hair, ignored the uncomfortably loose sensation in his knees. Less easily ignored was the acute embarrassment as the woman continued to study him as if he were some alien smear on a microscope slide. “I didn’t know anyone else was around.”
“Just finishing up my morning run,” she told him, and he noted for the first time that she wore a sweat-dampened gray T-shirt over snug red bike shorts. “That’s my cottage you were staring at. Or through.”
“Oh.” Nathan ordered himself to focus on it again, the silvered cedar shakes, the sloping brown roof with its jut of open deck for sunning. “You’ve got a hell of a view.”
“The sunrises are the best. You’re sure you’re all right?” she asked again. “I’m sorry to poke, but when I see a guy standing alone on the beach looking as if he’d just been slapped with a two-by-four and talking to himself, I’ve got to wonder. It’s my job,” she added.
“Beach police?” he said dryly.
“No.” She smiled, held out a friendly hand. “Doctor. Doctor Fitzsimmons. Kirby. I run a clinic out of the cottage.”
“Nathan Delaney. Medically sound. Didn’t an old woman used to live there? A tiny woman with white hair up in a bun.”
“My grandmother. Did you know her? You’re not a native.”
“No, no, I remember, or have this impression of her. I spent a summer here as a kid. Memories keep popping out at me. You just walked into one.”
“Oh.” The eyes behind the amber lenses lost their clinical shrewdness and warmed. “That explains it. I know just what you mean. I spent several summers here growing up, and memories wing up at me all the time. That’s why I decided to relocate here when Granny died. I always loved it here.”
Absently, she grabbed her toe, bending her leg back, heel to butt, to stretch out. “You’d be the Yankee who’s taken Little Desire Cottage for half a year.”
“Word travels.”
“Doesn’t it just? Especially when it doesn’t have far to go.
We don’t get many single men renting for six months.
A number of the ladies are intrigued.” Kirby repeated the process on the other leg.
“You know, I think I might remember you. Wasn’t it you and your brother who palled around with Brian Hathaway?
I remember Granny saying how those Delaney boys and young Brian stuck together like a dirt clod. ”
“Good memory. You were here that summer?”
“Yes, it was my first summer on Desire. I suppose that’s why I remember it best. Have you seen Brian yet?” she asked casually.
“He just fixed me breakfast.”
“Magic in an egg.” It was Kirby’s turn to look past the cottage, beyond it.
“I heard Jo’s back. I’m going to try to get up to the house after the clinic closes today.
” She glanced at her watch. “And since it opens in twenty minutes, I’d better go get cleaned up. It was nice seeing you again, Nathan.”
“Nice seeing you. Doc,” he added as she began to jog toward the dunes.
With a laugh, she turned, jogged backward. “General practice,” she called out. “Everything from birth to earth. Come in for what ails you.”
“I’ll keep it in mind.” He smiled and watched her ponytail swing sassily as she ran through the valley between the dunes.
Nineteen minutes later, Kirby put on a white lab coat over her Levi’s.
She considered the coat a kind of costume, designed to reassure the reluctant patient that she was indeed a doctor.
That and the stethoscope tucked in its pocket gave the islanders the visual nudge many of them needed to let Granny Fitzsimmons’s little girl poke into their orifices.
She stepped into her office, formerly her grandmother’s well-stocked pantry off the kitchen.
Kirby had left one wall of shelves intact, to hold books and papers and the clever little combo fax and copy machine that kept her linked with the mainland.
She’d removed the other shelves, since she had no plans to follow her grandmother’s example and put by everything from stewed tomatoes to watermelon pickles.
She’d muscled the small, lovingly polished cherrywood desk into the room herself. It had traveled with her from Connecticut, one of the few pieces she’d brought south. It was outfitted with a leatherframed blotter and appointment book that had been a parting gift from her baffled parents.
Her father had grown up on Desire and considered himself fortunate to have escaped.
She knew both of her parents had been thrilled when she’d decided to follow in her father’s footsteps and go into medicine.
And they had assumed she would continue to follow, into his cardiac surgery specialty, into his thriving practice, and right along to the platinum-edged lifestyle both of them so enjoyed.
Instead she’d chosen family practice, her grandmother’s weather-beaten cottage, and the simplicity of island life.
She couldn’t have been happier.
Tidily arranged with the appointment book that bore her initials in gold leaf were a snazzy phone system with intercom—in the unlikely event that she should ever need an assistant—and a Lucite container of well-sharpened Ticonderoga pencils.