Chapter 22 Vokar
VOKAR
Darkness grips everything. Cold stone. Bitter air.
My lungs scream for breath that tastes like rust and old war songs.
My blood drips slow, uneven — a drum-beat under ribs that ache.
I open my eyes. Nothing but blackness. I don’t move.
I can’t. Every fiber of me burns: shattered bone-spurs, deep cuts across shoulders and forearms, ribs bruised and bleeding beneath panels of torn armor.
The cold seeps into flesh, nails, marrow.
Still — I rise.
The first gasp of movement delivers agony like a whip across my spine. Pain blooms hot and red. I taste metal on my tongue. I taste broken promises. But stronger than both: fear. Pain isn’t what moves me. Not now.
Memory claws through the darkness: Freya’s scream. The world splintering. The grotesque light from Trebuchet’s blade. The way her body twisted. The cold floor where she collapsed.
I’m alive. That’s all I know with certainty. Alive — and missing.
I flex claw-hand, test the air. Stones — cold, sharp, soaked with distant cavern damp. I press weight to one forearm. A sharp crack, my bones scream in language I remember but never love. I force a breath. The air catches in scarred lungs.
Darkness shifts. Ragged stone walls loom just a breath away. The crevasse — a butcher’s cradle, coated in bone-dust and betrayal — yawns around me. The floor beneath trembles once — a low moan of shifting earth — and I taste the shift of rubble loosening.
I rise, standing on knees bowed, spine hunched.
I test one booted foot. Metal-plate belt, torn uniform — this is all that remains between me and nothingness.
My broken spurs drag. They catch. The shock blunts some pain, but the sting of fracture hits across calves.
I grit teeth. Bone-plate scrapes flesh. I ignore it.
I find a handhold. A jutting stone, rough, cold, slick with moisture. I wrap my fingers around it. My palm splits — blood wells between digits, drips hot. The sound echoes upward — a drip, echoing, repeating like a vow.
“Freya,” I whisper. Voice raw. Half-growl, half-prayer.
Dark echoes it back.
But I climb.
My hands grip. My legs push. The wall shivers under weight — stone dust trickles downward. Every move is fire and steel and pain. My bones crack, old injuries flare, new ones bloom. But I climb. Step by step. Blood by blood.
I think of her small frame in the cell — prisoner leash cutting reality. I think of her green eyes, bright and terrified, but alive. Holding. Believing.
I dig a claw deeper into a crevice. My mind flashes — a hundred moons I’ve toppled in battle, a hundred skulls cracked, a thousand screams I’ve heard — nothing cuts deeper than the idea of failing her.
I force myself up. My breath is ragged, slicing the dark air. The taste of copper is thick. My chest feels like it’s trying to collapse under the load — but I refuse. I will not collapse.
The wall arches outward — rough stone scraping the curve of my spine. My ribs scream. I clamp my teeth. I won't moan. I won’t lose.
Above me, I hear shifting. Loose rock loosened by old ruin. A hiss of falling gravel. The cavern above groans — warning, not mercy. I grip tighter.
“Mine,” I murmur. “Mine.”
The word tastes black. Heavy. Sacred. Not an ownership vow. A promise.
Three steps. Then a pause. I sweat — but sweat feels metallic, bitter, alive. I taste iron and cold.
I force upward — a boot digs into a crack too small. The ridge splits, gives, kicks loose. I slide down a foot. I curse with a roar that shakes stone. The pain slams into me, ricochets through torn ribs. My breath leaves me in a gasp. I choke on shock, on violence, on loss.
But I catch the wall — claw-hand scrapes, nails crack, fingers bleed anew. I hold. I won’t fall again.
I pull. My muscles burn. My armor groans. Bone-plates shift.
I rise. Inch by bloody inch.
Darkness above yawns wider. A thin sliver of sky — or starlight? It might be the surface glow, might be hallucination. I flex up.
I see.
A shaft of dim light, cold but pure. I push toward it, every breath a fire-burst. The smell of earth twisting — ozone, damp stone, rain-kissed pine from forests far above the rim.
I don’t look back. Not yet.
My hand finds another ledge. My knuckles snap as rock gives.
I slide — a chunk of stone careens downward, smashes somewhere below, and the echo rattles like doom.
For a pulse I see the bottom of the shaft — mist, soft gloom, forest-moon sky beyond.
I vomit blood, swallow dark air, taste the salt of fear.
Then — I find another hold. Claw-hand spills blood. Another ledge. A groan from joints. A crack in bone-spurs.
Then light.
Real light. Pale, shaking, alien-star glow filtering down the shaft. The world smells like cold pine and wind. I taste it on my tongue. And something else: hope.
I pull myself through the last ledge. Spurred boots scrape loose stone. I brace. One foot touches firm ground. Another.
I stand. Shaking. Blood stains armor. Ribs ache in rhythm with breathing. My vision swims, a halo of pain behind red-rimmed sight. But I stand.
I draw in a breath of outside air. Cold, clean, alive. Feels like life. Feels like need.
I close my eyes. Let the wind tear across my skin. Let the cold claw deep.
Because I know the path forward.
And it ends where every betrayal began.
I lick blood from my lips. Taste iron — then pine and rain.
“Freya,” I whisper to the wind.
No roar. No promise. Just a vow, carried on the air.
I’m coming.
Not as king. Not as conqueror. But as bone, fire, and hunger.
I gather myself — arm over ribs, cloak torn, spurs broken, blood seeping. Pain a constant hum under life. Every breath a fight.
But the climb has broken something deeper than bones.
It’s forged purpose.
And as long as I draw breath — stone, metal, world — I will not stop.
I do not pray. I do not plead.
I climb.
And I hunt.
Darkness still wrists the world — but now there are voices. Voices in the wind, echoes of memory, ghosts of blood and bone that whisper to me as I claw up the walls of stone.
At first, I think I’m dying. Every breath rips knives through ribs. My forearms burn. My palms slide on slick rock. Blood mixes with sweat — a thin paste that tastes of salt, metal, and failure.
But then a voice — ragged and familiar.
“Steady… one claw at a time.”
The words aren’t mine. They come from somewhere behind the walls, soft but insistent.
I freeze — suspended on spurs, body trembling. The pain inside me throbs like a second heartbeat.
Then the voice again:
“You climb for what’s worth saving.”
I turn my head — though there is no head to turn; only blackness dust-dirty stone and the echo of memory. The voice sounds like Yorta, rough old warrior, scarred, steady.
I drag my forearm up, the bone-plate grinding faintly, shards of rock biting into flesh.
“Y-Yorta?” I rasp.
But there’s no answer. Only the wind whispering cold in my ears.
Another voice — calm, measured, ancient: Parfi’s voice, offering soft wisdom through the dark.
“Pain is not the end, Warlord. Pain is the hammer that tests your resolve. Hammer hard, but don’t shatter.”
I suck in a breath — shallow, ragged. The cave air tastes like damp stone and old dust. I close my eyes for a moment, let the voices hold me steady.
I grit teeth. Lift.
My clawed hand finds a shaving-thin crack; I jam a spur in. The rock slices across bone-plate. The pain snaps half my vision red. I bite hard on my own wrist-band — claws scratch through cloth; I taste iron. I swallow the scream down, bury it. Mustn’t shriek. Mustn’t bleed out before I get to her.
I press upward.
Again, Parfi’s voice — distant, calm — echoes:
“Vengeance is fire, not poison. Let the heat burn away the rot, but don’t let it scorch the soul.”
I choke a laugh. Fire. Rot. Soul. Words for poets standing on hilltops. Not warriors climbing through slit caves. But I cling to them.
Closer.
The wall narrows — slick with moisture, rock rubbing flesh raw. My ribs shout with each shift. The broken spurs on my boots catch — once, twice — and I slip.
A crunch. Bone-plate buckles. My shoulder shifts in its socket. A scream, sharp and white, claws at my throat. I bite hard again, taste salt, blood, acrid fear — but I don’t let it out.
I hang there on one arm, the other clutching the wall like a vise. My legs dangle, boots scraping air, metal creaking. My breath spits.
I whisper soft: “Freya…”
Her laugh — bright, defiant, human — echoes faint across rock and memory. “You taught me to stand tall,” she’d said. “Stand with me…”
Terror wells — not for me, but for her. For what waits above.
I lift my free hand — slow, painful. I brace it against rough stone. The world tilts. I taste dust. I taste rock. I taste regret.
But I do not fall.
I rise.
Bone-spur greets rock-edge. A groan echoes. My palm splits further. I taste more iron.
Still: I rise.
The wall narrows into a chute — a filthy scar of stone carved by water long dead. Each push upward sends pain through broken bone and bleeding flesh.
But at the top — I sense it before I see it: air changing. Not stale cave-air. Night-air. Sharp, cold, distant. A hum of wind, a sigh of pine far off.
I stretch. One last surge.
Claw-hand rakes upward. Spur-plate scrapes. I scream once — silent, swallowed beneath blood — and pull.
Then the world snaps.
Light. Cold moon-glow. Pine-scented night-wind. Stars smearing silver across the sky like shattered promises.
I collapse over the rim of cliff-rock. Sand and pine-dust under my palms. The wind rakes my hair — or the shred of it left matted. The world tastes alive again: sweat, blood, cold.
My ribs roar in protest — screaming to close, to cage. But I breathe. Because now, I’m outside the chasm.
I roll onto my back, limbs shaking, boots cracked, armor fractured, every wound burning like a brand. But I look up.
The night sky stares back. Cold. Brutal. Free.
I rise. Pain bleeds across my skin, but rage floods harder. My claws flex. Dry stone echoes the snap. My spurs -- broken, but still bone beneath skin.
I sit up. Wind tugs at my cloakless shoulders. The forest moonlight pools across slopes of trees far below.
I taste victory — not the kill, not the war, not the blood poured. I taste survival. I taste ash. I taste vengeance.
“Freya.” I whisper her name into the wind. My voice cracks, half-growl. “I’m coming.”
The rock under me seems to answer — sighs, shivers, echoes of old bones trembling in recognition.
I rise fully to my knees. I spit out blood — gritty, salty. I taste life. I taste hope.
I press fingers to my cracked lips, then lift my head high, letting the sky swallow me.
I am no longer king.
I am no longer bound.
I am not broken.
I am vengeance.
And I will find her.
I will reap what they sowed — with fire, bone, and blood.