13. Corrine
CORRINE
The cold finds me first, before the guilt does.
We are an hour out from the cabin and the wind off the ridge has teeth, and I am thinking about nothing useful—the give of the half-frozen ground under my boots—when Leoric drops back without a word and puts himself to my left, between me and the open drop where the slope falls away into nothing.
He does it with no announcement. No glance to see if I noticed.
Just a body the size of a doorway, sliding into the place a caster's line would come from.
This is the old reflex of me that I don't warn people about.
Not the wanting—I understood the wanting, even when I refused it.
The wanting at least had the decency to feel like betrayal.
What I didn't account for is the morning after, when that wanting went quiet and what's left is this: embarrassing attention to the heat coming off him, to the fact that he chose the cold side of the path so I wouldn't have it.
I keep waiting for shame to arrive and burn it clean.
It comes, but it doesn't burn. It just sits beside the tenderness and lets it be.
I lit a fortress to kill men just like him. I held his chest last night and enjoyed it. I'm confused to how I can be both.
"You're favoring the shoulder again," he says. Not gently. A field note.
"It's cold. Everything's stiff."
"We'll stop at the waystation. There's overhead cover and a stream that hasn't frozen.
" He's already decided it. He decided it a kilometer ago, I'd wager, the moment I shifted my pack to the other side without thinking.
He's been building the day around my injuries—silently, completely, as if it were simply something he was working with and not a choice he was making.
I want him to stop. I want him to keep doing it.
Both things at once. That is the part that frightens me, because it means I have stopped keeping proper count.
Theren and one escort find us at the waystation, and Theren knows before he reaches the fire.
I see it land on him. His eyes move from Leoric to me and back, and whatever arithmetic he runs takes less than a breath.
He doesn't say anything in front of the others.
He waits until I've gone to the stream to fill the skins, and then he is there at my side, his voice low and flat as old iron.
"Whatever you think you're doing," he starts, "stop."
I keep my hands in the water. "I'm filling water."
"He left the high ground for you. He took a beam across the back in the tower for you.
This morning he came in from a storm walking like a man two days behind himself, and now he's rebuilding the route around your shoulder.
" His pale gaze doesn't move. "I have kept that man alive through politics that would have buried anyone with a softer spine.
I know exactly what it looks like when his judgment starts answering to something other than survival. "
The accusation is precise because it is the one I made against myself before dawn and have been refusing to open since.
"You think I planned this." I straighten, water running off my wrists. "A chained smuggler with no blade and no allies, seducing the Ash King into ruining himself. That's the tidy version, Theren. It makes me the weapon again instead of someone caught in the same trap you walked into."
"You're a risk."
"I didn't say I wasn't." It comes out harder than I mean, and truer.
His eyes narrow—not in triumph, in recognition—and that's worse than if I'd lied.
He's quiet a moment. Then: "Mind yourself.
" And he turns back toward the fire, and I stand with my pulse loud in my ears, hating that he frightened me less than he confirmed.
The records pull me out of it. They always do.
Leoric has the records spread on flat stone by the time I come back—the Blackwater authorization chain, the evacuation routing beside it, and the diverted order we already mapped.
He is not rereading the same answer. He is looking for the hand behind it.
He's gone as far as a commander's eye takes him, which is far, and not far enough.
I crouch beside him and the others drift in, and I turn the routing record into the light without asking.
"Stop," I murmur. "Not the routing marks. We already know where the evacuation order went. Look at the receiving authority."
"There isn't one listed."
"Not where a commander would look." I shift the prisoner transfer sheet into the light and trace the margin without touching the ink.
"This is not command notation. It's administrative shorthand.
Rebel couriers used spacing to hide route changes.
Dark elf offices used pressure marks to hide approvals.
See this? Three shallow cuts before the seal, then one pressed deep after it. "
Leoric goes very still beside me.
"That is not part of Blackwater command," I say. "It sits above it."
"You know that how?"
"Because whoever built this wanted the soldiers reading it to see transport numbers, not authorization. The visible order moves bodies. The hidden mark approves what happens to them after they arrive."
The words taste metallic. Prisoners. Not supplies.
Not soldiers. Prisoners counted in lots, moved off the official manifest before the fire, then marked for restricted processing by an office no gate officer would have authority to question.
My finger stops on the repeated pressure mark beside three separate transfer batches.
"This same approval appears on every prisoner group connected to the lower chambers."
"Whose office?"
"I knew rebel courier codes. I never learned senate hands." I hold the page toward him. "You sat in those chambers. You tell me whose office signs without signing."
Leoric looks at the mark, and the cold that crosses his face is not surprise. It is recognition arriving where he hoped it would not.
"Varek's wartime committee used that approval structure," he confirms.
Not Varek. Not yet. His committee. His office. His reach.
The waystation seems to narrow around us. The executions the guards whispered about in his corridor. The blocked evacuation. The assassins with floor plans for a door only his people knew. The bounty notices already printed, waiting for the ambush to give them cover.
"It reached higher than Blackwater," I breathe.
"Yes."
"The executions, the missing prisoners, the blocked evacuation. They're connected."
"Connected is not the same as proven."
"No," I sit back on my heels. "But someone wanted both sides looking in the wrong direction. The rebels were handed a reason to attack. Your soldiers were denied the order that might have saved them. That doesn't happen by accident."
His face goes still. "No. It does not."
He doesn't reach for comfort. He gives me the limit of what we know instead, which is more useful and less kind.
"Then we stop pretending this is coincidence.
" He turns the record back toward himself, not quite offering it, not quite taking it away.
"You saw something I missed. That does not make this simple. "
"No," I say. "It makes it honest."
After that, the record stays mostly in his hands. I point out what I recognize. He checks it against what he knows. Neither of us calls it cooperation, which is probably why everyone else notices it immediately.
Theren watches from beside the fire with both eyebrows climbing.
One of the escorts looks once, then decides some other wall deserves his full attention.
I sit back before the closeness can become something the others are allowed to read too easily.
Leoric doesn't ask me to move closer again.
He only keeps the record angled enough that I can still see it.
Once the light tilts toward afternoon, we have most of the idea.
What we don't have is the inside of it—who else held the pen, who is moving now, what the next fire is meant to look like.
Leoric folds the records and looks at the middle distance the way he does when he's already three moves ahead of the rest of us.
"This tells us what was done," he says quietly.
"It doesn't tell us what's coming. For that I need someone inside the council's actual rooms. Someone who hears what gets decided before it's written down.
" His jaw sets. "There's one person who owes me enough, and dislikes me enough, to tell me the truth. "
I don't ask who. He'll tell me when he's ready, or he'll show me.
I've stopped trying to take the answers before he hands them over.
I lie awake that night with two truths I can't set down.
The first is that the war I tore my soul apart for was never the war I thought I fought—it was steered, lot by counted lot, by hands that profited from every fire they let me believe was mine.
That one I could survive alone. I've survived worse alone.
The second is quieter, and entirely mine, and it is the one that keeps me from sleep. The only person in Protheka I would trust with the first truth is the man whose fortress I burned to the ground.