9. PIPER
I have built an entire career on the principle that any crisis, given enough leverage and the right choice of words, can be talked down to a manageable size.
I am beginning to suspect the west wing’s thermal loop has never read a press release in its life.
“Explain it to me again,” I say, “slowly, the way you’d explain it to someone who did not spend four years getting an engineering degree.”
Hayes, Calder’s lead technical analyst, has deep patience for a man who has already explained this twice.
“The west wing runs on a separate thermal loop from the main house. The contractor flagged a fault three weeks ago, started the repair, then got pulled off-site before they finished closing the wall. Cold snap last night finished the job. No heat, no hot water,
half the electrical panel in that wing tripped and will stay tripped until someone who isn’t currently a wanted felon comes out to fix it properly.”
“So we freeze.”
“So you can’t sleep in the west wing.”
Hayes glances at Calder, who hasn’t said anything yet, which is its own kind of statement.
“Security sweep only cleared one section of the property before the badge incident. The protective suite. Internal door, reinforced walls, independent heat and power. Built forty years ago for exactly this kind of situation.”
“How many rooms,” I ask, already knowing the answer will be worse than I want.
“One bedroom. Sitting room. One bathroom.”
Hayes has the decency to look apologetic.
“It was built to hold one principal and one handler comfortably. Not really designed for two people who…” He stops himself before he finishes that sentence.
“Who what, Hayes?”
“Who bicker,” Calder says smoothly. “Finish the sweep on the east wing. I want it cleared by tonight.”
Hayes leaves fast enough to qualify as fleeing.
For a moment the study is quiet enough that I can hear the old radiators ticking somewhere behind the walls.
I turn to Calder, who is studying the property schematic with the stillness he gets right before he tells me something I’m not going to like.
“There has to be another option. A hotel. A safe house twenty minutes from here that isn’t currently one boiler away from a health hazard.”
“Every hour Sloane spends outside a cleared perimeter is an hour of exposure I can’t account for. If we move her again, we risk the exact detection we spent all of yesterday avoiding.”
He doesn’t look up.
“The suite has a locking door on the inside. Nobody gets to her without going through us first.”
“Us,” I repeat. “As in, the two of us. In one suite. With one bathroom.”
“I’m aware of the math, Piper.”
“Are you? Because you’re saying it like it’s a logistics problem instead of the setup to a disaster.”
He finally looks at me, and there’s something almost like amusement at the corner of his mouth, gone as quickly as it arrived.
“I have shared smaller spaces with worse company. I once spent nine days in a surveillance van with a man who ate tuna out of the can with his fingers. I think we’ll manage a sitting room.”
“That’s not remotely reassuring.”
“It wasn’t meant to be reassuring. It was meant to be accurate.”
He rolls the schematic closed.
“You can requisition a cot for the sitting room if the arrangement offends you. I don’t particularly care where either of us sleeps, as long as we’re both inside that door by the time the temperature in the west wing drops.”
I want to argue further, mostly because ceding a point to Dominic Calder still feels like handing him a weapon he’ll use against me later.
But the wind has already picked up, rattling the old windows, and somewhere down the hall Sloane is shivering in a guest room that used to be someone’s nursery, and I am, underneath the reflexive resistance, tired enough to recognize a decision the weather has already made for me.
There is also, if I am being honest with the version of myself that only exists at one in the morning over a glass of wine I have not yet earned, a smaller and far less strategic reason I stop arguing.
Some tired, unguarded corner of me does not entirely mind the idea of one locked door standing between the world and both of us at once.
“Fine,” I say. “But I get the side of the bedroom farthest from the door.”
“Why?”
“Because if someone comes through it, I want the extra two seconds to decide whether to be brave or to hide behind you.”
I say it lightly, and it isn’t entirely a joke, and something in the way his expression shifts tells me he heard the honest part underneath it.
“I’ll take the door side,” he says, quiet enough that it isn’t really an argument anymore. “Every time.”
There is something unnervingly settling about the way he says it, no performance in it at all, just a plain fact about the shape of his own priorities.
I have spent a year assuming Calder’s competence was armor, the same way mine is volume.
I am beginning to wonder if his armor and his actual nature stopped being different things long before I arrived to notice.
We move our things into the suite an hour before sunset, the two of us and a detail that clears the corridor twice before Calder is satisfied enough to seal the inner door.
The room smells of cedar and old varnish, the scent of a space built to last decades and used only in emergencies.
There’s a narrow sitting area with a fireplace that actually works, a bedroom beyond it with heavy curtains and a bed that is, undeniably, singular, and a security panel by the door that Calder checks three times before he lets himself sit down.
“You’re doing the thing,” I tell him, settling into the one decent armchair, pulling my knees up despite the blazer I’m still, technically, wearing like a woman who refuses to admit she’s off duty.
“What thing?”
“The thing where you check a locked door a fourth time because some part of you doesn’t trust the first three checks.”
“I trust the checks. I don’t trust the people this property has recently employed.”
He finally sits across from me, close enough in the small room that there’s no pretending we’re keeping professional distance.
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Type Lokepub into Google and see what turns up.
Outside, the wind finds a gap somewhere in the old stonework and moans through it, low and constant.
“We’re stuck in here together,” I say eventually, mostly to break the silence before it becomes something else. “You do understand that means actual conversation, not just tactical briefings.”
“I’m aware,” Calder says, and for the first time since I met him, he looks less like a man bracing for a fight and more like one warily curious about what happens if he doesn’t.
I busy myself with the fire instead of answering, because I don’t entirely trust what I’d say if I kept looking at him.
The wood catches slowly, and I crouch in front of it longer than necessary, feeding it kindling one piece at a time.
“You’re stalling,” he says.
“I’m tending a fire. It’s a skill. Some of us learned it at summer camp instead of whatever you did instead, which I assume was reading tactical manuals by flashlight.”
“I learned to build a fire from my sister, actually. Ingrid. She was better at it than I was.”
He says the name easily, without the guarded weight he carries around everything else, and the softness catches me off guard.
“She used to say I built fires like I was defusing them instead of starting them.”
“That tracks.”
I get a proper flame going and settle back into the armchair.
“Do you talk to her often?”
“Every week. Sometimes more.”
A pause, careful, like he’s deciding how much of himself to hand over.
“She’s the only person who tells me when I’m being unbearable and expects nothing from me in return except that I actually listen.”
“Must be nice,” I say, and I don’t mean for it to come out as quiet as it does. “Having someone like that.”
He doesn’t press me on it, which I’m grateful for.
Calder checks the perimeter one final time before he’ll let himself sit still, the fourth pass of the evening, and I use the minutes it buys me to do the thing I’ve been resisting since we got locked into this drafty, cedar-scented suite together.
I open my laptop.
Cassandra: Update on my professional nemesis. He builds fires like he’s defusing them. Apparently he learned it from a younger sister.
Atlas: That’s an oddly specific detail for a man you described a few days ago as a six-foot-three concrete slab.
Cassandra: People contain multitudes, apparently. Even the concrete ones.
Atlas: Careful. That sentence has a dangerous amount of warmth in it for someone who claims to hate him.
Cassandra: I never said I hated him. I said he says “the central fact remains” too often.
Atlas: You’re doing the thing where you deflect with a joke instead of answering the actual question.
I look up at the fire before I answer, listening for footsteps in the corridor, some old instinct checking the exits the way, I realize with a small, unwelcome jolt, Calder does everywhere he goes.
Cassandra: Fine. He noticed I was cold before I noticed it myself tonight.
Built the fire without being asked. Hasn’t once, since this assignment began, made me feel like admitting a fear was the same thing as being weak.
I don’t know what to do with a man who doesn’t require me to perform competence at him.
Atlas: I know exactly what to do with that information, and it isn’t nothing, and I think you know that too.
Cassandra: Don’t.
Atlas: I’m not going to tell you what to feel about a man I’ve never met, standing in a room I’ll never see.
I’m only going to say that I’ve watched you build an entire career out of not needing anyone to notice when you’re cold, and if someone finally did, without you having to ask, that’s not a small thing to wave off as a professional inconvenience.
Cassandra: You sound almost jealous.
Atlas: I sound like a man who has spent a year getting the parts of you nobody else gets, and who is trying very hard not to be an idiot about a stranger you mentioned three times this month, in increasingly less hostile language, without seeming to notice you’re doing it.
I stare at that longer than I mean to, the fire popping softly in the grate, my chest going tight in a way that has nothing to do with the case and everything to do with the two men occupying separate, careful compartments of my life: one a stranger who somehow knows me better than anyone alive,
the other a man three feet away, checking a lock for the fourth time because some part of him doesn’t trust the world to hold still.
Cassandra: You’ve never once been jealous before. Not in a year.
Atlas: I’ve never once had a reason before. I don’t love that I do now.
Cassandra: For the record, there’s nothing here. He’s a professional obligation with excellent fire-building skills and an alarming number of tactical opinions.
Atlas: For the record, I don’t entirely believe you, and I think some part of you doesn’t either. I’d rather you tell me the truth eventually than keep handing me a smaller, safer version of it because you think it’s what I want to hear.
I close the laptop before I have to answer that, because I don’t have an answer yet that isn’t a lie, and because I can hear Calder’s footsteps in the corridor, unhurried, familiar already in a way a few days shouldn’t have made possible.
He finds me exactly where he left me, and I fold the guilt away somewhere he can’t see it, the way I fold away everything that doesn’t survive daylight, and tell myself it is only a small omission, the kind that costs nothing as long as I keep it small.
I watch the fire settle into something steady and orange, and I think, with the sinking clarity of a woman who has spent her whole career reading a room, that I am no longer certain which fire in here I should be more worried about.