Chapter 22 #2
The thought of him inside me makes me shiver and moan for him, begging him to make me come.
I mumble incoherent thoughts about wanting to feel him inside me, and feel the weight of his body as he settles between my legs.
Fuck,” he breathes as he slides another finger inside me, cursing when I gasp and moan his name.
“That’s it, baby,” he says on a low groan, sliding his fingers out to the tips. “Come for—” Laughter sounds out from somewhere close by, making us both freeze.
I open my eyes and pull away, but before I get the chance to think about anything, Malakai’s shadows snap out around us and he quickly moves us to under one of the overhanging rocks before they spread out, concealing us completely.
I open my mouth to tell him we should stop when he slips his fingers back inside me and his lips slam down on mine.
Little hot gasps fall from my lips as he curls his fingers and his movements grow faster.
I’ll kick myself later for my reckless decision, but right now my overheated body doesn’t care about the consequences.
I grind into his hand while clawing at him to find my release.
“Come for me, baby,” he says huskily. “Come all over my fingers like a good girl.”
He brushes his thumb over my clit, and I gasp as a bolt of pleasure shoots up through me, slowly working me up into a frenzy of hot, carnal need.
His shadows twine around me, sliding over my body and down my back, making it feel like his hands are all over me. He does it again and again while pumping his fingers in and out of me.
I’m so close to the edge that when his thumb brushes over my clit, it pushes me over straight over the edge.
Waves of pleasure pulse through my body and I come seeing stars while my whole body shudders.
I feel his fingers ease out of me, his grip moving to my waist as I slowly come down from my high.
He dips down and presses his lips to my brow, and I blink up at him to find him watching me with heat in his eyes.
“Fucking beautiful,” he whispers. He reaches out and strokes his thumb down my bottom lip. “Next time, I want to taste you,” he says.
Next time… His words bring me back to reality with a bang.
Shit… Shit. Shit. Shit. Without a word, I move away from him and swim to the shore to get my clothes, throwing them over my wet body.
Malakai curses before silently following me close behind. “Sena…” he sighs.
“We shouldn’t have… I shouldn’t have let that happen,” I tell him as I throw my clothes on.
What the fuck is wrong with me?!
“Sena…” Malakai calls out as he gets dressed. “Just listen to me… Give me a chance. Please.”
It’s the please that stops me. But I keep my back to him, feeling too raw and vulnerable to look at him.
“I’m scared, Malakai,” I admit and hear him still behind me.
“I’m so fucking scared that you’re all going to leave me again.
I was scared the entire time you were all gone.
” I stare up at the sky but see nothing as I try to blink away the stinging blur.
“I hated being away from you all.” I chuckle but there’s not an ounce of humor in it. “How pathetic is that? That I was so fucking weak that I couldn’t even—”
He steps around, his tee and jeans wet and glares down at me but there’s no true anger in his eyes.
“Nothing about you is fucking weak. You’re one of the strongest people I know.
And one of the only people in this world that will ever own my heart.
It’s been yours since the moment you showed up.
You, Sena. I love you and only you. In whatever form or body you chose.
” He reaches out, fingers curling around my cheek.
“And I need you just as much, baby. I haven’t been able to fucking exist without you. None of us have.”
Every ounce of anger evaporates, leaving behind a pit of sadness and confusion. “Then, why Malakai? Why did you all ignore me for so long? Why didn’t you come to me sooner?”
Pain seeps into every feature of his face. “Anything I say is just going to end up sounding like an excuse and I don’t want you to think that. I know we fucked up,” he admits. “But I will never leave you. Neither will the others. I promise you.”
He leans down and presses a kiss to my brow before sweeping me up into his arms.
Shock and exhaustion momentarily leave me speechless, and it takes me a moment to find my voice.
“I can walk,” I point out.
“Your clothes are wet,” he says like it’s a good enough reason to carry me around.
I try to push out of his hold, but his grip on me tightens and he pulls me closer. Seconds later, I feel his hard length rub against me and I still.
“Either you help me out and cover what belongs to you,” he says. “Or everyone is going to get a good look at how hard you make me.”
“What belongs to me?” I question.
He smirks. “My dick. It’s all yours and waiting nice and patiently for when you decide to take full advantage of it.”
I open mouth but no words come to mind. Instead, my treacherous body betrays me while my mind reminds me in detail of our most recent escapade.
I shiver, and he places a soft kiss under my ear with a sigh.
He brings us around the edge of the academy, avoiding all the main paths while I try to function like a normal adult again.
I finally snap out of it and come to my senses, but by the time I do, we’ve reached my dorm and he slowly releases me, taking his time to let me go.
He places my feet on the ground and reluctantly lets me go.
I narrow my eyes on him, finally realizing what he just did.
“If we were going to use the path around the edge of the academy—a path that avoided everyone—you didn’t need to carry me the entire way,” I point out and he gives me a devastating smile full of mischievousness.
Something I would normally see on Knox.
“Any excuse to hold you,” he admits and any anger I had slowly withers away.
I start to turn around, ready to put myself in a damn timeout for what I just allowed to happen, when he calls out to me.
“Same time tomorrow?” he asks, and I give him a questioning look.
“For flight practice,” he says innocently. Technically I have learned more in the last few hours than I would have alone. And if he can help me pass the test so I can go to the Hollow, maybe it will all be worth it in the end.
I finally nod and he gives me a devastating smile that lights up his entire face. Something in my chest warms. I push it down and get moving but I catch him waiting for me to go inside before leaving.
Another chuck of the wall around my heart starts to crumble.
Damn it. I’m well and truly fucked.