Chapter 23 #2
Well, that was blunt. Cleo's cheeks burned. "I stumbled into the maid when she was bringing me dinner. She dropped the teapot all over my bed. She thought I'd best sleep here, and they'll try and air it in the morning."
She was met with another one of his precious silences, as if he was fighting to sort her words out in his head. "You cannot stay here."
"We are married, are we not? I know you don't wish to consummate the marriage, but I'm certain you'll be able to restrain yourself, and it's a large bed. You'll barely know I'm in it."
"I'll sleep on the trundle," he growled. A muttered curse caught her ear. Then he upended the liquor decanter, the scent of brandy flavoring the air.
"Seven hours married, and you've already turned to drink," she murmured. "This bodes well."
Fabric shifted and she almost suspected that Sebastian hissed under his breath. "Cleo, I'm hellish tired. I cannot argue with you tonight."
"Were we arguing?"
"Please. Just...don't. Don't push me tonight." For the first time, he sounded exactly as he claimed. Exhausted.
She could smell something now too. Spirits mixed with... Blood? Desire washed away from her as her mind replayed the past few minutes in her head. His stiffness, the muttered curses, the wince as he tugged at her laces... "Are you hurt?"
"I'm fine." It sounded like he had something in his mouth, and as glass clinked, she realized it was the top of the decanter. With a grunt, he tore a piece of fabric, and something slithered over his skin.
"You are hurt. Why didn't you say something?"
"It's nothing."
"Nothing, my foot!" Cleo hurried toward him, hands outstretched. "Here, let me help—"
Her hands met his half-opened shirt. Hard muscle flinched beneath her fingers. His stomach. Then her wrists were captured, and Sebastian held her politely away from his body. "I can manage."
Now that she was thinking again, and not sidetracked by the feel of his hands on her buttons, she could scent a faint burning scent. "You only have two hands. Let me help you, Sebastian. I feel terrible for forcing you to assist with my gown when you're injured."
If he'd been in the right frame of mind, she thought that he might have kept arguing. Instead he sighed and sank down onto the stool by the vanity. That's when she knew he was exhausted. "I was shot."
"Shot?"
The bottle upended. He swallowed. "The bullet went right through me. It's fine. Most of the bleeding's stopped."
"Where?"
Sebastian caught her hands and directed them to his shoulder. "Right through here."
Her hands slid over the bulk of a bandage. He'd been trying to wrap it around his neck and shoulder, without much success. Cleo pushed his shirt collar out of the way, inspecting the job with her fingers. "Has someone seen to it?"
"I cleaned it with alcohol and cauterized it earlier." His head slumped forward.
"That's hardly proper treatment. I'll send for a doctor—"
Sebastian caught her wrist as she turned for the door. "No."
"But—"
"No," he said again with force. "No doctors, no surgeons. Just help me put this bloody bandage on, and all I'll need is sleep."
"What about infection?" she whispered.
"It will be fine."
Cleo swallowed. "I could cast a small healing ward over it. It might not seal the skin, now you've cauterized it, but it might help with the degree of healing."
"Thought your talents ran to Divination?"
"They do. I've reached the Fourth Level, however. I know the minor Healing Arts, though I'm certainly no adept."
The offer sat there as he considered it.
"Don't you trust me?"
"I trust you." Sebastian barked a laugh, which swiftly fell silent. "I'm just not used to such offers. I keep searching to find your angle, but then I remind myself who I'm dealing with. You're not like my mother, or any of her acquaintances."
"I should certainly hope I'm not. Why didn't she heal you?"
"Because I disobeyed her."
What kind of woman let her son hurt like this? "Hold still. I have to touch you." She lifted her hands and pressed them over his wound as she pushed the bandage aside. Sebastian tensed, the skin flushed with heat.
Power welled through her as Cleo opened herself up, drawing heat from the fire, from his skin, from deep inside her... From everything that surrounded her. It felt like she was a flower, finally blooming. The world fell away, all of the cold, harsh realities of it, and her senses grew stronger.
Suddenly his heartbeat thumped through his chest like a drum. Cleo could sense the tension within him, as if he watched her blindfolded face, and smell the faint burnt tang of sorcery that clung to his clothes. He'd expended a great deal of power today.
"You should be careful. You have the scent of overexertion all over you. If you use too much sorcery, Bastian, you might burn yourself out."
At that, she released the ward with a soft power word, and Sebastian gasped as a cool tingle slid across his skin.
Beneath her touch, the wound burned like menthol, a strange hot-cold beneath her hand, as her magic sank itself into that fevered skin.
She was left touching smooth skin, newly reknit, and only faintly throbbing with heat now.
By morning, he should have healed completely.
"Thank you," Sebastian said gruffly.
"You should have told me sooner. How did this happen?"
Silence again, broken only by the sound of him swallowing. Liquid swished as he lowered the bottle. "Don't ask, Cleo. One of Morgana's schemes."
"And the girl?"
His head shifted as she felt him look up. "How did you—?" Then he grunted. "Did you See it?"
"No. I'm not myself today. I can't seem to grasp my precognition through the distraction. I overheard Morgana speaking in the courtyard, however." She pressed her hands to her thighs as she knelt in front of him. "There. We're all done. You should come to bed."
"Cleo."
"I promise I won't ravish you."
"I should stay on the trundle in my dressing closet."
That wouldn't do. She couldn't chase him from his own bed in such a condition, and she'd been telling the truth: Hers was drenched, a ridiculous ploy she hadn't thought through all the way. "Will your mother not think that unusual? She might... wonder if my presence bothered you."
Sebastian stayed stubbornly silent.
"I promise I will stay on my side of the bed. I won't bite. Unless you snore. Do you snore?"
"Not that I'm aware of." He heaved himself to his feet. "Do you honestly think you're fooling me?"
"No, not at all." Sebastian shifted, so she added quietly, "Do you honestly think you're fooling me?"
This earned her a long minute of silence. She counted, letting her heart beat out the seconds.
"Very well then. We wouldn't want my mother to think there was anything unusual between us." A glass clinked against the dresser beside the bed. Then he began to undo his shirt.
The pop of each button made her chest tighten with nerves.
She didn't know why. Cleo crossed to the bed, feeling somewhat flustered.
It was one thing to think of wifely duties, quite another to listen to the stealthy glide of linen and cotton as her husband undressed himself.
Her imagination was a vivid thing, after all, and she had seen enough in her visions to have some idea of what husbands did to their wives.
She'd always thought the idea a somewhat gruesome one.
It had been like watching a duel—the heavy thrust and pull of flesh, the subjugation of the female, the grimace of emotion on their faces.
Her cheeks were burning. She'd always thought she would force herself to endure such a thing, if she ever married, but she'd never thought she'd feel like this: all nerves, all breathy anticipation, her body almost leaping out of her skin.
And, if she were honest, there was a lush heaviness between her thighs that made her feel rather uncertain.
"Ah," Sebastian murmured with a hint of heat to his voice. Some manner of clothing hit the floor, making her throat tighten. "Now I realize what will finally subdue my wife. You're very quiet, my dear."
"I don't like that word," Cleo whispered with a blush.
She could hear him thinking his words through. "Subdue?" The word sounded somewhat muffled, as if he dragged something over his head. Then he moved to his belt.
Cleo swallowed. Hard. Her nightgown felt like a thin barrier. Even now her nipples strained the fabric.
"I don't like that word very much either." He sighed, and then his trousers hit the floor. More material rustled. His nightshirt, perhaps. The bed dipped as he sat on the edge of it. Silence brewed again between them.
"I'm not going to touch you, Cleo." It was a hushed confession, as if he felt her nerves.
"It would be all right, if you wished to." She thought he'd be gentle with her.
"Perhaps I do not wish to?" And then he dragged the covers over himself, leaving her feeling very much alone again.
Cleo lay down, dragging the covers over herself.
Perhaps I do not wish to. Her mind could conjure a thousand reasons why he might not want her.
Moving slowly, she swallowed the lump in her throat.
That was enough of that. She was not going to give into any of those horrid thoughts.
She'd had enough of them when her father couldn't be bothered dining with her, or gave her but a brusque kiss on the forehead as he came and went, always on some business that was more important than she.
It felt strange to have another person in the bed with her, especially one so much heavier.
The mattress dipped, and she was fighting not to roll into him.
That would probably send him straight out of bed.
Crossing some lines required a careful military campaign, not a full-on assault, and after what he'd said, she wasn't certain she wanted to wage such a campaign anymore.
All of the day's hopes were dying a small death in the middle of her chest.
"That wasn't a very nice thing to say," Cleo whispered.