Chapter 37
Chapter thirty-seven
Lucy shivers in my arms as I carry her through our cottage to the room we once shared.
She’s still a bit shaken up from it all, but everyone in that motel is lucky she wasn’t harmed.
I don’t know what I would have done if I hadn’t gotten to her in time.
If Lawrence would’ve harmed her, laid his hands on her, or worse.
If I lost her, I know I wouldn’t be able to continue in this world without her.
Who knows if she’ll stay after this is all said and done.
I don’t deserve anything from her. Not her trust or her love.
I certainly don’t deserve to have her in my arms, but I’ll savor this moment.
I’ll stand by her side, build her back up from the trauma she’s experienced, and bask in her radiance while I do it.
Until she’s whole again and runs for the hills, far the fuck away from me, like she should have from the moment she met me.
When I get to our bed, I hesitate momentarily, dreading how empty my arms will be without her in them.
It’s where she belongs, after all. Getting her tucked in and cozy, just like I know she likes.
I smile down at her and take her hand in mine before softly kissing her knuckles, savoring that tiny taste of her skin on my lips.
If I don’t leave now, I’ll never be able to. Neither one of us has spoken so much as a murmur the whole way here, but as I go to release her, she finally breaks the silence. “Stay,” she says, squeezing my hand as she looks up at me with pure love. Pure undeserved love.
The weight of it all brings me to my knees. I fall to the floor beside where she lies and hold on to her for dear life as tears fall from my eyes.
“Sasha?” she breathes out.
“Fuck baby, I’m so sorry.” I pull my weight off her and wipe a tear from her face.
“Don’t you cry, sweet girl. I’m here now, and I’ll never let anyone make you sad ever again, including myself.
You’ll feel nothing but happiness for the rest of your life.
I’ll make sure of it. In fact, I’ll follow you through every lifetime, warding off any danger.
Lucy, my love for you knows no bounds. Destiny won’t stand a chance against me, darling.
You’re a ray of pure sunshine, and I’ll do whatever it takes to ensure that light never goes out.
Without it, I’m nothing. Without your beacon, I’d wander aimlessly through the universe, without a hope in sight.
You’re the light that guides the shadows within my soul. ”
Lucy shifts to sit up as she pulls my face toward her, placing the softest of kisses on my lips. “Make love to me, Sasha…”
“Gladly,” I say, searching her eyes one last time before breaking down the last barrier standing between us.
She’s the only person I’ve ever slept with who wasn’t just for either a good time or a release.
If I’m being honest with myself, I started chasing that emotional high with her from the first time I had her in the woods.
There was something about it all that was just…
more. Of course we’ve had plenty of passionate sex since then, but after finally admitting my love to both her and myself, it feels different.
Starting at the top of her head, I make my way down her face, to her neck and her décolleté, stopping only to help her take off her top and bra before continuing lower. A million kisses across her perfect face and body wouldn’t be enough to worship her properly, but I have a lifetime to try.
I revel in the effect my touch has on her, the way chill bumps form across her skin, the way she shivers when I reach certain areas, the way she arches off the bed. Without saying a word, she’s telling me that she belongs to me.
Her heavy breaths and broken moans fill the room by the time I get to the waistband of her pants, challenging my resolve to take this slow. And when she breathes out, “Sasha…please. I need you,” I’m done for.
I place one last gentle kiss on her clit, finish pulling off her sweats and panties, and make very quick work of getting my clothes off as well.
Looking down briefly, I take a mental picture of my sweet girl.
She’s laid out beneath me, looking up with a love that mirrors mine for her as she waits for me to show her body the depths of that intimacy.
I crawl over her until I can gaze directly into those deep blue eyes.
“I love you so fucking much, Sunshine,” I whisper before lowering my mouth to hers, and fuck, her kiss always takes my breath away.
Lining my cock to her opening, I slide into her warm wetness until I’m met with a resistance I know all too well.
It never mattered how many times I fucked her.
She never fully adjusted to my size. I start to pull back, but she has my ass in a death grip, pushing me into her as she lifts her hips to try to force me deeper.
“Please, Sasha.”
Well, I’ve never liked to tell my girl no.
I move the hand from the base of my dick to her neck, holding her jaw in place so she can’t look anywhere but my eyes as I drive my full, thick length into her.
Fuck, I’ll never get used to the way it feels for her to stretch around me.
I’ll never get used to her scream laced with both pleasure and pain as she tries to accommodate my size.
“Fuck, baby. I missed you so much.”
She doesn’t say a word, just meets my gaze.
But the absolute adoration beaming from her hooded eyes is the only response I need.
I bring my lips back down to hers and move the hand resting on her throat to her cheek, cupping her face as I move within her, intention behind every stroke.
It’s much slower than I’ve ever fucked, but I want her to feel every inch, and I relish the way her walls squeeze me.
It’s deep, it’s raw, it’s absolute ecstasy.
The way she whimpers my name between breaths, the tone in her voice alone is enough to let me know she’s enjoying this as much as I am.
But her body tells me as well in the way it shakes beneath me.
I can tell she’s close, and I want—no, I need her to fall apart.
Pushing myself up to my knees to hit an angle I know she loves, I look down in awe at the view below me.
Fuck, she takes my breath away. Writhing beneath me, a sheen of sweat on her skin pebbled with chill bumps, her hair in disarray, her eyes barely open.
And all because of me. This is my magnum opus.
“You’re beautiful, my love.” I lean down and kiss the space between her perfect tits. “Let go for me, Lucy.”
I grab her hips with one hand to pull her to me with each thrust while using the other to circle her clit.
Her legs shake forcefully, and it’s difficult to keep a grip on her.
I’ve fucked this woman enough to know she’s about to come and come hard.
The thought of how good that’s going to feel around my cock has me too close to letting go without her.
“Come for me, baby. I need you to come for me right now.” I pinch her clit, giving her that little bit of pain she loves so much, and it does the trick.
Her walls flutter around my dick, milking my release from me as I hold her steady through hers.
I bury myself as deep as I can, my hips flush with hers as I fill her with my cum.
Her eyes are closed as her pleasure washes over her, but I keep mine locked on her as my release comes and goes.
My attention is locked on her when she finally comes too. Running a hand up her body, I cup her cheek and brush back the hair stuck to her face. “I love you, Lucy.”
She takes my hand in hers and laces our fingers together. “I love you too, Sasha.”
Those three little words are my undoing. I’ve felt her love this whole time, but to hear it out loud is enough to rearrange everything I am. I can’t help myself from falling on top of her, giving her my full weight as I take her in my arms, squeezing her tight.
“Fuck, you have no idea how good it feels to hear you say those words. Does that mean you’ll stay? Please say yes. I promise, I swear, baby, I’ll take such good care of you.”
“Can’t…breathe.”
“Oh shit, I’m sorry.” Still buried inside her, I flip so that she’s lying on top of me. “Please, please say you’ll stay.”
She places a chaste kiss on the corner of my mouth before smiling down at me. “Yes, I’ll stay. But Sasha, there is one thing…”
“What is it? Anything you want is yours. Just name it, love.”
Lucy chews on the corner of her cheek for a moment too long, while a hundred scenarios run through my head.
“I don’t mind staying in the cottage, but do you think we could maybe stop working for Blanche?
I feel like it’s going to be weird now that we are all family…
Wait, you don’t think she’ll be mad, do you? ”
Sitting up, I wrap her in my arms, chuckling. “Sunshine, we are going to find us a proper house around here and get the hell off Blanche’s property, and we damn sure are going to stop the filming. But no, I don’t think she’s going to be upset. Something tells me she’s going to be thrilled.”