CELESTE #2
My stomach tightens at the sharp focus in his expression; at the way stillness clings to him—deliberate and dangerous.
Some part of me wonders what it would be like to have that focus directed solely on me.
A pulse stirs low in my body at the thought—but it’s not from fear.
I instinctively move to put some distance between us and try to ignore the magnetic pull I always feel in his presence.
“Warnings against magick are always meant to disguise, to keep the wrong minds away. Or lure the right ones closer.” His eyes flick to me as he says that last sentence, his words cast out like a spell.
He closes the book and runs a hand over the cover, his fingers pausing over the title. Tracking the worn gold letters. Elemental Fusion: The Art and Origin of Convergence.
“It looks ancient,” he murmurs.
“It is. The author doesn’t name themselves, but the way they write—it’s personal. Like they lived it. Like they know how fusion doesn’t just change your magick. It changes you.”
His expression shifts—still unreadable, but tighter at the edges, like a flicker of recognition as he glances at me before looking back at the book. “Can I borrow it?” he asks.
I nod. “I’ve read it cover to cover three times, and while it mentions things similar to what we’ve done together…” I pause as my cheeks flush faintly, like our magick merging is intimate somehow. He notices—of course he does. “It doesn’t touch on what I’ve done, what you’ve seen me do…”
He reaches out, brushing my hand—a familiar gesture from a version of us that feels far away, but not forgotten.
But there’s nothing casual in it. It feels intentional, as though he’s reminding me of something I’m actively trying to forget.
My pulse skips traitorously, and I see a flicker in his silver eyes.
I move my hand away.
He doesn’t touch me again.
We fall into a rhythm of silence. Copying passages, cross-referencing notes, chasing threads into old volumes piled higher and higher between us. Somewhere in the middle of it all, time ceases to exist.
One of the textbooks Gavrail brought contains a passage we keep returning to—an anchor in the storm of theory:
Elemental fusion is the transcendence of boundary between the self and magick. Traditionally, it is defined as the merging of one’s affinity with an object, the environment, or another wielder. True fusion is rare. Revered. Feared. It can grant immense power—but can also bear a terrible cost.
Gavrail looks at me, eyes narrowed, before looking down again at the page.
“Objects are safe, predictable. That’s why they’re recorded.
Weapons, cloaks, staffs. But wielders”—he taps the margin, voice low—“that’s where the text shifts.
Not a study on the methods of fusion, but more like a warning.
That’s why it reads more like prophecy here.
They weren’t just writing theory. It sounds like they were afraid of it. ”
“So fusion with another wielder…” I murmur.
He finishes the thought: “Almost myth, according to this book, because of how rare successful fusions are.” He’s holding Auren Emberlain’s text in his hands. He glances at me—unflinching, holding my gaze. “This says it requires absolute trust. Emotional resonance. Total alignment.”
I’m too aware of how close we’re sitting. How his voice seems to vibrate through me, scattering my pulse with its rhythm.
He continues reading quietly with the precision of someone not just absorbing but calculating, each word like a knife whose balance he’s testing before he decides how best to use it.
“Fusion isn’t random,” he says after a moment, low, thoughtful.
“You need three things for it to hold. First—resonance. The intent has to match, heartbeat for heartbeat. Second—compatibility. Some elements may refuse to coexist; they tear each other apart instead of blending. And last—an anchor. Something to bind the fusion in form. Doesn’t matter if it’s flesh or faith, but without it, everything unravels. ”
A muscle ticks in his cheek, his eyes distant for a heartbeat. I can almost see the equations moving behind them before he shifts back to the table, the calculations and the danger stitched between every word as he continues reading aloud.
“Every fusion comes at a cost. For a moment, each participant must give part of themselves—memory, breath, power, lifeforce, or pain. Sometimes, what is given cannot be returned. And if a misalignment of two magicks occurs or if the fusion is forced instead of created from free will…”
“The result is madness, collapse, or death,” I finish reading, my stomach dropping. A threat. A warning.
He glances up at me, taking in the way my shoulders have tensed.
“Every one of these texts talks about magick compatibility being the most important part, but I think they’re wrong,” he finally says.
“The anchor is everything. Blood. Body. Emotion. Without it, the fusion unravels. With the wrong anchor, it devours.”
“So it’s a weapon. Or a curse,” I say, looking up from the text.
His eyes catch mine, steady, merciless. “Maybe,” he says quietly. “Or maybe it’s something greater than any one thing could ever be alone. Trust, resonance, anchoring… It’s why we worked.” His gaze flicks to my ring—his ring—before returning to me.
Emotions crowd my mind from the way he’s looking at me. Like he isn’t just speaking of theory—but of us. The words linger, the knowledge of what we are capable of together echoing between us. No longer innocent from the blood spilled into the pages of the books on the table.
But there’s something here. Something close. Like catching the glint of a coin beneath deep water. Elusive—but not impossible.
By the time we pack up, the sun is setting behind the mountains outside the high arched windows. But I don’t feel tired. I feel energized. Like I’ve touched the edge of something lost and long buried.
* * *
The following week, Gavrail meets me in the library again.
In the spirit of full disclosure, I tell Noa that Gavrail’s been helping with my extra credit project. He isn’t exactly thrilled—but he doesn’t stop me. Gavrail saving me in the Grotto earned him a measure of grudging respect from both Noa and my squad.
Rozsen and Elliot respond by issuing me a formal warning and several unhinged threats of bodily harm if Gavrail so much as twitches a toe out of line.
Across the aisle, they pretend to browse. Pretend is generous—Elliot is holding a book upside down, and Rozsen peers over the top of hers like a guard at a prison watchtower. She taps two fingers under her eyes before pointing them at Gavrail like tiny warning daggers.
I bite the inside of my cheek to keep from laughing at their well-intentioned stakeout.
“I think I found something,” Gavrail says, dropping a book beside mine. His tone is low but edged with something close to excitement. “In your margins—ink that isn’t the author’s. A reference to a mythological text. Tales from the Breath of Stone. Not in Whittaker’s archives. I already checked.”
I sit straighter, heart thudding.
“Where did you say you got that book again?” he asks.
“Ink & Ether. Elesmere.”
He nods slowly. “Then we need to go back. See if they have anything else like it. Or maybe they know where to find this other book.”
Anticipation flares in me, momentarily eclipsing caution. “Let’s make a plan.”