4. Danielle
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Danielle
I hear her laugh before I see her. It’s the kind of laugh that carries - bright and confident and perfectly pitched to draw attention without seeming to try.
I’m coming down the main staircase, running late for a family lunch I didn’t know was happening until twenty minutes ago, and I stop halfway down because the sound is coming from the sitting room and I don’t recognize it. Then I round the corner and see her.
She’s blonde, elegantly so, the kind of highlighted perfection that costs more than my family’s monthly grocery budget used to be.
She’s wearing a cream cashmere sweater and tailored trousers and she’s sitting on the settee that I’ve never once felt comfortable enough to use, and Matilde is beside her, actually touching her arm, actually smiling in a way I’ve never seen directed at me.
And Niccolo is standing by the fireplace, looking more relaxed than he has in weeks.
“Danielle!” Matilde spots me first, and her smile doesn’t waver, which is somehow worse than if it had. “Come meet our guest. This is Charlotte Ashworth - she and Niccolo grew up together. She’s just returned from New York.”
Charlotte rises with fluid grace and extends her hand. Her grip is cool and firm and her eyes sweep over me in a single efficient assessment that I feel down to my bones.
“So you’re Danielle,” she says, and her Italian is flawless, better than mine will ever be. “I’ve heard so much about you. Niccolo’s emails were full of you for a while there.”
For a while there. I file that away.
“It’s nice to meet you,” I say, and I’m proud of how steady my voice comes out. “I didn’t know we were expecting company.”
“Oh, it was very last minute,” Charlotte says, settling back onto the settee like she belongs there.
Because she does belong there, I realize with a sinking feeling.
She belongs in this room and this house and this world in a way I never have.
“I’ve been back in Italy for a few weeks, but I wasn’t sure if I should reach out.
Donna Matilde insisted I stop being silly and come for lunch. ”
“Charlotte’s been through such an ordeal,” Matilde says, and her voice is warm with sympathy I’ve never heard her use for anyone.
“Her parents practically forced her to New York for that job, and then things fell apart with her fiancé, and she’s been so alone over there.
We couldn’t leave her to fend for herself when she’s finally home. ”
We. As if I’m included in that decision. I look at Niccolo, hoping for some kind of signal, but he’s pouring drinks and doesn’t meet my eyes.
“Nico and I used to be inseparable,” Charlotte continues, accepting a glass of wine with a smile that shows perfect teeth. “Our families have known each other forever. Remember that summer in Sardinia, Nico? When we were, what, fifteen? You tried to teach me to sail and nearly drowned us both.”
“I remember you grabbing the wrong line and almost taking my head off with the boom,” Niccolo says, but he’s smiling. Actually smiling. “You were a terrible student.”
“I was a perfect student. You were a terrible teacher.”
They laugh together, easy and familiar, and I stand in the doorway of my own home feeling like a guest who’s arrived at the wrong party.
***
Lunch is worse. Charlotte has a story for everything.
The time Niccolo defended her from a bully at school. The summer they spent at a family villa in Umbria. The way he used to sneak her extra desserts at formal dinners because she hated the fish course.
A lifetime of shared history, rolled out like a carpet, and I have nothing to match it.
“Danielle works in food too,” Matilde says at one point, and I can’t tell if she’s trying to include me or set me up. “She was a waitress when Niccolo met her. At that little place in the city.”
“A server and sometimes line cook,” I correct, keeping my voice pleasant. “I ran the kitchen a few nights when the chef was out.”
“How charming,” Charlotte says. “I’ve always admired people who can make a living with their hands. I’m absolutely useless in the kitchen. Nico, remember when I tried to make you a birthday cake that one time? It was practically cement.”
“It was definitely cement. I think we used it to prop open the garden gate.”
More laughter. More shared history. More of Niccolo being lighter and easier than I’ve seen him in months, with a woman who isn’t me. I push food around my plate and try to remember the last time I made him laugh like that.
***
After lunch, Charlotte offers to help clear the dishes.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” Matilde says. “You’re a guest. Danielle, would you show Charlotte the garden? I wanted her to see the new roses before she goes, but you know I have that call with the foundation.”
It’s not a request. So I walk through the formal gardens with Charlotte Ashworth, pointing out plants I couldn’t name if my life depended on it, while she talks about New York and her failed engagement and how hard it’s been to be so far from everyone who matters.
“I’m sure Niccolo is glad to have you back,” I say, because I have to say something.
“I hope so.” She stops beside a fountain, trailing her fingers through the water. “It’s been strange, honestly. Being away for so long and then coming back to find everything different. Nico married, the family shifted around.” She looks at me sidelong. “You’re not what I expected.”
“What did you expect?”
“I don’t know. Someone more…” She waves a hand vaguely. “Polished? Donna Matilde sets such high standards. I assumed anyone who married Niccolo would have to meet them.”
I should let it go. I should smile and nod and refuse to engage with whatever this is. But something in me, some stubborn spark that hasn’t quite died yet, won’t let me.
“Niccolo chose me,” I say quietly. “That’s the only standard that matters.”
Charlotte’s smile doesn’t waver, but something shifts behind her eyes.
“Of course,” she says. “Of course he did.”
***
That night, I’m sitting in our bedroom when Niccolo comes in, later than he promised but earlier than usual.
“Charlotte’s nice, isn’t she?” he says, loosening his tie. “It’s good to have her back. She went through a rough time with that engagement.”
“So I heard. Multiple times.”
He pauses, catching something in my tone. “Is everything okay?”
I want to say no. I want to tell him that I spent three hours today feeling like an outsider in my own home, that his mother looked happier with Charlotte than she’s ever looked with me, that watching him laugh with another woman felt like being slowly erased.
But I’m tired. And I know how it will sound - jealous, insecure, irrational.
The commoner wife threatened by the proper friend.
“I’m fine,” I say. “Just tired.”
He sits beside me on the bed, close enough that I can smell his cologne, the expensive one I bought him for his birthday because I thought he’d like it and he wears it now but I don’t know if he actually does.
“Charlotte is just an old friend,” he says, and his voice is gentle. “We grew up together. Our families have been close for generations. But that’s all it is, Dani. All it’s ever been.”
“I know.”
“Do you?” He tips my chin up, making me look at him. “Because you seem upset, and I don’t want you to worry about something that doesn’t exist. Charlotte is like a sister to me. She always has been.”
I want to believe him. I do believe him, mostly.
Niccolo has never given me a reason to doubt his faithfulness, and I don’t think he’s lying now.
But I also saw the way Charlotte looked at him today.
The way she touched his arm when she laughed.
The way she said his name, Nico, so easily, when I’ve only ever heard his mother and his oldest friends use it.
“Okay,” I say. “I believe you.”
He kisses my forehead, soft and reassuring. “Good. Now come to bed. It’s late and I actually have a free morning tomorrow. Maybe we can have breakfast together for once.”
He falls asleep within minutes, his breathing evening out beside me, and I lie awake staring at the ceiling.
Charlotte Ashworth. Childhood friend. Practically family.
I think about the way she fit into that sitting room.
The way Matilde smiled at her. The way every door in this house seemed to open for her without effort, when I’ve spent three years knocking and getting nowhere.
She’s everything I’m not. And Niccolo wants me to believe that’s nothing to worry about.