Chapter 21 #2
“What part of that conversation made you think that?” I muttered, getting to my feet. “I need to piss.”
She sighed but excused me, and I headed up to my room to use the bathroom, a little surprised to find Lukas waiting for me in my room when I was done.
“If you take it seriously, I honestly can help you,” he stated, eyeing me. “Just stop being a clown when you get embarrassed for not being able to do something.”
“I’m too old to be that stupid.”
“You’re not stupid, dude. You’re actually really smart when someone explains things to you differently and you focus,” he insisted.
“Easier said than done. It’s not like you can read exam questions out to me.”
“Hey, you said you felt confident about how finals went, so it obviously helped when you had a study buddy.”
“You’re not as pretty as Rory, but I guess you’ll do,” I joked, dropping an arm around his shoulders. “Thanks.”
“You’re welcome,” he huffed, trying to shove my arm off, but I put him in a head lock.
“What are you doing?” Rory chuckled when she appeared in the doorway with Jensen, leaning against the frame to watch us.
“Reminding him who’s boss,” I grinned, letting him go. “Where’s D?”
“He had to head off. Skeet called,” she said with a shrug, but I could hear the hurt in her voice that Skeeter hadn’t stopped by to see her. It was honestly better if she avoided him a little longer.
Who knew how he’d react?
“So our sex party can begin?” I asked with a wink, a small smile tugging at her mouth.
“Who said anything about a sex party?”
“Uh, me. I know you got off in the past two months, but some of us missed out.”
“You probably jerked off seven times a day,” she deadpanned, and I scoffed.
“That might be true, but it’s not the same as having a body on top of you.”
She laughed, walking towards me and sliding her arms around my middle.
“We should rectify that for sure then. My poor baby.”
Lukas snorted, giving me an amused look. “You’ll survive.”
“Hey, you don’t get to weigh in on this. You got your cock sucked plenty from Jense,” I pointed out, and Rory held up her hands for time-out.
“No arguing,” she warned, but Lukas looked nervous about something as Jensen gave him an encouraging nod.
“Can we talk about something in private before bed?” he asked, making me frown.
“Is it about me?” I asked, and Jensen huffed.
“No. Luke just wants to talk about something personal.”
“Without me? Rude. I want to know secrets too,” I grumbled, not expecting Lukas to just come out with it in front of me.
“I fucked Jensen.”
“Jense is the bottom?” I said with surprise, earning a warning glare from Rory before she turned her attention to Lukas. He looked like he needed to throw up.
“That’s great, baby. Ignore Ty, he forgets to keep his thoughts in his head.”
“I’m just surprised,” I replied, and Jensen rolled his eyes.
“Keep it to yourself then.”
My hope for her pussy vanished as the guys started telling her all about it, a twinge starting in my chest. I’d been waiting for this for what felt like forever, but now I was sitting off to the side, watching the others catch up like I wasn’t even here.
I told myself I was being stupid, of course Lukas wanted to talk to her about something as serious as taking that step with Jensen, but the longer I watched, the more I convinced myself that they’d feel better if I wasn’t here.
“I’m going to go and smoke while you guys talk,” I said as I forced a grin. “I don’t need to know how good Luke is in bed.”
The guys gave me a flat look, but Rory frowned. “You sure?”
“Absolutely. If I keep hearing how good it is, I’ll want to try. That would make things weird,” I chuckled, leaning forward to kiss her cheek. “I’ll be back soon.”
She let me wander off, and the feeling in my chest only grew stronger once I was outside alone. The cigarette didn’t help either, so I lit another one as I sat on the sun tanning chair and leaned back with a sigh.
I was being stupid, but it was hard not to be. I’d known I’d have to share her tonight, but part of me wished I could have her to myself. It was so fucking selfish.
I closed my eyes and enjoyed the rest of my cigarette, not realizing how long I’d been outside until scuffling sounded close by, my eyes flicking open to find Rory standing beside me.
“You want to tell me what’s wrong now we’re alone?” she asked lightly, telling me I hadn’t hidden my feelings enough.
“I’m just smoking,” I replied with a smile, but she rolled her eyes and moved to straddle my lap, sliding her arms around my shoulders.
“I wasn’t gone so long that I stopped being able to read you. Talk to me, even if you think it’s silly. I promise, it’s not.”
“It is silly. I feel like I’m third wheeling. You guys got talking and it was like I wasn’t there. I know that’s not the case, I’ve just been looking forward to having you here again and kind of imagined it being different,” I admitted, her hand lifting to run her fingers through my hair.
I needed a haircut, it was too long to spike up now, but she seemed to like it.
“That’s not silly.”
“I can’t keep you to myself tonight like I want to.”
“You have me to yourself right now. I told the guys to give us thirty minutes alone,” she murmured, leaning forward to nuzzle into my neck as I flicked the cigarette aside to hold her properly. “I really missed this.”
“I missed it too, baby,” I mumbled, holding her a little tighter as we got comfortable.
All the tension melted away as we just sat there, and a shudder rolled through me as her lips pressed against my throat, leaving scattered kisses there.
We couldn’t fuck out here, Josie was home, but just having Rory touching me was enough. I might have visited her a lot in the couple of months she was gone, but it wasn’t the same as holding her like this.
My hand slipped up the back of her shirt, and when she looked up at me, I dropped my mouth to hers for a kiss, taking advantage of the fact no guard was here to yell at us.
I kissed her harder, pouring all my feelings into it as she ground on my lap, my cock hardening under her hopefully.
That had to wait. Right now, I just wanted to kiss and hold her without restrictions.
“I love you,” she whispered against my lips, the last piece of doubt vanishing. How did she always know what I needed even when I didn’t?
“I love you too,” I replied, burying my face in her neck and just breathing her in now I was focused again. “Let’s go inside. It’s too damn cold out here and you don’t have a jacket on.”
She stood and waited for me to do the same before taking my hand and tugging me towards the house. The guys were now spread out on the bed in her room instead of mine, not seeming fazed that I’d stolen her for myself for a while.
I curled up on the bed with Rory while they started talking about random things, and this time, I just laid there and enjoyed holding her some more.
Rory
It had felt strange to eat dinner at the table with everyone again. I kept realizing I was tense, waiting for someone to walk over and start a fight with me, then I’d remember I was at home and didn’t have to worry about that.
How did people live in prison for years then get used to society again? I’d only been in for a couple of months and it was still an adjustment now I was out.
Caden didn’t come home, and I had a feeling that was a good thing. If he had and pretended I didn’t exist, there was a possibility I’d cry. My emotions had been through it today, so a good night’s sleep in my own bed to get my head on straight before dealing with him was a better idea.
It was almost eleven, and I was exhausted.
I was usually asleep by now, and the change in routine was going to take a good week to get used to.
The second hot shower hadn’t really helped either like I’d hoped.
I kept looking over my shoulder for trouble despite knowing Tyler was hovering outside the door, trying to give me space.
He was on one side of me now we were in bed, his arm and leg draped over me to get as close as possible, and Jensen was on my other with Lukas curled up against him.
We’d watched a movie but I hadn’t really done much watching, being more than happy to soak in the feeling of being in bed with my guys again.
Lexi had been a welcomed distraction and comfort, but it was never like this. She could never replace what I had with them.
Tyler’s fingers tweaked my nipple gently, making me squirm with a groan.
“Leave her alone, dude,” Jensen grumbled, but I really didn’t want that. I wanted them all inside me so I felt whole again.
Well, as best as I could without Caden and Skeeter. I wouldn’t feel whole again until we’d handled our shit.
“Don’t listen to him,” I joked, tilting my head to give Tyler a quick kiss.
“Babe, you’re basically asleep,” Jensen huffed, but Tyler wasn’t going to let him talk me out of it as he almost climbed on top of me to kiss me, and I smiled against his mouth with amusement.
When I slid a hand into his hair and pulled slightly, he let out a groan and tugged my panties down, flinging them across the room. I parted my legs on either side of him to give him better access, and he instantly started kissing down my body as his fingers teased my clit.
My body melted into the mattress as his mouth replaced his fingers, his fingers moving lower to push inside my pussy.
The moan that left me was desperate, like I hadn’t been touched in years, and it was slightly embarrassing how fast he was managing to build me up as my legs shook.
Jensen’s mouth was suddenly on mine, telling me I was probably being too loud, and I bucked as Tyler kept me pinned to the bed as he sucked on my clit, his fingers moving in and out of me.
My orgasm hit hard a second later, and I was really surprised when I squirted, Tyler apparently loving it as he tongued my clit more to prolong it as I begged him to stop.
The bed was definitely ruined.
He crawled up my body and I cringed at seeing his wet chin and neck.