Chapter 10 #3
“Baby, I was trying to make sure you didn’t forget it. I wanted to have memories of my shawty too, so shit, I did that shit for us not just you. Thank you would sound way better than you still cutting my head off.”
“Next time just don’t touch it. I was in here going crazy and crying about not being a good mother when the whole time, the daddy wanted to take shit without letting me know.”
“Naomi London Smith, I let you slide with a lot of shit because I love you and ya pussy good but I’ain gon’ keep letting you pop off on me when I ain’t do shit.
Now I know you are upset for no reason, but I’ll never shout at you, and you need to not do that same shit to me.
Pregnant or not, I’ll fold ya lil’ mean ass up and fuck the shit out of you until you lose that funky ass attitude.
Put these damn slides on before me and the baby leave yo’ ass here and go to the doctor ourselves. ”
Confused, I stopped frowning just to look at him.
“How you gon’ do that if the baby is inside of me?”
“Fuck around and find out.”
Bending down, he placed the slides in front of me then walked off. I should’ve been relieved that the CD wasn’t lost, but now my feelings were hurt for real and I’ain like him walking out on me like that.
Heading down the stairs, I grabbed my purse off the table then walked out the door with Sin right behind me. I stopped and stood at his truck door, waiting for him to open it up for me.
“Really, Jamison?”
“Treat me how you want to be treated,” was his reply after sliding in the driver seat without opening the door for me.
“Petty ass,” I mumbled after slamming the truck door.
“Let’s get this understood now. You may be stressed but I’m stressed, too.
All of this is new to me, but I don’t have time to enjoy the moment because I’m too busy making sure you are keeping a leveled head because of what you’ve gone through already.
Do I want to celebrate that I’m about to bring a healthy baby into this world?
Hell yes! Do I? Hell no. Why? Because I’m worried that if I get too excited, you may say something negative to fuck up my joy.
Like you did when I went to buy baby things.
You could have handled that shit differently without making me feel like I was fucked-up for being a daddy and excited about our baby. ”
“You lost a baby, and I’m not taking anything like that lightly, but I won’t live in darkness and have my baby coming out all mean, stressed out with wrinkles on his forehead ‘cause he’s endured his mother's sadness for nine months. Normally what you eat doesn’t make the next person sick but it does for my baby.
If you are stressed, so is the baby. If you are happy, then he will be happy, too.
Allow us this time to be happy and stop thinking about what we can’t control.
Whatever happens, happens but regardless, I ain’t going nowhere. ”
Tweaking my chin, I smiled before apologizing. “I don’t want you to have to pay for what happened in my last relationship. I’ll do better and from this moment on, I will do anything to make sure we are all happy. If I start having a moment, I’ll let you know so I can go get a breather.”
“We are in this together. Remember that.” Smiling, he kissed my cheek then my lips before pulling out of the driveway.
SIN
“If we weren’t in this doctor's office, I would be trying to get my nut back from you leaving me hanging the other night. Yo’ ass looking good in that backless dress. I bet chu’ won’t turn it around to the front. Let that pretty pussy show instead.”
“Sin, have you noticed that since I’ve been pregnant, all you want to do is have sex?”
“And all you wanna do is eat and sleep, so we’re even. You get what you want, and so do I.”
“Acting like a little horny-ass teen.”
“But you wasn’t saying that the other night all you said was... ‘Hmm suck harder.’”
“Siiin.” Naomi burst out laughing ‘cause she knew I was telling the truth.
“How's everything been going?” Dr. Coco came into the room and immediately started putting gloves on and lubing up this long ass tool that looked like a makeshift dick to me, putting a stop to our conversation.
The nurse had already come in to get Naomi’s vitals and had her change into that uglass gown.
“She’s good but I’m not. What chu’ ‘bout to do with that?”
“Mr. Smith, this is so we can give her a vaginal ultrasound,” Dr. Coco explained but that wasn’t enough for me.
“And it’s going in her puss—”
“Sin!”
“Vagina?” I corrected myself because Naomi was about to lose her shit.
“Yes, it’s so we can get better pictures of the baby. You can see with the one that I do on top of her stomach, but this is better, and no it doesn’t hurt.”
“I know because that ain’t shit compared to—”
“Again, SIN! You’re about to go sit in the car. Sit back, shut up, and don’t move!”
Dr. Coco chuckled then asked Naomi to put her feet in some little foot holders attached to the bed. Sitting up, I leaned in closer to see what she was doing. My baby was taking that stick like a pro.
Standing to my feet, I eased around the back of Dr. Coco to get a better look.
Not on some sexual shit but I really wanted to see how this shit worked.
When my baby appeared on the screen, I forgot all about what Dr. Coco was doing.
My heart skipped beats trying to match the rhythm of what was being heard from my baby.
“Sin, the CD,” Naomi blurted out.
“Shit, hold up, Dr. Coco. You gon’ have to do all of this over again.” I dug into Naomi’s purse and pulled out the CD then gave it to the nurse. Once it was in and recording, the doctor continued.
“Everything looks good. Your right at twelve weeks and four days. The heart is sounding good and strong. Have you been taking your vitamins and still being active?”
“Yep, I go for a walk daily. I see people still working out while pregnant, so I started doing that last week.”
My neck snapped to Naomi so fast. “Bruh, why is you lying to this lady? Doc, she’on do shit. Her best friend gave her a bell that she rings when she wants something. Any little thing. If I could piss for her, she would be ringing the bell for that too just so she won’t have to move out of the bed.”
Naomi covered her face up, but I didn’t care.
“You want to talk about it?”
“Like I told the doctor at the ER, I’ve had sudden miscarriages before, and no one ever told me the cause of them.
As far as I know, I was doing too much and overworked myself to the point where I lost my child.
.. twice. I’ll do anything not to let that happen again.
I don’t know if my body can’t hold kids or what, but I don’t want to take that chance again. ”
“I pulled all of your records, and nothing alarmed me as to why you would have lost those babies. Sometimes things just happen. Yea, we don’t want to go through a miscarriage, but we have to look at this from different angles.
Your body is not one of the issues. Maybe you were under stress then, that’s always a trigger. ”
“I don’t think I was stressed.”
“But you don’t know for sure?” I butted in.
“No, Baby, I don’t.”
“The first thing we are doing when we leave here, is getting you unstressed now. Whatever we gotta do to get you back to your happy place and to a point where you are enjoying this pregnancy as if nothing bad ever happened before. I’m not trying to make you forget about what happened, I just want you to focus on the now and right now, our baby is growing and healthy.
We don’t need to put no worries in your head to make you think otherwise. You got that?”
Tears rolled down Naomi’s face, and she did nothing to stop them from falling.
“He’s right. You are stressing yourself out. Give this baby a fighting chance. With no stress,” Doc added.
“Okay,” Naomi said, and I really hoped she meant that. With her only being a little over three months, we had a long ways to go, and we would not be worried about her losing our baby for the remainder of her pregnancy.
“I’ll see you again in four weeks. If you need me before then, just call me whenever. If you start getting any type of off feelings, then just call and we can get you in here as soon as possible. We’ll get this baby here safe and sound. You just do you part and remain stress free. Ok, Ms. London?”
“Thank you, Dr. Coco. I’ll do better.”
The doctor got up, took those gloves off, then washed her hands.
“Ay, before you go, tell her to throw that damn bell away, too.”
Doc and Naomi laughed but I was dead ass serious. I ain’t no butler. I helped my baby get dressed before we grabbed her things and headed out. She seemed to be in a better mood, and I really hoped things stayed that way.
“You hungry?”
“Absolutely.”
“We can grab something and go back home so you can get in the bed.”
“I would like to go out and sit somewhere. I need the fresh air.”
She passed that test, and I was happy. I just knew she was about to say take her to a drive-thru then back home.
“Thank you for not giving up on me. I can be a handful, and I just want to say that I’ll do better and that I love you, Jamison.”
“It’s my job to always stick beside you. No matter how many times you ring that damn bell, I’ll always come running. And just know, I love you more and that will neva’ change.