Chapter 53
Maddie
“Are you really going to pout the entire time we’re here?” I asked as soon as Sophie ended her call with Trooper.
“I’m not pouting. I’d just rather him be here with me,” she whined.
I rolled my eyes. The combination of Sophie being in love with Trooper and pregnant made me want to choke her on the low. I loved my girl, but lord she was a pain right now.
“You are pouting, but I understand. I was the same way when I first fell for Sinclair. I’m still that way now,” Alana announced as she walked out of the back door carrying drinks for the three of us.
She placed the tray on the table between the lounge chairs Sophie and I were stretched out on before she lifted one of the glasses and sipped the bright pink frosted liquid that filled it.
She then sat down on the foot of Sophie’s chair and smiled at her.
“That’s hard to believe, seeing as how you were able to walk away and let him go to prison for your husband.”
“You don’t have to understand it, Sophie, and I will never expect you to. But your approval doesn’t matter to me. As long as Sinclair and I are alright, that’s all I need.”
“Well, he shouldn’t, but that’s his business.
To be honest, it’s not even really about that.
What bugs me the most is that you knew how hard it was for you, but when it came to me being in the same situation, your answer was choose Lincoln.
It was almost as if you wanted me to repeat the same mistakes you made.
That’s the part I don’t understand,” Sophie said before she pulled her shades down on her face again.
“You’re right and I was completely out of line for that.
I can’t even explain why, other than it seemed like the easy out, but you didn’t listen and followed your heart.
I’m glad you did because Trooper loves you and he’s much better than Lincoln would have ever been.
I’m not perfect. I get that. But you don’t understand that life, Sophie.
Regardless of what you think, I chose you, and you can act spoiled and ungrateful all you want, but had I chosen Sinclair, I might not be here and neither would you.
You don’t know William and his family. You don’t know what they’re capable of.
I didn’t even fully know back then, but I did what I needed to do, and I make no excuses for that.
After he killed my father, Sinclair made it clear I needed to do whatever necessary to keep you safe, even if that meant marrying William.
He loved you that much and so did I. So you don’t have to understand it and I don’t care if you do.
I still love you. You’re my daughter and nothing will change that. ”
With a defeated look on her face, Alana got up and was about to walk away, but Sophie stopped her.
“I’m sorry. The past is the past and it’s not my place to judge. True, I don’t totally understand it, but I know you love me.”
Alana smiled at her daughter before she leaned down and kissed her on the forehead. “I’m going to make us dinner,” she said as she left us there alone.
“You need to forgive her, Sophie. Telling her you’re sorry and in the next breath treating her like she’s invisible is not right. She loves you, and it may not be perfect, but she’s trying to make it right,” I said, looking right at Sophie.
“I know and I do forgive her. It’s just weird, you know? So many things about my life were affected by the choices she made, and whether it was because she loved me or not, it really changed the dynamics of who I am. I’m not really mad about it, I’m just getting used to it, but you’re right.”
“Of course, I am,” I announced with a smug grin.
“I’m not even going to address that.” Sophie’s eyes rolled before she lifted her very virgin drink.
I lifted mine, which had the double alcohol like I’d requested. If I had to be in Jamaica without my man, I would be making the most of it and getting drunk was part of that process.
After dinner, Alana settled into her room and Sophie and I went back out to the beach to enjoy the evening breeze. The air was warm and humid, but the breeze coming off the ocean felt good. It was simply beautiful, which now had me in my feelings about being away from Carlos.
It was like missing him willed him to call because seconds later my phone had his name on the screen.
“You naked?”
I blushed as his sexy voice flowed effortlessly through the phone.
“Yes, actually I am,” I lied.
“Word, then we can get this poppin’ right now. Spread them legs for me, Madeline.” I heard the amusement in his voice and it had my kitty purring already.
“I can’t do that. I’m on the beach with Sophie.”
Sophie lifted her head and looked at me with a huge grin, which I assumed was because she realized who I was talking to.
“Fuck you mean you’re on the beach? Didn’t you just say that you were naked?”
I smirked at his reaction. Carlos had been there a few days ago, so he knew Trooper’s property was exclusive and no one had access but us. That was one of the main reasons we were tucked away there.
“I was kidding, but what would it matter? There’s no one here but us.”
“Oh, it matters. You not gonna have my pussy on display for the world to see, Madeline.”
“Well, the world isn’t here. Just Sophie and it’s not on display.”
“Better not be or I’ll have to handle that when you get back.” His tone lightened a little and I shook my head.
“I miss you.”
“You miss me or—”
“Stop. I miss you, well both of you,” I said, cutting him off.
He chuckled. “I miss your aggravating ass too. My place is quiet as fuck and I haven’t even been sleeping in my bed.”
“Why not?”
“’Cause it feels weird as fuck now that you’re not there snoring. Plus, I’ve been getting in late, so I just been crashing on the sofa.”
I frowned at his words just a little. “I don’t snore and why are you out so late?”
“’Cause I been kicking it with my other women. You know I can’t do that shit when you’re here, so I figured I’d get it all in now since you trying to lock a muthafucker down on some relationship type shit.”
“See, that right there will certainly put my pussy on display down here for anybody I deem worthy to take a peek. In fact, they might get more than a peek since apparently sharing is caring.”
“Yo, for you to even say somthing like that means you want me to fly over there and get in your ass. I wish you would do some fuck shit like that.”
I laughed at how angry he’d gotten just that quickly. “If you can play, so can I.”
“Hell no, and you know I was just fucking with you. I been on my grind. I don’t have time to be laying up in anybody’s pussy right now. Not even yours, but for you, I make time.”
“And it better stay that way, whether I’m there or not.”
“Stop tripping, Maddie. I don’t like that insecure shit and you know it.”
“I’m not being insecure. I’m just stating facts,” I said confidently and he laughed.
“Aight, bet, well I’m about to go hop in the shower real quick. I’ll hit you back in like an hour. Be naked for real.”
Again, I blushed and my clit throbbed. I crossed my legs at the ankles, trying to control it.
“I’ll think about it.”
“Yeah, aight.”
“Bye, crazy.”
“Be naked, Madeline,” Los said again just before he ended the call.
I sat there quietly for a minute until Sophie spoke up.
“Now, who’s pouting?” she said with a smug grin.
“I’m not pouting. Just thinking.”
Sophie’s expression transitioned from amusement to concern.
“About what? You guys are okay, right?”
“Yes, we’re great, actually, but I wonder sometimes if that will change. Things are so good right now.”
“It won’t change. He’s really into you and you’re really into him. How could it change?”
“A lot of what we have is centered around sex. It’s really good sex, but what if that’s all we have? What if you take that away and there’s nothing there?”
“Maddie, it’s not just sex. He cares about you.
It was his idea for you to be here because he wanted you safe.
The man is gorgeous and can have sex with any woman he wants, but you two are together all the time.
You hang out and do things. Hell, he gave you an apartment just to keep you away from your stupid ass ex-husband. That’s definitely not just sex.”
“Yeah, you’re right. It’s just after dealing with Richard, I’m afraid to be in that type of situation again. I have my moments,” I said with a grin.
“Oh, trust me, I have my moments too. How could I not? And Carlos is not Richard. Not even in the least. So stop worrying and just enjoy the ride.”
“Oh, I enjoy the ride,” I said with a devious smirk.
“You’re so nasty.” Sophie laughed and shook her head.
“Act like you’re not right there with me. That baby you’re carrying is proof of how much you enjoyed the ride.”
“I won’t dispute that, but now is definitely not the time to be discussing it.”
I laughed to agree. I knew exactly what that meant. Why torture ourselves with discussion about something we couldn’t have at the moment? Right now, I would relax and enjoy time with my girl. I’d save the rest for my FaceTime later with Carlos.