CHAPTER 5 Game Day With A Twist. #3
I rolled my eyes and looked up at Sasha, who was watching us.
She twisted the bracelet on her wrist nervously, and my breath caught as I recognized it as the one I’d purchased for her on our first anniversary.
She looked like she wanted to say more, but I knew she knew by the look on my face that I didn’t want to hear it.
“Thanks,” I replied, turning my attention back to Sera, who’d managed to make a mess just that fast. I quickly pulled out some wipes and helped her clean up. “Princess, look at the mess you made, baby girl. It must be good, huh?”
“It’s good, Mommy!” She holds the spoon with the melted ice cream out to me. “Want some?”
“No, I’m okay. Mommy’s waiting for her yummy burger.”
“Okay, Mommy.” She nods, focusing on the sweet treat before her.
“She has your smile.”
I glance at Sasha once more and see that she has inched a bit closer. My frustration grew because why couldn’t she take the hint? Why was she so desperate to hold a conversation with me when she’d gone so many years without saying a damn thing to me? It was aggravating, and my blood was boiling.
“Baby, sit right here and eat your ice cream while I talk to my friend over here, okay?” I say to Sera, and she nods.
I got up, grabbed Sasha’s arm, and pulled her a few feet away.
“What do you want, Sasha? Why the hell are you bothering me? Why can’t you take the hint that I want nothing to do with you? ”
“I just…I just want to know more about her. She technically is my daughter too, you know?”
“No, she’s not,” I reply as calmly as I can. “I carried her for nine months, not you! I raised her these last few years with no help from you.”
“That’s not fair, Zee-”
“Not fair?” I scoffed, looking at her as if she’d lost her mind. “No, what’s not fair is you playing me for years, leading me on and making me think we had a future together, but the whole time, you were promising the same thing to another woman in the next state over.”
“Wait, hold on, what are you talking about? Can you please just let me explain?”
“What’s there to explain?” I yell. “Sasha, you broke my heart. You caused me so much pain and made me a single mother. Why the fuck should I care about what excuses you have as to why? At the end of the day, you made your bed, and now you need to woman up and lie in it.”
“Zee, listen please,” she says softly, taking my hand in hers.
I froze, my heart beating wildly against my chest. I hated that even after all of these years, she still had even the slightest effect on me.
It was frustrating. “I’m sorry. I truly never meant to hurt you.
I really wanted to start a family with you, but the longer we went, the guiltier I felt that I wasn’t truthful from the start.
” I didn’t say anything as she continued.
“Yes, I was in sort of a situationship with my best friend, and I slipped up once, but I promise that’s all it was.
I was not cheating on you throughout our relationship.
I only slept with her that one time when we had that big fight a month after you had Sera, and it ate me up. ”
“Yeah, right,” I replied, annoyed.
“I’m serious, Zseyah,” she stated. “I knew it was fucked up, and I regretted it. I thought that I could forget all about it, but I couldn’t. Especially not with her threatening to expose our affair if I didn’t break up with you.”
My head was spinning at all this new information, and I knew that a headache would soon follow.
I kept letting her tell me all about how she broke up with me because she felt she wasn’t deserving of someone as amazing as me.
She apologized for leaving me to raise Sera on my own and even admitted that she hadn’t been happy since.
When I asked her about her friend, she said that she’d cut her off not long after we broke up because she realized just how toxic their whole situation was, because they kept falling into the same cycle of sleeping with each other and arguing.
“And I’m glad that you’ve come to some conclusion of how to live your life healthily, but that doesn’t change anything between us,” I finally replied after she’d finished spilling her guts.
“You and I will never be friends or anything more ever again. Please just pretend you don’t know me, okay? It’s better that way.”
“What about our daughter?” she asks, catching me off guard.
“My daughter is well taken care of and has two parents who love and care for her. She has me and her godmother, Jakayla,” I state. “As far as I’m concerned, you’ve never been her mother, so you have no say in anything regarding her. Have a nice life, Sasha.”
I don’t wait for her to reply before walking back over to Sera, who was staring between Sasha and me nervously.
I reached out to her, and she allowed me to pick her up.
We left Sasha standing right there as we walked back to where Sera and I had been sitting in the stadium.
I was upset that I didn’t get a chance to grab my burger, but whatever. My appetite was gone now anyway…