Chapter 53
Chapter Fifty-Three
KAYLEE
Ispend the entire day in Grandma's hospital room, talking about everything and nothing. Mom gives me the morning with Grandma. She joins me in the afternoon. We share stories and they team up to give me life advice.
Grandma stays quiet about things with Brendon. But I know Mom is going to find out. And that's going to be the end of me living at his place.
Not that I could live there with things as they are.
I... I'll just have to work more. Take out another student loan. Commute a little farther. Do whatever it takes to make it work.
We don't leave until the nurse insists.
It's so quiet at home. It's strange. Usually the house is full of Grandma's laugh. Or some loud, exciting show she's watching. This whole place is her. The walls are bright jewel tones. The blankets on the black leather couch are hot pink.
She's always so bright and vibrant.
It's scary that soon she won't be alive.
But I'm starting to accept it.
I'm halfway through my morning tea—shitty generic tea—when the doorbell rings.
Mom is making eggs in the kitchen.
Dad is asleep in the bedroom.
It's early. Seven-something. Who the hell could that be?
"Can you get that, Kay?" Mom's voice is even. Knowing.
Huh.
I take one more sip and push myself to my feet.
This is a small place. It's only a dozen footsteps to the door. "Hello."
"Hey."
That's Brendon's voice.
What the hell?
My stomach gets all light and floating. Nervous energy spills through my limbs. He's here. Why is he here? What does that mean?
I need his comfort so badly.
But I...
If he's not here to kiss and make up...
I can't take falling more in love with him.
I pull the door open. "Hey."
He's standing there in jeans and a t-shirt. Like it's a normal day. Like we're about to walk to the shop.
But then...
His shirt is wrinkled. His hair is a mess. His eyes are heavy. Tired.
"We just got in." He nods to the black suitcase next to him. Then to the car parked on the street. A rental car. Emma is in the passenger seat, staring at the mirror. "Emma insisted on fixing her makeup. I told her I wouldn't wait."
I nod. That's so them.
"Your mom told me what's going on. I'm sorry, Kay. I wish things were different."
"Me too."
His eyes meet mine. They promise that everything will be different. But he doesn't say anything.
I try to find the words, but I can't. Mom is moving toward us.
She stops at the door. Smiles at Brendon. "Mr. Kane. You didn't have to come."
His eyes meet mine. He raises a brow. She doesn't know?
I shake my head. She doesn't. Not yet. But I'm going to tell her. I'm going to stop taking on the whole world by myself.
"I get a little protective of Emma," he says.
Mom nods. "I can imagine. She's a spitfire."
"You have no idea," he says.
Mom laughs. It's the first time she's laughed since I've been here. "Well, come in. We've already got a pot of coffee on." She looks out to the car. Waves. "Hey, Emma. Come in whenever you're ready."
Emma steps out of the passenger seat. Taps the key fob. The car beeps locked. Her eyes meet mine. She mouths I'm sorry. I think. She's far away.
"We'll put out the air mattress for you. And there's the couch. It's very comfortable." Mom leads Brendon into the kitchen.
"We have a hotel," he says.
"Nonsense. You've been so hospitable this year. Kaylee sent me pictures of her room. It's beautiful. And I remember your house. This is the least we could do."
His eyes meet mine. He raises a brow, offering me a chance to object.
I want him here. Fuck, I want him here so badly it hurts. But I want him here as mine. If he's not...
I don't know.
God, the sight of his dark eyes and his soft lips is enough to comfort me. To remind me that there are beautiful things in the world. That one day it's going to be okay.
"You should stay here," I say. "We have good coffee. Dad's obsessed."
He nods. "I'm sold."
Emma rushes in through the door. She presses it closed behind her, rests her suitcase against it.
She goes straight to me and throws her arms around me. "I'm so fucking sorry, Kay."
"Me too."
"I love you."
"I love you too."
She leans in to whisper. "And I'm sorry my brother is an idiot. He... I think he's going to come around. But I get it if you don't forgive him."
I don't know what I forgive. I'm not ready to ask myself that yet. I release Emma. "You want coffee?"
"Of course." She smiles. "You look good."
"You too."
She smacks her lips. "It's not too much?"
"That's in your vocabulary?" I tease.
Mom laughs. "Your hair is darling, Emma. I wish I could pull that off."
"You could, Mrs. Hart. Though I think purple would suit your complexion better. There's this great new brand with smokey colors. The purple would look fierce on you," Emma says.
Mom laughs. "I'll think about that."
Brendon's eyes meet mine. I'm not sure exactly what he's saying, only that I want to hear every drop of it.