7. Stella and the Party #3
But what would my stepbrother do now? Probably laugh at the cesspool I’ve just gotten myself into.
I close my eyes, press my knees together, and don’t make a sound.
The Minneapolis holding cells are exactly what you’d expect: too cold, too bright, and so clean you can taste the bleach on every breath.
Stella and I are placed in side-by-side cages, about six feet apart, each cell barely big enough for a cot, a metal bench bolted to the concrete, and a single exposed toilet that might have been manufactured in the depths of hell.
The lights overhead are fluorescent, flickering just often enough to make you doubt your own vision.
There’s no clock in sight, but the way time moves here, it could be midnight or three in the morning or even the next afternoon.
There’s no one else but us in this bank of cells, thank god. No one to witness our downfall.
Stella paces her cell like a caged tiger, heels clacking on the concrete, the blue dress now a shredded mess that shows more than it covers.
Her face is streaked with mascara, the cut on her cheek gone brown at the edges, her left eye puffy.
She doesn’t seem to care. She’s got a monologue going, and it’s aimed at anyone who might be listening—me, the cop at the desk, the universe.
“It’s a public health thing,” she’s saying, hands carving wild shapes in the air.
“Like, if you know your boyfriend is fucking other people, you tell them, right? But no—Tammy has to act like I’m the only reason she got chlamydia, which is a total lie, because first of all, she was with three guys at Homecoming, and also, you can get it from gym mats. Look it up, it’s a fact.”
The cop at the desk says nothing. He studiously ignores us, playing something on his phone. The only sound is the click of Stella’s long nails against the bars and her heels on the floor.
I sit on the metal bench, knees together, staring at the concrete. My pink bandage dress is a disaster—ripped up the thigh, makeup smudged along the collar, and the heel of my left shoe snapped clean off in the car. There’s a spot of blood drying on my calf from where I grazed it on the broom.
I should cry, or shout, or maybe just call a lawyer, but I can’t do any of it.
My mind is a static hum, empty except for one endless calculation: How long until my mother finds out?
How long until my stepbrother is asked to intervene?
After all, he runs a legal AI firm, and was once an attorney himself.
Trevor’s going to be pulled into this, for sure.
Stella slaps the bars and keeps ranting.
“And another thing—if Boyd really did give her an STI, then why is she coming at me? He’s the asshole.
I literally haven’t touched him for months, and even then, it was only once and it didn’t even count, because we were both really drunk and he couldn’t get it up.
Not that anyone cares, because the only narrative that matters is the one where Stella is a total slut. Un-fucking-believable.”
Her voice bounces off the cinder block walls, echoes, comes back twice as loud. Still, the police officer on duty ignores us, his fingers tapping away at the phone screen without a care in the world.
I pull my knees up to my chest, hug them. The bench is so cold it burns my skin. I stare at the drain in the middle of the floor, a rusty circle ringed with old stains. There’s a spiderweb of hair caught there, and a single eyelash that might be mine.
I don’t know what I’m waiting for. Maybe the phone call. Maybe the processing paperwork. Maybe just the sound of a key in the lock, some grownup voice telling me that the fun part is over, that it’s time to go home and face the music.
But the only sound is the hum of the lights, and Stella’s endless voice, and the buzz of my own humiliation in my ears.
I think about Trevor. About what he’d say if he saw me now: dress torn, hair raggedy, mascara smeared down to my jaw.
Would he laugh? Would he care? Would he even notice, or would I just be another dumb story he tells at the next wedding, some joke about “when my stepsister accidentally fucked a girl with a broom handle?”
I don’t know. I don’t know anything.
The tears pool up in the corners of my eyes. My back hurts. My knees hurt. I close my eyes and try to sleep, but I can’t—not with the lights, not with Stella still pacing, still talking, still unwilling to let the world forget her for even a second.
And I realize, suddenly, that I’m jealous. Of her noise. Of her nerve. Of her absolute refusal to disappear, even when the whole world is stacked against her.
I make a promise, quiet and private: next time, I won’t just stand on the edge. Next time, I’ll be the one with sass and verve. Or at least, I’ll be the one with the louder story.
But for now, I’m defeated. I say nothing.
I curl up on the bench, pink dress twisted under me, hands locked and cold.
And I stare at the drain in the floor, praying for Trevor to save me.