Chapter 30
CHAPTER THIRTY
The Laguna Art Center had good light.
Bea had said this fourteen times during setup, which Stella knew because she’d been counting.
Good light was Bea’s highest compliment and her deepest concern and she’d been checking it since they arrived at four o’clock — walking between the walls where her work hung, tilting her head, stepping back, stepping forward, checking the angle at which the afternoon sun came through the skylights and fell across the paintings she’d spent six months making.
“The light is good,” Bea said again, adjusting a frame a quarter inch.
“You’ve mentioned that.”
“It’s important.”
“Fourteen times important?”
Bea gave her a look. Stella raised her camera and took the shot — Bea mid-glare, hands on the frame, the painting behind her catching the skylight. She’d keep that one.
The show opened at six. By six-fifteen the room had people in it — Mr. Reeves from school by the door greeting everyone like it was his living room, a few of Bea’s classmates clustered near the refreshments, strangers who’d come because they’d seen the flyer and wanted to look at art on a Friday evening.
And the family.
Tyler and Lindsey came first. Tyler had his good jacket on, which meant Lindsey had told him to wear it.
He stood in front of Bea’s largest painting — the one with the light through the Shack windows — and didn’t say anything for a long time.
Then he turned to Bea and said “kiddo” and his ears went pink and Lindsey squeezed his arm.
Anna and Michael came next. Anna walked the whole room twice before she spoke to anyone, stopping at each painting, her hand going to her mouth at the third one — the canyon light piece Bea had done from memory after Sedona.
Michael stood beside her and said nothing, which was Michael’s way of saying everything.
Anna hugged Bea and held on and said something into her hair that Stella couldn’t hear from across the room but could read from Anna’s shoulders, which were shaking.
Meg and Luke arrived with a bottle of Martinelli’s they weren’t allowed to open in the gallery.
Meg carried it anyway. “For after,” she said, setting it on the refreshment table next to the sparkling water.
Luke looked at the paintings the way Luke looked at the ocean — with patience and attention and the understanding that he was in the presence of something larger than himself.
Joey came in a blazer. Stella had never seen Joey in a blazer. He walked the room systematically, stopping at each painting for exactly the same amount of time, and then found Stella at the corner.
“The spacing is excellent,” he said. “Whoever hung these understood intervals.”
“Bea hung them herself.”
“Figures.” He adjusted his blazer. “I brought a card. Do you think a card is appropriate?”
“A card is perfect, Joey.”
“It’s laminated.”
“Of course it is.”
Then Margo and Bernie came through the door.
Together. Not holding hands — not yet, not in public, not in front of the family.
But close. His arm near hers. Her pace matched to his, which she’d been doing for months but which she was doing differently now — not because of his knee, but because she wanted to be beside him.
They walked in and the room shifted — something new, without announcement.
Anna looked at them and turned to Michael. Michael nodded once.
Margo went straight to the paintings. She walked the room the way Anna had — slowly, stopping at each one. But Margo looked at them differently. Anna had looked as a mother. Margo looked as a painter.
She stopped at the canyon light piece. The one Bea had done from memory. Carmen Sandoval’s influence was in it — the glazes, the layering, the linen showing through — but it was Bea’s. The light was Bea’s. The way the paint almost wasn’t there was Bea’s.
Margo stood in front of it for a long time.
Bea came and stood beside her. Stella raised her camera.
“The light in this one,” Margo said, not turning from the painting. “You did exactly what I would have tried, and you did it better.”
Bea’s hand went to her mouth. She pressed her fingers against her lips and didn’t say anything, and Margo put her arm around Bea’s shoulder and they stood in front of the painting together — the great-grandmother who had given up painting to run a restaurant and the great-granddaughter who was just beginning.
Stella took the photograph. Click.
By seven-thirty the room was full and warm and loud with the sound of people looking at art and talking about it.
Bea moved through the crowd answering questions, explaining her process, pointing out the glazes she’d learned from Carmen.
She was good at this — better than Stella had expected.
She talked about light the way Sam talked about rocks, the way Carmen talked about linen, the way Anna talked about food.
Like it mattered more than anything and she couldn’t believe everyone else wasn’t paying closer attention.
There were three rows of folding chairs set up in the center of the gallery for Mr. Reeves’s presentation portion of the evening. Stella had noticed one of them at setup — front row, center, with a small card on the seat that said RESERVED. She hadn’t asked who it was for. She hadn’t needed to.
The chair was empty.
It had been empty at six-fifteen. It was empty at seven. It was empty at seven-thirty.
At quarter to eight Mr. Reeves asked everyone to take their seats.
The family filed into the front two rows—Tyler and Lindsey, Anna and Michael, Meg and Luke, Margo and Bernie.
Joey sat at the end and straightened the chair next to him.
The empty seat was in the middle of all of them, front row center, the small card still on it.
Stella watched Bea not look at it. That was the tell—not the looking, but the not-looking. The discipline of keeping her eyes on the people who were there instead of the space where someone wasn’t.
Anna saw the chair too. Stella caught the moment—Anna’s eyes going to it, then away, then back. Tyler was beside her. His hand came to her arm.
“Not tonight,” Anna said quietly.
Tyler’s hand stayed where it was. Anna turned back to the room and smiled at someone who was complimenting the canyon piece and her smile was real and her hand was shaking and Tyler’s hand stayed on her arm.
The show ended at nine. The crowd thinned. Mr. Reeves shook Bea’s hand and said something about a summer exhibition. The classmates left. The strangers left.
The family stayed.
They stood in the room with Bea’s paintings around them. Tyler and Lindsey. Anna and Michael. Meg and Luke with the Martinelli’s they could finally open. Joey with his laminated card. Margo and Bernie, standing close, his hand near hers.
Bea stood in the middle of them. She looked around the room at the paintings and the people and the light that was still good even at nine o’clock, and her eyes went to the empty chair one time.
One time.
Then she looked back at the people who were standing in the room and she said, “Can we open that bottle now?”
Meg opened it. The cork hit the ceiling. Joey flinched. Luke caught the overflow in a paper cup. They drank sparkling cider from paper cups in a gallery surrounded by paintings of light, and the empty chair sat in the front row and nobody mentioned it and nobody needed to.
Stella took one last photograph. Not of the paintings. Not of the cider. Not of the empty chair.
She took a photograph of Bea’s face—turned toward her family, lit by the overhead lights and the last of the evening coming through the skylights, laughing at something Joey had said about the cork trajectory, surrounded by every person who had ever shown up for her.
Everyone who mattered was in the frame.