Chapter 32
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
Michael was already there when they got to the coffee place on Forest, at a table in the back with his files out and squared to the table edge, a pen in his shirt pocket and a pen behind his ear, a third one—Stella noticed, and understood that this was a serious occasion—lying across the top of the stack like a paperweight.
He had a black coffee he wasn’t drinking.
He half-stood when they came in, which nobody their age ever did for them, and it made Stella feel like she should have worn something with a collar.
Joey came in behind her in a hat pulled low and a pair of sunglasses, indoors, on an overcast afternoon.
Stella stopped just inside the door. “What are you doing?”
“Being discreet.” He kept his voice down and his chin tucked. “This is a sensitive meeting. If people see us together with a man in a tie going over papers, they’ll talk. We can’t have them talk.”
“You look like you’re about to rob the place.”
“I look like a person who values his privacy.”
“You look like the one single human being in this coffee shop that everyone is going to remember.” She steered him toward the table. “Nobody was going to notice two kids getting coffee. They’re going to notice a teenager wearing sunglasses inside.”
“People know my face, Stella.” He said it quietly. “I was coffee drinker number two in the Pageant last summer, remember?. I stood on that stage for the whole tableau. Somebody’s mother remembers me.”
“Nobody remembers coffee drinker number two, Joey.”
“Somebody’s mother does.”
“Hi,” Michael said, looking up from his files—at Joey particularly.
“A person in sunglasses indoors is recalled by strangers at roughly three times the rate of a person not in sunglasses indoors. If you want to not be remembered, the correct move is to look like everyone else. The glasses are working against your objective.”
Joey took the glasses off.
He did not take off the hat.
“You’re four minutes early,” Michael said, which from anyone else would have been a complaint and from Michael was a compliment. “That’s good. Sit.”
They sat. Joey put a white bakery box on the table and slid it across.
“That’s for you,” Joey said. “Almond cake. Dairy-free, real dairy-free, not the kind that tastes like a sponge. I tested it three times.” He paused. “It’s not payment. You can’t pay for advice with a cake, that’s not a real transaction. It’s just—it’s a thank-you. Separate.”
Michael looked at the box. For a moment his face stayed exactly as flat as it always was, the professional nothing Stella had watched him wear through many family dinners, and then something moved at the corner of his eyes, small, and he drew the box a half inch closer with two fingers.
“You read the labels,” Michael said.
“I read all of them. Xanthan gum’s in the baking powder, which people miss. I used a single-ingredient one.”
“People do miss that.” Michael set his hand flat on the box, once, like closing a folder. “Thank you. This is—” He stopped. “Thank you. Now. Show me what you have.”
What they had, it turned out, was not much, and Michael went through all of it anyway, line by line, giving their sad little pile of numbers the same grave attention he’d give a real company’s books.
He didn’t talk down to them. She hadn’t expected that.
He laid it out full-strength, the whole unsimplified shape of it, permits and par levels and the difference between what something costs and what something costs to keep, and when Joey followed him he sped up, and when Stella got lost he stopped and backed up without making her feel it, and the two pens came out and made small precise marks on their pages, and slowly the thing in Stella’s chest that had been braced for “no” started to unbrace.
“The wages are real,” Michael said, tapping Stella’s figure.
“You’ve been paid honestly for a year and you haven’t spent it.
That’s not nothing, that’s a foundation.
Most people your age start from below zero.
” He moved down the page. “The baking makes money. I’ve seen the Shack’s numbers, I know what your cards and your loaves bring in, and it’s not a hobby’s worth, it’s a small business’s worth, sitting inside another business where it doesn’t have room.
That part is sound. You’re not dreaming. ”
“But,” Stella said, because there was a but coming, she could feel it in the way he’d squared his page.
“But.” Michael pulled a clean sheet from the stack and set his pen down in the exact center of it, and looked at them.
“If people come inside. Into the new space. To stand at a counter and order and wait—then it’s not the Shack’s kitchen anymore, it’s a separate establishment, and a separate establishment is its own occupancy, its own health inspection, its own restroom requirements, its own change-of-use on the permit.
Possibly its own second exit, depending on the square footage, which I’d have to check.
” He let that sit. “That’s not small. It looks small.
Then it’s lawyers and inspectors and a year of your life and money you don’t have, and it’s the reason places like this die before they open.
Nobody watches for it. Everybody’s thinking about the ovens.
” His voice didn’t rise. It got quieter, which she was learning was the tell.
“You have to watch for the thing nobody’s watching for. That’s the whole job.”
Stella felt the no come back into the room, the same floor-tilt she’d felt over the quince, and she looked at Joey, and Joey was not looking scared.
Joey was looking at the middle distance. The systems were running. He reached up and pulled the hat lower on his forehead, which he did now and then, for reasons of his own.
“We don’t let them in,” Joey said.
Michael turned his head a fraction.
“The window.” Joey was talking faster now.
“Bernie already gave us the rest of it—the door through, staff-only, their walk-in, people on the Shack’s patio on the Shack’s license.
That part’s done. The piece nobody thought of is how we serve the customers without letting them inside.
Bernie’s old pass-window, the one at the front where he handed out the papers.
It’s already there. We serve out of the window.
Nobody comes inside the bakery—it’s a kitchen, that’s all it is, a production kitchen with a service window, and the customers stand on the sidewalk like they did for Bernie’s papers and we hand it out to them.
” He finally looked at Michael. “There’s no new occupancy because there’s no new place to occupy. It’s a window.”
Michael was quiet for a long moment. He picked his pen up off the clean sheet.
He wrote one line on it, and looked at it, and Stella watched the thing happen that the family talked about and she’d never quite seen—the mask didn’t crack, exactly, it just warmed, some interior light coming up behind the flat professional front, the eyes softening a half degree.
“That works,” Michael said. “That closes it. The window closes the whole thing.” He set the pen down.
“That’s the answer. I’ve watched people spend a year and their savings failing to find that answer, and you found it at a coffee table in ninety seconds because you knew your own building.
” He looked at Joey a beat longer than his usual beat. “You’d have been good at my job.”
Joey grinned. “But there’s the money issue still.” He said it carefully. “The buildout. The oven. The window doesn’t fix that, we still have to pay for all of it, and Stella’s savings don’t cover the oven. I ran it. They don’t.”
“No,” Michael said. “They don’t. Where does the rest come from.”
“There’s my scholarship,” Joey said.
Michael waited. He was good at waiting.
“I’ve hated the program since October,” Joey said.
“The marine systems thing. I didn’t say it out loud until now—told Stella, at midnight, over a batch of rugelach, because it came out before I could stop it.
” He turned his coffee cup a quarter turn.
“I thought that was the whole problem. Hating something I couldn’t get out of. ”
“And then?”
“And then Margo found out. And she told me the fund was never the school’s—it was mine.
Always was. She said it was meant to help me make a life, not hold me inside one I didn’t want.
” Joey took in a deep breath. “So it wasn’t really about the money at all.
It was about me. She wasn’t offering me money for a bakery.
She was just telling me the thing I already had was never actually locked to the thing I hated. ”
“And now?” Stella asked, quiet.
“Now I think I was becoming the wrong something.” Joey said it plainly, the systems all quiet for once.
He looked at the table. “The gift wasn’t the marine program.
” A pause. “The gift was somebody believing I could make a life. That’s what it was for.
” He looked up. “So I’m using it to make the life I actually want.
I don’t think that’s stealing anymore. I’m going to redirect it. Into the new idea. That’s my stake.”
Michael was quiet for a moment. Then he wrote something on his clean sheet, one line, and Stella couldn’t see it, and she never did find out what it said.
“That’s the correct decision,” Michael said.
“Not because of the money. The money works either way, more or less. It’s correct because you said why, and the why is sound.
” He capped the pen. “People fail when they can’t say why.
You can say why. Write it down somewhere, the why, and read it on the bad days.
There will be bad days. That’s not pessimism, it’s numbers. ”
He squared the files back into their stack, set the two pens down parallel, and slid the almond cake the last inch toward himself like it was his now, officially.
“Bring me real numbers when you have them,” Michael said, “and I’ll build you a plan you can hand to the family that they can’t argue with.
Not a kid’s plan. A real one.” He almost smiled.
It didn’t quite arrive, but it got close enough that Stella saw where it would have been.
“I believe in it. And in the two of you running it.”
Out on Forest Street the afternoon was bright and ordinary, and Stella realized halfway to the car that the thing in her chest had stopped bracing for no, because the man whose whole job was finding the reason something wouldn’t work had looked as hard as he could look, and hadn’t found one.
“He liked the cake,” Joey said, like it was the important part, and to Joey it was.