CHAPTER 13
Papers
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Neither of them moved for a long moment, the porch quiet except for the cicadas and the specific, charged silence of a confession that had changed the shape of the room without either of them touching anything at all.
Emery watched him process it, watched something complicated move behind his eyes — hope, maybe, or the particular fear of hope that had been disappointed before — and felt her own pulse climbing in the silence, the admission she'd just made hanging in the air between them with nowhere left to go but forward or into careful retreat.
"I never filed either," Rhys said finally.
Emery turned to look at him fully, something in her chest going very still. "What?"
"The divorce. I never filed." He said it plainly, though she could see what it cost him, some old defensive posture cracking open in real time.
"I told myself I was giving you space. Not pushing.
But if I'm being honest — the way we're apparently doing tonight — I think I just couldn't make myself do it.
Every time I sat down with the paperwork, I'd get through maybe the first page before I had to stop. "
"Rhys." Her voice had gone unsteady. "We've been separated for eleven months and neither of us has filed anything."
"I know."
"That's — " She didn't have a word for what that was.
Cowardice, maybe, on both their parts. Or something else, something that felt less like avoidance and more like two people who'd never actually agreed the marriage was over, just agreed to stop living inside it while they figured out what came next.
He reached into his jacket, hanging over the back of the porch chair, and pulled out a small, worn velvet box that she recognized instantly, her whole body going cold and hot at once at the sight of it.
"I want to show you something," he said. "And I need you to know, before I do, that I'm not doing this to pressure you into anything. I just think, if we're finally being honest, you should see this too."
He opened the box. Both rings sat inside — hers, the simple gold band she'd left on the kitchen counter eleven months ago, and his, the wider matching one he'd worn every day of their marriage until the day she left. Both together. Both, she understood, looking at them, kept.
"You kept them," she said, barely above a whisper.
"I couldn't do anything else with them. I tried, once — I got as far as a pawn shop counter with yours in my hand, told myself getting rid of it would help me move on, and I stood there for twenty minutes and then walked out with it still in my pocket.
" He closed the box gently, not putting it away, just holding it now between them like something too fragile to set down carelessly.
"I've carried both of them since the night you left.
I don't fully know why. I told myself for a long time it was guilt.
Lately I think it might have been hope, dressed up as guilt so I didn't have to admit I was hoping for something I didn't think I deserved. "
Emery stared at the small box in his hand, the weight of eleven months of careful distance suddenly feeling very thin, very easily breached, and found herself without any of the composed, careful words she'd practiced for exactly this kind of moment.
She thought about all the version of herself she'd built over the past year — the woman who ran her own shop, made her own decisions, didn't need a ring or a marriage or a man on a motorcycle to feel whole.
She still believed in that woman. She just wasn't sure anymore that believing in her meant this particular box had to stay closed forever.
"I don't know what to do with that," she said honestly.
"You don't have to do anything with it tonight.
" He set the box down on the small table between their chairs, not pushing it toward her, just letting it sit there, present and undeniable.
"I just didn't want to keep it hidden from you the way I've kept other things hidden.
Whatever we are to each other — friends, business partners, something we haven't figured out a name for yet — I wanted you to know the truth of where I've actually been this whole time.
Not moving on. Not really. Just... waiting, without letting myself call it that. "
They sat with the rings between them for a long while, the night deepening around the porch, and Emery found herself circling the same question she'd been circling for weeks now without ever quite landing on an answer — what she actually wanted, underneath the caution and the fear and the very real, unresolved danger currently circling both their lives.
Her phone buzzed against the porch table, breaking the moment before she had to find words for any of it, and she glanced at the screen with the specific, immediate dread that had become her new relationship with any unexpected notification.
"It's Priya," she said, relief evident in her own voice. "Just asking about tomorrow's schedule." She typed a quick reply, then noticed Rhys's own phone lighting up beside his knee, his expression shifting the moment he read it.
The shift was small but unmistakable — the same tightening around his eyes she'd learned to read over the past three weeks, the specific stillness that meant club business had just walked back into a room that had, for the last hour, belonged only to the two of them.
"What is it?"
"Ghost." He read it twice, his jaw tightening.
"Salazar's courier came by the clubhouse an hour ago.
Left word that they're done waiting on the renegotiation.
They want terms finalized by end of week, or — " He stopped, choosing his next words with visible care.
"Or they escalate. Their word, not mine. "
"Escalate how?"
"They didn't specify. That's usually deliberate, in my experience — leaving it vague so everybody's imagination does the intimidating for them.
" He set the phone down, rubbing a hand over his face, some of the porch's earlier softness draining visibly out of his posture.
"Ghost says the courier specifically mentioned The Wrenhouse by name.
Not just the debt in general. Our property, specifically. "
"I don't know yet. That's what tomorrow's about.
" He set his phone down, some of the softness from twenty minutes ago hardening back into the controlled alertness she'd seen in the street outside her shop.
"Preacher's calling a full meeting tomorrow afternoon.
Whole club, not just leadership. He wants everyone hearing the same information at the same time, no rumors filling gaps. "
"Okay. What time?"
"Two." He hesitated, something conflicted crossing his face. "Em, I don't think you should come to this one."
"Why not? I came to the last conversation with Preacher. I sat at that booth."
"That was different. That was Preacher wanting to look you in the eye, one conversation, controlled.
This is the whole club, full temperature, people saying things they might not say carefully with an audience that includes someone who owns half of what Salazar's actually pushing on.
" His voice had gone tight, protective in a way she recognized immediately, the old shape of it rising even through everything he'd learned these past weeks.
"I don't want you walking into a room like that without me able to control what gets said around you. "
"Rhys." She said his name carefully, watching him hear the warning in it. "Listen to what you just said."
He stopped. She watched him actually hear it, watched the old instinct catch itself mid-motion the way it had at the cookout, at her apartment, at half a dozen moments over the past three weeks where he'd started down the familiar path of deciding for her and caught himself before he finished the sentence.
"I want to protect you from a room that might get ugly," he said slowly, working through it out loud. "That's not the same as deciding you don't get to be in it."
"No. It's not." She held his gaze steady.
"The Wrenhouse has my name on it too, Rhys.
Whatever Salazar is pushing on, it's pushing on something that's half mine.
I have as much right to hear what's actually being decided as anyone else at that table, and if the room gets ugly, I'd rather hear it firsthand than have you filter it for me afterward and decide which parts I can handle. "
He was quiet for a long moment, and she watched something resolve behind his eyes — not agreement exactly, not yet, but the visible effort of a man choosing to sit with a want he didn't like instead of acting on it immediately.
"I still don't love it," he said finally. "But you're right. It's not my call to make alone. I'll tell Preacher you're coming."
"Thank you."
"I'm not going to pretend I won't be watching that room like a hawk the whole time," he added, a ghost of dry humor returning to his voice despite everything.
"Old habits don't disappear just because I've decided to be better about the deciding-for-you part.
I get to still worry. I just don't get to act on the worry without asking you first anymore. "
"I can live with worried." She allowed herself a small smile at that, some of the night's heaviness lifting by a fraction. "Worried and asking is a whole different animal than worried and deciding. I'll take worried."
They sat a while longer, the small velvet box still resting on the table between them, both of them quiet with the weight of everything the night had already held — the confession about the divorce papers, the rings, the deadline now hanging over tomorrow afternoon like a blade neither of them could see the exact angle of yet.
"I should let you sleep," Rhys said eventually, standing, gathering the empty wine glasses. "Big day tomorrow. Guest room's made up — towels are in the closet by the bathroom, same as always."
"Same as always." She said it with a small, unexpected smile, the phrase landing strange and tender after everything else the night had held. "Some things don't change, I guess."
"Some things I didn't want to change." He paused at the porch door, the velvet box still in his hand, and something passed between them that neither of them named — not quite an ending to the night, not quite a beginning to anything else, just a held moment of two people standing very close to a door neither of them had decided yet whether to open. "Goodnight, Em."
"Goodnight, Rhys."
She watched him go inside, watched the kitchen light click off a few minutes later, and sat alone on the porch for a while longer with the cicadas and the warm June night and the specific, unsettled feeling of a woman who had just told the truth about something she'd been hiding even from herself, and didn't yet know what that truth was going to cost her, or give her, once the sun came up.