32. The Wait
The Wait
Ididn't leave.
The hallway was cold and dark and silent except for the sound of Nathan's breathing—ragged, wet, each inhale a struggle against the blood filling his lung.
I could hear it from where I sat, my back against the wall, my knees drawn up to my chest, my ruined dress stiff with the blood of two brothers.
The ceramic knife was still in my hand, resting loosely in my palm, but I didn't need it anymore.
The wound I'd given him was doing its work. Slow. Inevitable. Final.
I sat on the cold linoleum and I watched him die.
"Please." His voice was barely a whisper now, thin and reedy, nothing like the confident commander who'd led me through dozens of missions. "Please, Bunny. You can't just—you can't just let me bleed out like this—"
"I can." My voice was calm, almost gentle. "I am."
"You're a monster." The words came out broken, desperate. "Gabriel made you into a monster."
"Gabriel made me into a survivor." I tilted my head back against the wall, feeling the cold seep through my hair. "You made me into a weapon. Neither of you made me into a monster. I did that myself."
He tried to drag himself toward me, his fingers scrabbling against the linoleum, leaving streaks of blood on the floor.
He made it about six inches before his strength gave out, and he collapsed with a groan of pain and frustration.
The wound in his side was still bleeding—a slow, steady seep that had soaked through his shirt and was spreading in a dark pool beneath him.
"I loved you," he said. "I know you don't believe me. I know you can't believe me. But I did. I do. Even now."
"I know." I rested my chin on my knees. "That's what makes it tragic.
You loved me in the only way you knew how—by owning me.
By controlling me. By making sure I could never leave you, never survive without you, never be anything other than yours.
" I closed my eyes. "That's not love. That's captivity dressed in wedding vows. And I'm done being captive."
"You could have been happy." His voice cracked. "We could have been happy. The house, the garden, the children—it could have been real."
"It was never real." I opened my eyes and looked at him.
"It was a script you wrote, and I was the actor you cast in the role.
You never wanted me. You wanted what I could do for you.
The missions. The kills. The way I looked at you like you were my savior.
" I smiled, and the expression felt foreign on my face. "I was a very good actor, wasn't I?"
"You're evil." The word came out venomous, desperate. "You're evil, and you're going to burn for this."
"Probably." I shrugged. "But I'll burn free."
He kept talking after that—begging, threatening, bargaining, sobbing.
I listened to all of it with the same detached calm, watching his face as the emotions cycled through.
Denial. Anger. Terror. Acceptance. The stages of grief, compressed into hours, playing out on the face of a man who'd never learned to grieve anything he'd lost. A man who had never truly lost.
I started humming the lullaby.
It rose from my throat without conscious thought.
The melody filled the empty hallway, soft and broken, winding through the silence like a ghost. Nathan's eyes went wide when he recognized it.
He knew what it meant. He knew it was the soundtrack to my survival, the anthem of my conditioning, the song that had played while Gabriel broke me down and rebuilt me into something neither of them could control.
"Stop," he whispered. "Please stop."
I didn't stop. I kept humming, my voice steady and clear, my eyes fixed on his face.
The lullaby was mine now—not Gabriel's trigger, not Nathan's weapon, not the symbol of everything that had been done to me.
It was just music. Just memory. Just the sound of a woman bearing witness to the extinction of her primary predator.
The hours passed like that—Nathan's breathing growing shallower, his pleas growing weaker, my humming filling the space between us.
The moon tracked across the shattered windows, painting silver patterns on the floor.
The blood spread beneath him, a dark tide that crept across the linoleum inch by inch.
I watched it all with the same detached calm, cataloguing every detail, memorizing every moment.
This was justice. Not the clean justice of courts and juries, but the messy justice of the hunted turning on the hunter.
Nathan had spent his life taking from others—their freedom, their autonomy, their lives.
Now he was learning what it felt like to have everything taken from him.
His network. His fortune. His brother. His life.
All of it, stripped away by the woman he'd tried to own.
"Please." His voice was barely audible now, a thread of sound in the darkness. "Please, I don't want to die alone."
"You're not alone." I kept humming, my voice soft and steady. "I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere."
"Will you—will you hold my hand?"
I considered the request. Nathan Cross, the man who'd spent years building an empire on the bones of broken women, was asking me to hold his hand while he died. The irony was exquisite. The cruelty was profound.
"No." I said it gently, almost kindly. "I won't give you that comfort. You didn't give it to Monika. You didn't give it to any of the girls you sold. You don't get to ask for it now."
His face crumpled. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything."
"I know." I resumed humming, the lullaby winding through the darkness. "I know you are."
The first light of dawn was creeping through the shattered windows when Nathan Cross finally died.
I watched the life leave his eyes—watched the green dim to grey, watched the tension drain from his body, watched his chest rise and fall one final time before going still.
The blood had stopped spreading. The pleas had stopped coming.
The only sound in the hallway was my humming and the distant call of a bird greeting the morning.
I sat there for a long moment, my back against the wall, my knees drawn up to my chest, my eyes fixed on his body.
Nathan Cross. My savior. My captor. The man who'd taught me to trust again so he could betray me more completely.
He was gone now. They were both gone. Gabriel and Nathan, the two brothers who'd tried to own me, dead in the same building where they'd tried to break me.
I stopped humming. The silence was absolute.
"It's over," I whispered to no one. "It's finally over."
Then I stood up, my muscles stiff from hours on the cold floor, my dress stiff with dried blood, my heart a cold, steady drum in my chest. The sun was rising over the Institute, painting the ruined walls in shades of gold and pink.
A new day. A new beginning. A new kind of existence, one that belonged to no one but myself.