Lost Unknown
Violet POV
I stared at Ian's mother and my sister. Waiting for one of them to say it's a prank. There isn't anyway. I couldn't have been pregnant.
I mean I could have if I wasn't a werewolf but I am a wolf and it's just not possible. There is no way a wolf can have a baby with a man or women that's not their mate, it's just never been heard of.
I jumped out of the hospital bed pulling everything out and standing up. I felt and looked fine. Not one scratch or bruise but inside I had a dull pain. When it's in my mind or real I did not know.
I walked straight out of the room. I couldn't speak to anyone. I didn't believe them. It's not possible.
I walked down the corridor until I pass a room filled with the voices and cried of people I know and I couldn't ignore the cries of the ones I loved.
I entered the room surprising everyone and walked straight to the crying couple.
Brie and Dylan.
I didn't even ask, I just hugged them...then I asked.
"Are you two alright?"
Brie let go of Dylan and started to hug me.
"I lost him, I lost my baby."
And I think that's when it hit me.
It a big mix of mad supernatural. Was it even possible. Could two wolves who were not mates make baby's.
Alpha mates take Eight days to fall pregnant.
Xander and I made Love eight days or so ago.
It all some how works.
Slowly I felt my own cheeks get wet as my eyes start to bleed out tears , matching Brie.
My breathe started to get short and I realized I could have killed my own child.
Those lacerations.
I pulled away from Brie and looked at Xander.
"I am so so so sorry." I fell into him and cried so much.
This could have ment so much to him. He could have had an heir. But I don't know wether it will or can be done again.
Xanders hand reached up and stroked my hair as I cried. I didn't care everyone was staring at us . I did not care Ian was here . Right now this was all about Xander and I.
I pulled away.
Then grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the room. Down the stairs and out to the field behind the house that was fairly empty.
"Xander.."
I honestly did not know nay to say because I honestly didn't know myself .
I took in a deep breathe.
"I didn't wait for them to explain. I just couldn't...there was just no way. The reason. It's messed up. I didn't feel different. You should have heard something."
Xander stopped me mid rant by placing his hands on my shoulders and pulling me towards him. He wrapped his arms around me in a hug...too shut me up.
Then he broke away leaned down and kissed me. The kiss was a salty mess.
"Are you okay?" His voice was gentle and even when I nodded yes he eyes still gazed my body making sure ow as fine.
"You went wolf...now you all healed. Are you.." he stops and takes a breathe, " is everything like how it was with you before?."
I know what he was asking. He wasn't asking whether I'm a wolf normally again. He was asking whether I felt a bond with Ian.
"Hope is back. She heals me. But I can't speak to her yet, which I feel is the reason I didn't know sooner." I felt a warm tear fall down my cheek.
"Xander I am so sorry."
If only I knew. I could have saved Xander the pain. He would have been able to keep his pack....
"Don't apologize Partner," he whispered slowly nuzzling his nose to the crook of my neck.
"There's Nothing we could have done.
Brie lost her child by looking after others and I accepted it.
I accepted that I would allow someone else to run the pack.
But it would be fine cause we can be normal couple after that . ..right.?"
He asked a bit unsure.
I wiped my eyes. I had to tell him. But how do I tell him something I do not know much about myself.
"Alpha Xander," the doctor came out and greeted Xander," miss Mickelson, you shouldn't be out of bed. You lost a lot of blood today, and the tablets you are taking won't make you feel good."
"Tablets?" Xander questioned looking at me then at the doctor.
"What tablets?" I also asked .
"My apologies, you left before we could explain everything. You both may come with me to my office."
Xander was beyond confused , I did not know exactly what was going on but all I know is. I was apparently pregnant but now I am not.
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Xander and I entered doctors office. He took his place on one side of the deck and us on the other. Perfect distance to keep from an angry alpha.
"Before I say anything I would just like to explain that this is not a usual occurrence, I have not heard about it before but miracles are possible."
"Get to it doctor," Xander growled.
"It seems like the lacerations had cut deep into Violets abdomen, rupturing what we call the uterus, for wolves who are pregnant the uterus is more closer to the surface.
When the wolf scratched her, he did something we call pierces.
It when wolves elongate their claws further.
So the rouges claws scratched her uterus.
Causing there to be a bleed.
Unfortunately the fetus was way way to young, just evolved into a fetus actually and it couldn't not survive the bleed.
" The doctor took a deep breath. " I'm sorry to inform you that you did have a miscarriage. "
The breathe got stuck in my throat. I could breathe couldn't move. I couldn't not even look over at Xander.
"I'll give you a minute." The doctor said. He got up to leave but took one more look at his desk before taking a photo frame and leaving.
When the door clicked shut I let out a shaky breathe. Willing myself to look over at Xander.
Xander stood up quickly, he placed both his hands on the doctors desk before swinging it up and making it crash hard against the wall sending shards of wood and lives of metal everywhere.
His breathing increased like he was trying to control him wolf. His eyes flashed from green to red. To black.
He was angry he was hurt he was sad.
Imaging thinking you were never going to have something then actually having it only for it to get ripped away before you even touched it.
Xander picked up the chair he was sitting on and through it out of the window. The glass shattering at impact.
And that's when I saw it. A small white Polaroid type image.
A sonogram image of what looked like a blob. But my name printed neatly underneath told me that that was my blob.
"Xander." I whispered catching the attention of the hurting alpha.
I raise my hand and passed the photo to him.
He stared at my hand with the photo then his eyes may mine. They were full of tears .
He gently took the image from my hand and brought it up to his face. He held it so delicately like it was a real baby.
"That was mine."
He fell to his knees holding the image close to his heart. And cried. He cried like no man should. He cried for his life. He cried for his sister. He cried for his nephew and he cried for his child.
I walk over to him. And when I was in close enough range he pulled me so his face rested on my stomach and he cried.
And I cried.
We cried for what we never knew we had, but now know we have lost.