Chapter 52 #2
His smile is small, almost broken, as he reaches out.
His hand slides behind my neck and pulls me toward him, and I don’t fight it.
I came in here wanting his hands on me, wanting mine on him…
but none of that erases the fury in my chest. It doesn’t take away the fear that carved itself into me when he stopped fighting.
He presses his forehead to mine. “I couldn’t watch her die.”
“And you think I wanted to watch you die? How fucking selfish of you.”
He shuts his eyes, forehead still resting on mine. “I know…”
My hand snaps up to his throat and shove him back against the shower wall hard enough that water splashes around us. He doesn’t fight, but the shock on his face tells me he didn’t expect it.
“You are an idiot,” I growl, pinning him there, “and if you ever do that shit again, I’ll never forgive you.”
A chuckle slips out of him—quiet, breathless—but enough to make his chest shake.
“It’s not funny! Bloody Beyond—”
“I love you.”
Heat bursts under my skin, rushing up my neck, flushing my cheeks. “Then for you to tell me that… Obviously you were the one hit in the head, not Amarah.”
I start to step back, but he’s fast. His arm hooks around my shoulders and drags me flush against him. I’ve let his throat go, but the effect lingers—his cock presses against my hip, thick and eager, dangerously close to mine, which ache at just the thought of them brushing.
“Dominance suits you,” he murmurs against my ear, “but not with me.”
My nostrils flare. “That wasn’t dominance, Kayn, it was a warning. Remember… I’m fully capable of bringing you down to your knees if I wanted to. I allow you to dominate me.”
His brows pop up in surprise. “You want me down on my knees for you, little deviant?”
That heat completely floods my face. “That isn’t what I was referring to.”
“You sure? Your cocks are telling me otherwise.” He puts his hand up through my hair, gripping and leaning in to me. “I’m sorry. It was stupid, but you need to know that I cannot live without that girl. I’ve come to love her too.”
My heart skips.
It’s not as though it isn’t obvious he loves her—Kayn isn’t subtle, not about anything—but hearing him confess it now feels…
Wrong? Right? Both?
For once, I can’t decipher the feeling tightening in my chest. It coils, unfamiliar and sharp, like I’ve swallowed something too big and it can’t determine if it wants to come back up or keep venturing to my stomach.
But one truth stands clear: If there is any man capable of loving two people with absolute, brutal devotion, it’s Kayn Butcher.
It isn’t jealousy that he loves Amarah. I don’t begrudge the bond they have. What I feel is closer to envy. Envy that he’s had time with her, the kind of time I forfeited by leaving.
Maybe it’s anger, too. Because before I ever had a chance to love her properly, I nearly got her killed.
And that sits inside me like a blade, twisting.
“And I do stupid shit apparently when it comes to those I’ve fallen for. That’s pretty obvious considering I went to the Beyond for the man I love.”
Even after the many years we were together, he’d never said it to me, nor I him. Mine was clearly because I feared what we had wouldn’t last, and claiming it was love felt like a curse.
“I’ll try to be less stupid. Forgive me, little deviant.” It isn’t a question, but a command to do so.
“You know I’m incapable of staying mad at you.” I grab onto his hair. “Asshole.”
His mouth crashes into mine, and soon my back’s against the cool tile. I don’t fight his tongue as it dominates mine, and I suck in the lust that immediately drowns over me.
He places a hand beside my head, while the other finds my cocks that are agonizingly hard. My body reacts, heat rolling through every part of me as he groans.
“Fuuuck, you’re so ready for me, aren’t you?”
I bite hard on my bottom lip, feeling all four fangs piercing into my skin. He strokes so slowly, I throw my head back in both frustration and need. His large hand holds them both together, moving from the heads down to the hilt.
“Fuck, please…”
“Please, what?” He squeezes them and I throw my hips forward for more friction.
“Fuck me—” I grip tighter on his hair. “I’ve missed you inside me, Kayn.”
Bloody Beyond, the way his inked chest flexes has my balls aching to be freed from the tension building in them.
He gives me another slow stroke before grinning.
That glorious smile that showcases his fangs.
My body bends for him. He’s mine and Amarah’s, and he isn’t allowed to be reckless with what doesn’t belong to him.
“Tell me…” he croons while leaning into me, grabbing and biting on my bottom lip. He sucks it into his mouth, taking the blood with him. “Does my good boy want me to suck his cock first?”
Fuck, I know I just came a little from the flashes of that possibility.
My hesitation has him growling. “Speak, little deviant.”
“Yes,” I pant out. Beyond, I’m in pain at how turned on I am. Especially as that smile of his turns devious.
“Good. Very fucking good.” It’s like his words are filled with the desire his body is secreting, and my Vigoro is soaking in it like a summer’s day. “You’ll watch as I taste what’s mine before I fuck that tight hole that’s been absent of me for four hundred years.”
Then he’s on his knees.
On his knees for me.
“You’ve already made a mess.”
I look down at him, and at any position he is a glorious mortal man, but like this, I still feel his power over me. Even as he opens his mouth and wraps his lips around my bottom cock.
“Oohh, fuck!” My groan isn’t subtle, and I quickly have to remember that we are in someone else’s house. Albeit one of them is a Succubus and probably doesn’t care, but regardless.
The feeling of his hot mouth wrapped around my cock has my legs physically tensing. His tongue runs along the base, and I grab onto his hair as a moan falls from my open mouth. The tip hits the back of his throat, and he bobs back, before consuming me once more.
He has my other cock in his hand, stroking in the same damn motion his mouth is going and on instinct I buck forward. That was a mistake and he shoves my hip back against the tile.
My cock drops from his mouth and he tsks. “I’m fucking you, little deviant, do it again and I won’t let you come. Do you understand?”
“Y-Yes… please…”
He grins. “You whimpering for me may have me back on my knees again. My fucking good boy likes my lips around his cock, doesn’t he?”
“I do. Fuck. Please, Kayn, please.”
And he does. Oh, fucking Beyond, he does. I have to remember he told me to watch him because I nearly throw my head back with the intensity of his mouth. He sucks and fucks my cocks like he’s been doing it for years—hundreds, thousands of them—and my Vigoro is in bliss.
His hand moves to my balls and I once again grab onto his thick hair.
“That’s it.” My words come with my heavy breathing, because I’m falling. My own gates are pulling open as though welcoming him in, and the moment my body hits that high and I press through the threshold, I’m grunting through my sudden climax.
“Oh fuck, Kayn—fuck!” I’d not given him a warning and I come in waves. I swear I’m pulsing in his mouth, and down his hand, for several seconds—dozens of them, before I finally stop.
I’m attempting to catch my breath when my cocks are released, and he steps up to stand over me. I’ve slightly slumped against the wall as he comes to tower over me.